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Thats not comparable. With hot air circulation you get basically rosted veggies, with steaming veggies maintain most of their moisture and more vitamins. A microwave with real steam mode can do most other things as well.

Baking is neither very efficient as it takes more time and energy then other cooking options nor super healthy as the veggies are exposed to lots of heat for a relatively long time which reduces some vitamins. It can be tasty though.

@Nilsi I prefer my IKEA-BAG, but I guess everyone has his own style...

I sold most of my fonds. Dont know if its the smartest choice but emotionally its so much better even though I invested just a few pennies. I was looking at my shares multiple times a days being aware that I had no way of knowing whats gonna happen next. I didnt expect to feel such emotional relief from selling them.

A guy in my theatre group just got accepted to an acting school. I always thought that he was incredibly bad at acting. But he just put everything in it and did it. I cant decode my feelings right now but I am guessing there will be some jealousy the future to the degree that I would want to do acting myself which I dont know if I want so that will be interesting.

Reality is a constant war of states of consciousness. States of consciousness wanting to et up other states of consciousness.

A big pill box. I dont take pills but I supplement omega3 a lot and multivitamin and always forgot to take it. In a big box you can super fast just pour all the pills for the week in like dog food and never forget to take it.

@Michael569 Microwaves can do so much. Appearently you can even do scrambled eggs in the microwave very easily even. What couldnt you cook with two microwaves? I will do some digging comparing actual steamer with combi microwave steamer. Having a way to cook veggies fast, comfortable, tasty and healthy is such an worthwhile long term investment. I am not lazy when it comes to eating veg but I am lazy when it comes to cooking them.

I already have an instapot and I rarely use it because its relatively inconveneint for me and the steaming option which is the most important feature for me makes veggies mushy. The minimalist argument is that I dont see a way around a microwave. The ability to heat things up quickly is irreplaceable so I have to built around the microwave. And of course besides steaming the overpriced microwave can also bake, grill, defrost and cook. It only cant airfry. The 200 dollar microwave could do that though.

A have a huge fetish for minimalism and a huge aversion for extra devices that clutter my kitchen. If I get one device that does it all that would be perfect. If I dont buy a steaming microwave I would buy a decently expensive microwave for 200 dollars anyway so its the question if the 300 dollar jump is worthed. Insta pot steaming doesnt work for me because veggies get slushy and its not as convenient because it takes more time and you have to clean the whole pot for a few veggies all the time. Steaming with strainer over pot is unconvenient because it takes time to get the water boiling and you have to set a timer and all of that. But super inexpensive so I could try it to see if I would actually steam often. So long term it would likely either be a 200 dollar microwave and a steamer or a 500 dollar microwave with steamer. How is steaming with a steamer like compared to steaming with a microwave (actual steaming microwave though) ? Where is more cleaning required ?

A strainer over pot is way less convenient though compared to a steaming microwave where you just put it in and it will finish on time. I will probably steam veggies my whole life. Instapot steaming doesnt work well for me, the veggies end up slushy.

👆 This is exactly what I had in mind. It comines ingenuity with spiritually lovey dovey. But I dont even feel that much of a drive to do this. WHY!?

I still think that this is about right. Basically I seem to have a strong innovative, creative drive on the one hand and a spiritually, lovely, empathic drive on the other hand. I reached very high levels of consciousness when I was a kid. When I take a nap at noon I sometimes get in touch with it and clearly remember that this was part of my lived experience back in the day. And I would just like to share that feeling with everybody because everybody would heal from it. The question is if I even want to express it direcetly though because there are many ways to express it indirectly. Could be through music, humor, just being around people, art ( the iPhone is such an example. Back in the day still with Steve job the iPhone was such a piece of innovation and beauty that basically the iPhone and boobs gave me the feeling that some higher force in the universe must exist )

"Deep love could heal me could kill me." - that was the main insight of my last mushroom trip. I crave deep romantic love so deeply as it could really heal some wounds. And I have quite a few yet I always had a feeling that they were healable. But I am so afraid of deep love because when it goes wrong I wouldnt know what to do. I am so sensitive to it, it could kill me. It feels almost like a gamble.

By being in the self help group for quite a few times now and also reading books about adhd I get a better and better picture of it. I notice that I could potentially be a very crazy, bold and energetic person. These are parts of my personality which I could just rarely express and only expressed in few intervals in my life when the social situation allowed it. Because whenever I did it didnt fit into society that well. Which is why I am in my head all the time, working to prevent more damage and also being intellectual of course. But whenever I was with a friend I trusted the adhd eneergy came out at some point but the amount of friendships I have had dropped over the years, at the moment I basically have no real friend. But also I am super picky when it comes to friends and relationships because I can quickly detect bullshit in other people (which is also what science says about adhd people) and most people are full of bullshit so its hard to find the right people.

