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Well I know 2 people who have taken the 1cp-lsd and normal lsd. For them the effects where similar. Also studies with mice showed that the 1-cp gets converted into lsd inside their bodies, so I would assume that the same is the case with humans.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JF8BRvqGCNs&ab_channel=RihannaVEVO

To be precise, what I am taking is 1cp-lsd. Should have same effect LSD has because it is converted into LSD inside of the body.

Are there things in your life you would like to do but are avoiding because of fear? This could cause suffering. Another reason could be your brain chemistry. Are you heavy metal toxic? Do you have chronic health problems you might need to solve? Are all your Vitamine levels checked and ok?

@4201 Thanks, that makes sense. @Pateedm Yeah, I think this is more accurate. Wikipedia says, tolerance lasts 1-2 weeks. So for some people tolerance will be gone after 1 week, while for others it will need 2 weeks. @TheAlchemist thanks for your advice and amazing video!:D I have 3 reasons for my rush: At the moment I have free time. I still have free time for a short but limited period of time. After that, college will start again and my time will be extremely limited for at least 4 months. It could be the case that I won't find time to dive deep with psychedelics when my next semester starts, so I want to do as much as I can now while I'm still free with time and in a good mindset. Integration is a tricky one for me since I have no memory / can't imagine / conceptualize my first trip. I only know some things from the first trip conceptually because I've filmed myself and talked into the camera and could watch it in retroperspective. Also I think that the state of conciousness I was in was so far away from my normal day to day state of conciousness that I wouldn't even now how to practically I could draw many lessons from that state of conciousness to take with me into my everyday state of conciousness. But the trip definetely had an effect on me. The last week I felt really at peace with everything and everyone. I was fearless in my way of relating with people, a lot fearless and more open/empathic than I was before the trip. I hope that the second trip would give me some memory so I would have more stuff to integrate. The first trip showed me a completely new reality / world that I didn't knew of before. This world is so wildly different from the world I currently know that I wouldn't have believed you if you told me of it before the trip. I am extremely excited by the possibility to explore this world and sense that there is an enormous potential to gain insight and learn from this "other reality" so to speak. This makes me very excited and I am extremely interested to explore this reality further (as soon as possible @flyingwhale (can't lin you) Thanks for your advice which is basically the same thing @TheAlchemist told me to do (can't link for some reason). I'll go for it anyway because of the reason mentioned above. I think I'm interested in truth (I might be deluded about that though). Since I've been very young I always had an interest for truth. Also it was always very important for me (a lot more important than for most people including my parents, sisters, teachers, friends) to be very clear, consise and truthful about my intentions / articulation / what I do in my day to day life. I'll definetely contemplate what I really want and my guess is that this might be something that I'll find out naturally as I follow the path / get more experience with psychedelics. Thank you, this is a very important thing to know I believe, I'll take that with me into my trip. Thank you again for that paragraph. I also read the posts of people saying that Oneness terrifies them. I guess there is a correlation between the trauma you're carrying with you and the degree to which you'll be able to handle absolute truth (I'm assuming here that absolute truth exists although I don't know that yet). I'm a very lucky person in that sense, because I haven't been traumatized a lot in my life and haven't seen any of the dark stuff out there. I think that going straight to truth might be my way to go (although my ego could just be playing games here / deluding myself, who knows). Still, very interesting and helpful paragraph to read, thanks!

