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Absolutely agree ??

@Leo Gura Can't wait for that common traps video

@Leo Gura Preach! ???

I might be only 26 years old, but I probably have more life experience than most western people who are double my age. From what I have heard, seen, and experienced, a good percentage of the western population is generally too intellectual, they spend a good portion of their lives thinking, living inside their heads rather than actually living in the world. That makes them very smart to the point of excess and mental masturbation. Eastern people are kind of the opposite. They spend more time living than thinking, so they're dumber but more lively and intuitive in general, which is a different kind of intelligence, even though objectively inferior. Both ways of being are not ideal/optimal, though. You need both the intellect and intuition. Intuition informs the intellect, and the intellect refines intuition. Too much of either is not healthy, because it excludes the other. At least, that is if you want to be balanced and live a healthy, happy, harmonious life. If not, then go ahead, but know that no one will bear your suffering and poor life quality for you. Anyway, back to me, I, and myself. I have a lot of life experience relative to the average western person, but a mediocre amount relative to an easterly. As well, I have a mediocre level of intelligence relative to an average western person, but a high amount relative to an easterly. If you think I'm smart, it's because I'm well-integrated and have a fair amount of synergy between my masculine and feminine. My intuition supports, adds to, and advances my intellect, and vice-versa. If you think I'm dumb, kinda normal, and/or not smart enough, it's because you're judging me purely based on intellect. And fair enough, I'm not the smartest person intellectually, nor intuitively, but I might be the smartest synergistically. However, if you think I'm very smart it's because you lack intuition. At this point, and unlike most people, I think I have become fairly well-balanced between most aspects of my psyche. I have this kind of sharpness that I haven't seen many people have. Even the smartest people don't really have the same sharpness that I have. The main area that I lack in is knowledge. I don't think I have a lot of information beyond the average person, even though I utilize what I have to the max. I have a fair amount of knowledge about a lot of stuff, though, just not super technical except in a couple or few areas at best. I think if I had a lot of knowledge floating around in my mind, there would be something for me to talk about any time, which isn't really the case. However, it's very hard to reach up to 90-100% level of mastery in anything, but it's a lot easier to reach 80%. The final step to mastery is always the hardest and takes proportionally inappropriate amounts of time and effort to achieve, but in my experience it's not always smartest to seek absolute mastery in one field, especially when the only way that that could come is at the cost of losing balance. I think if anyone can achieve 80% of mastery of the masculine and 80% mastery of the feminine, that will be enough for leading a great life. I am somewhere near that figure in both aspects. Most people are 90% or more in one aspect, and 20% or less of the other. They're typically described as masculine or feminine, depending on the different percentages. I'm not hyper-masculine, nor hyper-feminine. I'm also not hypo-masculine, nor hypo-feminine. I think I'm fairly well-balanced in most areas that I have control over in my life. I've worked on this and let it work on me for years, actually more than a decade. I'm still a straight dude with a penis, though I think, both mathematics and programming, along with knowing English as a second language affected me in some really interesting ways. I haven't been touching much math recently, that was rather at high-school when I noticed that I somehow did break my first intellectual barrier. It's because the high-school I went to was not ordinary. Almost all the students there were smarter than me. It was titled "for superior students". You needed to be vetted through an exam in order to be admitted in that school, it was the second hardest exam that I've taken so far relative to my age/knowledge/skills. The questions were a mix of regular school stuff with IQ-type questions. Sometimes both combined in the same question. However, somehow I was near the bottom of a 90 students list who passed. I spent two years there, and even those two years they were extremely challenging/out of my league, so that's when I broke my original intellectual limits. The teachers there were also smarter than the average. I felt like a dwarf in there. But somehow I survived and came out better than I entered, even though at the cost of my mental health that I had to recover from later, and still am working on it. Unlike me, my high-school environment (peers & teachers) were all hyper-intellectual. Most of my peers and friends got into medical school with me too. In any case, I was not able to compete with them. They're still till this day intellectually superior to me. They're literal geniuses and probably genetic freaks that it's hard to compete against them regardless of how much time and effort you put into sharpening your intellect. They're the intellectual elite of my city so to speak. I just couldn't/still can't compete. However, as I've inquired into their past, I discovered that most of them didn't have much street knowledge like me. I was one of the few that did have much of it. They'd basically spent their childhood going to kindergarten, school, reading books, studying like a good kid, and returning back home to do their homework. So they're almost like people in the west, privileged and rich, but inexperienced. So for me to become intellectually smarter than them, I would need to spend a lot of time reading books and working on my logic and intellect, applying structural and methodological thinking (programming in a nutshell), which I haven't done very much of until lately in the past year and a half. I spent much of my childhood playing in the neighborhood out in the streets with other kids, going on adventures, etc. Not many of those kids were able to finish high-school, and an even lesser number of them got into college. In the area that I live in (my home), there's not a transportation system set in place to the city center where the university is. The government knows from the get-go that these dumbos will not make it there anyway. You'd need to be rich, or exceptionally lucky and smart, or both, in order to do so. If you're rich, then you wouldn't be living in my neighborhood to begin with. And if you're not rich, then it's hard to be smart, because you would not have the luxury of thinking or even learning to think methodologically as most your time would be consumed by low-quality/time-wasting activities anyway, such as hustling and trying to survive in the group. The environment makes it harder for you to move up. It actually pulls you down every time you try to escape. Anyways, As much as I like the role of the exceptional underdog that surprisingly wins in the last moment, what I like even more is the role of the strong hero that wins easily and effortlessly. On an unrelated note, I will start being more of a Leo fanboy from here on. I will stop criticizing him completely, and either comment with a supportive comment or not at all. Though, I won't reveal why I'm making this sudden shift. Consider yourself lucky, Leo. You're finally out of my microscope.

