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    I've discovered one of my deepest and most repressed parts. It is the part of me that is afraid of being happy. The part that gets paranoid whenever good things happen because it believes that everything will go wrong. Its so deeply rooted in my psyche that it has subconsciously influenced my life leading me to a life of misery because that is the only state where it feels safe.

    It's trying to protect me from being caught off guard. It believes that reality is fundamentally hostile and therefore I must be constantly vigilant at all times, never letting go. The moment I finally allow myself to let go is the moment the rug gets pulled under me and something devastatingly bad will happen. This has been the case many times throughout my life. Out of all my parts, this one is perhaps the most cruel, willing to do anything to prevent me from letting go. It fills my mind with the most fucked up possibilities. It is protecting one of my most wounded exiles, an inner child that has experienced such unexpected suffering.

    I have managed to communicate with the part and get it to relax, however this is perhaps the hardest part I have had to deal with so far. I found myself exhausted after the session like I had run a marathon.

  8. Posted

    Just now, Hanna Luna said:

    But would it be? Absolute truth is what is, here and now. So, wouldn't the matrix while one finds themself in it, be absolute truth? Not as a concept, but what's being experienced directly (within the Matrix). 

    You are correct, however the conceptual stories you create about here and now are not absolute truth. To break out of the 'matrix' is to realise the illusory nature of these conceptual fabrications. Absolute truth is raw experience without conceptual fabrications that you mistake for reality.

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    Just now, Gesundheit2 said:

     

    Imagine not getting bored by an orgasm.

    Try fibonacci fap february and you will quickly change you mind on that.

    2 minutes ago, Gesundheit2 said:

    99.9% of your life will not be past the illusion, that's what I mean by theory and reality.

    If you spend 99.9% of your life in the matrix but you escape once, that one time is the highest truth regardless of the 99.9%

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    8 minutes ago, Gesundheit2 said:

    There are no any rules or limitations in imagination. Forms can have the formless potential. Logic doesn't apply, especially that of the life we know.

    Alrighty:

    • No possibility of boredom due to orgasmic overdose.

    Anything else?

    Personally, if I had to choose, I would take boredom over physical pain and/or suffering anytime without a second thought.

    You aren't taking a meta perspective on this. If you made a movie about some dude having a non stop orgasmic overdose it would be pretty boring. 

    If there are no limitations in imagination then there is no reason why physical pain can't be infinite love. Since logic doesn't apply. You are the one trying to put physical pain below an orgasm but this is a human perspective. From god's perspective there is no difference.

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    3 minutes ago, Hanna Luna said:

    Unless, you can focus on/train yourself to see mostly the positive behind every negative thing in which case, you'd essentially be blocking out the negative. But, then wouldn't that be classified as delusional to some degree? 

    Yes its delusional but the entire ego is a delusion. If you wanted to see past delusion, you would surrender your ego to infinity and then suddenly all suffering would be revealed to be an illusion. The very notion of a self is a delusion so once you realise there is no self, how can suffering exist? there is no self to experience it.

    6 minutes ago, Hanna Luna said:

    That's what concerns me. Buying into a version of reality that's mostly positive, ignoring the negative aspects, and being blindsided because I chose to avoid the parts of reality I dislike. 

    positive and negative, like and dislike are all projections of the ego. whether you like or dislike it, reality just is the way it is.

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    Just now, Vibes said:

    Damn, you knocked me out with this one.

    Yeah I will admit Its a lot to handle and its not for everyone. Unless you're crazy enlightened or on psychedelics, its probably not a good idea to think about these topics. I'm not there 99.99% of the time so it really fucks me up. But when I do see past the illusion, boy is it an incredible experience.

    Being aware of all the suffering that exists isn't particularly good for survival, which is why the ego is so good at making people feel separate from you. Which is why its best not to think about it XD.

  16. Posted

    Just now, Vibes said:

    Yeah, but this is naive copium because when something happens to you or to someone you know, you won't like it. 

    I say this with pain, but there is no escaping Infinity.

