michaelcycle00

@flowboy man you missed the mark by like a mile. That’s all New Age crap, we don’t preach that here. In fact Leo would tell you that all that is simply more dream bs.

My thoughts exactly

Yeah it sucks, to put it lightly. The more I experience stuff in the day to day the more I conclude that the world only makes sense if you force it to. Whatever God wanted, intended or hoped that I'd become when it created me can go straight to the bin. I'm gonna take this piece of shit bull by the horns and I'll break or reinvent this whole thing if I have to. F this trash of a game/dream.

Say me, 22 y/o guy, by my own will, wake up to my Godhood now and to how I'm creating every situation and person that I interact with. None of them have a POV, they're just figments of my consciousness and they only ever exist when they're in my direct experience, as well as everything else. At the same time, I decide that I don't want to die for whatever reason and instead gonna use my Godly power to manifest the life of my dreams and carry that through instead, since I don't see a point in living a life that I already know is entirely fictional, so I'd prefer to live out MY (ego) fiction instead. Now I've come down from the realization and I find myself in a mansion, some cool cars in the garage, billions in my bank account and a hottie waiting for me in the living room. At this point there is no denying that I AM God, that I am all alone, all powerful, and that this is just a very advanced simulation of my imagination. There is no bed to crawl under when I feel dread over my own existence anymore. No one else to blame either because there's no one there. At that point, what is left to do? Have I ruined the game/dream? How am I supposed to let go of everything that I've grown up thinking I knew and that I assigned meaning to over the years? Everything is reduced to 0, nothing, nada. I don't think I can carry on with the lie, heck, not even know, but even much less after that. And that's exactly the problem. I genuinely feel like I already know this is all fake, intuitively so. I feel to the core of my being that if I truly wanted to I could collapse the entire "Universe" right now. I could wake up right at this moment through my own will, because I already know I'm the first cause, always. Not a forum, not a psychedelic, not a meditation technique. It's ME... And this, is just all so saddening. Having to let go of my family early on, and that at this point I have no choice in the matter because I know too much, I've seen too much. And once that happens, I think I'll just suicide and onto the next dream, a clean slate... and that is just as saddening. I feel like I've already lost them, the few people I had in my life. And I am so young too... I wasn't ready for this (could anyone be?). On one hand I can't keep on living a lie of this magnitude, I just have to know the truth to keep going. And on the other hand, I kind of don't wanna find out because once there's no more doubt, I won't be able to bear the fact and I'll kill myself. I feel like I'm in the middle of a "unstoppable force meets an immovable object" situation and it's just dragging me down like you have no idea. I don't know what to do anymore, if there even is something I could possibly do.

Hey guys, I just read all of your responses, thank you. It's helped me clear my mind a whole lot more and see things in a different light. Also, a special thank you to @Sincerity for being so elaborate with his/her response. I resonate with what you say and appreciate the message, I'll carry through in a different way from now on so I stop living in delusion.

Right but that's not all you've taught, c'mon now. The technicalities are just as important IMO. It's like if I were to gift you a Rolex watch that you've been wanting for over a decade and you're going crazy about it. But what if I told you that I actually stole it during the middle of the night and had to kill the 2 guards in turn to get it. The appreciation and excitement would die off rather quickly. And Love is a very conflicting thing indeed, because everything is it which means you can suffer every single day of your life and have that life be seen as equal by God as the perfect life of riches, travel and good experiences with family, friends and partners is to us. So telling someone who hasn't awakened that "everything is love" is gonna do nothing but confuse them.

I seriously hope you're right man. You're giving me hope with your words, and for that I thank you. Not trying to pass the blame on to you but a big chunk of my ideas come from your teachings, although as @Breakingthewall said, maybe I should've just taken them as a pointer.

When you say this, what exactly do you mean? Like in full detail, how do you describe "any shape or form"? Is it some sort of imagination level we as humans cannot conceive or is it something different?

Never, but that sounds very interesting... and scary. Would you mind telling me what "IFS" stands for? Sounds like something I'd like to look into.

