Gianna

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  1. It’s not like @AliceK is out here asking for Balenciaga. She just wants to feel taken care of and that’s NATURAL for a woman to desire. It’s so beyond reasonable it’s insane and for guys to get anxious about it is just.. not even rational. Because women are smart thinkers and planners too. They’re not going to let you (or even want you) spend to the point it will hurt/hinder you. Not only because they (women) are naturally caretaking, but also because they won’t feel safe and secure with a guy being financially irresponsible. So the fear that guys have in not wanting to support a women with money is, imo, an irrational fear. Woman want to support you in supporting them. I should say most women! Of course there are the exceptions.
  2. @something_else Well yeah I mean obviously give him a chance. And that’s a good point, maybe he’s just anxious about money-handling for the first time. But is this his first time bringing in money? And isn’t it natural when you start to bring in good amounts of money to want to treat yourself and others a bit? Idk, I just thinks it’s a mindset and I know how deep this scarcity mindset runs. So I’m not looking at age, I’m looking at mindset. From personal experience, I don’t have hope for change/flexibility in this kind of mind. It’s a deep fear that drives such behavior. And if you’re only 22 and want something better for yourself, then why not go out and find yourself that? But yeah if the relationship is deep, then whatever. And the person is “Young”. But idk that’s not even young imo. I was on my own at 18, paying for guys’ meals (on occasion).
  3. @Max_V Also, we’re talking about way more than purchasing. Living at home is a HUGE problem for a relationship. And if you make money but decide to still be dependently living at home versus independently living on your own, that’s a huge turn off and a terrible mindset to be influenced by. Again, this goes much deeper than the ‘child’s play’ your hyperbole makes it to be.
  4. @Max_V Hm, good point. But being bought dinner every now and then isn’t being treated like a child. It’s being treated like a woman.
  5. You are not being dramatic and he is being wayy too cheap. I dated a guy just like this but he was 28 living at home, made a TON of money, but wouldn't spend a penny. It’s disgusting to be that cheap (my ex) and a disgrace to our abundant nature. It was only a matter of time before I left him and looking back, I would never let myself be in such a situation again. After you get a guy who takes care of you, you will be repulsed looking back at the mentality of these guys. I’m sorry, I know it sounds aggressive but that’s just how I feel now after giving myself something better. You have to make it a standard and prioritize yourself. It’s a mindset with these kinds of guys and you don’t want to be subject to that mindset. I’ve dated guys since with less money who’ve paid more, cared for me more, and lived more freely and happily. You don’t want to end up with someone as limiting as this. I know it’s hard to hear but you just deserve so much better. And it’s not a good influence to have in your life. A metaphysical perspective would suggest that because we’re literally living in a dream, to be that cheap is really just self-hate/self-rejection. So maybe work on this with him? If you love him/don’t want to leave him. If the cheapness was oriented toward long-term investment and was self-loving, that would be different. But most cheap-ness stems from fear (not love) and with the scenario he pulled on you at the fancy restaurant… and the other restaurant dates… he wouldn’t even be eating at restaurants or suggesting them if he was being self-loving with his spending. I would feel totally taken advantage of and not cared for at all if this was me. And it was me once before and I’m telling you, you can find someone better and hopefully he will learn. As a girl, it’s really important for us to feel cared for— not to be continuously paying for the guy and caretaking him at home. If I were you I would leave him. Maybe do what Leo says and talk about it with him first but.. eh. I don’t have hope that this kind of mindset changes. I would personally just leave (knowing my past experiences with this). I know it seems aggressive but with a fixed mindset like this it requires something just as stern. You’re only 22 and to enable such behavior is limiting for not only yourself but for him as well.
  6. Let us all remember our desire to distort ourselves. To fragment into our interests and explore that in which we found most loving. Most giving. Let us give to ourselves for ourselves is all we can give. Let us recognize ourselves for ourselves is all we can recognize. In the heart of God, we are One. In Oneness do we Love, Truth Infinity Forgiveness. Forgive us in forgetting our Truth, In our desire to know this One, Little One. I bless myself.
