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I was sick for a few times and I had vertigo during the nighttime. During that I also had expanded sense of consciousness which I identified much later in life when it kept reoccurring when I meditated usually. I also had dreadful dreams about missing stairs. I couldn't jump to the next stairs, because they were missing. Also the stairs led into different directions, therefore I had this dreaded, dark night of the soul feeling, utter confusion and feeling of being totally lost in life and this feeling came later in life also. Compared to other dreams, those very intense in my early childhood.

Too much doomerism. This is not really accurate. The purpose of life might be something else, at least in my experience that has little to do with my social status, wealth, job etc.

Are you bad as you are? What is there to escape from? Do you have to believe any idea, any projection somebody says? Do you have to be normal? Do you have to have what most of the people strive for? Do you have to feel guilty for who you are? Your life will end anyway, don't do it. Where will you think you will escape? Maybe you can have solve the problem here, in this realm! Look for what is worth living for, not any prop, activity and insincere stuff like that, but seek. You want to find what is worth living for, why have you taken birth. Please, look at this. It's not a small thing. Wish to be liberated from the experience of depression, confusion, suffocation, lack of meaning and even having to have a body if you mean to. Over time it can overturn completely, believe me. Please, doubt your doubt also, not just your possibility. Your inner most nature is always waiting for you.

2) Yes, only few people that are contemporaries, and the only that comes to mind is Sadhguru that showed that they can do incredible things with their body, and still, not instantly recovered. I think it takes incredible infrastructure wether that is some type of spiritual practice, developing of tantra of siddhi or a remote linga, deity or structure that can do that to people in a significant, instant way. Healing like that seems usually very gradual and you have to find the purity of your own consciousness in your psyche, or spend a lot of time refining a technique and for most people having a panic diet and traditional Indian yoga seems the most effective. Besides, if we wouldn't have to work as much and we would be more free from various ideologies, maybe people would practice that. However allopathy usually denies all of that and such studies are very scarce, if at all. And frauds in the spiritual community does not help either. Yet I tried various self-heling techniques. My body does respond to them, but I have not healed anything major or anything that I have going on chronically. But I keep trying, it makes me very meditative itself and works like samyama and the destination of the technique could be a siddhi and depth of perception I think from my experience. Also I keep abusing my body with refined sugars, irregular eating, incomplete diet, lack of exercise, caffeine, chocolate etc. All that said. It's still not productive to not engage with the innermost self and keep the doubt of you thinking you are just a body, that you can't heal something, that you can't be healthy, that life is inanimate and won't look after you if you look into it. That you can't express some siddhi or dig out further than this lifetime and so on, even at your death bed. I think while you engage in any such techniques this mindset is important, because you have been taught something, and that is, that you can't do any of what I wrote including self-healing and you are just a rat that has to always seek solutions externally. YET, we never seek them internally for any amount of time. No wonder we have no control over our faculties.

With personal dev these people change over the years. Only people like monks and spiritual teachers would be worthwhile to meet for me. Regarding musical folk, I used to have idols, but musicianship is a pyramid scheme. Those who get to do it full time get really good. And the rest of the world envies them or are unaware and are like "wow, how is this possible, this is so cool", but it's a kind of a status game by chasing recognition and audience and freedom to express yourself and yet, then there is curiosity, innovation, practice, insight, musical models, theoretical or otherwise, involvement of other senses to generate music... in other words, there is the core. Almost everyone alive can touch it, play with it, gather insights about life, but there is no time, because you are competing for places to do it full time. Selling musical gear so people who can't do it full time, chronically buy it and have no time to play it all. The best get it for free anyway, and their friends too. Some people teach music, remind themselves about musical concepts, spend time in their job playing and obviously they will have the skill to create impressive works. And then there are people who have the freedom to do their own thing, built their own instruments and shift the basic variables of music and then make it. In that sense I don't want to meet anybody. Either my ego is too big, or their ego is too big or hurt in that field of life. Any idol will sell me a signature guitar, invite my to their studio to become my client or invite me to their concert where I have to listen what they perform even if I don't really usually want to hear any of that. :]

I agree that US in a crisis right now. I live in the Baltics so, I might have other problems like invasion from the east. But yeah, USA was doing so good, even with all it's problems.

It's also important to note what Eckhart did after that experience. He secluded himself from everything and everyone as much as possible and mostly did nothing which allowed him to radiate what he is radiating today. If he had a change of mind and he went about his day he would be in our predicament - well I had a awakening, but my life's kinda shit.

@Never_give_up if you want to move to another country, do they just start paying wellfare checks? I don't know, but I don't think it's like that. People usually migrate to work abroad and then to settle down.

Just wait until 2028, Trump is bringing Dems back to life with his actions.

