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That’s a different state than the idea of solipsism but I get your point

Solipsism is lowkey a cure to social anxiety and fear of rejection etc Like if you care what someone thinks, if you’re a guy afraid to approach women, if you just believe they’re actually brain dead and you’re the only conscious experience then what is it to fear

You just exposed a very fundamental part of human nature.

It’s like how people say “you only live once.” So they really think, in all of ETERNITY. Only one life will appear. And then before and after that will be eternal nothing forever. LOL. As if new form won’t appear sooner or later and “you” are born into it.

Why the fuck would reality limit itself to only create one self conscious being and the rest are not conscious? If reality is infinite it can create infinite self conscious beings, infinite illusions, why would there only be one (you) illusion of self.

I resonate with your writings in general. But it’s kind of like it’s more a resonance with you as a person, so with your self, your vibe. Your experiences of the limitless probably has affected you as a person, your self structure, perhaps softened it, so that contributes to your “vibe” that you give off. It seems to me you have directly “experienced” (not the best word but you get it) the limitless, and then when the self reappears and the mind comes back to normal, there is an interpretation of it, a mental framework about this “limitlessness” has been developed, and that’s where this writing comes from. Or do you also write when you are directly in the moment of being open to the limitless? Because then it’s like a writing directly from the “source”. Some very small YouTubers, and very few, who claim to have lost their self, the non dualists, they can sometimes seem to me they are directly speaking from this “limitless” place. And so I can resonate with that too. I find you write clearly. Some parts I struggle to understand such as the synchronization, “a reflection of itself”, “coherence” etc, when you talk about how reality works. It doesn’t matter though, I’m not the type that really seeks understanding so I’m content even if I don’t understand. I thought though, how do glimpses of the limitless lead to this kind of understanding of the “structure of reality”? If I have a glimpse, maybe it’s obvious, “oh this is infinite”, but all the other stuff, I don’t get how that understanding came about. Some other speakers don’t seem to have that understanding, they just say oh the self doesn’t exist. But they don’t talk about the structure of reality much, synchronized this and that

It abso fucking lutely does NOT what r u on

Yea maybe it sounded obvious. But basically this mapping of the opposite gender is unnecessary. Study yourself and you’ll know the other enough …

I think one of the safest ways to not fall for manipulation is just being very secure in yourself. You don’t have to study the other gender to not fall for it, just be so secure in yourself so you’re not needy of anyone and won’t settle. You’ll see things more clear from a grounded place

People just need to realize instead of pointing fingers at each other, it’s not men who are fcked , not women , this and that, it’s HUMANS. Ok (but maybe men are more to be honest)

”Female nature exposed” 😂

Omg yes! I noticed if I kept my mind really positive, or neutral. I could even feel good from seemingly bad food. It wasn’t until I dissolved most of my mind, dissolved all my beliefs, that I found true health. Health independent of mental judgements. One time something crazy to me happened. I was listening to a video of a woman talking about how the body detoxes. I felt this “whole body resonance” with her video, and suddenly my stomach rumbled and I had to go to the bathroom like twice and had diarrhea. It’s very odd . It’s like my body kickstarted some kind of detoxing by listening to her! I could elaborate more but I can’t come up with much at the moment .

Understood

I don’t know why I’m writing this. My current situation is that I feel I barely exist I feel severely disconnected from myself. It has been going on for about a year. I have no emotions, no libido, feel no romantic or sexual attraction, almost zero sense of joy, almost zero motivation to do anything, no sense of purpose, almost no desire to do anything Im not particularly depressed, only sometimes, I feel a little bit worse than neutral usually. I’m not particularly stressed too I have no desire to date or socialize. That’s why I am a virgin at 21 and have one friend, but I have no desire to hangout with her or my family. I barely talk at all, because I feel so disconnected from myself. I just do what I have to : work to earn money so I can eventually move out, hygiene, sleep, eat, look at my phone. Me and my family travel sometimes and I will travel this summer but I feel nothing about it. I wouldn’t mind staying alone at home. That shows how I don’t enjoy things others enjoy. I derive pretty much zero pleasure from anything. Despite all of this: this is me on a GOOD day. Today I’m having a good day, even if it’s like how I’ve described. That’s how my situation is What else could I write? I don’t know Im going to doctors and they put me on anti depressant and anti psychotic for a year now but they make zero difference except make me a little calmer which isn’t too bad I guess. I also have suicidal thoughts sometimes when I feel extra disconnected from myself.

