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You’re strong for going through this.

Agreed. Cool that meditation is working for you. Great that you managed to have cool experiences during the retreat

Hahah thanks ❤️

I couldn’t imagine not resonating

I wanna bring it back too. It’s because of issues I deal with too, emptiness, disconnect within. It’s not fun

She should have said “now worship me” 😂😅

yea

I had a period in my teenage years where I had a TONNNN of sleep paralysis episodes, and feeling energy rise through my back and strong vibrations. It also happened once I talked to someone and opened up to someone and felt energy rising up through my face and releasing. I’ve also felt energies while doing positive visualizations of myself. I think it all connects to kundalini. It’s a process of dissolving the ego, but it’s very slow. It’s releasing tension in the system, blockages too, all that connects to the dense ego, the structure of the psyche. It feels like release of tension, can feel really good. I did meditation but didn’t find correlation to it, but if you do then it’s worth continuing. Maybe I just didn’t do enough of it. I’m lowkey impressed by people who do these retreats, like must be so boring to meditate for so long

If you dissolve the self enough the world almost stops being 3D but nobody is ready for that conversation

i imagine something like this: (I really like the music in this video too) Not the same vibe lol

It sounds majestic.

It takes a lot to “dissolve” that density. Much depth and layers to the psyche. Takes years to begin to scrape it

Yea I agree it’s probably an extremely small percentage in the world. And yea there are strong forces that prevent it. It’s like it’s fundamental to the brain to have a self

I see. I’ve noticed too that to see through the psyche it’s crucial to confront it and face your fears. Turning attention inward and observing yourself and your psyche. Breaking through those layers one by one. It’s not a natural process for most but if you have that inclination it can be

https://open.spotify.com/track/0bUa56UpL8ijeg7zxyvx4P?si=n1hwtnR6S56damSCMNc5Dw&context=spotify%3Asearch

It might have some value I’m not denying that

I’m not scared of death if death is eternal nothingness. But I do too believe in eternal reincarnation and oneness so that scares me, being trapped in eternity and experiencing horrible things. I’m also afraid of suffering, mainly physical suffering. You could work on making your mind a safe space, having thoughts that support you rather than bring you down. It could look like having positive mantras for yourself, it could be visualizing positive things, about whatever. It could look like contemplating suffering and death so it turns into a thing that’s “interesting” , it could look like investigating your fears and contemplating how they work, so you gain a better understanding of them. So basically over time you build a better mindset, so the content of your mind works in your favor. Thats on the mind level, but you could also go on a body level, utilizing deep breathing at random times in the day to calm your thoughts down when you’re stuck in your head.

Juliana Jendo - Bagiye (Assyrian music) this song is so “powerful”, need more music like this

Same

The reason for me being virgin is because I struggle with low libido due to mental issues (I honestly lack desire in life in general). So it’s not due to lack of options. I’m mostly consumed by my problems so lack of sexuality doesn’t really bother me although I wish I was back to normal

Agreed. I love internal change. When something shifts in you. I used to have many “shifts” and it felt like entering a new reality because some old part of you dies. Also working with energy, and releasing emotions too. It’s refreshing

I remember from childhood when the ego formed. And how it was scary to me. I felt isolated and distant from the world, like scarily separate, and I needed outside stimulation to feel grounded and to distract myself from this inner darkness. I remember I used to have this anxiety at night time, it was always at night time, but during the day when there’s more external stimulation I felt better. You remind me a little about myself lol, this way you have of wanting to express your thoughts

What kind of awakening is that😂

Also when they say this, do they mean that this “pure awareness” is separate from the rest, does the awareness have any object it’s aware OF

When people say this, what do they mean by “universe”. Do they mean the universe , or simply “this”, because you’ve never experienced the universe, you’ve only experienced “this” so how could I become something I don’t even know if it exists