Are you taking jerking off too seriously, Leo?

somebody ask chat GPT what could happen if Leo attends JRE I will ask. If Leo Gura from Actualized.org were to appear on The Joe Rogan Experience (JRE), the consequences for him could be quite significant, both positive and negative. Potential Benefits for Leo Gura: 1. Massive Exposure: JRE has millions of listeners, meaning Leo would reach a mainstream audience far beyond his current niche. Many people unfamiliar with him might find his ideas compelling. 2. Legitimization & Credibility Boost: Being on Rogan’s podcast could make him seem more legitimate to the general public. He might attract intellectuals, spiritual seekers, and self-improvement enthusiasts. 3. Increased Following & Revenue: More people might check out Actualized.org and his paid content. This could lead to more Patreon subscribers, YouTube views, and course sales. 4. Interesting Discussion Potential: If the conversation is deep, they might discuss psychedelics, consciousness, spirituality, and personal development in a way that resonates with Rogan’s audience. If Rogan is open-minded, they could explore Leo’s radical ideas in an engaging way. Potential Downsides for Leo Gura: 1. Mainstream Skepticism & Criticism: His esoteric, mystical, and radical views (e.g., solipsism, infinity, awakening) might be too extreme for Rogan’s audience. He could be mocked or dismissed as a “psychedelic guru” or even a cult-like figure. 2. Difficult Questions & Pushback: Rogan might challenge Leo’s ideas, especially on science vs. metaphysics. If Leo becomes overly philosophical or abstract, Rogan’s audience might lose patience. 3. Memes & Internet Backlash: The internet loves to meme eccentric guests on JRE. If Leo says something extreme (e.g., “You are literally God,” “Reality is a dream”), it could turn into a viral joke. 4. Potential Damage to His Reputation: If he comes across as too arrogant or detached, some of his existing followers might rethink their support. If Rogan or guests ridicule him, it could hurt his brand. Final Verdict: Would It Be Good for Him? It depends on how well he presents himself: If he keeps his ideas grounded and explains them in a way that intrigues rather than alienates, it could be a huge boost. If he goes too deep too fast, comes off as elitist or dismissive, or clashes with Rogan, it might hurt his image. If Leo prepares well and adapts to Rogan’s style, it could be one of the most fascinating JRE episodes ever—but if he fumbles, it might just turn into an internet meme. Would you personally like to see that conversation happen?

The Murphy's law on that is - expect everything.

@Leo Gura I challenge you to go on Joe Rogan just to change his mind about something. Bonus points if it's politics. 😀

@Tristan12 thanks for sharing.

I don't seem to get it. I like experimental music. But I feel that this lacks consolidation. I could write a thesis about this, but I won't. But I am but a snowflake.

Most spiritually advanced? No. Good fit for the position he is in, looks like yeah. He is knowledgeable about the history of Bharat and his word do make impact. He emphasizes peace and diplomacy. He looks more like a servant to people rather than a typical or aspiring oligarch.

@Shodburrito I don't take any insult from your post. I just do my bare minimum spiritual practice which is not intellectual work at many times. If you are genuine about this work, why do you need this forum anyways. This forum has many purposes. This is a social circle for people that pursue not only enlightenment and people who feel out of place because the values they hold are not recognized locally. I don't underestand your frustration. People will say what they want to say, it's where they are. Are you really projecting some kind of elitism? Even stupid people can be spiritual if they do different kind of practices. It's not just intellectual. Peace. Genuinely wish you luck.

I think you will. You are bound to. Your personality gets so compromised in this period something else has to fill the vacuum it's almost like a guarantee. Almost nobody does it, therefore the doubt of is Awakening possible is very real.

Altcoins, NFTs, play to earn games and other dumps like $Trump. Bitcoin does not seem to fit in this category, but I personally still won't invest. Right now even 401k and smp500 is in question under Trump.

Last smart person from Republicans I heard was Mitt Romney. But I am sure they are here still.

@Questplease don't invest in any shitcoin promoted here.

I have found that nothing kills your life and growth faster with maximum damage is surrounding yourself with the wrong kind of people. Yet, you can and probably are messing your life by your own activity aswell. I have been thinking a lot about this. You can still kick all people off your life and, well have addictions that kill your life for example. When you decide to be in solitude most of your life, then activities that enrich your life is a priority m, because you are your own support system and your potential is going into different, more potent direction in my opinion.

Thank you. It is very inspired by TTDTE. I liked the first 3 of their releases. Trying to work on music when I can and am mentally able to.

And ofc you are the person who knows it all, isn't it?

Wrong. You just need to do 15-20 crucial neck, back, limb stretches daily and you are good to go for a very long time if your diet is OK. Physical intense activity is needed only once a while, frequency dependant on what and how much you put in your body.