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  1. Posted

    2 minutes ago, OBEler said:

    @spiritual memes thats a very unusual thing. Makes me think about not trying lsd again, at least not at 200 micro

    I would have been fine if I had  trip sitter but I did it alone so I'm a bit of an idiot. I would attribute the trip going wrong on several factors:

    1. It was in the middle of lockdown so my mental health wasn't ideal

    2. I had taken a long break from psychedelics, so my tolerance had likely decreased a lot

    3. I had spent the last few months meditating intensely. During the trip, I felt some mental discomfort so I tried some meditation techniques which likely made the trip far more intense.

    4. I vaped cbd beforehand, which may have interacted with the LSD

    5. I did it in a dark room which amplified the trip a lot.

    6. It was in the middle of summer so the room was very hot which made me dehydrated and quite uncomfortable.

    7. I don't know 100% if I actually did but I possibly took 5-htp the day before which interacts badly with psychedelics.

     

    I think 2 and 3 are the most probable because I did 100ug 1 year after that and had a super intense ego death experience even with all other factors different. However this one actually didn't end badly as I took all safety precautions.

  4. Posted

    14 hours ago, OBEler said:

    @spiritual memes how often had  you taken psychedelics before that? 

    This is really heavy what you experienced. Glad it went well (besides ptsd). I read I think over 200 Trip reports With lsd. Only a Hand full of people experienced this deep ego death you experienced where you forget that you took the drug. And that were very high dosage around 600 to 1000 micro

    about 20 lsd trips with 10 being high dose and 2 heroic doses. And about 20-30 dmt trips with 2 breakthroughs.

    The trip was around 200ug which is a dose I had done many times before with no difficulty. It should be noted that I took a 6 month break from psychedelics where I meditated every day.

  11. Posted

    1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

    Like, if science truly had a full picture of how cancer works, they could cure it. But they don't have a clear perception of that yet.

    That's not necessarily true. Understanding how a problem works doesn't guarantee a solution. For example, scientists pretty much have had a full picture of how fusion works for, but they can't create an effective fusion reactor.

  12. Posted · Edited by spiritual memes

    Managed to unburden an exiled part. It was incredibly intense, rivaling the psychedelic experience. The exiled part responsible for my feelings of unworthiness dissolved into a void of infinite love. My energetic body felt extremely spacious as if the part had left behind an empty space.

    The next day was strange, The part no longer burdened my but I had intense bouts of anger which consumed my entire being, and so I had an intense argument with my sister over some mean comments that I could have easily shaken off. The anger could also stem from my stress over job applications so its probably unrelated to the unburdened part.

  14. Posted

    1 minute ago, amanen said:

    I will never understand why people do not just use the most efficient and strongest tools (psychedelics) at their disposal, instead insisting in doing some traditional way, it just seems inefficient. That's not even considering that the tools might get you somewhere where you cant without them, that's assuming they get you to the same place, but in most cases meditation won't get to even near the same places that you would with psychedelics. All meditation does is mostly shut down your mind, I don't see how that can raise your consciousness drastically. Why not just use what is the strongest method?

    Same reason why people stay natty when bodybuilding.

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    Discovered a protector part responsible for laziness and procrastination. This part believes that life is too difficult and painful for my exiled part and therefore to avoid pain, I must lie in bed all day and distract myself. This part is trying to protect an exiled part that carries my feelings of unworthiness and guilt.

    I will then blame and repress my exiled part when I fail to achieve goals due to procrastination. This increases the burden on the exiled part creating a vicious circle.

    I have internalized the voices of my parents, bullies and teachers and treat my inner child the same way they did. The funny thing is no one has treated me like that for a long time except myself. My parents are a lot more kind and respectful towards me. The types of people who used to bully me now want to be my friend. As for all the teachers that said I couldn't make it, I have a valuable master's degree from a top university so fuck them. The only person critical of me is myself at this point...

  18. Posted

    1 hour ago, KH2 said:

    If you had a real obsession about helping society in some way - and you possesed the resources necessary to do so - you wouldn't be thinking about entertainment. Just saying. To take responsibility for the largest problems of society, is pretty much the highest stage of self improvement, right?

    It's about priorities, not finding balance.

    I did not really state that entertainment was necessarilly objectively wrong and bad either. It's just a waste of time.

    Think about Elon Musk, or Jeff Bezos, Steve Jobs - however despicable they may seem, they still helped society in some key ways. I don't think either of them has entertainment particuliary high on his list of priorities.

    First of all, I (and probably you) lack the resources necessary to do anything about it. Second of all, most attempts at making the world a better place actually make it worse due to a lack of systems thinking and holism. Therefore the most important aspect of self improvement is to raise your own consciousness.

    I don't think Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos or Steve Jobs have actually helped any of the issues facing humanity. The root cause of the world 'burning' is due to low consciousness and they did not make the world more conscious.

    I have a question for you. What do you think someone like me should do to solve societies problems? and I'm not talking about some vague answer like  ' improve yourself'.

  21. Posted

    1 minute ago, KH2 said:

    Well in that case, here's the question we should keep asking ourselves, whenever we descent into the depths of hedonistic rabit hole:

    "How long can I enjoy watering the garden, while my house is on fire?"

    Not a very good analogy. A fire is an immediate threat which requires a few minutes of action to completely fix. A better analogy would be: How long should I spend grinding XP in a video game before actually having fun in the game.

  25. Posted

    Also, my intuition is telling me that actualized is giving off a toxic vibe. The whole forum including Leo doesn't have that vibe of unconditional love and acceptance anymore. It's just a lot more intellectual and spiritual egoic masturbation than it used to be. I guess it all started when Leo did his 30 days of 5-meo and started saying he was more awake than everyone else. That was the moment when Leo went from a talented spiritual explorer to going off the deep end. The forum slowly followed after that. I still respect Leo and his work but I don't see him as a wise spiritual teacher anymore.