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I have only taken two low to medium doses of lsd yet otherwise mostly magic truffles. Lsd is definitely the way to go I feel but I have to work myself up to higher doses. Lsd feels tougher to trip on also.

Like 6 years ago I listened to a short lecture of Alan Watts where he poetically speaks about how it would feel to go through life being aware that you are god. It was kind of a mini enlightenment into the possibility to another way of existing where you flow through life by surrendering complete control. I intuitively knew that this is true but didn’t know what it really was or how to get there but I followed this intuition all these years and ended up here. The materialist paradigm is pain lol. The way that colourful leafs swirl in the air when it is fall, The painful yet invigorating way of cold wind on naked skin when it is winter, a gull screaming while it is flying above the sea while the sun goes down. This has to be profound love, it has to be but I can’t access it for some reason.

@Yeah Yeah What is LOA?

This is just a prime example of mastering something you love and building your life around it. That dude just liked squatting, filmed himself everyday doing it and turned it into his life purpose. For this nieche his audience is pretty big and I think he could easily find enough clients to become a well paid gym coach. I think he works somewhere else but he could easily make the transition. I would have never thought that something this simple could make you independent so I am super grateful that these people exist so that they can crush my limiting beliefs.

I identify as the rarest of male types, the Shrigma male.

Compared to what? In comparison to contemplating at home definitely in comparison to playing video games alone by yourself probably not. I think it depends on the kind of people you socialize with. If you have friends that you like to have intellectual discussions with then I think that can definitely increase your intelligence because you have to explain things in a simple way so people can understand it which makes you understand your own ideas better. Also I have a lot of problems with concentration so when I socialize I train that skill more then when I wouldn’t. But IN GENERAL I agree. I become a lot less conscious when I socialize a lot.

Damn do you have opportunities to socialize? Meeting new people can bring you out of a rut and change your perspective a lot.

Exactly lol. Never tried MDMA but I don’t like the acid comedown and combining that with the MDMA comedown is an experience I want to avoid.

Value is relative. You say you might like money driven people, then business events are probably your best bet. If you look for well developed people then acting class might be an option if that is something you would like to do. Basically there are more women then men doing it in general and also for acting you constantly have to change perspective to act authentically plus most people go there to let go of social anxiety which is both a high consciousness thing to do. I do acting classes and for my acting class it’s also about being socially critical so it’s a super duper stage green place. Of course that’s still far away from a spiritual place but really even authentic stage green isn’t to common also. I mean you gotta settle somewhere.

@Tyler Robinson Sadghuru is at stage Turquoise and the YouTuber is at stage green. I think it should illustrate that stage green is super judgeful to devils because they lack the awareness to see that there is no distinction between themself and devils. If they would see that they wouldn’t judge so much because they would know they just judge themself. But I don’t want to speak for @thisintegrated ??

Discovered a trauma: Somehow I always hated certain roller coaster in amusement parks. Although I was never really scared of any of them. I could do loops, crazy speed, big hights everything but what I hated was when the roller coaster when down fast. I always feel an incredible amount of pressure and unfomtortableness in my anus (or maybe root chakra) when that happens. It might sound funny and everybody always thought I was just scared but that was just the reality and I didn’t know what it was until today. Somehow my dad talked about a scene that happened to me then I was 2. I was in a water park with my dad and some adult friends. There was this really long slide and my dads friend talked me into doing it although I was super scared and didn’t want to do it. He was like "that’s what a real men would do“ and stupid toxic shit like that. I don’t know the exact details anymore but my dad asked me if we wanted to do it together and I trusted my dad whole heartedly and manipulated by my dads friend I agreed to it. Because my dad was so heavy we went down really fast. We flinged left and right and I was probably super scared to fall of my dads belly. I could even remember parts of the event. I was in mortal fear. As a final touch at the end of slide we submerged into the water and it took a good two seconds until we emerged from the water and could breath again. My dad rationalized it by saying that slides were built so nothing could happen. I know how I lost some trust in my dad that day because I never thought he would do something like that to me. Shit happens. I know and feel he is sorry for it and didn’t want this to happen of course.

Yeah Sadghuru isn’t even against veganism in any way. He just doesn’t talk about the devil in a serious way, he jokes about it. Sadghuru laughs the devil in the face. That’s what the vegan cant comprehend because he makes the distinction between himself as a saint and others as devils although there is no distinction of course.

