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I think they don't mean anything other than a vivid imagination we have in our childhood. I too used to be a totally different person when I was young. now everything has changed !

simply by providing value. wanna make money without stealing? then provide value of any kind to other people. even the drug lords make money buy the same principle. providing drugs (their form of value) to the addicts. often(excluding several cases),money is directly proportional to the value that u provide! cheers!

@Gregory1 how did those ETs /aliens look like? like Area 51 ?

@Karmadhi inherited evolutionary relics plays women's psyche to choose healthier stronger men who will take care of her. women as emotional beings, might settle for the lack of looks to compensate for the emotional buttons we push. if somebody has both, that's her perfect match!

@NightHawkBuzz I haven't bought the booklist but I am sure it has some great picks. and btw, check out the higher consciousness resources section in the forum for more!

healthy stage orange models are hard to come by specially with the widespread capitalism glooming over the globe nowadays.. Jim Rohn has some stage green aspects as well ,so he has a healthy form of orange integration! yup Tony Robbins, Robin Sharma , Tom Bileau ,Tim Ferris have a healthy aspect of stage orange . they also have little green shadows lurking in them. # check out stage orange examples mega thread for more! have a great day!???

@Magnanimous be careful though. there are many overnight millionaire manifestation scams nowadays. manifestation works yes, but all worldly things lead to naught. no matter how much u manifest, if there's that void within ya, nothing outside will fill it. There are billionaires who are still chasing money. playboys who chase women their entire lives. it's important to build a foundation before moving up the hierarchy. because personally i fucked up and gave up my work while tryna pursue higher stages in the hierarchy without building the base. still, u can be stuck on a single stage ur entire life. so growth mindset+openmindedness+drive has also to be their IMHO to get to higher levels in marslow's hierarchy. much love!

easy easy... broo!!! better not get the warning points to score up. hahaaa!!!??? welllllllll, we all are!

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i don;t get the blue part bro? yes I have seen some religious nutcases here and there but they don't seem to last here very long! being called poopheads doesn't feel good ,does it? LMAO!!!???????????

yup! IME, -humans have multiple facets governing their life and I have encountered people who are enlightened and yet hold on to religious conventions .IMHO< different facets of their life might be in different stages and generalizing a human being to a single stage will be hard. there is a bell curve like distribution! ayyyyyee true!!!.. it's hard to transmit feelings emotions via cables ! specially with some text on an online forum! @Preety_India ummm, IMHO, maybe this forum is overly stage yellow? In my experience(which is not much since u've been here for years lol) , yellow and turquoise is where I would place most of enlightenment section. life purpose section is somewhat orange and society section has that liberal tendencies of Marxism. you might be conflating the two since yellow tends to bring back that masculine side +reason back in to play which dwells at orange. contrary to the new agey intuitive -feminine dance at green! I might be wrong lol. but, I have had a ton of sound advice here! have a great day Hannu!

thank you for the answer! would love to know how it goes when she meets a real psychic who can see her! and hey, what does she say about other beings similar to her?

@Thought Artnot to offend bro! didn't u post an entire thread on how u were leaving the forum a while ago? missing us don't u?

ummm...I think it is to cut away the BS. when something comes up let's say a theory ,experience or a story, We can first direct our skepticism under a rational backdrop. then analyze it under systems thinking . then the dots start to connect. some spiritual stuff is not rational and contradicts reason. thus, we need an integration of various techniques to separate truth from fallacy! if u haven't already, leo's episode on holistic thinking had many gold nuggets..cha-ching! have a great day!

ummm...I think it is to cut away the BS. when something comes up let's say a theory ,experience or a story, We can first direct our skepticism under a rational backdrop. then analyze it under systems thinking . then the dots start to connect. some spiritual stuff is not rational and contradicts reason. thus, we need an integration of various techniques to separate truth from fallacy! if u haven't already, leo's episode on holistic thinking had many gold nuggets..cha-ching! have a great day!

@Danioover9000sorry to bother with all the questions mate...but u know , curiosity is killing me lol?? have you met other folks who have created Tulpas or psychics who can interact with such multidimensional beings? what do they have to say about her? can they see her or does she only appear to you ?

@4cryingoutloud58 HEY! I think I can relate to being the odd one ! but I guess IMHO, you were going through an identity/paradigm shift as u got exposed to the western culture. since you were young, u got exposed to an entirely new way of life! another world, so to speak. many of the peers and friends might not have that exposure u have and thus, only view reality through their own cultural lens. then if u do something which contradicts their worldview, it is natural for you to get hatred from them. I am just projecting here okay...soo just ignore it all if it makes no sense to you!

