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Looks amazing. Thanks man!

Merry Christmas everyone! @King Merk Ok. Is this inherent to the classic exercises (like bench press, squats, deadlifts) or is it also due to a lack of balancing these exercises with other exercises? Like e.g. a lot of guys train their internal rotation more than their external rotation and end up with shoulder problems, which could be avoided if they balanced their chest/pushing exercises with other exercises (also including stretching). In other words you become a more functional human being because you can move better, have more mobility, less pain etc? How do functional training programs account for certain limitations you already have? E.g. if you're dealing with knee pain from former sports injuries, aren't then a lot of exercises from functional training impossible because they would worsen the pain and then you have to somehow work around this issue? @Michael569 More functionality that is? Like all of life becomes easier because you have more stamina, mobility, coordination/balance AND strength? Also to all of you: Has anyone here tried out the Knees over toes guy's approach to improve knee pain? What's your view on that?

Thanks for replying. Yeah, it was tricky. On one level I could think reasonably about everything and I was aware that I simply got a negative state of mind due to a substance, and that actually there was probably nothing to worry about. But then there always was this nagging doubt left. The way I understand it is that once you've surpassed a certain level of fear, like in my case due to the irrational thoughts about the stove and other people coming home etc., you then have released too much adrenaline and other stress chemicals in your body. And now your state of mind keeps being affected by that chemical state of the body and the stress system in your brain stays active (a feedback loop). Now you can try to comfort yourself again and again with your rational, reasonable and comforting thoughts and it works to an extent, but I simply couldn't return to a peaceful state of mind anymore. Three hours or so of prior worrying were a bit too much it seems ?

Great! Just persist with it for some time. Like, don't necessarily expect some long-term emotional pattern to just be gone after tapping on it for 1 or 2 times. It will take more with the really challenging issues, so repeat the process until you feel like something has actually changed.

