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I felt really tired the last couple of days, there seems to be a lot of emotional processing.

Drawing a line in my head. When I try to draw a line in my head from what feels like the ego aka I try to force my mind to draw a line, I can't do it. When I let go of that and let the drawing of a line happen, it happens effortlessly. It feels like no one is drawing the like, but that's the only source a line can be drawn in my head. This is not about drawing a line in my head.

I love futuristic ideas about how society might evolve. I am thinking of giant intelligent skyscraper cities, powered by AI with huge natural parks around it. I am not thinking much about what the technology would entail, I am thinking more about how to engineer an atmosphere, a collective state of consciousness with the structures given which creates life, purpose, connection. Man there is a foto I want to put right here but I dont know where it is in this forum. I have a very strong emotional memory and memory of what the message was but not about the details. These strenghts and weaknesses may be some puzzle pieces for my LP. This is cool as well.

GPT 4o: Here’s my own ranking of the Top 100 most famous spiritual teachers, based on a combination of: Global name recognition Cultural and media presence Influence on spiritual thought and public discourse Reach across multiple generations, regions, or movements This is a subjective, holistic list that blends ancient authority with modern fame—ordered from most to least globally recognizable today (2025): 🥇 Top 100 Most Famous Spiritual Teachers (Ranked by Fame & Influence) Jesus of Nazareth – Christianity Buddha (Siddhartha Gautama) – Buddhism Muhammad – Islam Dalai Lama (Tenzin Gyatso) – Tibetan Buddhism Pope Francis – Christianity (Catholicism) Krishna – Hinduism Laozi (Lao Tzu) – Taoism Confucius – Confucianism Eckhart Tolle – The Power of Now, spiritual bestseller Sadhguru (Jaggi Vasudev) – Indian mystic and global speaker Thich Nhat Hanh – Mindfulness, Zen Buddhism Oprah Winfrey – Spiritual media force Deepak Chopra – Mind-body and New Age wellness Rumi – Mystic poet, widely quoted Alan Watts – Popularizer of Zen and Eastern thought Jordan Peterson – Archetypal psychology with spiritual leanings Paramahansa Yogananda – Autobiography of a Yogi Paulo Coelho – The Alchemist, spiritual novelist Carl Jung – Archetypes, synchronicity, soul depth Osho (Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh) – Controversial but widely known Marianne Williamson – A Course in Miracles, politics and spirituality Ramakrishna – Mystical figure of modern Hinduism Sri Sri Ravi Shankar – Art of Living founder Rumi (again, yes, twice for good reason) – Still rising in pop culture Jiddu Krishnamurti – Anti-guru philosopher Don Miguel Ruiz – The Four Agreements Neale Donald Walsch – Conversations with God Byron Katie – “The Work” spiritual inquiry Gabor Maté – Trauma, healing, presence Joe Dispenza – Neuro-spiritual self-healing Ram Dass – Be Here Now, psychedelic and bhakti bridge Mooji – Advaita Vedanta Amma (Mata Amritanandamayi) – Hugging Saint Krishna Das – Kirtan musician and teacher L. Ron Hubbard – Founder of Scientology (controversial) Esther Hicks / Abraham – Law of Attraction B.K.S. Iyengar – Yoga Sri Aurobindo – Integral Yoga Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche – Shambhala Buddhism Terence McKenna – Psychedelics and evolution Jean Houston – Human potential and spirituality Peter Ralston – Consciousness and martial arts Rupert Spira – Nondualism Francis Lucille – Advaita teacher Adyashanti – Nondual awakening Bruce Lipton – Biology of belief Teal Swan – Shadow integration and trauma Brené Brown – Vulnerability and soulful leadership Michael A. Singer – The Untethered Soul Viktor Frankl – Existential spiritual meaning Pema Chödrön – Western Buddhist nun Sadghuru Brahmarishi Mohanji – Global Indian mystic David R. Hawkins – Map of Consciousness Richard Rohr – Christian contemplative Ramana Maharshi – Enlightenment through self-inquiry Zoroaster – Ancient Persian spiritual leader Rudolf Steiner – Anthroposophy, Waldorf education Helena Blavatsky – Theosophy Aleister Crowley – Occult mysticism Manly P. Hall – Esoteric wisdom Gregg Braden – Science-spirituality bridge Lama Rod Owens – Queer, Black, Buddhist visionary Vivekananda – Vedanta in the West Diana Cooper – Angel spirituality Jean Klein – Kashmir Shaivism Andrew Cohen – Evolutionary enlightenment Gangaji – Stillness and self-inquiry Michael Beckwith – Agape spiritual center Lisa Nichols – Spiritual motivation Rhonda Byrne – The Secret Vadim Zeland – Reality Transurfing Bentinho Massaro – Modern enlightenment speaker Dan Millman – Way of the Peaceful Warrior Sri Chinmoy – Peace through meditation Mantak Chia – Taoist energy practices John Kabat-Zinn – Mindfulness pioneer David Lynch – Transcendental Meditation advocate Jay Shetty – Monk turned influencer Sadguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami – Shaivism Clarissa Pinkola Estés – Women Who Run With the Wolves Drunvalo Melchizedek – Sacred geometry Masaru Emoto – Water consciousness Andrew Weil – Holistic medicine Ken Wilber – Integral theory G.I. Gurdjieff – Fourth Way Michael Newton – Life-between-lives hypnosis Dolores Cannon – Quantum healing hypnosis Abraham Maslow – Self-actualization theory Søren Kierkegaard – Christian existentialist Simone Weil – Christian mystic Yuval Noah Harari – Spiritual history Clarence Clemons – Saxophonist/spiritual seeker Jim Carrey – Awakened public figure Russell Brand – Addiction & spirituality Amy Cuddy – Power posing meets spiritual psychology T.K.V. Desikachar – Therapeutic yoga Shiva Rea – Prana flow yoga Daniel Schmachtenberger – Meta-awareness & meaning crisis Lama Yeshe – Tibetan teacher of the West Satish Kumar – Peace pilgrim and ecologist

