UnlovingGod

Thanks! haha

The most traumetized woman, best abusable woman, most manipulative woman that henceforth let themselves manipulate.

I really like Erich Fromm as it is quite easy to read and has really deep insides about love. Love in various aspects of life. And in a way that humans can easily understand and connect to.

When you are or were on the most nervrecking point in your life and were in the valley of total suffering and then you realize, how much your parents loved you. That your parents are God, that you imagined your parents, that you choose your parents. And as you wiped your memory, you gave your parents all the love in the world, with the responsibily to give you, that little crying, shitting and breast eating thing, all the love to you back. Real power is to let go of power. You risked it all, giving all your control to your rampant imagination, so you made your Parents, so that you´d be here in front of the screen and read as the words play out just to remind you every now and then.

Jacobo Grinberg-Zylerbaum, a prolific mexican neuroscientist, who studied in the UNAM, one of the most reputable universities in the world, was about to prove Telepathy with his own scientific method, when he mysteriously disapeared. Some say it was the CIA, nobody knows, but yeah... Sorry, those quotes sometimes bugs.

So you think my life was just flowers and shit. We all suffer, A LOT. Don't make this a competition who suffered more and loath yourself that you somehow won this thing... That's why you are suffering so much, of course, but you have overvalued your understanding, it's like a stock bubble, that has to burst. You are in no position to act arrogant. Get some humility before it bursts and you get a massive psychosis. Get a therapist. The signs are all over your words, this will be my final response, as I have empathy for you and want to help you.

Thank you :). Hard spiritual work, and consistency. I think a lot of people here, that are filled with self hatred, actually do put a lot of hard work and are consistent and have quite a lot of talent. It's just a matter of time to settle in all those awakings and harvesting the fruits, I myself am just getting to the fruits of this work.

Your Imagination are like layers of layers of seperation like lasagna. At some points in the lasagna nobody can read your thoughts, when you eat the whole thing (no seperation), there is no such things as "someone else" reading your thoughts, but you can manuver between those layers and make telepathy happen for example, but you really need an exceptional level of attention to the lasagna and thus concentration, which maybe isn't really useful for you, but you can do various things with the lasagna.

Don't conflate the relative with the absolute. My parents divorced, my mother has some narcistic trades, while my dad had various psychosis. If I were in a blaming situation, I could make up all sorts of shit my parents did and make them seem worse than Hitler. I'm pointing to you, that maybe you chose your parents activly with all their defects and you are just not understanding enough of your whole Situation, which is why you are filled with so much self hatred. And if I could give a tip in something more relative and not absolute. Please don't say the n-word as if it is just slang. I mean I don't really care, but there are a lot of people that it could trigger something, as it is a hard word that can come across as a form of domination towards those, who have really felt systemic exclusion to society. Imagine being scared by your heritage and being dominated your whole Life with this big association "nigga". If you want to scream your shadow side, go to the life journal section or something, as we live in a society. And there you can rant, with a post like "I want to scream my shadow side". I was exactly in your position two years ago...

When you stop sleeping your reality becomes as dreamy as your conventional dream. Try not to sleep for two days and you start noticing the dreamy quality of Life coming out of his shadows. So you dream like a reaction to your system as a universe to have an ultimate dreamy aspect to life in the form of sleep, so that you can have this human relative experience, when you are awake, like going to your job or something like that. It´s like Yin and Yang, you cant have a normal life without an absurd life in form of your dreams. You cant have survival without a nonsensical shitshow.

Yeah, realizing how much love your parents gave you, it really gives you a tear in your eye. Especially, when you realize what Life really is , but that´s a too complicated story, that would take books and I have like no clue to what could be said there... I myself am just scratching the surface of this enourmos meaning of being born. Having problems with your parents is the most normal thing in the world. Good parents will forever stay parents, eventough you are already an adult. So they are quite happy if you are impatient with them as long as you have patience with everybody else.

You almost got it, the harder path is actually the easy one and the easy path is actually the harder one. >Counterintuitive Nature Of Reality >What Is Paradox Have a go!

Maybe the strategies that Leo gave you, don't work for you, it's that simple. And as I've tried to make sense of it, strategy and pick up won't get you a quality girl or this one girl you want to have in Life. Heck, even Leo said in his video that he desires it, so I wouldnt take his advice too seriously, there. Character does get you this one girl and even if, sometimes it doesn't happen in a lifetime.

Maybe you feel offended by Leo as he has shown you things, that you really did not want to see. There was a time where I felt offended by Leo, too. And it's only natural, really. He shows you Absolute Love, and you realize it, but then you don't get out of Life what you want. Because the first thing that happens after a premature god awakening is, that your mind wants to coopt everything. And what you want is not the best for you. So I suggest you to take a pause from this path as it helped me a lot and just focus on mundane things as if nothing had happened. And don't take this advice lighthearted, as things can get REAL UGLY. But at the end you have to decide. But hang on this Journey of Life and have patience as there are WONDERFUL WONDERFUL things waiting for you to happen. Two years after my god awakening I got now a chance to make a song with a producer that costs 100.000 dollars per session for free, just because god loves me. But it requiered me to transform myself. A lot of transformation and I still have to transform myself a lot. That's how the universe works.

Ultimate structure of reality What it means to go meta The science series The holism series Guided exercise for god realization Advanced explanation of god realization States of counciousness is everything Understanding infinite counciousness And from the political videos my favorite is: Why liberalism doesn't work/is bullshit or something like that.

