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I knew for years that my blockades hold me back a ton, but it just looked so hopeless that maybe I thought I need to accept that things are shitty. But this cost my psyche so much and somehow healing from that I get a lot of energy back now. Also in a sense friends are brakes because they help me fit in, give me feedback of whats acceptable and what not. I am slowly extinguishing the fire there. I am not yet accomplishing much yet in terms of Esteem needs, but with belonging and love more met I am much closer to making self actualization possible.

I can have intense bursts of energy and random creativity which is super exciting especially in acting as I noticed yesterday. The amount of crazy energy is unbelievable which is sleeping deep down. But sometimes I do dumb shit through that same uncontrolled energy as well which makes me block my energy. Like yesterday as well, I played a flirting corrupt police officer stopping a car with two ladies and in my estimation overstepped a comfort line even though everybody on the outside played along with it and didnt give me much signs that I overstepped a line but I am pretty sure I did and now I overthink this shit for days and block myself. “An ADHD mind is like a Ferrari engine with bicycle brakes.” by Dr. Edward Hallowell 🧠 Interpretation: Ferrari engine = powerful, fast, creative, energetic thinking Bicycle brakes = poor impulse control, weak self-regulation, difficulty slowing down

How much time do you spent on exercising?

Mayby write in the title that you are a gay guy otherwise people will just overread it and give you misleading advice. From what I have heard about gay community is that sex seems to be a lot easier to get there while connection is a bit harder to build. Which would make sense with two people with high testosterone. Is that true in your experience?

I mean he did get a sweatheart in the end. This is not a really moralizing story tbh. This speaks very much to me, but all good.

Yes thats what I mean. Without the same confirmation they cant be as effortlessly cocky. Everybody can act good and bad from where they are. An alpha doesnt need to be toxic btw. he can just calmly radiate high levels of confidence without hiding any shadow parts. What do you mean?

I mean toxic behaviour in general to people around him. Like the "cool" high school kid who could tease everybody or even bully and who got away with it and got all the attention from girls. A beta couldnt just replicate that, he doesnt have the balls and confirmation for it. That super emotional high pressure survival container called school is over at some point of course but still at adult life these tendencies are present in more subtle ways.

NO, a beta cant get away with it, thats the point! If you are toxic you have to be powerful to overcome backlash which a beta isnt.

Cant be true what he says, he is too good looking.

The chinese look like clowns to me. They represent layalty yes but also lack of individuality and the ability to think for yourself. Has its pros and cons probably, pro is they would likely have a stronger backbone, con is they would likely have less strategy. But I am no expert in the military.

Proud of everyone over in America who showed up today!

I feel my ego rising. My bias is adapting. All from leaving the club and speaking my truth it seems. I have a lot of sexual opportunities and I will give into it to some extend. I want to work through this consciously though, this can become a giant trap. I became much more emotionally grounded from listening to what feels right to me and not maximizing body count.

The situation of a top 10% or in this case moreso top 0.1% of men is hard to understand from the outside. I mean its not just the men acting immoral, there is a whole system of people supporting this (in this case the girls who give themselves away for free). Very attractive guys can get emotionally isolated because people just want to fuck them and dont actually see them as a person, so they return that. And the primitive urges of a guy are making men want to have sexual abundance. Its a lot to ask from a top tier guy.

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Your customer could find out about Claude.

This fits well into the discussion. Should the top 10% of males pick a partner?

The point was not why they do these formations but why they dont bump into each other when they do it.

I think thats a bit simplistic to look at. Even small differences can create very different experiences, nevermind being in a war vs watching netflix. Although I agree that some patterns overlap. Okay sure. But what about an experience where the mom suddenly feels like something is up with her child which is not to be expected, for example being killed in a war. How would DNA explain that? Also we kind of got carried away. The initial example of telepathy were these birds and fish moving in perfect coordination. How does DNA explain that?

Well the only way you are going to find anybody is to socialize. You will likely just going to have the opportunity for sex with someone with the right chemistry as without much experience women will see you more as boyfriend material. I remember when I had my first girl it all felt so absolute, like I either have to choose her for the rest of my life or I shouldnt be with her at all. For me this mentality loosened a bit with experience. You cant know if things will turn out great or not. If the vibe is good lets see where things go. You cant avoid getting hurt or hurting others but people can heal from that and go on.

You will find someone naturally if you just socialize, there are lots of women around who are looking for a boyfriend. If you have social anxiety I would find some social group like an association. Its scary at first but once you made that jump after a few weeks it will feel natural to be in a social group and you will make lots of social gains for months and years without putting lots of extra effort into it just by having made that though decision once.

But life is so complex and unpredictable. My life is so different from that of my dad, I will get very different ideas. And this also wouldnt account for many things which arent in the DNA, for example when a parent notices when I die in war. Unless the dna somehow contains all of the information about reality.

@Schizophonia What health problems are holding you back? Just looking at your profile picture you should have no problem getting laid.

You mean because your DNA has a deterministic plan for you? But your DNA changes when it is inercting with the world. Maybe my dad saw a cool tattoo after I was born that I didnt see which changed his DNA but not mine. Not sure if I understand your point.

I feel very much at peace right now, its really nice.

But in this way the way my DNA got that idea was by looking at the face of my dad. We werent like at seperate places, not interacting with each other and then suddenly my DNA got the idea from my dads DNA.