Gianna

Haha. that's good! depending on how often you hung out during that time.

Actually you know what it would be really nice if the guy withheld for the girl. That would be amazinggg.

If I'm attracted to someone I just want to have sex with them. But I think building up intimacy makes sex 10x better so waiting is good but it's hard but it's good

I have a problem withholding sex tbh but I want to get better at this!

@RickyFitts oh my gosh this is beautiful.

I guess I'm asking because I assume a lot of devilry in myself "just in case" I'm hurting someone but then this turns into self-blame which feels shameful I think. idk! what does shame feel like in your body?

Does feeling your devilry make you feel shameful? Or does the understanding negate that?

Wow this is amazing. TY!

I did Viome and it has been helping me a ton. It's basically a gut intelligence exam where they analyze your gut bacteria and give you a personalized food plan specifically for your microbiome. You may think you are eating healthy but if your stomach is acidic and then you're eating spinach thinking it's healthy you are actually terrorizing your gut.

Yeah that'd be cool

HAHA. You got this!!!

when you put love of 'others' over self-love, you create suffering. it is all love essentially, but suffering brings you back to your self-love. In this way you can see how suffering is love (it is an attempt from yourself to yourself to love yourself). it is love.

woah wow. that's art right there.

Oh that's beautiful nailed it.

@Tyler Durden Whatever you desire <3 All that I am really pointing to is Love (I think that's obvious). But why I am saying to ask yourself why. Why her? Is because this: what do we love? We love the things we see ourselves in. And no this is not an egoic self-admiration thing. This is God. God IS Love. We are living in a dream yes– as @Leo Gura describes. But what is this dream? It is a 360 mirroring hologram of ourselves. Of God. Of LOVE. We are living in the heart of God.

@Tyler Durden I mean that when you are trying to go after something (masculinity) it can't come to you. If you let yourself receive (femininity) it comes to you. And no, you are already complete. I'm just saying in this particular moment of your inquiry, be feminine. Let yourself receive your own inquiry. inquiry = masculinity receiving = femininity both are done by you.

God is Creator. but what does it create out of? Creates out of Love. It's just whether or not you have the perspective to see it. If you don't it will look like devilry. Like, "oh I'm punishing myself by keeping me asleep". No. You want to be awake just as much as YOU do. Everything you do is to communicate to yourself. Everything you do is to know yourself. Are you listening? Are you seeing? Are you feeling? Are you learning? If not you are running out of program and doing it all wrong. Your intuition knows. Your heart knows.

Keep loving

No hahaha. And no to Leo too. Open up your heart. Embrace your femininity in this particular moment. Allow yourself to receive (perceive). Like a submissive woman. Take it. You gave it to yourself hehe. now take it. It's like you fucked yourself, now let yourself be fucked.

@Tyler Durden @Leo Gura Okay fellas. Forget about God for a moment jeez. This is about LOVE. hehehe. You can always come back to God later You did not "create her to keep you asleep." You created her to WAKE YOU UP. So ask yourself. WHY. WHY her?? What are you trying to show yourself?

Now ask why again. Why did you love her the most?

@Tyler Durden hmmmm Makes you think doesn't it. Now ask yourself WHY? Why her? There's a golden nugget there for you to find.

Are you either the scapegoat or 'golden child' of your family? If so, the reason why this problem is following you to camp is because of the law of attraction. If you hold the vibration of self-blame (like I do) you will attract people who blame you. You are NOT to blame. You are simply open, authentic, loving, and compassionate and unfortunately people who can't handle those POWERFUL qualities become threatened by it. And then they take out that threat on you. As soon as you stop blaming yourself you will stop attracting other people who blame you. It's the classic "if you are self-critical you are going to attract people who will criticize you. If you 'play small' you are going to attract people who make you feel small" scenario. It's the universe trying to give you what it thinks you want because you are holding that vibration (the universe doesn't know the difference between "positive and negative" because from its perspective [which is really you btw but that's another story] is LOVE).

@fopylo when a social group doesn't want to deal with the discomfort of whatever it is that is making them feel uncomfortable (maybe it's a feeling of shame, maybe it's an idea of potential embarrassment, whatever it is) they project those undesired feelings onto ONE person so the group doesn't have to feel it. Because, "hey, it's just 'that person', not anyone else. We don't have to deal with it it's just 'that person'" It gives them clarity and control over whatever they are trying to avoid (negative feeling). That's what these people are doing to you. They are making you feel everything they don't want to feel themselves. Whether the feeling is "in the air" or something deeply ingrained in them personally, they are afraid to feel it. They are avoiding feeling it by projecting it onto you. They are afraid of negative feelings and so they project it on to you and make you the 'source'– they are scapegoating you. You are not stupid. You are not the problem. You didn't do anything to deserve this. They simply can't handle negative feelings/sentiment because they are cowards (sorry) and so they are redirecting it onto you as if you are the problem; it makes it easier on them to make you the 'black sheep' of the group instead of them to actually feel the things that are actually going on. It's easier for them to say, "oh you're so 'cute' and 'adorably stupid'" You are not. You are just an easy target. Trust me this same thing happens to me allll of the time and it took me years of suffering, turmoil, self-blame, self-hate, etc. until I finally figured it out. Here's a video on it if you're interested in hearing more.