Bob Seeker

@Girzo @Federico del pueblo coo, coo. Yes, thank you Dutch, don’t even need to use black market.

If I am primarily interested in knowing myself as God. Is silent darkness too distracting and you get lost in imagery, or is it actually more profound and more encompassing consciousness of God than sitting on couch and contemplating? Any experience with comparison?

Don’t need coffee grinder. Just cut them into small pieces. Strain the tea out before drinking, don’t drink the mushroom bits. lemon makes it stronger but last shorter, not necessary for first trip. before your trip, you may want to contemplate or read about the metaphysics of God. What Good is, how you are God and how God manifest as reality. Then you can see this on the trip.

So what do you recommend? That most people do not try a breakthrough without supervision? I would like to have breakthrough but I find this a bit concerning. It’s rare but people really do kill themselves on psychedelics. Do you ever get concerned about what you will do while tripping?

My thinking is it shouldn't be a big deal if u watch some porn while in a relationship, and just be open about it with your partner. Idk, anyone else have thoughts? It would seem weird for a girl to not want you to watch porn, like she must not understand male psychology/sex drive or something. do you agree?

I want to, as independently as I can, prototype web apps for myself and others, MVPs to start with and then I can build from there, but I want to be able to learn pretty quickly. Any recommendations on languages or how to learn efficiently?

Yeah, take Jed McKenna for example. Literally no self, if you take his word for it, he didn’t even feel related to his own sister and “had no mechanism by which he could be concerned about or even curious about the future” not even curious- that’s very radical

Maybe go to shops, coffee shops, hair solons, things like that and give them copies to play. Look for the guys with the long hair, girls with pink eye-liner. Hip solons and stuff they will easily play this stuff for their customers and maybe start talking about it. Tell them about live shows you will do. Get people involved.

You didn't awaken to the Love aspect of it though, it seems. So you saw Truth, but not the whole Truth, so you are therefor not seeing how it is actually good and all for Love.

I just invented some purposes to pursue a few days ago. I think it is just better. Otherwise I will think about getting laid or obsess about how to navigate my life, which is just too much self-importance style reflection, it wears you out. I ordered some magic truffles and am planning to have my first good-sized trip. Unless this smacks me in the face and tells me I'm wrong about pursuing these purposes, I am making them the center of my life. I want to not have to feel like garbage about not having women or not being enlightened or what not. I've tried pickup and I could have done it but I literally just concluded that it is stupid (for me) because it felt so immature and pointless. So I'm a virgin haha! My life doesn't make sense to me.

Some people can SORT OF be alone, but most are not wired that way and need other people to have any sort of happiness and not die of depression. if you have chronic loneliness you can become depressed and it can dramatically shorten your life, even if you cover it up. If there is a major financial crisis, as some people predict, he may find it harder to order what he needs off amazon, or to meet all his needs without any community interaction. Yeah, I'd rather have other people around. If you are happy with yourself and not yourself insane, you can smile on others and appreciate being around them even if you think they are insane.

Okay then, lay it on me. Can't leave me hanging like that.

I think I've got it. I have invented a few purposes for myself and if I go hard at it, I will probably stop thinking so much about me and what to do next. Not really worry about whether every little thing is really the best for me or if it is a mistake. I'll also have the impetus to be disciplined and give to society. We'll see how it goes. Thanks all for the replies. "whatever or how you a wanna do it, we can do it, like we late. Ay, wait, Deezle, let me just get the 8-0-8... ...As I hit the kill switch. Now that's how you let the beat build biiiiiitch!"

I have been feeling like nothing matters more and more. Like nothing particularly meaningful at least until I invest in it heavily and grow attached to it, or it relates heavily to my survival. So I just decided to write everything I think I want on a dream board and go for it so I don't just sit around and do nothing.It kind of bugs me that I know so little and there's no way my mind could produce the optimal path for me. I can hardly even decide what I want. I also wonder if just going for things that I want will begin to tempt me into just going in circles and not growing. To be honest though, I don't think so. I think reality is intelligently rendering my life no matter how dumb I am, it is unfolding a higher vision for my life that I probably couldn't do much to mess up. I guess I'll find out because I don't really know what else to do. The dream board is the only thing that really keeps me positive and moving consistently with some confidence. If I just "go with the flow" or I "just live consciously" I end up experiencing doubt or I just get lazy.

Everything I believed was a struggle was a struggle. Everything I believed wasn't a struggle wasn't a struggle. It turns out that life is just what you make it to be.