  7. I remember the thought I had before I forgot it all. What beauty did I see. The feeling of perfection, wholeness, completeness. The absolute love of being me and being me in this life. How could I ever lose touch with you, my dearest one? You are all I ever feel. All I ever love. I love you and I love you forever more. For eternity. Your eternal being rests in my soul. And I will forever be thankful. I love you for infinity and back. May you never be without my love. Colette Cole, Gianna.
  8. Wow, thank you for sharing.
  9. confusion, clarity, insight in your confusion do you stumble upon the question; the question that adds clarity to the becoming of your confusion. it is only through clarity that we know confusion. and it is only through confusion that we can come to clarity. A star is born!
  10. remembering, forgetting, desire You can make your dream feel like whatever you want. But do you know what you want? If you've been abused you have a hard time knowing what you want. It's because you're used to conforming to what others want so you never truly know what you want. You want to stay safe. But nothing can keep you safe. Because it is only through danger that we know safety. Don't you see? What even is safety? It's something you have made up entirely and then forgotten that you have made up. Just like everything else you have made up in your dream. You create, then forget. Create, then forget. Create– build on that creation– and then double forget everything you have done because of your incredible humility for yourself, to yourself. Until one day you let yourself remember a little. But 'a little' is a string that goes all the way back to the beginning (if there was a 'beginning' or a 'backward' or a 'string'). You suddenly remember the start of it all. The thing you weren't supposed to remember. Along with it, you remember why you were supposed to forget and laugh. You love. Your heart is so full it explodes as tears run down your face. You're so grateful, accomplished, elated, you are ready to die. But of course you don't have to die because you already have. You also know that you could never die even if you wanted. So if we want to die, we forget. Forgetting is dying. And remembering is rebirth. And desire is creation.
  11. knowing, unknowing, identity 'here' is never fully known. how can infinity be known? only by being itself, feeling itself, knowing itself. something that can be truly known is something that is itself. something that can be truly felt is something feeling itself. nothing outside of this is possible because it is already inside. the best way to realize this is to take away everything and see that everything is already there. everything can never not be there because you can never not be there witnessing yourself. you cannot take away you from yourself any more than you can take everything away from everything. from infinity. you're stuck here forever, being yourself. But 'here' is never fully known.
  12. Do you(we) not know of the Love that abounds in all areas of your (our) lives? Yes, I do. I just feel so alone so much of the "time". How do I change that feeling within my life. I mean that I do know that l am never "alone". I do know that yet my feeling level is still one of "aloneness". Why is that? My child, how we do love you and how you do love us and we know that you know we are One. There are feelings still “hiding" inside of you that does still feel alone. When that comes up, do allow and then embrace. In the embracing do gather up that part of you that is feeling the emotion and bring it into the whole of you. You do understand this. We have on many occasions heard you explain this to your loved ones. Now on to what is truly important for you in this moment: The vibration is accelerating to the point that is of a higher level in your physical body and the "symptoms" are distracting, we know. Allow the movement to accelerate as you did that day in the bathtub when you allowed the movement until you felt you were going to "pass out". It is acceptable and you have surely been a monumental "student" in this area. There are other areas in which it is time for you to focus and we will "list" these for your information. Just allow your hands to type. Do not analyze please Dear One. We have becen with you for ever and for ever shall we be at One. You do know this and you rise unto the occasion with much expertise. Allow yourself to realize this Little One. You have always known Us to Be and we continue to muse with you on many subjects. You allow us to communicate with expertise. And when we say expertise, we mean with discernment. You still hear what you consider to be blasphemy and we do say for you to bring that statement into focus and Bless the Souls who are living that statement for you do hold the compassion necessary to bring these Souls to the next level of understanding. There are Souls who contain much anger, distress and hatred towards who you are so in Love with, your Creator, Savior, and Friend. Your Family of Light are with you in this "assignment" and the more you process for humanity in general the higher octaves will accommodate the frequency changes within the Earth that you so dearly love. And that brings up, dear Little One, do get out into the natural way of life that you so much miss in your daily life. It is always "on schedule" no matter what you continue to believe to the contrary. There is always that Part of You who knows differently and we know that. Just allow, Little One and all is well. Always has, and always will be. It is this moment that you must allow and as always the next will unfold. You, our Dear Little One, have been the "apple of our eyes" and the excitement that you bring to this "mission" is outstanding. We hear that thought of "Excitement! How could that be so" and we tell you that the excitement within your heart is most endearing to us all. We feel your compassion and your love, your excitement for your fellow Souls during this stage of the Play and we see and feel the level of grace that you bring to this stage. Know, our Little One, that we walk with you on all occasions and fly with you as you soar. Our Love and Blessing upon you our Child.
