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Hey @Leo — I also read your response to my previous question, so I’m building on that here. If you have time to respond, I’d be interested to hear how you’d address this more precisely, or if there are aspects I’m still missing. If not, I’ll continue exploring this and may return with further questions as I refine it. I’m trying to understand the “only here and now / no past / you are imagining everything” idea more precisely, because when I follow it through, it seems to split in two directions. On one side, it clearly points to something real: Everything I experience only ever appears now. Even things like memory, history, or other people’s experiences (for example NDE reports, past lives, or historical figures like Cleopatra) only ever show up as appearances in present awareness. The same applies to things we assume are fixed. If I read Shakespeare or listen to a piece of music at different stages of my life, it doesn’t feel identical — the meaning, tone, and emotional impact all shift depending on my current state. In that sense, experience feels fluid, constructed, and not fully grounded in something fixed “out there.” But on the other side, there’s a contradiction. If everything — including my past, identity, and body — is being imagined here and now, then it seems like that imagination should be reconfigurable, at least in a meaningful way. Yet my experience feels constrained. There’s continuity, causality, and accumulated effects. Patterns, habits, and physical states persist in ways that I can’t simply “re-imagine” out of existence. Reality doesn’t behave like a lucid dream — it feels structured and resistant. So the question is: If all of this is being imagined now, why does that imagination appear both fluid (in perception, interpretation, meaning) and yet rigid (in structure, consequences, and identity)? Is “no past” only meant in the sense that everything is accessed in the present, rather than implying that the past and its effects can actually be altered? And if imagination is happening at some deeper, unconscious level — what determines it, and why does it produce a reality that feels constrained rather than freely reconfigurable? I’m not rejecting the idea — I’m trying to understand where its limits are in direct experience.

Hey Leo, I wanted to share some thoughts and questions—no rush at all, if you feel like replying over time I’d really appreciate it. Here’s one I’ve been thinking about: I’m curious about parallel realities and “quantum jumping.” Is it possible to go to sleep one night and wake up in a completely different timeline—something like a heaven-on-earth version of life—and then fully live that as if it had always been my life, forgetting the previous one entirely? You’ve said that in this moment I’m imagining my past—my childhood, being born, all of it. So it makes me wonder: how long have I been imagining this particular life? Have there been many “pasts” I’ve imagined, or am I constantly shifting between preferred timelines without realizing it—each one feeling like it was always the case? For example, could it be that I went to sleep last night as a different version of myself, and now I’m in a new timeline with a new set of memories that feel continuous? And if consciousness is truly limitless, shouldn’t it be possible to live in a kind of “god mode” reality—like a cinematic, heaven-on-earth experience where manifestation is direct and reality feels almost magical? Or is experience more structured than that—where consciousness moves through suffering, challenge, or blessing depending on what’s required for its own evolution? Curious how you would frame this.

I got drunk and stoned last night which I never really do and I got sick and was wondering if this could be the end and honestly it felt like there was no spirit in that type of moment like there isn't an afterlife like it could just go blank and this was a thin solipsist hallucination - no sense of an astral body or higher self awakening

This was a reason Shakespeare's hamlet didn't jump to his death to commit suicide - Wether it is better to endure the pains and injustices of the human condition or risk the unknown of what happens after

Also I think the fear of death is a part of the game of god discovering itself, for example discovering you are eternal life and death was just a fiction as a what if - that's another fair decent idea. Or some spiritual teachers are backwards sometimes saying some will not rest after death so it doesn't seem to be the same experience for everyone which makes it confusing. Or its sophistic as Leo says so it's only you and others don't die as you think it to be

@cetus How? Enlighten me. Because I can't snap my fingers and get divine clarity about life. If I'm homeless or starving on the street or having to die into an unknown afterlife from a painful accident then the idea of being here and now doesn't fix the problems of life or produce money or have a life saving saviour nor reduce pain and suffering

I'm not afraid what happens after since my personal research and spiritual insights point to heavenly realms and unconditional love as the ground of being on the other side - What prevents me from committing suicide is the brain damage and survival worse off if it fails and once you attempt to end the body you can't control the outcome - Also there is the problem of spirit guides or Christ conciosuenss avatars in the astral realms that could possibly dictate what happens to you next and force you back into another life or body or to come back in the broken body you tried to exit but honestly I want to bitch slap the spirit guides and get answers what the fuck is going on

I want out - Like if I'm infinite god intelligence then where is the exit button or do I have to commit suicide - spiritual teachers love to say oh you are awareness of the dream character, you are not the identity being played, but you are the conciosuness making this happen, and they say I am god and yet they do not explain how to wake up from this dream - I want out - Government assisted suicide should be legalzied for all time periods and cultures of human history and civilizations - I hate life.

There had better be a choice not to experience the infinite hellhell realms - I want to painlessly instantly wake up from being a human - never reincarnate and remain in heaven. Life is madness

Dude suicide and death isn't easy, you could botch it and survive disabled. You're trapped. Many sucide attempts fail. Besides, I don't want to reincarnate. Someone here said you can fully embody god and what dematerialzie? I've found no information how to awaken from this dream of life, if god is truely free and infinite then where is the wake up trigger switch?