He says he has powers and then goes on to say the most idiotic of things such as: "Why walk on water to cross to the other side when you can take the ferry for 50 cents?" -Uhh, because it's more practical, faster, cheaper, and better for the environment. I think he was trying to make a point about not being fancy, like a "chop wood, carry water" type of teaching but it's straight up worse to take the ferry in every aspect. It's like if I told you that you could fly like Superman and get to anywhere in the world in minutes or seconds, but instead you should just keep using your gas car and taking a plane for longer destinations. Going backwards smh. True, I don't get why Leo is so sold on genetics being a big contributing factor to spirituality. I mean at the end of the day, psychedelics are not the cause of enlightenment either. God just put them there for the sake of the story but there's no reason why you couldn't awaken right now, whoever and however you are, and that'd have zero to do with the dream, which genetics is a part of.

Well I'm reading this with my 2 eyes so I'm guessing not fam

Talk to him, being nonchalant about it. Get to the bottom of it. If I sense they really mean it, I'd try to make myself seem like I'm on his side, some encouragement, what I would personally "do"... anything that gets him to open up about it and share details so I can report him with proof and police actually does something. But if you mean that it was a stranger online I'd just block him as you did; there's virtually nothing you can actually do about it that'll stop him.

I've been trying to find more about this for a little over 2 years now haha. Actually, I think my first topic/thread/post in this forum is specifically about this, but I think you worded it better than I did. I've only found bits and pieces of this in a few trip reports but that's it. I hate the idea that every dream/creation always has to be a human in planet Earth or something very similar (like a gray E.T. in Alpha Centauri). I'd imagine that for Creation/God to be truly infinite and limitless it should go beyond what we can conceive.

I don't think this is correct. They're just able to identify the more outwardly-expressive creeps and weirdos, which doesn't really take much and even us men can identify them. Women get easily manipulated by the smarter ones though; I've seen it myself, a lot. Heck, I could easily be one of those. My internal locus is wildly different from what I express on the outside, and women tend to be really comfortable with me after we start talking and I make them laugh, which I'll admit I always do despite not trying to. If they could read my mind they wouldn't be too comfortable, don't get me wrong I'm not crazy or anything but I for example mostly agree with the blackpill, which really isn't anything bad per se, it just gets taken out of context a lot, but at least women on the internet don't seem to be too fond of it. I agree, it's actually most women who disagree with me here. They think their biology has 0 power over them, laughable. "Not all women are the same!!!" they say; biologically, yes you all are. Assuming you don't have a condition, of course. It's why sharks game y'all so easily. Do you mean that that's a woman's emotional logic or that men with emotional logic shouldn't judge women harshly? Also, for a lot of us dudes, the reason we judge or criticize women is that a lot of you are dishonest. You can't just agree that a guy is right about you, for some reason. I guess y'all hate to think that the opposite sex has you figured out and it makes you feel inferior, this would make sense considering it's primarily feminists who get all worked up about it. Or when women tell me they mostly care about personality and that looks don't matter much... that's a lie and you're just justifying your settling. I know this text seems personal because of the way I typed it but I wasn't trying to make it. Just letting you know.

What if they fell for a serial killer? Would be quite the liberation lol

And yet, here I am seeing your comment through my POV. I'm beginning to think Solipsism is just a paradox. I just need to crack how relative time and the Absolute intertwine and I'll know for sure. The question is, how could I do that? Lol.

Well yes, of course, lol. But what Leo is trying to point out is that things that are normally deemed as bad or evil are actually Love, but it's pointless to say because everything is Love. Might as well just say "Shitting down homeless people's throats is Love" and it is just the same Why point out something specific such as that in favor of anything else when he himself won't accept that kind of behavior towards his family? And "Uvuvwevwevwe onyetenvewve ugwemubwem ossas" is the longest name in Africa and probably the world. Also, 'contextual paradox' adapted to real life= a synonym for mental gymnastics. Don't try to be patronizing, I was very clear. Leo's argument renders useless in a real-life context, which is where, y'know, he's teaching.

I don't think it's the best example to say that pedophilia is love and then also declare that if someone was like that to his children he'd kill them. It's like saying murder is love but we're still locking you up in a cell for life. You're being reactionary, that's not radical acceptance.

You say this: and then you go and type an entire paragraph demeaning "low-consciousness" people. You use the word "delusional" and these other people use the word "fool". Two sides of the same coin. In fact, this is wrong. The reason highly intelligent people tend to doubt themselves is because they are usually uncomprehended all throughout their life and develop that as a coping mechanism, which is just insecurity. I can agree with the humility part when speaking of a "sane" person, but even narcissists can be intellectually gifted. Also, I'm pretty sure @Razard86 is referring to normal day-to-day socialization. Not one in Mensa's private headquarters. Talking to average people has done jack shit for me.