Most people are either unaware of or don't understand the yin-yang model (even though Goro from Mortal Kombat wears the symbol on his belt ). However, there are many quite smart people who still misinterpret it, nevertheless. Misinterpretations are ought to happen when there's ideological clinging to dogmas that are collected from an external source without enough first-hand direct experience. Nothing wrong with making misinterpretations per se, but just to maintain logical consistency in this particular context. Direct observation is as important as previously collected data. That's science for you, dawg. Yin-yang is a model that is centered around the concepts of balance, neutrality, and harmony. The main aim of the model is to utilize it in order to stop demonizing other beings/perspectives and try to understand them instead, because you're them in part, and vice-versa. To see yourself in the other, and the other in yourself. The masculine naturally demonizes the feminine, and vice-versa. There's an ongoing battle between the two forces. This happens because of the disconnection that was created with the first duality, "I" vs. "other". Yin-yang proposes that this necessary disconnection doesn't have to manifest in the form of battle, but rather a calm and peaceful negotiation that is based on mutual understanding and sharing of everyone's best interests. Now, you can either agree or disagree with what yin-yang is suggesting. But if you agree and then cling ideologically, then you don't quite get it, and rather simply have your own distorted version of it. And you can't bypass this ideological clinging issue by using the disclaimer card where you say this is just my interpretation. Everything is not relative. Some things are some way, as they're meant to be. You can't Derrida your way out of this. If you want to have your own interpretation, then that's a whole other parallel model that you've created, but not the original one. Again, nothing wrong with that. But just to maintain logical consistency, and you're free to not want to do that, too. Anyways,

It doesn't make you anything. It's just a thought that you think and give negative weight to, when you don't have to. Causality is an illusion, remember. So what? Where's the problem? You came here out of nowhere, too. It's only fair. Actually, I think it's the healthiest thing to do. People who ignore these inquiries remain asleep to the greatest depths of life. You're opening up. You're growing.