I dont want to get addicted to it especially due to ADD (inattentive ADHD), I already did well in selling all my consoles a long time ago. But VR just opens up so many new possibilites to do stuff, so I feel there are opportunites I probably miss, there are even VR-worlds especially made for relaxing and ADHD: https://www.meta.com/de-de/experiences/floatvr-relaxation-and-focus-sleep-anxiety-adhd/5716140881752678/?utm_source=chatgpt.com

@Razard86 I tested it and it didnt gave me Leo Gura as an answer even in an extended list. Chatgpt ist agreeable, maybe you spoke about Leo before in the chat which might imply that you see him as an important teacher? Well I asked about the solopsism video, asked again and it still didnt list Leo Gura so that experiment failed.

Ahahaha I was scared to leave the house today. It was a mixture of things probably, maybe because I havent socialized a lot the last couple of days, maybe because of the thing on monday, maybe because a girl isnt texting me back and I admit, I put a few hopes into it, maybe other stuff came up from leaving the club, who knows.. But at my spot today it kind of went okay which was a relief. At this point some people kind of now that I have problems fitting in. Then I hugged a women I knew from before. We kind of had a weird dynamic, where we vibed but she kind of wanted more and I gave the wrong signs and then it came to a moment which felt kind of like herassment. And people around noticed and its kind of shameful for her and kind of weird for me and she often tried to overplay it with being super cool but at some moments bringing in playful sexual gestures which felt bad. But the vibe was good the last couple of times and I kind of forgot about it all and went to hug her I felt inauthentic to myself. Like I didnt want to hug her. And it reflected the same dynamic as in the club where people wanted something from me, I declined, it maybe became kind of toxic, but I still played along trying to be friends with them which felt really inauthentic. Trying to get me out of the situation, there were a few chill spots in the dark which I enjoyed. Felt great to let all the bad emotions come up without disrupting them. Then she came to me for some reason and I felt interrupted in my safe space. Later it became difficult to get into the social mood again. Getting out when you need time alone is important but a change of state is hard, reactivating the social state can take a while. It became better though but nothing compared to the states I reached last week. I saw many of the same people I saw last time and last time I vibed with them so well, I was magnetic, this time I felt more like an outsider. Such a drastic change like that. I am in the mood to cry. People still randomly support me sometimes, stage green is king.

