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Yea exactly I think you’re pretty set with this also. Even if someone would find it important for you to have some “interesting life” if it’s not the life you want you’re gonna be unhappy right . Like it makes no sense to have a life to make someone attracted to you that’s like recipe for disaster now you’re not living how you want just how someone else wants Btw that’s cool you’re starting a business I wish u luck there

Hmmm idk . It is interesting to say the least. this is just one of my wild theories. But I wonder if since the night is the only time one has solitude (if you don’t live alone) then if you’re like me and you don’t really connect much w people and need that solitude to “process” then it’s like your body WANTS to be awake during nighttime to experience that solitude and it’s even energized to be awake that time (for me at least). Since we are going through such rapid and deep changes there needs to be a lot of processing going on, even leading to mystical like experiences. It’s like introverts who “process” after social events. After a long day with simulation and people where you have to be alert then during the night you get the change to “process” so the body/brain doesn’t wanna/can’t sleep to be able to do this or something lol just wild theory once again

Same honestly. I feel this tendency to “keep things to oneself” can be a form of wisdom in some way. Instead of just posting every other thing in your mind without letting it “mature” or something.? I feel like I have 1000 things I could say and write about but it all just marinates in my mind and doesn’t get out. But honestly I don’t see the point in posting for the sake of posting I like it to have a purpose. Will I or someone else benefit from this? If not then it’s not necessary I wonder sometimes. People who are just lurking but rarely write, maybe don’t even have an account, some of them would probably have the most profound, interesting things to say. I’m curious, where are they hiding, what are they doing and thinking haha and honestly no need to be intimidated by a lot of these posters. They might not be all that you think ?but I relate I can be too sometimes AND not everyone does psychedelics and that is fine and does not mean per automatic one is “behind” AND yea commenting is a good place to start imo

Wym ego backlash isn’t all the body is trying to do is to be healthy and survive the best, remain in homeostasis

I don’t see the problem. I just woke up from 3 hour ish sleep myself so I get what you mean. Less sleep= more time to do what u want . Good thing. But I agree there might be something else that’s going on that contributes to it don’t know what tho. I feel healthier than ever so can’t be bad. I mean if the body would need more sleep it makes you tired right so if not tired should be fine. Would love to hear if you have some more theories tho

Please tell me more about how lovely it is to sleep ?

wait do you sleep less because your body naturally wakes up or because you deliberately stay awake to do other things?

What are they then?

Your mind is “nauseated from consuming garbage” because it’s engaged in the active process of learning how to “separate the wheat from the chaff” as effectively as humanly possible which is a great ability to have so you should be thankful for all this “garbage” helping you develop in that ability . Essentially developing your own independent “signal” to be strong enough to navigate all the “noise” but not bad suggestion btw

Omg dude I do this all the time? it is truly like that in a way

@Yimpa thanks ❤️

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Crazy how many similarities I find Two times recently , this evening for exmample I’ve held back tears from people close to me and wondered what would happen if I just let it all out no matter who sees it. How would I deal with that, what would it reveal to me etc

I can imagine how that’s like but no actual experience of it

Didn’t you just say in another thread how you’re “tired of everything being about women” . You are making it all about them yourself

Perhaps not a thing in itself. But rather there is something that was most prominent in my reality so I was “hyper aware” of that thing. It taking up the majority of my attention, effortlessly. For me it was my own mind. What was the contents of this mind? For me it was most prominently this mind made “real life” self and mind made “ideal self” those two in this contrast to each other , and all the beliefs etc surrounding it. My mind in general too, as filter on other people and the environment. Also I had what I described back then as a “baseline level of tension” so I was hyper aware of this “tension” that was associated with my sense of self /mind. Then I would have what I called “releases of tension” associated with the dying off some beliefs dear to me but then with every “release” it was a relief for short while, then the contrast dies out and the new “baseline tension” becomes prominent in one’s awareness again to reach a climax followed by another release of tension. The “hyper awareness” of the tension being lowkey what makes it possible for it to dissolve. Kind of like this hyper focus on it so much it takes up your entire attention almost. I don’t know the nature of this “tension” kind of like stress in the body associated with one’s mind? Idk. But it feels more fundamental in a way because it’s like a tension in one’s entire relationship to reality

I feel like you’re describing my experience or at least something along the lines. But it’s so mysterious I don’t even know the hell it’s all about. It’s like I haven’t even had a life at all because my sense of having a life and time was associated with the very mental layers continuously being dissolved one after another by this hyper awareness

I’m in Croatia right now I wonder if that’s good position you should know ???

