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@Ninja_pig I just copied what Leo said in his video. It's mostly for inspiration, but I get you on that having a smaller list can keep the vision more clear, and I might also need to edit it once in a while. Yeah, developing small healthy habits. But they derive from the vision first and foremost. Of course, because they are very unique to you, and we are all very unique and different from each other. But how did you come up with a vision? Did you sit with a journal and go through this similar process like in the word document I attached (journaling where you are currently in life, have been, are going, what you want, what are the obstacles and fears...)? Did you just make time to sit and do nothing but reflect on your life and 'poof' - a vision? Or something else? Curious.

@RendHeaven Oh wait shit, dafaq?? How did I forget who you were? Bro... I was just scrolling through some old thread of the faces of the people our of curiosity and then I see you but for some reason I forgot that this is how you named yourself. That totally makes sense that you watch him lmao. Wait, just in order not to confuse you with someone else, did you also say you watch anime?

It's been a long while since I wrote something. Hello again! I ask please not to judge me for this. For a very long time already I've had this plan in mind to: 1. Buy a certain course about social skills, and in order to do that I need to go open a new credit card (which means ordering the card through the nearest bank) and then paying for the course. Also to finish going over all the newsletters I've been getting from them. 2. To finish and be up to date with anime reaction videos (anime I've watched already on my own) of someone I am subscribed to on Patreon. He keeps releasing new videos that I just enjoy watching, but I realize that when I am excited watching him react to something that I found very cool I am basically wasting time I could have anything watched a new anime myself - which I really wanted to do and catch on already. So almost every day I check if he uploaded something. Now I'm making an effort to watch his reactions just to ONE anime. 3. Start investing money. I have FINALLY gotten the trading app for my phone, a comfy one. My goal for this year was to finish watching a playlist of like 70 videos of someone explaining about investing. I have stupidly rushed into buying some QQQ stocks because I think it might be good but mostly because of FOMO and that I am not managing to invest time to learn about investment. 4. Get back to watching anime. Boy oh boy, you don't have to understand this one much' but I haven't watched anime in such a long time, because instead I've been watching reactions to anime. I really want to get back to it once I make myself psychologically available from all the previous stuff. I know this is just a psychological problem. 5. Get back to music. This has been so long lost that it isn't something I think about anymore. I haven't touched the piano really for like a little over 2 years (basically when I started my job of serving the country). This has been a long lost dream, really. I don't have much emotion now writing this. The only reason I felt like writing it is because I really like to whistle and I know that I am musically gifted. Ok, so as you see, I believe I'm trapped in some sort of matrix. I have my focus in different places, not accomplishing anything, nothing useful about that. I keep having this fantasy of managing all of those together (like "once I finish this, then I'll finally be able to focus on getting on with the others"). I am really stuck. But you know? It's been a very long time since I've been here. I've ditched Leo and all this stuff behind thinking it is all delusional and mental masturbation. But after reading Yuval Noah Harari's first 2 books, and stumbling across Leo's video of Understanding Survival Part 1 it all started making more sense to me. Nothing fluffy about it. It was practical from the beginning to the end. And so I continued getting back to him, rewatching some stuff I saw a while back. I just don't want to fall into the mental masturbation and fantasy land making it a distraction for my problems. I am also thinking of planning the episodes I'll watch. Too information overload. With all that I can still proudly say that I'm satisfied with where I am in terms of workout (calisthenics), and that I can understand some basic Japanese from a podcast I'm listening to. Wow! Feels like a long time I haven't said anything. It has kind of a feeling to it... I hope to keep learning and growing. This whole awareness and survival game is really peaking my interest. I guess growth isn't linear after all, very far from what I thought.

Guys let's stop debating these trash forms of exercise. The true king of all is CALISTHENICS.

I must say those were probably one of the most profound videos I've seen so far (Understanding survival part 1 and 2). It's a super foundational concept that plays a very major role in life, if not the most. I've been on a long hiatus from actualized.org because I saw it going too spiritual for me and it didn't mean much to me so I just threw it away for a while. Relatively recently I've read Yuval Noah Harari's books and it gave me quite a good basic understanding of human survival but especially collective society survival and how humans rule the world with the use of myths and fantasy. So then I stumbled on my recommended on Leo's Understanding Survival Part 1 video, and I thought to myself I can give it a shot, and my god, I was amazed. Ok so the first problem is that while watching it I was like "Damn, totally right! Makes sense... I see!" or "What? No. Hold on Leo what the hell? Ok, without judgement, let's prioritize understanding it really." But now as I finished also watching the second part I don't think it will be so easy for me to explain to someone what is survival. Like, I did follow on what he said in the videos but he also said in the second part to re-watch the series because for sure I might've skipped over something. I'm trying to get to the deepest understanding, but without rushing, so that questions arise at their own time: Why does the brain divide that skewed line between what is me and what is not me, assuming (the brain, apparently) that what needs to survive is a 'me' (fantasy) rather than this body structure it's connected to and in control of? I want to assume that Maslow's hierarchy of needs plays a big role in it, which wasn't mentioned in the videos really. Caring about self-confidence and community come only after basic needs are met (like breathing, shitting, eating). But then still how come people would die for their self-identity when basic needs come to first priority? How can I clearly identify a survival strategy (in my own behavior and other people's behaviors) and the way it helps survival? So when I finished watching part 2 I was ready to go observe my dad. I walked downstairs and as usual I saw him sitting on the couch in a slouched position with some snack in front of the TV. In most cases this is just his usual unhealthy lifestyle, but after seeing a video of actualized.org, especially like this one, I really felt bad for him. I didn't say anything, but it felt bad how some people are doomed to living such lives because of their ignorance because of their upbringing and what they were exposed to. I am damn privileged, but I just know my father isn't living happily, and he is very neurotic and I know he will very much fear his death. I'm sure more people can relate to me.

