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The Eros

@Gesundheit2 I don't know, it's a personal preference

Using her? is she a chair? a table? a vase? What about using you? Or even better, cutting your stick into 2 parts? Is that a proper use of you?

I think that the root cause is shame. Shame is uncomfortable feeling that we want to avoid, some of us are more comfortable with feeing shame in social situations while others are very sensitive to shame in social situations and are fearful of being criticized, feeling rejected or be misunderstood and are trying to avoid it in any cost because it leads to feelings of shame. I think that people who suffer from social anxiety should look at their feelings of shame, ask themselves why they feel so much shame about themselves, when they began to feel that way (maybe something in childhood?) and practice exposure to those situations that triggers shame in them. It won't cancel the shame from your system because shame is something that all humans have, but it would make you feel more comfortable with feelings of shame. Make feeling more comfortable with shame as your goal. Also, work on your trout chakra and balance it. Imbalanced trout chakra is common among people who suffer from social anxiety.

As an introvert I know the feeling of being around extroverts and to feel as some part in you is missing, and everybody is better than you but it's an illusion. I think that the most important thing for introverts is to accept who they are, and then from this acceptance you'll be more confident and comfortable in your own skin. I read that some creative introverts tend to mistyped as extroverts, creativity in people somehow makes people to look more extroverted than they really are, maybe what you're looking for is to be more creative? If so, you always can develop your creativity.

I'm curious to explore more about this world and to see how far I can go with my development from were I started. I'm sending to you love and strength, you are capable to grow and have an healthy life if you really want to, life isn't easy but try to embrace it! I know it's hard, it's OK to feel lost and confused sometimes.

Good list! Those: Are above the government, it's so sad, it should be the opposite.

@B_HAZ You're welcome! Good luck

It's very hard to be feminine or maintain your femininity in this society, you become like a man very fast if you want to survive. It's not because of the feminism, it's because of the toxic masculinity. Without toxic masculinity there's no feminism. Feminism is about giving women power that men took from women, instead of living in harmony, men looked to suppress women. As a woman you lose your innocence very quickly before your mid 20's. You adopt the fight mode. The huntress mode in order to protect yourself of the harsh true about men in your real life, it's not a Disney movie here. Most men are weak, judgmental, feel superior to women even if they play the role of the "feminist", they see women as sex tools or an extension of themselves rather than a human being, they eat women without salt with their cruelty and their view of women. As a woman you need to be super suspicious, picky, cautious, you always in defense mode. You rarely feel secure around men. In order to survive in workplaces you need to be like a man, it's hard to maintain or grow in a workplace if you super feminine. I talk about the healthy femininity, the vulnerable and the authentic, the playfulness one. Try to be vulnerable with your boss, but really vulnerable, try to be authentic with someone in your workplace, let's see you... *Funny fact, I see more women in my life with healthy masculine traits rather than men with healthy masculine traits... maybe it's even not that funny but sad... I think it's important for women to be like a man for a while however we are crave to be feminine but we can't in those circumstances. But, women can develop their femininity later. In an era of weak and misogynic men who don't want to take responsibility about their life, change or invest too much in women, the best option for women is to be like an healthy man, to make a good income, develop stable career, find a safe pace to live in and then, when she has some financial stability in her life, she can be more feminine. Why do we need to wait for the knight in an era of toilet papers when we can be knights ourselves, fight for our freedom and master survival so we can become the princesses we always wanted to be? My buddy, have you read this forum? It's a consciences forum and look how much shit is written about women, how much hatred. This is nothing compered to the reality. nothing. If you were a women you would be the most passionate feminist, believe me. You have too many wrong assumptions about feminism, you are very biased. You see feminism in a very stereotypical shallow way. Feminists don't hate men, some may hate men as much as some non-feminists may hate men. Women have a lot of trauma because of men and we need to heal, it's hard to heal and see men in healthy way when the reality hits in your face. There's no "one feminism", each woman has her own world view. Also, feminism, isn't about denying femininity, there's bunch of feminine feminists as much as there's bunch of unfeminine non-feminists. Feminists aren't ugly masculine women who hate men passionately and don't need men. Yes we need men, we attracted to men, we want to connect with men in an healthy way, this is why we are so bothered by misogamy and sexism, because it prevent men and women from a real authentic connection. In a world of harmony between men and women, there were no feminists, no porn (only healthy erotic films), no prostitution. But it requires healthy and aware people and unfortunately our humanity is far from being healthy, it's sick.