It all makes sense. I have connected with people various ways for example with one person we might connect through humor and jokes, another person like a family member we connect through having lived together so similar experience and also genetic similarities and certain qualities. And maybe with someone else they have a quality about them that I have so we vibe over that. Or through working together being interested in similar topics. But still throughout my life something has been missing, something “energetic” almost perhaps idk . I feel that in this forum I have experienced this “energetic resonance “ when reading here and interacting with people that I ~ never~ experience in real life with people . But then in this forum you lack that in person real life interaction . It’s not really a major problem but still something missing to the puzzle when engaged with others . It’s like living two existences. Not that it isn’t possible ever to merge the two in one connection with someone but it hasn’t happened yet .

What does it mean to be connected to people even? I’m asking becuase I’m wondering myself . Never really felt connected to people in my entire life. Not really desired too either but just wondering what it is about

No problem thansk you too! yea those perspectives can co exist for sure! i meant more that in the same way you are making conscious effort to try to optimize your state and healing, there is a natural intelligence doing the same so by letting go you are allowing this intelligence take over more and “do its thing” so it’s actually benefitting you and getting you closer to where you want! also maybe you’re already doing this but simply putting yourself in the very situations that make you uncomfortable can help too

Same I relate to you a quite a bit also much more in my past. I still also have this cringe/shame that you talk about, but it’s very very subtle so I don’t 100% know what it’s about also. So yea I’d just say that’s good keep doing that work you doing. But also I’d like to add something. Your body-mind-energy has a natural self regulatory tendency by itself, no matter what you do. So you might try hard to “be present” but so is your body-mind-energy doing too independent of your effort. So your “lack of presence” can be seen as a particular state that is not PURELY mental or related to your “consciousness” It’s also connected to the body, nervous system and your “energy” patterns. so all of these different components work together creating this dysregulated state. but as I said there is a natural self regulatory tendency regardless of your conscious effort. So you might have a bunch of impulses for example I saw a post you wrote wondering why you go back and forth on the internet . Or why you keep refreshing this forum (I do it too haha) . Or maybe you have other cravings for certain foods. Or whatever . All kinds of impulses are aspects to this self regulatory tendency of these different components of you that I mentioned. Even if they seem “bad” to you or “excessive” . So one might exhaust oneself trying to achieve a particular state “presence”. But what’s more effective in a way is slowly letting go of some of that effort and allowing this intelligence to take over more and more which it’s already trying to do with all these impulses you’ve having you might notice for example if you pay attention how you feel in your body or how your energy moves when you for example engage in this forum as you mentioned and when you read something that resonates. Or when you write a post you might notice how it feels cleansing energetically. Or maybe feels nice in the body or if you eat a food you crave how it puts you in a particular desirable state all examples of how this self- regulatory tendency plays itself out trying to put you into the best possible state and balance independent of your effort . Also mental stories is a part of this. so yea all I’m trying to say is that at some point in time one can sort of exhaust this conscious effort and let this intelligence, this self regulatory tendency to take over more and more because it’s just beyond our own capacity how genius it is personally it has absolutely transformed my default state in ways I could’ve never done myself in short period of time simply writing this post I can sense this energy being channeled out of my body it’s very cleansing. So thanks for giving me this opportunity to cleanse myself ???Just mentioning so you get the idea so yea do what you want with this info maybe it resonates maybe it just sounds bla bla hahahah ? ?? cheers

Yea but I was thinking more fantasies about idealized scenarios because it’s not too uncommon in some of us who feel a bit cringe sometimes

Do you have a lot of fantasies? Like a rich mind

Is it different if the woman is less hot than you?