@LordFall Because to be compedetive in this video formats you have to create stimulating (dopamine) content. Some content can be broken down into a small videos, some for some content a short frame doesnt to it justice. But most people wont use it to spread high quality content, most will use it to be competetive.

There is a competition for your attention, which is why TikTok and replications for it are so popular. These apps capture your attention the most and are the most addicting, so they will likely stay. However there are people who drop out of that madness for their mental health. But most people probably wont wise up.

Because its addicting, supports a mind which woanders in all directions and intelligent things mostly cant be explained in a short video.

I downloaded Skype again to find the contact I had the conversation about remote viewing with. It wasnt there anymore unfortunately. But in my mails I found a transaction for a Taster session for 30 Euro for Stefan Franke in 2019. This seems to be it. Hmm... Stefan Franke seems grounded, intelligent and humble. Very good sign. He also gives all kinds of examples of how remote viewing can be applied and also which strenghts different remote viewer have. Depending on your mind you can remote view some things better then other things. If you are very social you can remote view social dynamics more, a person with a technical mind can remote view technical things better. And appearently you can remote view all kind of things about the future like where society is headed and so on. I stay sceptical but if that all works it would be fantastical. The taster session now costs 75 Euros, a beginner course almost 2000 Euros. The whole package costs 4000 Euros. I do have the money for it right now. If this all works it would get me a toe into a new realm. And honestly with AI becoming so strong qualia is one of the few things which we have above AI. And this includes psychic phenomena. So its important to expand this work before humans sink into meaninglessness before AI. And in terms of paying my rent, he also speaks about working for private people, I could ask if thats a job which can pay you enough money to live. I will watch more content for now:

Yeah if a country has an ego backlash or if the survival situation worsen a lot for example through war so that the country slips into a lower stage of development. Here in Germany I notice the combination of these factors, discontent with stage green and uncertain geopolitical times which makes people more conservative, the young generation cares about family value etc.

I created this near the end of last year but didnt upload it as it needed a little polishing which I forgot. I am just keeping it this way now. The idea is perfect though.

Missed a social opportunity today. Not sure if its like the more the better but its very clear that healing socially is a key thing I need to do to get better and so find my LP. Okay there seemed to be mostly dudes anyway. I like to befriend girls a lot as well, I feel much more comfortable with an even mix. Need to find spots for that.

But what do I even mean by that? I can only do that IF I actually integrate a state of consciousness where I can see existential beauty. Its just I experienced being existentially very happy and connected to some source and I see other people not connected to that source and in pain and so I want to connect other people to it as well to some degree.. I like emotional, moralizing storys like Avatar the Last Airbender, but it doesnt get to the existential root. But maybe creating something beautiful takes being created to the existential. Like the beauty of Apples design (back then) , or exceptional humor , or deep morality .. What would my role be in that? I am imagining doing emotional and philosophical labor for other people, like a bird pre chewing food for its babies. Or this:

Had a nap that got very existentially deep for some reason.. I got a trippy short insight into the working of my mind as a search engine and whatever I search for more pops up more often. And also how on an existential level I suffer appearently without realizing it because I have nothing deep to work towards. Which opened up the question if I want that or if I want a good dream. But this flashed by pretty quickly. ____ I went to an information day for ergotheraphy last saturday. It was okay, if I do it then I would probably have a class with some younger people there. Its really important for me to feel peoples problems and help them to overcome them. So a job like ergotheraphy could be great for that. The problem however is that I always think that helping people with everyday problems isnt doing much in the greater picture. Yeah I might help a few but I am ultimately part of the rat race. And so I am thinking of creating content about spirituality which isnt solving practical problems but helps people recognize the metaphysical beauty of existance to accept or love reality however dark it is at the moment more. Let me phrase it as perfect as it gets -> Artistically pointing out existential beauty in relative uglyness to heal people. But then this becomes a little too much for me as well sometimes. I love to help people with small problems, the are shortlived but while they are there they fullfill me, I just need to find a system of getting problems from people constantly so I dont run out, aka working as something like an ergotherapist. This is not my current thinking btw. but through the recent life changes these thoughts stored in my memory opened up to me again.