Hey everyone Oh boy did I get schooled today, by just 105 mcg of 1V-LSD. It all started so good. Going amazingly deep into my own mind, my fears, my past etc. At some point it seemed like I had completely transcended all my petty bullshit fears. I was aware of my "problems" but at the same time so utterly relaxed and carefree. I was like "haha all these fears are just such petty nonsense, it so doesn't matter haha" to then relax even deeper into my own consciousness and letting go more and more. I was relaxing my fears away, letting consciousness and love wash over it until they would dissolve... It seemed like I was about to have the deepest experience within consciousness so far... And potentially the most beautiful one too. BUT THEN, BUT THEN.... Then I remembered that I had fired the stove that keeps the house warm in winter. And I started to feel this responsibility to check for whether it was still running (or burning or whatever you say). So now I needed to go downstairs to check for the fire in the stove, being at the peak of my trip ? And I did. BUT... I noticed the presence of somebody else in the house. Someone must have arrived, either my mother or her partner. Now things got really bad...I heard noises coming out of the bathroom, but I wasn't even sure whether somebody was in there or not. "Let's check outside which car is parked in front of the house, then I'll know who must have arrived back home" "But how long have I been standing here in front of the bathroom listening to these noises?" "Are there really any noises at all?" "Wait!!!!! Maybe I let the water tap open and now it's gonna flood the house....but wait no... it's my mother's boyfriend...he is actually home...I saw his car!!!" "But did I really see his car? You know... I'm hallucinating too, so am I sure I saw his car?!?!" (I checked again and made absolutely sure that it was my mom's boyfriend's car and that he must have arrived home without me noticing). But there was no relief...at all..."but what about the stove??!! Is the fucking stove still burning?" "Gosh... I'm gonna set the entire house on fire... I can't take care of the fucking stove, I'm overwhelmed, it's too much to do...what if I do something wrong and then smoke is gonna fill the house and I'll be breathing all that whatever the fuck carbonate gas (I couldn't recall what kind of toxic gas might be created that might kill me in some way)." I already saw tragic images of the police and firefighters showing up, rescuing me, then having to tell my mother that I had burned the entire house down under the influence of a drug....oh gosh. At some point I was back in my room but I couldn't take the fear anylonger...I was completely paranoid about doing something wrong with the god damn stove... So I left my room again and standing just before the door of my room I listened to what I could here in the house. But I also was paranoid about being seen in this state, whether it was by my mother or her boyfriend. But it didn't help, I just needed to help myself somehow... "Hey I can hear him talking on the phone (my mom's bf), he's clearly somewhere downstairs talking on the phone... Are you sure? Are you making this up? What happened to the stove?" So I decided that I needed to go and talk to my mom's boyfriend, I had to tell him that I was tripping and that I had become paranoid about dying due to some potential fire/stove accident and that I needed him to take care of all of that. So I walked in the living room where he was sitting. And damn, I was so scared that I needed to check again whether he's really sitting there or whether I'm hallucinating him. He: "What's up? Are you ok?" Me: "I'm tripping on LSD...and I'm scared that I might somehow burn the house down or whatever" (Luckily I knew that he himself had tripped on LSD probably a few docen times himself...so he would be understanding and not judge me). He said a whole bunch of comforting things like "ah gotcha... you've become paranoid... don't worry about anything in the house...I take care of everything... There's nothing for you to do...just go back in your room and have a good trip... Forget about the stove" But then we still ended up having about 20 minutes of conversation about bad trips and worry and how tricky the mind can be and so on. He then said that he would leave again but that there was absolutely nothing to be taken care of. The stove is safe and fired, I could just leave it all by itself and so on. So then he left... And I was back in my room upstairs, still feeling stressed from all the prior incidents. So I began to wonder in my mind.... "Did he really say everything was taken care of?" "Did we really have a long conversation at all or am I making this up?" "God...what if that's not true and I left that door of the stove open...and now smoke is leaving the stove and filling up the house?!?!" "Just go outside and check one last time whether that god damn stove is fine and everything is ok in the house" So I went another time, checked everything and everything seemed totally fine and I went back into my room. But at this point it didn't really help anymore to just have checked whether everything was ok. I was so fucking terrified, defeated by my fears. I had the fear of dying or that some tragedy would happen because of me and everybody would learn about it in the neighborhood. Then, sitting in my room, with my paranoid, scared mind I heard that another car was parking in front of the house. "Oh no...that must be my mother...I can't be seen like that... Just hide in your room, put the "please don't disturb! Meditation in progress"-sign on the door handle so she won't knock the door and ask anything of me" And it worked, nobody knocked on my door. But I could still hear my mother walking around in the house, doing all kinds of things everywhere and all these impressions got so nagging and stressful. I was like "what the hell? How many more times is she gonna switch on and off some light switch, she's already done it like 10 times...like what kind of incredibly important business must my mother be dealing with, walking up and down so many stairs, making so much noise, closing and opening so many doors?? Is she ever done?" All that I wanted was for my mother to leave again, and I knew that typically on Tuesday evenings she meets up with other people and just comes back home for maybe 20 minutes before leaving for her meet up with friends again. But it seemed like eternity, she kept walking around, opening and closing this and that door, going down the cellar stairs, coming back up again and so on. "AND now I can even hear her opening that fucking stove to fire it again...please can we not just leave it alone?" Then after ages she finally left again and I knew that from now on I was completely alone in the house again. But as you might guess things simply wouldn't get better. I had to leave my room another time to check for... You guessed it... Yes... The stove of course! Everything was fine and I logically understood that from now on there really wasn't anything to worry about anymore. But the trip was simply ruined, I couldn't relax anymore, I couldn't stop worrying. I was simply anxious. You can't even fathom how paranoid I got at different points. I was wondering how many times had I already gone down the stairs to check for the stove or for whether someone else was home. I was deeply disturbed about the possibility that I might not have gone down a single time, but instead was just making it all up, holy shit. I was standing there in front of my window staring outside wondering "how long have I been standing here?!?! Was I really downstairs to check for the stove? Where are all these noises coming from? Is this water that's flooding the bathroom? I'd like to go and check...but no...I don't want to be seen by anyone...o gosh... " So I sat there for a few more hours in my state of fear and paranoia and just "got over the trip". At least one small insight I had at some point and that was "I'm so afraid of dying, that this stops me from living" That's the fear of survival in a nutshell. I definitely learned my lesson. Set and setting is key (obviously right?). You do not want to be under the influence of a mind altering substance while still having to take care of seemingly important stuff like a god damn stove... Just don't do that. When you trip, there's nothing else to do. So let that be a lesson not just for myself but everyone reading this. I'd like to assume that you're all much more responsible than I am, but I just thought I'd still put it out there. Don't do what I did. Trip when you know that there's nothing at ALL to be taken care of. Because you simply can't do it anymore. Ok, that's it! I hope you enjoyed my report! Have a nice day/evening and a wonderful life. Don't let fear dictate how you're gonna live your life.

This.