-Vulnerability isn't a weakness, it requires so much courage to be vulnerable. It's a huge risk taking, especially in our society. -Authenticity is not a weakness, one needs to be so brave in order to be authentic. One has to be so commited to choose authenticity every single day. -Creativity isn't a weakness, creating something from nothing is a power of God. -Empathy isn't a weakness, in order to be able to empathize with someone eles you have to be so open-minded and so open emotionaly to feel someone else's suffer as if it's your own suffer. It requires so much mental power and strength. -Forgivness isn't a weakness, anyone who sees forgiveness as a weakness is unaware to how much mental resources required in order to forgive. -Nurting isn't a weakness, one who can take care of himself and his sorraundings is the one who has the healthiest and happiest life. What is weakness? -Weakness is to manipulate women into sex. -Weakness is to brag about how good you at fucking women. -Weakness is to see the social injustice against women and do nothing about it. -Weakness is hiring prostitues. -Weakness is to demonize feminism, ignoring the fact that without feminism most of the men won't bother themselves to fight for woman's status in society. -Weakness is to see women as objects before seeing them as human beings. -Weakness is to have shitty personality and no social skills, do nothing about it and expecting women to pursue you. -Weakness is to judge women by her sexsual history and be paranoid about it. -Weakness is to talk to women only for the chance to get laid. -Weakness is to act as if you know women better than they know themselves. -Weaknesses is gaslighting women about their opinions, feelings and reality perception. -Weakness is focusing on criticizing women who you're not attracted to. -Weakness is avoiding, demonising, blaming, attacking a woman just because she's more intelligent than you or just because you're envy her. -Weakness is to see women as weaker than you, dumber than you, more irrational than you just because they were born as females. -Weakness is to be blind on purpose to the social morall crimes against women and telling stories and exucuises to justify those morall crimes. This was my 50 cent for today. If I were to visit his candy shop, be sure that there's no chance for this shop to exist at all. I won't suck it but burn it or cut it with a knife. Nothing personal against 50 cent but against the toxic masculinity and sexism.

Yes. Tell them and explain them about it as best as you can. You can say that your behavior doesn't mean that you don't like them but it's out of CPTSD and you're in healing process. If they're still don't get you don't be sad about it, at least you were clear and honest.

You experienced trauma as a child, You saw your father beating your mother and it burned in your memory very deep. Those images or thoughts when you have this desire to beat woman come from your trauma, it's not you, and it's not your will. it's your inner pain and aggression that disguised as those thoughts. You are not a bad person by any manner, you are a vulnerable human being, as all of us, who've been experienced trauma that affects his life. Your awareness is very important and crucial, your thoughts aren't your real desires or cravings. Focus on healing your childhood trauma, therapy is very good but try to find more self help alternative methods and combine all of them together in your healing process.

I read two books at the same time. The first: Is self help book or something that helps me to gain knowledge. I read it in the morning or through the day. The second: book of some story or novel. I read it before I go to sleep in my bed. it helps me to clean my mind, escape to an another world before I'll escape to the world of dreams. My goal is to read at least one page of every book, everyday. There's days that I read only one or two pages and there's other days when I read much more. I noticed that when I don't browse the web and limit my use, I read much more books.

@Byun Sean I talked about toxic behaviors and toxic paradigms common in men that I see as weakness. Those who feel shame reading what I wrote should check themselves and ask themselves why. Men with an healthy way to see women, won't be bothered by that. Seriously. @Jacob Morres Demonizing it's to say "All men are evil no matter what", but I didn't demonize men. I distinguished between weak and strong qualities in men. If you noticed I wrote in the end that I hate toxic masculinity or something. But I do love healthy masculinity which is in harmony with the femininity and completes it. Toxic masculinity looks to exploit and control femininity.