I think its a bit of a moralistic stance that the state takes when it doesnt excecute its criminals. Because the citizens of the state are a product of the state. Why doesnt the state have enough ways to stop and help criminals to not become criminals in the first place? So the state is responsible for it in a certain sense. Its easy to just kill them and not take responsibility for your action. But thats not truth.

Yes thats true but there has to be a pragmatic solution first. Stand up to him or leave him. After that you can practice love. If you do it before it will just because an excuse to not make a bold decision and not authentic love. Also respect and love yourself. See how much your brother destroys your mind. Do you want? Do you love yourself enough to change things?

It depends what causes the anxiety of course. If you arent grounded in "reality“ and thats what causes anxiety then psychedelics probably backfire ? On the other hand if you have social anxiety for example you might be able to identify the root problem. Or you can let go of bad thought pattern that you can now identify from that higher state of consciousnis. Magic truffles definetely reduced my social anxiety no doubt, not sure about lsd yet but its different.

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It sounds like you want to get to the absolute. Absolutely everything is Manipulation one way or another. But so is the attempt to not manipulate.

I mean if you look at it holistically I think death penalty makes sense in severe cases. Basically all of the ressources that go into these criminals could be used to help society. Just think about if you saved all of the money of a criminal who was 40 years in prison and put it all in the healthcare system… You might even save more lifes that way lol. Also they could still be a threat to other people in prison or when they get out after x number of years.. So rationally im kinda for death penalty. But not emotionally. I dont know maybe its stage green energy or maybe there is something wrong with it in principle that I dont see. Also the fact that 4% of death penalty are wrong is pretty high. On the other hand 4% of 0.00..% is really low. Idk I am conflicted.

Can’t tell if I don’t know the details. There is probably a case where manipulation is the right decision but I don’t know if that’s the case here. Idk I think you should trust your child. If you are REALLY serious about it and tell your child the potential consequences of what could happen then I think your child would listen. I mean there are probably some psychopath children plus I am not a parent but deep down I feel like you should trust your child. Do you feel like you could confront other people if you had to ?

@Jake Chambers At least you don’t have to experience the growing retardation of society. ? I hope Leo could get you some hope. Seriously man, many people learned to accept death with psychedelics. Much love ♥️

I had the same thoughts recently and I came to a similar conclusion. If I don’t act at least a bit devilish then I will act my devil out unconsciously to get what I want which will lead to way more harm. Having a nice guy ego can be pretty dangerous. You might justify much of your behavior by saying it was out of good intention. See that sounds pretty devilish to me. I don’t see why you have to cause fear to get attention and why do you even think that what you have to say is that important that it justifies that you manipulate people? Have you integrated your shadow? Would you allow yourself to be angry? Many people who do fighting sport for example are the most peaceful people ever exactly because they know they could defend themself so they don’t feel the need to manipulate people to never come into conflict. I think I understand you pretty well. I had build a similar identity about being a nice guy.

Almost sober mystical experience: I really felt like how little of a grib my ego had on me this evening it was really nice. I couldnt sleep, I had to much energy. Something dragged me awake here and then. It were flashbacks from my recent truffles trip where I got into mystical experience territory. Also all of the spiritual concepts worked through me. Then suddenly my whole field of vision turned pitch black. I mean it was black before but now I got catapulted from my thoughts into that black field. I lost almost all grounding of reality. My sense as the viewer of all of that just hang on an incredible thin string. I tried to let go of that and I felt how my remaining Sense of self desperately defended itself and by doing that turned my eyes almost completly backwards. It managed to win but I didnt even care that much. A short time after that I was still awake and tried to reach that state again as I didnt want to get such a rare high consciousnis state get wasted. I invisioned how it would feel like to be without an ego. I managed to invision that state really clearly and tried to make a really clear path towards it by systemetically detatching from everything that I thought was me (bodymind..). Then my ego backlashed and showed me in a short swang all of my attatchments I had to let go off if I wanted to go to that state. It were like 6 (gf, theater, Family, Sense of self, … ). I pushed myself and said yes its okay I want to let go of all of that. My ego was battling super hard again and my almost turned backwards again. But again my ego succeded. Shortly after that I heard the Sound of the Alarm. I had to get ready for work :).

@Kamo thanks I will try it out! @OBEler , @Carl-Richard thanks I will try to get my hands on one of them if plugging doesn’t work.

Yeah I think you guys are right. I had my little fantasy where people come together and find meaning in supporting each other. People finding new appreciation for what they already have and by all of that the environment gets saved in the background because people can’t afford stuff that destroys the environment. Guess there are a lot more complications then I thought, thanks for clearing that up.