    Yeah I'll fully admit I'm scared of suffering, my human character is supposed to be like that. That's what the ego is designed for.

    But on an existential level I know that nothing real can be hurt. Why would I want to escape infinity? Infinity is the best possible reality.

    I would argue that your argument is copium because your ego doesn't want to comprehend that suffering is an illusion. The ego is built around suffering so to admit that there is no self to experience suffering is to see past the illusion of ego. when you fully surrender to infinity, you will see past the illusion but the ego will fight tooth and nail to survive which is why it terrifies you so much.

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    Just now, Hanna Luna said:

    Yes, but the difference is that the characters aren't real. They aren't sentient beings, actually being killed. Therein lies the difference. I'd allow characters in a game to be brutally murdered via assault rifles or others, and be totally fine with it because they aren't sentient beings, it's just code and pixels on a screen. 

    But from gods perspective, people in real life are things god is imagining. That is not to say that they are npcs, just that all of them are god playing with itself. 

  19. Posted

    2 hours ago, Hanna Luna said:

    Wow, fuck that God. xD

    No, but in all seriousness. I really don't like the fact that the universe doesn't operate on morality. I understand that would cause it to limit itself, but I'd prefer that over the contrary. 

    Here's a different perspective. Consider the show game of thrones (ignore the last season) . People loved game of thrones because it was so brutal and unforgiving. The characters could die at any moment and the evil guys frequently won. In fact, the highest rated episode is the one in which a bunch or main characters get brutally killed out of nowhere. From the perspective of the characters in the story, the writer of the story must be evil for causing so much suffering but from his perspective he is writing on of the greatest stories of all time (except season 8 :()

  21. Posted

    Yeah I've been compelled to watch some ISIS and mexican drug cartel videos which have really exposed to me just how fucked up reality can get. It's given me intrusive thoughts about fucked up shit happenning to me and my loved ones so I get how you feel.

    In the highest states of consciousness I have experienced, I visualized the worst things happening to me like torture, dismemberment, death etc but I wasn't afraid. Instead I found it unbelievably funny that I was so afraid of these things for so long. A repeated thing I experiences during some of my trips was visualizing myself dying and my body decomposing while laughing uncontrollably. Because I am not this body. There can be an infinite amount of fucked up shit but there is no self to experience it. In that sense, suffering is imaginary. There is simply the experience that there is a finite self that suffers. i.e. the ego. Once you break out of the illusion I realised that this body may die or get hurt but I am the infinite consciousness that underlies all of reality which cannot be damaged.

    The way to break out of fear is to realise there is no self to suffer.

    That being said, this shit is easier said than done. I'm not able to reach these levels when I'm not on psychedelics so I spent the majority of the time appalled at the suffering that happens in this reality. But reality has a lot of beauty in it also. It depends ofn how you look at it.

  24. Posted

    12 hours ago, zurew said:

    What year do you predict, when an AI will be able to pass an  6-8 hour long turing test done by an AI engineer?

    Probably this year if chatgpt hasn't already done that already. But the turing test isn't the most accurate test of an AI's full capabilities. AI is lacking in self awareness. It still takes an input of numbers and outputs some numbers without really knowing why. But based on some really clever maths it learns the right numbers to output based on the input. It just so happens that we can encode text and images into numbers.

    AI has incredible capabilities that undeniably surpass human brains but they learn in a really dumb and mechanical way. 

  25. Posted

    As someone who has a masters in AI, I disagree. AI does indeed have limitations that humans don't have and to be honest not all of the hype is true. There are some extremely impressive AI that have come out relatively quickly but they are special cases. The reason they work so well is because they have access to insane amounts of high quality data and their task can be reduced to a system with an input and output.

    The current machine learning methods have a lot of computing power and memory but they aren't very smart in the conventional sense. Machine learning engineers spend a fuckton of time tuning specific hyperparameters so the AI can learn anything. The reason Chatgpt and dalle are so impressive is because the people that made the them were insanely smart and well funded. Not the AI itself.

    Thats not to say AI will never be able to catch up to humans. Just that its gonna be a while before it does.