Hey guys, yesterday I had the first psychedelic experience in my life. I took 100ug of LSD. I would consider this experience the most radical and beautiful experience I've ever had in my life. I am 22 years old. In the following I will try to describe my experience although no words can do it justice. You have to experience it yourself. The experience was so radical that I can't even remember it because my everyday state of conciousness cannot imagine such beauty and perfection. I would love to hear your thoughts on my trip report. Where should I go from here? How should I go about answering the questions that I now have? How can I integrate such deep and radical experiences into my everyday existence? Thanks so much for reading and I would really appreciate your responses if you think you could help me. Thanks and enjoy... Brainstorming - During the trip: no more imagination of my "normal life." After the trip: No imagination/conceptualization/memory of the trip possible because it is such a radically different state of consciousness in comparison to my everyday consciousness. - Logic, conceptualization no longer make sense/are no longer accessible. Everything is of meaning, beauty and perfection and there are no goals. Time no longer exists/makes no sense - Simple logic can still be used but is no longer a "reality in itself" but only a superficial structure without real meaning. Logic can be used in a limited way, but without "understanding" it in the everyday sense. - Everything vibrates, is alive, wonderful, perfect, has its meaning. Every perception, every feeling is recognized and completely accepted as it is. There is no more judgment, everything is equally beautiful, equally wonderful, of equal importance, important and everything is "together", in each other, part, a whole, holism. - It is very clear in the trip what I "know" and what I "don't know". I recognize that any statement can only take place in the here and now and is only a relative statement. Relativity makes every statement meaningless, because a statement can only "point" to reality, but is not reality itself. - In the trip I realize that I do not know what is good or bad. That I do not know what "death" is or what "I am". - In the Trip I ask myself how I deserve so much beauty and perfection. Everything is so wonderful that I can only cry with beauty and perfection, it feels in the moment as if the now is so great, so beautiful that it could never be put into words and it is a much more beautiful and intense experience than I could have imagined. - Identity no longer makes sense because there are no more concepts. There exists only the here and now, there are no problems in the here and now, problems are concepts, problems exist only when thinking of past and future (which are concepts), not in the Now . A problem is always a "what if..." - Within the trip I am in a certain state of consciousness. In my everyday consciousness I am also in a certain state of consciousness. Both states of consciousness seem equally real. In this sense, my "everyday consciousness" is also a trip. In both states of consciousness everything somehow makes sense and seems to be clearly recognizable. In both states I have the feeling to perceive objectively. However, both states are radically different from eachother although I see and hear the same things as usual. What does this say about "reality"? What is "real"? What is "reality"? - I did not derive any absolute knowledge from the trip - During the trip I asked the question of who I am and could clearly see that I can't really tell. The toilet paper seemed to me to be just as much a part of everything as my body. The only thing I could say for sure is that I have different feelings in my hands than when I look at the toilet paper Things that seemed meaningful to me within the trip that I wanted to tell my "normal/everyday self": - Everything is wonderful, perfect, beautiful, part of the whole, complete - Nothing is forbidden, everything is okay, in order, there are no rules, I can be me and should only do what feels good to me and does me good and brings me joy. I do not have to do anything - It is not helpful to judge myself for anything I am/feel/perceive. Judgments are contrary to the beauty and perfection that is in everything - It is good to take care of myself and love myself. This means putting on warm clothes, washing my face, buying good food, being myself without judging myself, cleaning my room, having a soft blanket, brushing my teeth, doing things that are good for me. - Every problem I have in my "normal life" is solvable. But even without changing / solving anything everything is good and perfect the way it is. I don't have to change anything to be perfect, I am already perfect the way I am. Questions arising from my trip/unanswered questions: - Is it possible to reach states of consciousness that give you unquestionable/absolute insights? - Who am I? - Does my life have a meaning? Which one? - Why am I here? - What is death? - How can I take advantage in my everyday consciousness of such unimaginably beautiful but on the other hand so strangely "different" (in comparison to everyday conciousness) experiences? - What is reality? What is illusion? Interpretation of the Trip/Conclusion - The trip made it very clear to me how little I know. Before the trip I had the idea to know the "objective" world. Now I know that the "objective" world can change unimaginably radically with the snap of a finger - I realize now that my everyday consciousness and "logic/mind/interpretation" are merely a state of consciousness. Logic is nothing absolute, it can cease to exist by taking a psychedelic/changing my state of conciousness - In everyday life we use logic and almost worship it because it is so practical for survival. Seeing as much beauty as I do on LSD in everyday life would not be pragmatic and would result in my life being very short. I wouldn't care about surviving because everything is perfection and I don't know what happens "after" death, especially since "after" and "before" are just concepts that don't exist on LSD - What I see in everyday life as beautiful/not beautiful, good/bad, wrong/correct are relative concepts. What I see as wrong now can be seen as right in the next moment. What I perceive as ugly now can be beautiful in the next moment. - Life and the world is much bigger and more complex than I would have thought. It will be an exciting and very fun journey to explore this world further. Let's see if I can find some answers.

@flyingwhalee It's a mixed bag of both the things you described. But yeah, your description hits the core of it. Yeah, that makes sense. Thanks for that tip, I'll try to pay attention to the "coming-back phase" more in my next trip. Honestly it felt kind of sudden in my first trip. Like suddenly the realization hit my that "I am back" so to speak. Time made sense again, I could think logically again, less beauty around me. Trip lastet a bit less than 6 hours for me.

Cutler Protocol is the way to go. No need to hussle, start slow and steady. I'd advise you to join the Cutler Chelation forum. You can search for it on Google. Read "the mercury detoxification manual." It's a simple book that explains everything you need to know to chelate(the Cutler protocol) in a simple fashion. Good luck man and you really need to chelate. What's good about it is, if you do it properly (which isn't that hard if you read the book, follow the instructions and join the forum) you'll only get better. Best wishes! Gregory

Don't forget that everybody has a unique genetic sleep quota. Some extreme cases only need 4h of sleep while others need 12. Apart from that quota you could need more sleep than you "really need" because of the reasons talked about above.

LSD didn't distort any of my sensual perseptions. Vision was as it always looks like, sound sounded like it always sounds like, smell / taste was as usual, there where no hallucinations. But still, everything was so different.. Just the same stuff seen from another perspective.

it felt as though meaning is inherent in reality. Simply that. No reason, no because, no logic.

