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@Paradoxed i personally dont enjoy chess, it stresses me out

if im activley boxingi got my music in and im bumping ready to knock out my opponent and visualising the crowd going wild running is like cocaine to me, if im not boxing however and i gotta force myself to doit ITS THE WORST! i dont run as hard or as long, just being honest david goggins can take this one, whatever

@Leo Gura dont gotta tell me twice, i learned from the fall

your sense of reality is gonna be twisted and shaken up like a snowglobe! i suggest a trip sitter cuz i was stupid and decided to smoke this stuff in my treehouse (yes i fell out LOL) thats an example of being incredibly stupid with psychedelics it could have fucking killed me a trip sitter would be good for you if you have especially poor judgement like myself. lesson learned. you may lose motor control so try not to be near windows i hear people like jumping through them on this stuff. overall i always had agood experience on salvia IT WAS ALWAYS UNCOMFORTABLE! but i never had exactly a bad tryp. although i know for damn well i could say to infinity and beyond and just smoke as much as i can and maybe never recover mentally thats how powerful this stuff is. start with a low dose to see how ur body feels i remember it felt almost familiar in a way the first time i smoked it like being stoned beyond comprehension. i thought it was funny as fuck but that was just a half bowl of 10x. once you are comfortable with it at a low dose that will actually help eliminate some of the anxiety you may otherwise have. move up and take a decent dose (or high if you want do whatever u want i suggest suggest start with a small and say hi to salvia first before u decide to have full blown angry bdsm with it, you will not be the one holding the whip i PROMISE! besides this, have fun enjoy its mood be open to it. its not gonna last long if things turn stale and your are gonna freak out, guerilla pounding my chest (not hard but good hits) does help me (if you can remember to do this) i guess ill describe my experience unfortunatley its the one where i fell out of the treehouse but heres the mini trip report. i had 60 x of some pretty good salvia from a reputable source my gameplan was to quickly smoke in the treehouse climb out as fast as i can and make my way to the house and just chill (thats that poor judgement i was talking about) i pack it into a bowl and light it tokes away! as im holding it till im blue in the face i felt a buzz all through my body. once i exhaled i was almost zapped into this wierd perception of whats happening around me everything around me began to do this weird funhouse effect where it was bouncing up and down left and right. i remembered that i had to get in the house to enjoy the trip. as i stood up my balance was just GONE. i would have a higher chance getting down near dead from alcohol poisoning. but what had struck me as strange was that as i stood up it was almost like these millions of entities were watching me struggle for balance and they were laughing as if i was stuck in this sitcom, they would all laugh at me every move i made that was clearly failing. i make it to the ladder i get one foot down then BAM i smack the floor i land on my shoulder and not my head thank god. the entities LOSE IT they think this is the funniest thing ever. im laying there just confused as to if i really just fell out of the treehouse. i get up and continue my perilous journey to the indoors. as i approach the house the house almost became its own entity that again had this funhouse bouncy appearance. EVERYTHING about the house screamed that the house was actually alive the windows were eyes and mouths. even as i was in the house the hallways were alive in this funhouse sort of way. i eventually do make it downstairs and sit down but im just kinda frozen in place with a "O_O" expression. i want to disclaim that i was not into nonduality at this point so i didnt have any mystical experiences i was just the soul trapped in this inter cosmic sitcom where i stumble around and fail to do things for all eternity. my life purpose was to be this fool entertaining these entities which icould hear but could not see. i guess the point of this is that your sense of reality will get CRUSHED on salvia. top advice- say hi to salvia first then take salvia on a date give her her first kiss, then maybe give her some desert after dinner. when you feel ready THEN let salvia pin you to the wall and blindfold you. i could see legitimate spiritual use for salvia but not how its conventionally used. you can get a sense of how your perception is reality and that in deep enough trips there is no you at all.

@trenton i used to wanna be a boxer, when that crumbled i was depressed and suicidal cuz i couldent accept things for how they are if i cant control them. im still depressed as fuck not much hope anymore everyday is a blessing at this point but some strange reason i fell in love with being depressed. AVOID THIS try new things, meet people, just randomly go out and do stuff. if you stick with depression for too long or too deep and your depression turns into a crutch, suicide gets drilled in your head, then its VERY DANGEROUS! this isnt really advice just my input i guess im nobody to be giving advice read this at ur own risk

its not THE truth its just a figment. decide what u want, either is gonna be true for u

@Leo Gura damn, that explains a lot

once i was okay with being ordinary, complete nobody even a loser at times, its ight. im chillin enjoy some music after work meditate a little, die to infinity here and there. saul goodman

I get a lot of conflicting views! very confusing. i have not yet had a satori experience from practice but i have had it on psychedelics. As a means of raising ones baseline of consciousness and/ or seeking this quietting of the mind/ no mind / emptiness / realization / satori, whatever, is zazen actually worth pursuing? I do go to a sangah and i do hear A LOT of filler information and rituals that simply have nothing to do with enlightenment (and quite frankly dogmas). The practice of zazen is really all i care about but i cant help but question its... Reliability for awakening? Any advice on matters of meditation are welcomed. i did practice kriya yoga but i simply dont enjoy the process i find it boring and have a hard time motivating myself to do the practices. i have had some experiences from it (kundalini surges, sounds, colors ETC) Self inquiry is something i try but again struggle to keep up with (maybe its a ego defense.... probably is) anyways im just a rookie with all this stuff. Exploring the spiritual seven seas with my spritual sailors!

why the fuck they try so hard to be japanese? Its cringy! I love zen the practice of zen, the teachings of zen but dude! WTF! so much dogma! and i cant help but cringe when we do the chanting (which does have legit concentration benefits for the intensity of it) and the not the jiki-jitsu but whoever leads the chant puts on this Japanese's tone! i dont mean to talk shit but i just had to get this off my chest.

suffering is love, i struggle to translate that to words but i kinda intuit that

i make myself cringe.

maka-hannya shing-YOOOOOOOOO! >:o

@Thought Art :< your so right thank you master yoda! may the consciousness be with you!

tf am i doing here? how did i get here? wtf is all this?

a book by reemus boxing called automatic ambition. I used to be a shy timid fighter who kinda settled for sparring w the newbies now im befriending pros, getting my ass beat but growing EXPONENTIALLY. My mindset has flipped completely. Book brought me to tears at some points. If any fighters wanna argue ab fury n ngannou lets hear it! Fury gets smoked in a rematch!

Depression has sprung up in my life in a very nasty way that at one point led me to trying to grab a cops gun. im just at that age when mental illness in males comes up, i sought help, got meds. Doesnt wanna go away. I was thinking of maybe an emotional support animal. BUT ANYWAYS how come someones mind can be so sad and hopeless? when i know its not true but my mind says screw it anyways. The points of silence i get from sporadic meditation is the only break i can get.

@Raze at this point ill try anything

@vibv thank you, i dont live authentically i dont know who i am anymore it seems, since i gave up fighting cuz its not gonna help me get back what i lost (due to dui's). good advice thanks

@Leo Gura negative, ill retake your life purpose course. im wandering around lost right now.

punchline!

@Something Funny duck ur head and hope for the best

@Jannes lol i was gonna say do squat plyometrics with good timing

@Something Funny bob weave- little punch here a little pnch there keep that head movement or the balls gonna hit the bell youll hear the ring

alone or all one? big dif and from my experience yes god is all alone but hes cool with it