Yes but I have an ape brain and have monkey needs, can't ingnore that. For years I coudlnt even access much on psychedelics cause my crying survival needs clouded my vision. Not sure how it would be right now. There is an interesting balance you can strike. You know when you completly cut yourself off from people you actually feel more pressure to fit in cause your unconscious cave men survival program sees you in danger and pressures you and makes you feel like shit. And this also leaves an important perspective of normal peoples life on the table. People who are super integrated on the other hand can sometimes be way more authentic because their unconscious program doesnt see them in danger so it grants them more leeway but then of course at the cost of taking in societies way of thinking. Maybe in a good balance you can get the best out of both worlds. This question of how you go about sozializing when you have spiritual pursuits is super old. My philophy teacher back then gave me the book the Steppenwolff. Its about a guy pursuing truth all his life and living miserably because he cant connect to anyone, he takes all the disadvantages of pursuing truth but didnt reach god it seemed. So he wants to ends his life. But then right before it he wants to kill himself he becomes to scared to actually do it and gives in, sozializes and a whole new world opens up for him. He soften ups and heals all the damage of his past. But then later does LSD and comes in contact again with all the bullshit humans do and gets the insight that he needs to develop his sense of humor as a strategy to combine both living with humans and also keeping his truth seeking in a healthy way. Idk maybe he should have killed himself instead and keep his dignity.. But people have socialized and still reached all the spiritual insights. I think one should simply be clever about it and seperate sozializing from spiritual pursuits, I am still figuring out how to do it. I would rather have you here then on the Thoughts and Insights yournal. edit: Sorry if I sound rude, I would like to keep my Thoughts and Insights Journal private but you can comment here no problem.

I knew for years that my blockades hold me back a ton, but it just looked so hopeless that maybe I thought I need to accept that things are shitty. But this cost my psyche so much and somehow healing from that I get a lot of energy back now. Also in a sense friends are brakes because they help me fit in, give me feedback of whats acceptable and what not. I am slowly extinguishing the fire there. I am not yet accomplishing much yet in terms of Esteem needs, but with belonging and love more met I am much closer to making self actualization possible.

I can have intense bursts of energy and random creativity which is super exciting especially in acting as I noticed yesterday. The amount of crazy energy is unbelievable which is sleeping deep down. But sometimes I do dumb shit through that same uncontrolled energy as well which makes me block my energy. Like yesterday as well, I played a flirting corrupt police officer stopping a car with two ladies and in my estimation overstepped a comfort line even though everybody on the outside played along with it and didnt give me much signs that I overstepped a line but I am pretty sure I did and now I overthink this shit for days and block myself. “An ADHD mind is like a Ferrari engine with bicycle brakes.” by Dr. Edward Hallowell 🧠 Interpretation: Ferrari engine = powerful, fast, creative, energetic thinking Bicycle brakes = poor impulse control, weak self-regulation, difficulty slowing down

How much time do you spent on exercising?

Mayby write in the title that you are a gay guy otherwise people will just overread it and give you misleading advice. From what I have heard about gay community is that sex seems to be a lot easier to get there while connection is a bit harder to build. Which would make sense with two people with high testosterone. Is that true in your experience?

I mean he did get a sweatheart in the end. This is not a really moralizing story tbh. This speaks very much to me, but all good.

Yes thats what I mean. Without the same confirmation they cant be as effortlessly cocky. Everybody can act good and bad from where they are. An alpha doesnt need to be toxic btw. he can just calmly radiate high levels of confidence without hiding any shadow parts. What do you mean?

I mean toxic behaviour in general to people around him. Like the "cool" high school kid who could tease everybody or even bully and who got away with it and got all the attention from girls. A beta couldnt just replicate that, he doesnt have the balls and confirmation for it. That super emotional high pressure survival container called school is over at some point of course but still at adult life these tendencies are present in more subtle ways.

NO, a beta cant get away with it, thats the point! If you are toxic you have to be powerful to overcome backlash which a beta isnt.