Julian gabriel

I have gone through months of feeling childlike joy at everything and it was very satisfying at the time, but I ended it on purpose because it became boring for me compared to the suffering that I experience with the drama of solving problems. It's like I seek out states which frustrate me, like I'm addicted to conflict. Whenever I'm really happy I feel kinda undeserving, and like I want to fight for something.

yeah I think ur right thanks.

But even when my life is moving in the way you describe, and I'm happy all the time. I create some problem for myself just to experience some shift in my satisfaction, some drama, some problem that I can solve. It's like I fear happiness.

Ok yea good point, why do I seem to find suffering more fun tho.

I have found that the most mind altering thing to do while tripping (except for maybe silent meditation) is to listen to music. Does anyone have any insights of any kind regarding listening to and/or creating music while tripping? I am mainly asking because I want to create songs using psychedelics.

why do you call it abstract? because it can't be seen visually?

Same could probably apply, but paradoxically in the opposite way to Churchill. if he didn't have anything go wrong as a kid then he probably wouldn't have had the drive to fight with such passion against hitler.

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I am aware that love is all, and therefore evil is simply a form of love. Therefore my desires, no matter how twisted, are actually not bad whatsoever. Still I sometimes find it difficult to love my own desires when I see that I could be doing something more productive with my time, rather than doing what I feel like In the moment. I see that the answer to this problem is to love my own desires more, how do I do this?

When I look into someone's eyes I feel like I'm looking at a sort of honesty which can't be expressed through words. People seem afraid to look others in the eye, as if they'll accidentally fall in love and/or feel some kind of intimacy which would threaten their sense of self. Seeing Eyes appear all over the place is common while on various psychedelics. there's nothing in the world I find as beautiful and hypnotizing as the eyes. Do you also find eyes to be beautiful in this way? And if so why do you think they are so beautiful?

Perhaps failed isn't the right word but this could basically be a video explaining osho. A deeper explanation of what happened then the Netflix documentary gives.

@Kalki Avatar Did you gain any mental insights from that, or was it simply a feeling?

I had my first awakening before even knowing about spirituality whatsoever. I just thought the word "spirituality" was basically the stupidest thing in the world and I was a regular atheist materialist. Idk how common this is it seems like most people begin with theory then they have their first awakening when they put that theory into practice. Anyone else have their first awakening before knowing anything about spirituality/ and if so how did it happen and what was your interpretation of it at the time?

@ivankiss how did it happen? what were u doing?

@ivankiss What was the first one like exactly? A realization of god or just no self?

indeed do that indeed

The similarities between the story of Harry Potter and the journey of a truth seeker are curious. He realizes that in order to kill the devil (Voldemort) he himself must die. Then he gets transported to another realm where the wise man (Dumbledore) says: "of course this is all happening inside your head, but why should that mean that its not real" Then he is able to return to the land of the living but he is different and no longer holds a piece of the devil in him, because the devil himself killed it by being idiotic and unaware. It sounds so similar to my own process of awakening that its almost creepy. anyone else notice parts of the story of Harry Potter which are very similar to the journey of awakening?

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Sometimes while meditating I feel like I could accidentally mahasamadhi the fuck outta there. (I realize that this almost definitely won't happen but it feels like it could) I have heard that some Yogis wear metal bracelets to keep themselves grounded. But I haven't heard of any other methods and I don't even know much about that one. Anyone know how to do this? (After further thought on this I think it was pretty stupid of me to think I might accidentally perform Mahasamadhi. But its fun to discuss anyway.)

Thank you so much for that that was awesome. I’m also feeling the same way (the “haha” way) but no need to apologize for laughing, also no need to not apologize for laughing. Therefore the laughing is perfect. Love u ✌️

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yeah ik, thats y I said it almost definitely won't happen.

I see much more then just survival in the plays of romance that are put on all around me, between almost every man and every woman. There is a deeper explanation for the ethereal nature of sexual romance. There is the craving For what is lacking/opposite: feminine craves masculine, dominant craves submissive. But there is also a craving for what is similar/familiar: rational craves rational, toxic craves toxic. It is as if the human mating process is specifically designed to trick seekers of pleasure and comfort to grow and change, by making them desire enough which is the same, in order to coax them in, but enough which is different in order to force them to change and love broader. I want to go as deep as possible starting with sexual romance and arriving at God. How do we deconstruct the metaphors of god within sexual romance? Where do we start? I want a clearer view of this. (I didn't put this in the dating, relationships and sexuality category because I intend it to be more of a philosophical discussion)

I have recently discovered Kilindi Iyi and now I'm very curious about the topic of Mega dosing mushrooms. But I can't find anyone else who really explores this. Does anyone have any sources of information regarding mega dosing? (megadose as in 10 dried grams plus)

@Consilience Is it only about LSD? Or other psychedelics.