Iboga has a lot of potential benefits when microdosed. But there is some effect in which the active component Ibogaine gets converted to Noribogain and stored in the body for weeks, binding to various receptors in the brain. I was thinking about doing Iboga microdosing. The actual Iboga trip doesn't seem like something anyone should do alone, it's dangerous and lasts very long. So my idea was that I could do Iboga microdosing and then sporadically still have a LSD trip on a day on which I would then not take the Iboga microdose. But I don't know...it still seems like this could be risky due to interactions with the brain receptors. Is anyone here knowledgeable about Iboga and potential interactions with other substances? Thanks.

I hope not a big dose. Many people vomit on Iboga and then they're fully absorbed in their trip and don't realise that their breathing is blocked due to the puke in their throat. That's why the guides are important in full floods. @Tboy Make sure to be very well examined medically, especially cardiologically. And regarding any medication that you might be taking. Those are the two things that bring the biggest risks with it.

Both as microdosing simultaneously? Be careful too, Ayahuasca contains MAOi which you're actually not supposed to take together with Iboga (which essentially is a natural SSRI). But report back here anyway, if you still can

@integral That's a different topic.

The mistake was my thinking process during the technique (the mental exposure). It was too vague and unspecific, too general. You must really be willing to confront your really ugly thoughts and express them, this is what brings up the emotion, so it can be reprocessed. Instead of "I'm just always so anxious" or "I have low self esteem" it's much more beneficial to use things like "today, when that person looked at me in the bus, I felt so judged and weird, like I'm a loser" or something of that nature. Go into the details of the awkwardness. You can even visualize being in a uncomfortable situation and e.g. doing something that you're afraid of. But not in an attempt to be positive (like visualization in positive thinking practices), but rather in an attempt to fully bring that fear up, while tapping on it. Then it works.

Start with a low dose and see how it affects you. Practice dealing with this changed state of mind a few times on lower doses. Then, when that was no issue, increase the dosage step by step.

@EugeneTheSage Yeah, I've done a lot of tapping. It's working for me. In fact it's what works best from the view things that work for me (to change unwanted emotional responses). In the beginning I did it wrong, so it didn't really work, then I figured out how exactly I need to do it and it started working a lot better. Basically all of my insecurities, anxieties and traumas have improved with the use of this technique.

So you mean generally, not just in the case of functional patterns? I honestly don't even know what "functional" in this context is supposed to mean...like which function? Is a pull up not functional? Or a push up? Or is it things like bench press, because you wouldn't normally encounter a bar with weights on in nature, so there's no point in having bench press strength? I have no idea ?

@taslimitless Interesting! Thanks for sharing!

@Someone here Congrats. What a relief that must be. And you lost two virginities in one night. Damn you blow my mind ?

Sure. Cool. What did you do? A full flood, half flood, micro dosing? By yourself or some initiation with guides etc? To ask questions here? Also, it wasn't really about combining considerable dosages of both substances. More like doing Iboga microdosing for a prolonged time, because it's said to have a lot of benefits that seem very interesting. And then maybe pause the Iboga microdosing for some days and have a regular LSD trip. And my question was about how the remaining Iboga and Noribogain might still interact with the LSD. The Noribogain is said to remain in the human body for much longer than the igogain and binds to all kinds of receptors. A full flood seems like a big deal and not like a realistic option for me at the moment.

The green mile. It's old but gold. If that story doesn't make you cry then there's not much hope left ?

This just kinda blows my mind. 4 Arms, 2 brains, 2 hearts, 2 lungs, 2 legs. And they perfectly work together.