@flyingwhalee thank you sooo much for your really helpful comments and instructions. For my first trip I used your comment on my other post as guidence and I think it really helped my trip to become a good one. Especially the "loving intent" helped me to just open up and let myself fall into the experience. The steps you layed out here to continue my journey look like very good advice to me. For my next trip I will definitely take these as guidence. I will contemplate in my next trip what reality is made of (consciousness?) as you said. I think that there might still have been subtle concepts and rationalizations that I added on top of my direct experience in the first trip. One deep problem that I have with the trip is that I can literally NOT REMEMBER THE EXPERIENCE. Is this normal? It is due to the fact that the state of consciousness that I'm in right now is not capable of imagining the radically different state of consciousness I was in on LSD. Don't know how to explain it differently. Am I making sense? Is it normal to not be able to remember the experience? Isn't this a problem? I am even doubting weather or not I even HAD the experience simply because I can't remember it (although I obviously had it). It would be awesome if somebody could help me with this.

@Loving Radiance it felt as though meaning is inherent in reality. Reality was not just the "outside" world to speak from my everyday state of consciousness. Reality included my body and my thoughts.

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@Lazertazer Thanks, that is good to know and honestly unbelievable. I mean my trip felt so fucking deep, I can't imagine how it could go even deeper. But I of course intellectually understand that you're probably right about that

Hey guys, Tomorrow I want to try psychedelics for the first time. I think I'll do it with mushrooms (I also have LSD but heard that mushrooms are better to start, what do you think?) Set: I consider myself to be an emotionally stable person, feeling good atm. I want to use psychedelics to find truth (if truth exists, don't know that yet), want to use tomorrow's trip to get started, get a first glimpse into what psychedelics could do for me / with me. Setting: My Appartment, Solo trip. Will buy food / water for the whole day tomorrow. What starting dose would you chose for the first trip? Should I take care of anything else, except food? Would you do mushrooms or acid? any other tips? Thx a lot for the help, I really appreciate it:)

@funkychunkymonkey thx for that tip, if you're interested I already wrote a trip report: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/72818-first-time-psychedelics-incredible-beauty-and-perfection/

@Tim R Thank you for that advice which really helps me:))

Happy to hear that:) Yes, the present moment felt utterly perfect, beautiful and complete

Why do you think it is NOT a good idea? God created the most perfect and beautiful thing it could. You don't like certain aspects of reality because they don't serve your personal agenda / survival. Then you call them bad/evil/suffering and wonder what is wrong with reality. Problem is not reality. Problem is the state of conciousness you look at it from. Become more concious and questions as the one you just asked won't even come up anymore. You will just see reality as it is. Perfect and beautiful. But for that you'll have to lose your self agenda.

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Hey guys, my trip ended and I'm utterly shocked. I mean, intellectually I kind of "knew" that before but no, I truly had no idea how radically 100ug LSD could change my state of conciousness, NO IDEA. The peak of my experience is not in any way speakable. Everything felt like pure beauty and pure perfection and I mean EVERYTHING. At the peak of my experience all concepts and all logic flew out of the window. Time flew out of the window, my idea of "who I am" flew out of the window. I looked at my hands and I looked at my toilet paper and I couldn't say that I am my hand and not the toilet paper. The toilet paper felt AS MEANINGFUL and AS ALIVE as my hand and there was no concept of myself anymore. I filmed myself during the experience and tried to speek into my camera. This is how I remember some of the things I experienced. The peak of the experience was so intense and so radically beyond my usual state of conciousness that my mind can't imagine it, I am even doubting weather or not this even was "real" or "even happened" During the trip I felt like I recieved the most perfect and beautiful gift one could recieve. That perfection and beauty was EVERYTHING there is. Yeah I know, doesn't make sense to the normal perspective. Unimaginable. I have no idea what to make of all this. I guess I'll need a while to integrate some of the lessons I learned today. The main lesson is: I am right now in a STATE OF CONCIOUSNESS. What I believed is "NORMAL REALITY" is simply a STATE OF CONCIOUSNESS. If I take some LSD or something changes my state of conciousness, everything I thought was "normal" and "understood" will fligh out the window. This trip was perfect in that I didn't pressure myself to reach some truth or get some meaningful insights but simply let the psychedelic show me what it could do with my everyday state of conciousness. For future sessions with LSD and other Psychedelics I think I'll be better of with making plans beforehead. Before future trips I plan to make plans on what I want to learn from my trip / discover within the trip. Questions I want to contemplate, etc. etc. If any of you guys have experiences with psychedelics and could give me some tips on how to integrate the "highest states" I'd really appreciate it. I can't even remember the peak really, because it was so utterly beyond anything I knew. No concepts, no words, pure beauty. What do I make of this? @Leo Gura @The0Self @flyingwhalee @Tim R @NoSelfSelf EDIT: I had ZERO visual distortions throughout the whole trip.

Hey guys, thanks for all your suggestions. Tomorrow I'll do my first psychedelic trip ever, 100ug LSD. Everything is prepared, I've got time tomorrow and the day afterwards. I have food for the whole day. I'm alone without distractions in my appartment. I'm optimistic and in a good mood. Lets see how it goes. I'll perhaps post an update with my experience after I've had it. Until then; peace out