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@Hojo I think what you're saying in your response is that the breathing is prior to identity? Leo says identity as a human and other people is imagination. Isn't breathing imagination too? I'll have to re-read it what you wrote. Idk how to become more conscious of the phenomenology of imagination and how I'm infinite mind doing that with life, without use of drugs or meditation - Like maybe I do self enquiry without denial that I am infinite mind imaging being in a dream as a limited human and other is imagination ... But that alone probably won't make miracles happen like I'm suddenly living a heavenly music soundtrack cinematic life

I have to ask Leo Gura how do you exactly become more conscious ... Without drugs if you're sober ... Like do you repeatedly become more aware of self inquiry into imagination or I am god or this all solipsism ... There are no Leo videos on how to become more concious without drugs or meditation and there isn't a video what even is imagination. I'm just asking I have these videos on repeat like how I had an Alan Watts addiction or Abraham Hicks - or is this me in deep denial afraid to awaken and lose reality to being this human life

Non-duality is popular with many teachers and it leans into solipsism in my opinion same thing, except non-dual is more spiritual for validating other people's lives as well as inviting unity conciosuness, whereas solipsism is probably narcissistic, existential and unpopular for followers to easily digest

I'm not looking for some hotline number or “hang in there” crap. My life has been non‑stop abuse, poverty, mould, burning plastic, soul‑crushing jobs, no intimacy, nothing to look forward to. I’m broke, exhausted, and angry. Spiritually or ethically — whatever you want to call it — am I actually allowed to end this? Is suicide an actual escape from this nightmare, or is it just more pain somewhere else? I’m asking for honest answers from people who have been through hell or have studied spirituality deeply. Don’t sugarcoat it.

I read insanity barrier broken while checking for updated solipsism forums ... And I have to say man I'm lucid in that realm and there are more barriers that can yet be broken it's never ending like alice face falling the rabbit hole it seems

@Shawn Philips but also NDE accounts also point out that the truth between beings is a type of honesty and knowing which can't quite hide lies or dishonesty - it's almost a spiritual telepathic knowing between spiritual entities so that you can't hide manipulation tactics but can see through one another's thoughts and intentions honestly and openly. So that level honesty surely can't hide manipulation tactics for reincarnation trap loops. Also the dying brain floods dopamine, serotonin, DMT chemical-like drugs and endorphins these being positive states not negative.

I'm now researching again into 5meo-dmt or DMT in general and might consider a trip in 2026 if I cross paths with the substance, I won't go overboard but I wouldn't mind an ego death - nor do I want psychosis states that leave me disturbed/unnerved afterwards. Unsure how Leo has derealization of identity and sees through reality or how others are imaginary and god realisations yet acts casual about it all, fairly sure I'd personally be a bit loopy if I broke through reality too heavily - and I've had psycadelics experiences which have changed how I function in life but an ego death trip might be interesting for spiritual insights. Might keep doing research.

I hope not I want to be a super free spiritual beings and never reincarnate forcefully - or is there a corresponding attachment of resistant which attaches me to come back - or did I agree to come to this life

No offence man but this is why I've personally done my best to quit weed and substances so I can better articulate my ideas clearer; I'm unsure exactly what you're trying to express. Essentially if there is solipsism as Leo puts it, and I'm the only one in the room (me being conscious I know this) then I'm that king you mention in the land of divine self god-hood, and you all are peasants (fictional props) - Mind you: here I'm using your language, to elaborate on your terms how I'd then be a "special" king in the land of solipsism, while others are not of equal regal quality but fictional characters make believe to strengthen this dreamland. Mathematically coherent if 1+1 equals 2 then I should also have powers over this dream land as the special kingly god hood and make my dream more into a heavenly paradise or any way I would so choose: beautiful virgins, youth, billion dollars, technology like a personal giant Terrance McKenna style spaceship, an iron man suit, superhero abilities, artistic genius, rockstar fame with concerts and retro vice city sunset lambos near the beach, incredible parties every weekend, nobel prize for world peace, life extension, happiness instead of survival, ecstacy drugs without the negative comedowns that enhance the quality of life

Heard Alan Watts say a similar thing, which makes seeking feel futile like a snake chasing its own tail. Or this advice sounds like a koan: what is the sound of a one hand clap? Fairly sure most gurus do this intentionally by frustrating the seeker until they no longer need answers and just sit with themselves in the absurdity of it all, then act like that's enlightenment.

See Leo would be suggesting it is me that is the only one in this forum since I know I am conscious ... So how do I get god realisation and make all my dreams come true and enter god mode where I can design infinite fun games and have a good time

If you really are me make me say something you're now thinking of ... If you can't then what relative use is arguing about solipsism if others behave how they choose anyways

@Dodo no - removing god mode is lame, I also want to awaken to god mode and drop being a shitty boring mediocre dumbass interchangeable human

@Ramasta9 Humans have always freaked out about new tools. The printing press? Threatened the churches and kings. Bronze-age weaponry? Some swore it’d start a war with the gods. Fire? They thought it would burn down the world. Some adapt fast and get the evolutionary edge. Others panic and miss the ride entirely.