@katewashere welcome! I appreciate the advice. This is what I seem to be doing. largely defaulting to hobbies now to see if I can pick up on inspiration and craft it into a living.

I'm pretty sure that the only good reason to enter into a relationship with someone is because you feel like yourself around them and you just like being around them. This should have nothing to do with attraction. It is what kind of person you are in the relationship that is literally the only thing that matters. Most people enter a relationship because of a mixture of a few things: 1. They are attracted to the person (physical flattery) 2. They think the person's personality is sexy (emotional flattery) 3. They have compatibilities with the person and like to talk to them 4. They are lonely, bored and afraid by themselves (emotional dependence) They only reason supportive of a good relationship is number 3. The other things are irrelevant to a good relationship, and number 4 is detrimental, and this is why most relationships don't last. They are focused on the other person and what that person gives them, rather than being focused on who they are being in the relationship. One reasonable thing to do for a man is to go and bang a bunch of hot girls and have flings and have fun with them, and then when he wants a substantial relationship, do it for the relationship, not for numbers 1, 2, or 4. He doesn't need his "dream girl". This is completely irrelevant. The relationship is what matters (who he is in relationship), not the girl. And the relationship doesn't have to last forever. Only people who form emotional attachments to numbers 1, 2, and 4 demand this. In other words, she doesn't have to be physically attractive or emotionally turn you on, unless you still want to play games but notice this does not benefit your ability to have a good relationship. She should just be someone you feel like yourself around and enjoy relating to. I don’t know what a girl would ideally do, given her psychology. I just can't put myself in a woman's shoes as easily. critique my idea.

@NoSelfSelf give us your definition of game

@Ayham dream board is magic. If u run into questions about it u can dm me maybe I could help.

@Ayham https://www.actualityofbeing.com/dreamboard-1 dude, the dream board makes things so easy. Trying to figure out your life at 18 or so is not possible by definition unless you are Sri Ramana Maharshi and you want to sit on a hill for the rest of your life.

Alan watts lived by the statement of D.T. Suzuki who said "I've given up satori altogether. Now I am trying to forma as many attachments as I can" This seems to be what psychedelics show you. Like that you are here to be here, and to have no aversion to feeling anything, instead of insisting on feeling good or being spiritual or detached. It is like meta-detachment. detachment from being detached. I like that if followed it is like being your screwy self to the max and no-longer waiting til that promised day when your life is all good, which never seems to come, at least for most of us. I mean Alan Watts had like 2 divorces or something and he drank alcohol I believe. So I think you may well end up "running amok", but maybe this is the way it should be. At least if we are unafraid of feeling even the worst things, then we will have no barrier to living fully because the only thing we could be afraid of is feeling like shit anyway. Do you agree?

A great way to begin to explore this is to begin connecting with others! And have fun doing it! Feel the excitement of butterflies when you talk to people or talk to a girl if you are attracted to women or other way if not. I'm introverted too, but have been able put myself out there enough to know this is a very rich part of life. Take a few steps and then see how you feel, and then go further. Write down some socialization goals and check them off. make it fun.

I don't see the connection to what I posted. Can you explain? What I am saying is let yourself feel everything and don't have aversion to it, and this will allow you to not need any specific outcome and thus you can feel and also feel fully alive and like yourself, going with the flow. If there is an issue with this philosophy I would like to hear it.

Good distinction. I wonder how I could implement this in my life. It is like the Joker, how he ends up in jail and still manages to have a blast. I wonder if this is irresponsible compared to just attracting the things you want using Law of Attraction, or if you can do both at the same time. I just don't want to feel like I am waiting to live anymore. I want to feel fully alive NOW. idk, any advice?

I am almost 25, never been in a relationship. Cool to read your post because it is insightful for me. Looking forward to a relationship myself. some thoughts- The above quote reminds me of a video I watched. It's advice was "stop falling in love, rise in love". I can't speak with much confidence but the idea makes sense to me. "Falling in love" may just be us projecting our needs onto the other person and seeing them as our Source of happiness - leading to inevitable disappointment. Rising in love is to choose to be love and relate from that space, fundamentally focused on giving and creating, and aiding each other in releasing every false thought each of you have ever had about yourselves. When you say u need to work on your thoughts about not being able or worthy to find a guy who suits you better- -The funny thing is that the only work we need to do on our thoughts is to stop having them. Just write on a dream board what you want and stop thinking whatever you are thinking that is negative. Just literally throw that ish to the wind for no better reason that they you can, and just allow the thing to come into your life. Works like a charm.