  13. Here we are as One. Thank you for this communication. I have been upset lately with so much on my mind. We know Little One and we are with you as always. Our notion of this is that you have been "doing" very well in all of the perceived chaos. Our only suggestion on this is that you must reach within, to the very core of your Being and that our child is where you will enter in to the Beingness of who you are. The muss and clutter of the perceived chaotic moment will come in to the "light of day" where you will come in to your correct senses of the realms of calmness. You do understand this and you very often do enter this realm. That is when you recognize the peace within during the perceived chaos of the without. You have heard on many occasions "as within, so without" and we do clarify this for you. When you perceive the chaos without go in to the calmness within thereby as within, so without. It is not necessarily that the "chaos" is within to experience it without as you so perceive it to be (on occasion you have recognized this to be in err) and although the greater part of you knows the truth of this you have wondered if you were creating this perceived chaos without because of the "chaos" already present within. This is not necessarily so. Do note this and although this on occasion can be the experience, it is not necessarily the case. Understand that whatever the experience, it is always in Divine Order as you so perceive. Now on to the "business" at hand, Little One. Do understand that you walk in Love and that you do possess all of Creation within your core of Being. Rest in this, our child. It will uphold you unto your task at hand. Your inner strength does shine and you note the "shabbiness" of your outer skin (your perception) when we ask you to see your inner shine of who you are. Make this a priority day to day. Observe the Light of who you are and just as the flame of the candle expands as you observe so does your inner flame of Love Divine as you expand your sense of sight to include the inner light of you. Your senses of observation on the tactile level already feel this light expanding within your physical body. You consistently observe this. Now is the time to expand that unto your physical sight. Do not be dismayed by what you consider to be the failing of your physical eyesight for you more than exceed that with your inner eyes. Expand your choices our child. We so love you and as you wrote today we extend our greeting to include: In love do we stand before you and in honor do we sit beside you and in grace do we walk beside you and in "sync" do we fly above you. In love.
  14. This is a brilliant question, @BlueOak. I think we gain an identity when emotional experiences first happen in our earliest years because of the illusion of separation— that feelings/emotions happen “to and from” “one another”. Yet, later in our life when we have an established sense of self tied to these emotional/energetic experiences, they re-create themselves to experience themself, express themself. So now you have emotions coming from an identity with an identity that was created from emotions/past emotional experiences.
  15. @Preety_India hehehe, no way. You are the voice of deep feminine desires, as I see it.
  16. Oh, I feel these desires as so pure, natural, and healthy? it is a natural expression of femininity to crave to receive, to be conquered, to be owned, to surrender. I share your fantasies so no you are not alone, darling. ? I think our creative minds, imagination, fantasies can be influenced by art and fiction, trauma, television/media, experiences, and a lot more. But I believe the more consciousness work/purification you do the more your authentic energetic desires come radiating out. I love the question, "do they exist to serve an internal purpose?" I know some sexual desires come from an internal purpose of getting an emotional need met; but as far as a spiritual purpose that is interesting to think about. Maybe for reverence of a particular expression of consciousness– whether that is feminine, masculine, or transcendence.
  17. my dating phases always come in pairs it's super weird but I think 3 is a good number to balance that but I couldn't keep that up for more than a few weeks so I know what you mean.
  18. @RickyFitts I love you too, dear one. ?
  19. @RickyFitts I think so too
  20. Our Life Before it begins and after it ends, I look upon you Dear Life in Light and in Love. In excitement and in joy. This life will be full. It will last for eternity and flash before us in only a second. This short, sweet, loving life holds the deepest love and the most loving grief. Our deepest sense of pain and our most explosive moments of joy, of laughter. Our hopes and our dreams. Our adrenaline and our fear. This game we have played together, brother, has been the source of my heart. I adore you, forever. I am with you as we soar and I will hold you when we “die”. Together again in oneness we will find each other. And begin yet another game in this play called life.