This is rather a freeing realization, similar to no free-will. It taught me to live in the moment and forget about the future and past. Think about it. There's a positive side to inconsistency. If causality is illusory, then you don't have to worry about tomorrow or be sad about the past in the first place. There's no reason for you to be afraid of the consequences of your actions. Just surrender the need to control life and this won't be a problem for you anymore. Of course, do your best to make the most rational decisions anytime you can, but just realize that reality is absolutely free and doesn't need to conform to your thoughts. In fact, your thoughts are not only yours in the first place. They're also reality's thoughts at the same time. I hate to sound like a hippy, but:

I don't speak enlightenment. It's the language of the dead, hypocrite, or confused/delusional. And I'm none of that. Enlightenment is only true from a death perspective. This is life, and enlightenment does not belong here. There isn't really a masculine nor a feminine. They're just labels for any apparent duality and have nothing to do with gender. They're also interchangeable. You can label the masculine feminine and vice-versa. Gender is just one example of the manifested masculine and feminine duality (yin-yang), but obviously duality is not limited to just that. Any distinction is a duality, so there's always a yin-yang way to perceive any relation(s) between any two things. Anyways,

I did not initially. I've known about it since the first time you talked about it, but thought that you were not serious and that you'd do something and things would not come to this. Regardless of your motives or whatever mental rabbit hole(s) you've gotten yourself into, what pains me the most is seeing you willingly hurting yourself like that, but even more than that, not being able to stop you with the only thing that I can offer that is so useless. I know this because I view it as useless too. I wish things were different and that I was able do something. It's maddening to me that this can be ignored and swept under the rug. Anyway, I know many doctors and I have a medical background. My sister is a dentist, too. Maybe I can help if you give me some details about the infection.

@Loba I'm sorry if I was too pushy or insensitive in my approach. I don't know your entire situation, even though I've read scattered parts of it. I certainly did not mean to invalidate your perspective, but just to give you some sense. But apparently, there are other forces at play there, and I was wrong to interject like that. You know your situation better and have enough sense to navigate through it. In any case, don't think too much into the future. I don't plan my life two months ahead, let alone years, because I know everything could change at any moment in a blink of an eye with or without my will. I mostly just try to do the right thing in the moment, and leave the rest up to God. Sick or healthy, if I don't live now, when will I? There will always be problems, but that doesn't make it okay to ignore them and let them be. I know your situation is difficult, but you might want to look into defeatism. I've dealt with it in the past too. Again, I'm sorry for saying what I said. Read it as concerned and suggesting, not uncaring nor enforcing. It just pains me to see you hurting like that.

We were (Facebook) friends before I left that forum. Right now, I'm on her blocklist. So God. Very love.

@Loba Please stop with all that silent suicide nonsense and go get that infection checked and fixed. You know it's the right thing to do, so do it immediately, or first thing tomorrow morning. Thank you ?

Incidentally, there is no Nahm. But there is a forum, somehow.

@NoSelfSelf

Everything is relative is a poor argument because then no moderation is required at all, because well, everything is relative and any judgement call is untenable in the first place. The truth is that it can be made simple or complicated, however you like. I like to think that at the core, it's mostly a matter of intent and integrity. Here, you're claiming an objectively low level of thought and requesting high standards for conduct from members. I don't see everything is relative here, which means you're using a double-standard, which is an example of poor judgement, which does not contribute to high quality moderation.

@NoSelfSelf No, thanks. I know my place, and I admit that I'm not qualified for that position, nor do I desire it, nor does my criminal record allow me to think about it in the first place. It's not an easy job if you want to do it right. But it can be done right, nevertheless. Some mods are doing it right.

Agreed. I think the moderation team is not very different from a random sample of people, i.e. it's as if they were picked randomly with a bunch of dice rolls, not by conscious decision. My experience is that really good moderators are rare, and most others are average/passive. I consider passive moderators bad, but I can give them a pass because at least they're idle and not causing harm. But there's always a couple or a few that are there like a child with a loaded gun. They use the title/position to boost their ego and exercise their need for control instead of trying to create positive change. It's tragic that this is the case in a forum centered around truth and consciousness.