You mean others' minds and my mind are the exact same mind, right? RIGHT? I'm tired of you guys saying that my ego's perspective is all there is. If it's not true, why torment me/us with that? And if it is, then might as well just be blatant and say my real name so that there's no more doubt. It's so strange because then what does that make you? If you go around telling people in this forum that they're the only solipsistic bubble in existence.

Someone who speaks my language. Everything is meaningless, so why not maximize good? Why not give every ego-self what it yearns for? The story they seek for their own life? God: "Nope, we'll leave them at their mercy instead, and hope they're strong and smart enough to get out of the shithole I put them in". Spoiler alert: most aren't and never do overcome their obstacles. I most definitely don't agree with the "Everything is Love" notion either. Isn't that perspective just as valid as saying "Everything is Hell"? Because it ultimately means nothing in a dual world. But even if we were to entertain the notion that everything is Infinite Love and whatnot, to me it's clear that that is the way God copes, the way it balances out all the bad when a dream or experience is over. But right after that, we're back at square one with another shitty experience. I agree. I think that's undeniable. But Genius doesn't equal Good. Just read the DC comics that Lex Luthor is in haha.

How exactly did you get there? If you don't mind me asking. What kind of meditation and breathing technique were you doing? It's a goal of mine to get there through meditation alone but I've been unsuccessful till now.

@Ezo explain. Why did Infinity or God create itself or reality and what is the origin of it all?

@Christoph Werner best Psych for this? It’s like the OP’s nervous system is the twin brother of mine’s.

I'm gonna share with you my thoughts and experience on this video combined with the Solipsism one (which I watched before Leo took it down). Yesterday night I reached new levels of terror and panic contemplating my bubble of consciousness being all that there is. That there is no Universe, no planet Earth, no science or biology, heck not even my damn house since I can't perceive it in its entirety at any given moment, and most importantly, no other people. Simply put, no external world. At one point after deconstructing my mind and looking at my hands I actually realized how weird it was that they existed, or that I had a POV at all. Watching my hands felt very bizarre but I didn't have any profound revelation about me being God, although it felt kinda obvious at that point, it's like it was at the back of my mind and didn't really move me. Things got even harder to manage once Leo started saying that there were no others out there and that only my bubble of consciousness exists, next 2 hours were really hard for me mentally. He also said this in the Solipsism video. And what am I supposed to make of that anyway? 1. Leo is a completely deranged individual with a big audience, spreading a message that could end lives. 2. It's the Truth. If it is number 2, honestly, it's a never-ending curse, and that shit terrifies me. How am I supposed to cope knowing that not even my family is real? (in the sense of them having a POV and sentience). That everything is an outright lie. Not an illusion, which I already knew (and is a million times more preferable), but a complete lie. Being completely alone forever no matter what limited form God chooses to imagine. Just the infinite fooling itself for eternity in order to cope. Why can't infinite intelligence find a way to split itself? But you know, it doesn't make sense. It is already able to hide aspects of itself from me; notice that I'm not currently omnipotent or omniscient, let alone infinitely loving. Isn't this literally the biggest, most irrefutable argument against perspective/limited-bubble bound Solipsism? If it can hide that much from me, why wouldn't it be able to hide the perspective of every other human? Seems idiotic to think the opposite; you know, that it's just me, and that now I found out, I'm wishing Space X's Starship would fall from the exosphere and crash land on top of me. I just could never bear the thought of my POV being all there is and ever will be. Living in this shithole as an underage coal miner in Asia **with others**, and giving away my omnipotence and omniscience forever is infinitely more preferable. Eternally alone, living a total lie in limited form is the biggest nightmare one could endure. At least while knowing it. Why tf did God allow me to even entertain this thought as actuality rather than just some horror fantasy? I'd imagine an infinitely loving being would've kept on fooling me indefinitely. Then Leo uploads the Infinity of Gods video and now I don't know what to think. Why would you tell people watching your video that they're all alone in limited form and then come up with "oh wait, actually there's an infinite amount of you and your bubble isn't all that exists, but yes, they're still all ultimately you". Like telling us that it's just our perspective in the first place is trippy enough because in doing so you're implying that you yourself are not real anyway, and then you come up with this other Infinity of Gods thing, and so I wanna ask you, why say something so baloney when you're well aware of your own existence/bubble of consciousness? (Even if in limited form) and therefore making your claim nonsensical.