She was the golden child in a nice white family household And she was told, that those black folks, are good people, but she should be careful And so when this black dude in school got all the charm, but wasnt that good at school She connected the dots and wanted to show, how life could be, though, She got lost as the fear from the parents got her shoked and all the words just got stuck in her mouth, but her emotions screamed loud And so she repressed those feelings and focused on school And the grades were good, but when the worklife hit, She couldnt live up to the expetations that her parents give. But she was the golden child? She was so bright? And she knew that something wasnt right? And now some nigga wanna talk some stuff, that was part of her passion. That spirituality shit, she had to deny their shit, she had to give this lesson. But maybe he has some words that are quite wise. And she could feel it in her mind and she's letting it all out, with the same charm that had her drawn once upon a time.

But now on the god is great medition grindset , nah jokes not taking anything to forcefully, but yeah just putting the attention on the greatness of god, after all those goddamn awakenings just feels great.

Im awakened to fucking everything. My ego has shut down its connection to love. The universe said to me very explicitly, I just need a little patience and then I will get high on love. Thats all. God's Ego is out and materialized into this post ha.

All the pleasures in the world don't amount to nothing, when you are totally disconnected from god. It feels like hell even if it's the greatest drug ever. I even desired couple months before the psicosis, that I just want a pure cocktail of all those good neurotransmitors. After I awoken to the intervoweness of counciousness and Love before and that Love was the substance of counciousness, I just thought, why couldnt I just give myself all the juicy neurotransmitors. Well, I got, what I desired, trough just channeling all my love to a particular girl. I took some shrooms without going in with a straight plan and this girl just popped up like a cinemascreen in the nightsky waiting for me in a trainstation. That's when all hell broke loose. Even a couple months before, but some time after the awakenings I smoked some weed with a blank mind and it felt just so natural, writing her, how she was doing, so we wrote for a couple months, without any serious intentions. The Backstory with This girl was, that I had a crush before all the awakenings on her, and she was the first girl, where I had the courage to tell her my feelings and she dumped and I felt like shit, but I got out of it, as I had soon another romantic relationship, that was kinda halfhearted and didnt take so long and after some weeks, that's when I smoked the weed and just wanted write her, how she was doing, as she was still for me an interesting person and she was I think still quite flattered, that she was the first girl I openly shared my feelings.

Just there to help you Who the fuck wants to talk and brag All the day, being better than some Beta Male Who wants to suck some good beta dick And lick their milk all day in her mind, truth As the baller in high school with the nice shoes Never really cared about that cute girl, that shy girl She was thinking all day, maybe he heard her, If he searched her, in his thoughts She thought, he was just lost, and she was partly right Because he was hardly side by side with god But she was wrong that she was part of his path So now her shadow side despises all the guys that are baller types And now in disguise she calls them beta archetypes.

This, Gold, but you gotta unlock the God DLC first.

Clicking Time Stops, As God takes a toss, The hole sucks, as all is lost. Steps move forwards, as your head becomes slower. Lower and lower to the point of no return. Pushed down, there lurks, where hell starts to burn. And when you return...

DJANGO Django Django, have you always been alone? Django Django, have you never loved again? Love will live on Life must go on For you cannot spend your life regreatting Django Django, you must face another day Django Django, now your love has gone away Once you loved her Now you've lost her But you've lost her forever, Django When there are clouds in the skies and they are grey You may be sad, but remember they'll all soon pass away Oh Django, after the showers the sun will be shining Once you loved her Now you've lost her But you've lost her forever, Django When there are clouds in the skies and they are grey You may be sad, but remember they'll all soon pass away Oh Django, after the showers the sun will be shining Django Oh, oh, oh, Django You must go on Oh, oh, oh, Django NAVAJO JOE When two lonely man come across, Defied by all the odds, And one shows his clock, And just wants from me one hundred notes. I shot my shot of love, He falls, but it hit my love on the other side of the world, And now my heart belongs, For a loss that doesnt respond. And so I must go on, Awoke and alone with the steps I take groven into stone

Yeah, the psicosis I had was literally the love bomb, as I was high on pure dopamine serotonine oxcitocine and endorphines. Never again please

So, that was a hell of a journey since. A particular dream that had that stuck with me, was being in a car that drove over a cliff and the breaks were loose, thats how I felt the last two to three years and Im finally settling to a more ordinary life, which I long longed for. The psicosis I had... three fucking months... now it`s almost two years since I had it... WOW... There´s no way back. It will stick with me the rest of my life as long as I want to be God counciouss. A psychic scar, well it doesnt bleed anymore, it maybe feels a little itchy right now, but I can move my mind. Soooo much was reveiled to me in my psicosis that I cant communicate to anyone, thats the scar thats still itching... it´s absolute solpisism, but what it´s there to be human and not to comunicate three months of severe psicosis. The one year and a half after that was brutal, my mind was pouring blood. And now I´m kinda relaxed, tapping into love, but with a lot of cautios, I know it can turn ugly real quick, as riding the wave of infinite love is the king of all waves. Hitler had infinite love for Germany and brought doom to the universe as I had infinite love for a girl, that may never be ever there, escaping shit until her silhouette disapearse in the magnitudes of the forgotten never to be imagined again. And dealing with life, finding new ways to cope, as the human condition is a big coping scheme and it finally turns to acceptence and surrender to the ways of life. I´m happy, quite happy to be honest, I´m good at what I´m doing, I´m good at life. What more to ask for? Be arrogant to society, be humble to god. Trust yourself as you are god. After massacring myself, terrorizing every inch of my mind, I can now wait for my whole life to unfold itself as being the unfolder. And knowing that the love for this girl will never be forgotten, as I have seen god for the first time through her. God you are a sick fuck, thank you...