Thanks for honesty. Only think about it if you want to

I’ve changed my meal frequency lately. So nowadays I eat two small meals a day, and one small snack Monday to Thursday. Then Friday to Sunday I only eat two small meals plus if I want, dessert. So I make space for the eventual dessert. I have been practicing portion control, meaning I’ve reduced my portion sizes to small. I also follow , when the food fits it, the plate model. It’s good for reducing the calories because you’re filling half the plate with non starchy vegetables. For example if I’m eating chicken, rice and veggies. Only a fourth of my plate is chicken, a fourth is rice, and half is veggies. I like the feeling when I eat less. I also like to feel light. I might incorporate fasting sometimes too. That’s something I could play around with too. I don’t know how much I believe in true breatharianism. Maybe one would need extreme self/body mastery/awareness to be able to sustain it

I have a hard time seeing how it would be possible to willingly chose that the brain creates more self. My brain has a bunch of self referential thoughts and self-imagination, so it’s like it’s already trying to maximize the self. But it can’t create more substance to the self, and it seems when that substance dissolves it’s forever gone. So it might apply in the world of relativity. Have a hard time seeing that But I have extra. It’s constant for me I’m not particularly depressed. I’m more empty. Yea I get brain changes. But what exercise does is special

Thanks for being open minded!❤️

I like his straight forward and simple way It seems the brain constructs it. But that doesn’t mean you can willingly choose to make your brain construct it. I have had that thought too. Some school of thoughts believe that. I kinda believe every person is very slowly dissolving. But it takes lifetimes for most. Because the ego is kinda this “effort” to maintain, so it seems nature is moving towards more effortless states, like entropy haha. I don’t know this though, just a thought It would be a miracle if my self came back to how it was before My brain has a lot of self referential thoughts. So it’s like the “self neurons” are very very active. But there’s a disconnect in myself due to all the dissolution. Ideally I would dissolve my self fully I can stay like this too. But it’s unsatisfactory and dull, disconnected and numb. I only know of exercise that can grow those connections in the self to create a connected stronger self. I seriously doubt anything else compares to that. It would have to physically change the brain. I’m not denying something could though You know I wanna try. I’m open to trying things. I won’t lose by trying although I don’t believe in anything I’ve not heard of psychedelics increasing ego before.

My body feels very light and subtle. But the sense of a boundary between my body and the rest is kinda weak. This is a result of the severe degree of incomplete self dissolution I went through. The more my self dissolved, the lighter my body felt, because the self kinda creates this tension, or is this tension, when maintained. When I zoom in on an body part it’s a subtle physical sensation of that body part You don’t know whether I know or not. Sometimes when we tell our stories people try to fit them into their worldview, which is a view of the average person. But there are edge cases like mine which the average doesn’t apply to It is possible to be aware of certain processes inside your own brain through internal awareness. I experience things in my brain I’ve been able to confirm using simple google searches that it’s a real phenomena that happens. Maybe the average person isn’t so aware of processes inside their brain, but doesn’t mean it applies to everyone, once again, when something doesn’t fit into average experience and an average world view people will still try to fit it into it. The average person doesn’t have clairvoyance either. But I know it’s possible because it has happened to me. That’s just another example. I find no joy in writing this . So I don’t really care about it. Just responding .

Thanks very sweet of you. Maybe you just asked rhetorically but I can answer anyways briefly. The thing is I feel disconnected from myself like I barely exist so it’s hard to answer the first question. I have very weak sense of motivation. I’m not very driven towards anything at all. But it could be a subtle preference. For example now I’m laying in the sun, there was a slight preference to do that. I don’t really have much desires for anything. I know it sounds empty but that’s how it is now for me. I don’t really have spiritual practice but i naturally observe myself and my mind and have done that , and do that, a lot I have moments of peace sometimes yea

Hi. Very sweet of you to write such a thoughtful response I used to be insecure with social anxiety , but after working through it , I overcame all of that so I am not insecure in my expression anymore. I feel safe in expressing myself. Yes people around me can’t relate to me much, so I won’t talk to them about things they aren’t interested in unless they ask, but that is okay to me I do find that there’s something wrong with me. Something different about my brain. But thanks anyways.

Yes. Haha you finally acknowledge something 😂 That’s not a given I remember once a non dualist (Jim Newman) who have lost their self, got asked if the self can come back. And they answered no. Thats an experience I share. I’m not fully dissolved like him, I have a tiny ego left, but I don’t feel like it could ever go back to how it was. How would brain rebuild the self again? I know only one way to grow a self, and that is through physical exercise that grows the brain. This is the ideal self. But it entails a lot of suffering so I don’t wanna do that I will say to doctor that meds aren’t helping so might stop them this summer. I don’t think neuroleptics lead to self dissolution. They might block dopamine but that’s not self dissolution . Psychedelics attack the self though like 5 Meo . But neuroleptics in my experience doesn’t alter the self like that

Because it’s frustrating being separate

Celebrating gods infinite lifetime