@integral He lacks humility. I struggle with this too, but I don't double down as much. I've never seen him admit being wrong or that he needs to adjust. Even here, he does not want to adjust but make everyone else do.

I can ignore your posts on my own. No functions required. Though, I might read something from time to time. It's not like you don't write anything useful at all. But I think most of the time, you're just having verbal diarrhea or are in some manic episode, so chances are your long posts are not very useful, of course based on my skimming through some of them initially when you first came here. If I were you, I would cut down on psychedelics and YouTube. Maybe that'd cure the monkey mind.

I had no father. I grew up an orphan and made myself who I am. And I will continue down my own path alone. I've fixed most of my internal problems, but I still have the external to deal with. I can forgive my dad, but I won't, cuz that would mean that I accept him, which would prevent me from completing the positive changes that I've already started making in myself. It would put an end to my evolution, and that's not the time for that, maybe never. For now, I need as much hatred and disgust as I can gather in order to move forward in any meaningful way. No matter how I slice it, I keep coming back to the conclusion that the son of a bitch that claims to be my father is the root of all my problems in life, both internal and external. He does not deserve to live, and yet he's alive. I'm not gonna let out any specific details about him, though, because I fear people might think I might have inherited at least some of that from him and then project these ideas onto me through association (i.e. like father like son, which couldn't be further from the truth), and then start treating me differently. I mean, sure, I have inherited some stuff from him initially after my birth, that I've been fighting against my whole adult life and overcome most of it. Moreover I was raised by him, if him raising me actually occurred in the first place. His influence on me is very minor if any at all, I can barely remember him in my past or find him when I look in my psyche on any level, it's almost as if he didn't even exist at all. A ghost father. A fucking nobody that's role in my childhood was mostly purely inhibitory, so that might have been even worse than nothing at all. (EDIT: Actually, now I remember him leaving me alone at the store to deal with customers when I was like 8 years old. He said he went to piss and wouldn't take long, but I quickly started crying because he took too long. Now that I'm an adult, I can connect the dots and figure out that he went to fuck some whore/actual prostitute). However, I've fought both nature and nurture and don't have a lot of either remaining. In short, he's the lowest-consciousness and most disgusting thing alive to me. My deep hatred for him is probably the reason for my extreme love for and obsession with consciousness. Everything he does, I hate and do the opposite. I hate the ground he walks on and the air he breathes. The only person I talk about my dad to is my brother. We both curse him for eternity for whatever he's done or hasn't yet. Anything he touches, he ruins. That's him in a nutshell. He ruined me, and consciousness fixed me. Consciousness is my real origin/true nature, after all. I had no mother, either. Though, she's one or two levels better than that complete and utter jackass. But I'm not gonna vent about her just yet. I can still hold it for now.

No. I can judge a person by one look, and he's obviously not genuine. If there's one Quranic verse that all Muslim men know, it's this one. That could be the case for anyone in the west, except for Tate and the like. He's a hypocrite and an attention whore, and I'm done feeding him attention. Most Muslims and Buddhists are not happy nor fulfilled, either. I've been one, and you said it yourself that the average Muslim/Buddhist doesn't know the basics of their religion. My experience with religion is that it mostly serves as a band aid or a tool for bypassing the real work of going inside and facing your inner demos. After you reach a certain point with religion, it becomes an obstacle that hinders your progress rather than advance it. After a certain point, religion becomes the devil, especially the more dogmatic you are about it. Leaving the nest and becoming financially-independent in the west is easy. It's a lifestyle choice, and really just the norm there. If someone is struggling with that in the west, then most likely it's because they're simply losers. The system there is fair and designed so that almost anyone can get a decent life if they simply put in a reasonable amount of work and effort. Don't look at these forum fools and think that they're normal. They're the exception there, because they're spoiled, lazy, entitled, and like you said immersed in materialism and hedonism.