@Knowledge Hoarder It's more for me rather than for changing someone. I have the passion to share my opinions, there's nothing wrong about it. Those who take this seriously can only benefit from that.

@Spiral I didn't say that gender X is terrible. I think healthy masculine traits are amazing and as beautiful as the feminine. But I struggle to love or accept the toxic masculinity which is everywhere. I don't want to be repressed by that or controlled by that as a woman. Toxic masculinity cased me so much pain and self alienation feelings as a woman, it makes you believe that you're not good enough and you'll never be. The outcomes of this mindset is very negative, for both genders but especially for women. Weaknesses in my opinion is to being aware to this but keep supporting it or ignoring it. It's very disappointing to see so many men who are aware to the fact that our society controlled by this shitty sexist mindset and are still talk so much sexist shit.

@PurpleTree Our culture brainwashing us thinking that: Masculinity=strong Femininity=weak If you haven't noticed that yet, I don't know what else to say...

@Lyubov Good to know! Would you like to share what you don't agree about?

@something_else Yes, healthy masculinity is so beautiful and adorable.

@gettoefl My pleasure buddy.

@zazen Where is this quote from? I tend to agree with the quote partly.

@Jacob Morres See, my purpose wasn't to shame but to talk about issue that is disturbing for me. I'm tired of people who see femininity as weakness and I wanted to make it clear what weakness is really is. As a part of this society I just had to develop some masculine traits in order to survive. I had to develop my assertiveness, my ability to protect myself and my loved ones, logical thinking, and the ability to fight when it's needed. Part of the divine masculinity is to use critical thinking and share genuine thoughts, this is what I did here, so you can't really use the card of "Go develop your masculinity then" against me. I'm not the most balanced person but I'm more balanced than other people here, especially in this forum.

@cookiemonster All you wrote is justifying your red view about women. Women in your mind are tools to satisfy your needs. You see yourself as sex machine with demands and women those who have to supply it. In nature, man is the giver of the sperm and woman is the reciver of the sperm in order to create life in her womb. This is why many women are so selective with men, it's like an artist whose selective with his art materials. Self respected artist wants to create the best artwork that he is able to create and in order to do so he would prefer the best resources. If you say that men are like sex machines, I would say that women are like highly respected artists who look to create the best song, painting, poem, novel. See? I'm playing your stupid game. And I'll continue: Most of the men aren't a good resource because they don't want to or care about being that, they only care about satisfying this narrow sexsual need of themselves, forget that nature gave them this need in order to make them motivated to be better for women, not in order to use women. Yellow perspective is a wide perspective who sees also the women, your perspective is too narrow and you talk from the perspective of the horny and self centered man. Ask yourself how many escorts would like to keep working as an escorts if they had other options? I garentee you that only few. Women do like sex but not with smelly, dirty, egosentric strangers, 10 times per day putting themselves at so many risks. Let the woman who wants to be an escort, to be an escort, even to do this as a business from her home, she has the right to do this if she wants and it says nothing about her intelligence or respect. But it's not something that should be legal or something that society has to support or something that must be provided by the government. Because it is very narrow solution for wider problem. The problem is the toxic masculinity mentality, this problem ruins the world. People who realize that and see the big picture tend to avoid supporting prustitution so eagerly.

@PurpleTree Social anxiety? Work on it. There's so much to do about it. Women actually have more tendency to social anxiety than men, and anxieties/depression. Imagine how many escorts have social anxiety, other kinds of anxieties, traumas, fears and mental issues, do you care about it? Is someone care about it?

If you're so successful with women why even consider an escort? They have to be already on your dick, so where all those 30 women? Ah? It's not people who don't understand you, it's you who is the asshole here, who doesn't want to admit he is the asshole. You want sex? Be a man and take actions, don't look for easy shortcuts like some toxic man. Women are not just bodies, they are human beings, the escort is a human being whether you accept it or not. She has emotions, dreams and conscious as much as you, you are not better than they her, you're even worse. You're lazy to get sex in the casual way? It's your problem, no one have to tolerate your dick. Women own you nothing. You're entitled to nothing.