I am quite new to spirituality and I honestly don't have much experience on spirituality and meditation.. to give a personal account of what brought me to this place, for the past two years I was struck by an existential crisis as my stage orange / green dominant worldview broke down as I was pursuing personal development. then, I was drawn into new-agey side of personal development and started seeing the subjective nature of reality. with exposure stage green self dev stuff like manifestation , I wondered whether the hard science that I devotedly believed in was actually true? I used to condemn all sorta stuff like energy healing, spiritual stuff and religion as nonsense years ago! but, with directly experiencing various synchronicities and seeing how reality shifts as I change perspective took a massive blow on my materialist paradigm. after vying for answers from reading all the scientific research I consumed, I came to conclusion that there was more than what we perceived to be. that consciousness at least plays some role in reality after reading and applying the works of Maxwell Maltz, Joseph Murphy and many other philosophers. then I began heavily studying about various perspectives. I started learning Buddhism, Christianity , comparative religion ,history . I was seeing how different lives were across the globe ,time and how all this seems to be like a matrix. I was literally groundless and it came to a point where I was LOST! simultaneously, my work life became a mess that I was confused wondering what to do with my life? is life even meaningful? I gave up on my relationships. I was soo hungry for a worldview that I even thought of converting into Christianity and say that it was the ultimate truth. yet, as I tried to reconcile all the aspects of reality upon their teachings and models, they all seemed to fail leading me to depression. as my worldview was collapsed, I started getting intrusive thoughts in my mind . I had thoughts of the most horrible things I could think of like murdering my parents and driving over the pedestrians while driving. I thought of suicide as I did not wish to harm anyone . I was scared whenever I saw sharp objects like knives... I informed my parents and visited a shrink who said I was having depression, anxiety with OCD type intrusive thoughts. I was prescribed anti-depressants . my thoughts became coherent after several weeks of medication. therapist still recommended me to continue medication for another six months after recovery since I was feeling utterly nihilistic. I moved back to my parents and have been dependent on them since then. I quitted my work and decided to get my mind back and the sense of reality. this was when I found actualized.org and nonduality. as I found nonduality as the only way to reconcile and stand my questioning process, I was beginning to accept it as plausible to be the case. .so I spent majority of the day drawing parallels between concepts and questioning them . I had a ton of time for thinking as I was living like a parasite off my parents again. next, I started heavily researching into spirituality and listen to a ton of various teachers of various traditions to make sense of the shit ! I started reading books of Ekchart Tolle and other spiritual teachers for answers. this existential crisis made me to question every damn thing I thought I knew about reality. Everything is useless and meaningless in the grand scheme of things ! TLDR- but, here's my problem, as I began to see that what I call as self itself as an illusion and seeing how ego plays this game, I was beginning to lose myself. I mean, I no longer feel like a person anymore! I don't feel any fear whatsoever! I don't know if something is wrong with me ? I don't see any meaning! I feel super detached from myself to the point I don't care whether I live or not!? I don't feel any desire whatsoever! I used to be one of the most ambitious arrogant guys who had stupendous desires to be the best! now after all, I have no feelings of desire when I see the things I used to cling to! I almost feel like an emotionless zombie as I don't feel the urges of fear , anger, desire resentment ,jealousy. I feel a certain sense of peace though. IS THIS WHAT THEY CALL' BEING ' STATE? also please note that only techniques I used were long hours of contemplation and questioning. my questions are IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME? IS THIS NORMAL TO NOT FEEL LIKE A SELF AND TO BE DETACHED FROM MYSELF ? IS MY EMOTIONAL NUMBNESS and LACK OF DESIRE A PROBLEM? what are your advice and what should I do? # thanks in advance!❤?

@EmptyVase that really resonates with me! ! wise words indeed. surely I feel that this adress the core issue here . I used to be extrinsically motivated rather than doing things for the joy/passion of doing! yesssss, this is a pointless game we lose anyways so why not enjoy huh? much love and thank you soo much for your time, energy and your wisdom in helping me out here! ??

@Nahm thank you my friend! I think I somewhat get it.. it might get clearer as I go on..... shall see how this all turns out in the grand scheme. you guys are the most supportive people I have found online!?? much love!

just 20 lol I have a lot to fix ,don't I??

ohhhh mannn!! that was spot on ! the best advice I got tbh!! thank you bro... ???? after seeing your post I thought I better stop this existential rumination and get my hands on the dirt. yess, I have been avoiding real world problems like crazy ! . I am in my early 20's soooooooo, I lack much experience ,specially with spiritual stuff that I have been venturing for a while... this is one of the traps XD.. this reaallllyy helps mate !!! thank you once again !!..???

@Nahm thank you for the kind reply! but, can u plz please elaborate on this a little bit? of course! awwww...that really hits home! so the catch is that I better do real practices rather than trying to conceptualize this stuff right? I 'm gonna start some exercise plus meditation ASAP... yup! i guess soo...but how can I rekindle them? I tried watching some real gore videos depicting death, beheadings and shit even(to see if it stirs some emotion )...still I don't feel any fear , disgust or hate lol... thank you once again!!???I will!!!

@EmptyVase yes!!! most of my life was centered around becoming the best ! u see,...I used to be a strong stage orange dude ! individualistic, arrogant, success oriented and wealth drove me. back at school , I often used to top the class and wanted to the best in academics. i wanted to prove myself out.. a little drop in marks used to bring me a ton of stress+anxiety... all other areas of my life too were built upon this premise. seeing the pointlessness of this rat race took a massive toll on me tbh! but what do u think that this has to do with the emotion deidentification and numbness I am going through?

it feels like depersonalization tooo... thanks for the advice! i will look it up!. namaste!