@Ulax I have no idea of catatonia. Though chronic fatigue is something I've done a lot of research about. It's very difficult, if you're dealing with an actual chronic fatigue syndrome than it's only normal to take years to recover from it. I saw your other thread about trauma and psychotherapy. If you're indeed still dealing with a lot of trauma than this is probably where a big chunk of the solution is to be found. Trauma affects the autonomic nervous system (ANS). The ANS is one of the most important regulatory systems in the body, in fact it's involved in the regulation of all other bodily systems. Unprocessed trauma leads to unhealthy levels of chronic stress which can create a maladaptive stress response in the ANS. This is when your ANS is permanently malfunctioning with the consequence that a lot of other bodily systems don't function normally anymore. This also can affect the energy production of your mitochondria which would logically leave you with decreased energy. My very skilled doctor also explained to me that there's another process in the brain in which - as a consequence of the chronic stress from trauma and other sources - your brain downregulates its own energy supply (in the neocortex, your thinking area) which can explain some of the mental fatigue. You can research the free info material of the optimum health clinic in London, there are some free videos that explain their model of understanding of chronic fatigue syndrome and similar syndromes. They also have a program called "The RESET program" that specifically talks about overcoming trauma and the relation of trauma, the nervous system and chronic fatigue. A few more observations. Most people with chronic fatigue follow an approach of trying out everything in the hopes of getting lucky. But this often fails. Of course you must try out whether certain things affect you positively, but it takes more than that. You must build a holistic understanding of your illness. You must constantly be doing ALL the things that are known to promote health. Or you split up recovery in different stages of which the first stage is overcoming the majority of your trauma. Once you've achieved that it becomes easier to also do all the other good things like perfect diet, enough sleep, supplements/naturopathic treatments etc. Another very important point that almost always gets overlooked is respecting your energy limits. People typically go from 100% to maybe 30% energy when they get ill with chronic fatigue. Then they reduce their exertion from 110 % (they were already doing too much before the illness) to maybe 40 %. But that's still too much, even if it's a lot less exertion. You have to lower your exertion to 25% in order to recover, you must do less than you can. Check out a YouTube channel called "CFS unravelled". The guy also has a very holistic understanding of CFS, just like the optimum health clinic. You'll find many recovery interviews there. Also ignore all the advice with pills and energy drinks and caffeine and so on. That won't do anything for you, you just get a short burst of energy and then crash, which is just further stress on your nervous system.

@Someone herehere Seems like you're putting a lot of pressure on yourself. Don't do that. Just have sex several times. Do a lot of foreplay, fingering and pussy licking. Then when you penetrate don't just start like a rabbit with super fast thrusting, like this you'd cum immediately. Do slow thrusting. Watch your breath. Practice deep belly breathing instead of shallow and fast chest breathing. Practice that before in your fapping sessions. If you are disciplined enough you can easily make a fapping session last 20 minutes without cumming. I've had 45 minute long sessions with an explosion at the end, so it's definitely possible to postpone your money shot a lot. Use the g spot fingering technique and the rubbing her clit technique (carefully, with moisture, not rubbing too strong, especially in the beginning). When you lick her, don't actually lick her like a dog. Instead, find her clit and suck on it as if it was like a little nipple, that's the best technique. When you're close to the point of no return, just stop penetrating, pull it out. If she's like "why you stop?" you just tell her that you're postponing your cum shot. Wait for a moment with your dick outside of her and do the belly breathing, think of something else, don't look at how hot she is or anything. If you need to you can flex your pc muscle (the same muscle you'd use to interrupt your pissing stream) and sort of close of the pipe ? that will prevent you from orgasming too. You could even press with your fingers in the perineum area to stop the orgasm by again closing the pipe. And if you cum early anyway, just don't give a fuck about it! DON'T be apologetic about it. You're still way too much in that "omg I must please her" frame. Instead, blame it on her hotness. "That's all your fault...you turned me on way too much with your hot body, you made me cum fast...". Good luck and have fun!

Ok, before I even say it, please don't take my comment too seriously, it's just speculation. But I could imagine something like this: "Ok, we're 1:2 down against Japan...but Germany is leading against Costa Rica again...ah fuck it...we don't need to win this match, we'll be second in the group and avoid the half with Brazil and Argentina" I could just well imagine if Spain had received a message that Costa Rica is up 3:1 or 4:1 against Germany and that they'll likely win the match (which would have eliminated Spain), then there would have been more motivation to "remontar" their own match against Japan, but as Germany quickly recovered from their 1:2 against Costa Rica there was no more pressure.

Seems like Karma caught up with Spain ?

So I want to be optimistic that my acid trips will all go well. Also I'm fine with it if a trip becomes challenging, somewhat scary or negative. But just in case a trip was ever to become a complete nightmare I was thinking about having something up my sleeve that could help to either end the trip or drastically reduce the fear. They say that you can use Benzodiazepines like Alprazolam as a fast acting trip killer. Has anyone here used them or other Benzos? Did you ever have to stop a trip or were you in one that you wished you could stop? Do you think one should never kill a trip and just endure it even if it becomes the most hellish nightmare, because it could still turn all good? What other strategies do you suggest when the trip becomes more and more fearful etc.? Thanks!

@acidgoofy I got the book here. Were you referring to that text called "Instructions for the wrathful visions"?