A few more weeks until my employment contract (teaching 5th graders 5h at school a week) ends. I will update my impression later but there are a few things I figured out already. A class really does seem like a mirror of society. This was a big reason why I gravitated towards this job, to understand society better. A classroom is a mini version of society at large. But I dont know if I actually want that. I told myself that but maybe I deluded myself without noticing. Well I somehow want to be in this world and not distant but there is just so much bullshit (exploiting niceness and trust) from students that its hard to stomach. I dont know if policemen for example can just integrate the bs they see everyday and use it as an opportunity to step up their spiritual love for the world, in reality they probably become more blunt to hold emotionally together and survive. Thats where my theory came in touch with realities limits. I got the advice from two social worker I spent some time with that I will just become more and more blunt - "consumed". You need a hard core to stay the same in this job they said. Well I feel so out of my natural power - everything would be probably be pretty different then. Maybe if I was emotionally stronger I could shake it off more easily and actually step up my spiritual love for the world with this. There are some things which I deeply dont enjoy about teaching though: 1) students who dont want to learn need to be forced to learn. wtf - you get more and more acustomed to it but WTF. 2) to get order in the classroom you have to forbid all kinds of things. It especially hurts me when I cant let stundets express themselves. 3) You always need to confront people. I am naturally a mediator, this is really hard for me. There are other things I noticed that are really good about teaching though: 1) I seem to built a good connection with the class. 2) Its easy to speak in front of the class at some point. Like I am sometimes afraid of leaving the house but not really to be in front of a class because I am used to it. 3) Its not a super time consuming job. I am also pretty awake all the time because the situation demands it and with relatively few hours you can make a decent living and because it doesnt take a ton of preparation its easy to do. You can teach a few hours a day and basically have the rest of the day for yourself.

Had my weekly ADHD self help group session today. The one girl I was building a connection with didnt go this time. This made a huge difference. I didnt even really consider that what helped me wasn't adhd people per se but maybe her in particular who helped to calm me. (Well I was also pretty tired. I rode my bike a lot today. I am just reading a book about adhd and it has a section where it describes the benefits of sport for adhd.) People with adhd have problems with impulse control and that is especially noticeable in social situations. I dont know why but it helps me when I see other people also struggle with it but it does. Maybe partly because it helps to acknowledge and accept parts of myself. I didnt find another person in this group quite like the girl today. We just exchanged a lot of interpersonal communication which didnt happen with anyone else. It happened a little with another girl today. While people with adhd can have problems with impulse control, sometimes letting out subtle flirting, stares, ... because of it, people with adhd are also often very fast at picking these little things up so that they kind of pick "it" (unconscious interpersonal communication caused by poor impulse control) up from the root. There is kind of a balance. The session still helped me today, but not as much as last time.

So american tech companie shares crashed a little. Is it likely that they drop way further? I have another very wide spread fond which has shares in the whole world economy and active trader who monitor everything. Might be a relatively safe strategy right now.

How you best get sex is a serious question of contemplation as the need for sex is there, you cant stop that and how you fulfill this desire has a large effect on your life. I dont think hooker are a good strategy though as you will probably built a bad self image out of that. If you wouldnt take the path of least resistance is that really something you would choose?

@PurpleTree Is it unusual for fox news to not kiss trumps ass? Although there werent completly neutral fox news didnt really try hard to defend Trump here. But baybe Zelensky just handled the interview well.

Just had my weekly adhd session again. I just feel emotionally balanced right now. The waves flattened - a rare moment of strong inner peace. So much hinges upon me finding ways to integrate that state of peace more often because from that place can I find energy to do things. Without it I am just in constant survival mode leaking with untreated strong emotions and being unable to communicate it and get help from other non-adhd people. This self help group is a diamond I found. Nothing that lasts forever perhaps, but maybe I gathered valueable information I can keep for the rest of my life. Let's see I generally find peace by being honest which I knew before. In addition having people with similar issues might give that an extra boost. I also seem to learn a lot and get to a lot of peace when I communicate with other adhd people because they see little body signs of interest or distress and hold you and you do the same for them but always in a gentle way. When I am in deep emotional unbalance I need nothing more and nothing less then a gentle closeness like when a water strider carefully walks on water. I thought I was weird, but an adhd person can be sensitive enough to manage that. I can be. It's just a different way of interacting with the world with adhd. From easily getting a sensory overload and being distracted except for things that catch your attention for some reason a lot becomes very different. Maybe building an adhd friend group would help me.

I dont know the exact recipe anymore, I mixed a power which contained natron and activated carbon and I maybe two other ingredients. Was said that this would work well. When I had my yearly teeth checkup they said my teeth were in a bad state, they weren't clean and were weak.