I've just went today to a Japanese style massage spa and got the regular oil massage. She was really not the best and not worth the money, but I noticed something interesting: She could very quickly and easily recognize when I'm tensed/relaxed, which made me realize that my emotions can for real be mapped on my body. Ok, so I knew this already in my mind that emotions are actually physical and are running through the body, but when she quickly noted it to me to relax it was as though I was easily read, and more than that - many times my body just automatically got tense and a little shaky without even meaning to, and I believe it to be tensions that were stored there unresolved. What do you guys think?

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@Princess Arabia What self-actualization/consciousness work are you doing? Currently I'm doing 15 minutes meditation every day but it doesn't really feel like I'm getting anywhere, and my social media addiction is very great so this basically is an obstacle. But I'm still not getting into life purpose and business and all that stuff. Currently I want to get those addictions handled, build momentum with a vision... It's funny how right now this is all happening - the momentum - as though speaking and being aware of it brings you to a higher place. This is cool and why journaling is cool. I just don't always self reflect (journal). So yeah... Awareness might be key for real. As I see it, we are a biological machine, just like any other thing here on earth, and sometimes I'll need an external knock on the head for looking inwards and building momentum.

@Princess Arabia Apologies for the attitude. I just felt also somewhat like you're trying to speak from a higher place and trying not to get into deep shit

This already isn't the right question, because then I can tell you likewise "I can touch a pencil, can you touch the sensation in your own finger?" Look, I really don't care about all the spiritual wisdom that resides in your head. I'm trying to be practical here so let's keep it at that. I won't even begin to dissect this one and leave it at that. The only thing I'll say, though, is that it is still energy responding to energy. Again, I'm trying to be scientific about this issue. You can have all your esoteric understandings of life as you want. But I rather not hear something like "all is energy", "all is imagination" and take it for granted. The best understanding will be from a place of genuine self observation and inquiry with no arrogance at all (why should there be?). Thanks for answering though

I find it immensely difficult to get off distractions, especially on days when I oversleep, wake up late, and on my phone for a long time. I always find some new addiction whether it's youtube, instagram, or just mindlessly consume self help for the high. I don't have a strong enough motivation to do something else. It's hard to quite the mind and lower dopamine levels once they are fried.

@Princess Arabia Emotion is physical, or else it's just your imagination. The energy isn't contracted, the muscles are. There's no me to be meaning to do anything because I'm a sophisticated biological machine that responds to stimuli and my inner biology. Have you had experience with spa massage? If so, what do you think about it?

@Leo Gura What is 'core personality'? I believe your personality is connected to your strength and values, but which are connected to your DNA. And so what do you mean by blossoming my personality? Is my personality not good that it needs fixing? Maybe your personality is set in a certain way like I said, but then doing consciousness work like journaling and observing yourself can help create new ways of thinking and more playful with beliefs, thus changing your worldview, beliefs and habits for a more better experience. Does that what you mean? 'Core personality' as in authentic self? This implies that currently my personality is highly affected by the way I act from beliefs and suppression, rather than natural flow.

@Leo Gura I know this might seem a bit ridiculous to assume you aren't thinking about your forum that you created and part of your life purpose. But I notice that you attract many people who just come here to argue. And really dumb down the forum a lot by arguing, criticizing, judging, calling names, who is more "enlightened". This is really not to talk down on you and what you've created, but I think it's something very valuable to consider and hopefully you won't hate me for saying it. After all, you can learn a lot about yourself from the people you attract. Coming in peace brother. If I said anything inappropriate then I didn't mean to.

@ZenSwift I am familiar with this issue. It's like a loop of always looking for another technical step... Suggestion: Get off YouTube, social media, phone or any other distraction. Pull out a journal and make a quick assessment of your life - Where are you currently in life, where have you been, where are you going, what do you want, what are your biggest fears, what have you tried... And when you start journaling all of this your life becomes more in the front of your mind and you think about it more, and it is just natural for creative thoughts to rise among them because being aware of your life brings more 'room' for thinking in new ways about all of that... You start feeling more empowered... And naturally more thoughts about what you want will arise. Really, don't try to force thinking about what you want. Focus on observing (journaling) your current life - that's all, and that's great and empowering in itself. As a bonus you might very well get a new vision for your life. My small take

@Leo Gura Bro you literally have a video talking about why we procrastinate where you mention the concept of homeo-stasis which helps us to survival. 'Just taking action' isn't enough for your complex survival system that tries to maintain itself as it is. I see you recently talk a lot here about taking action, like discarding the fact that change is very difficult and not a simple problem of being lazy. Action isn't the cure. Maybe if a person is highly developed like you that his lazy day is simply because he's tired and not because of some survival mechanism like most of us, then maybe you just need to hit him with some classic self-help motivation. Like this: just seems like toxic orange to me.

Why do people take DMT? It just looks scary and frightening. How does this help for growth?

Why do people take DMT? It just looks scary and frightening. How does this help for growth?

Bro what the hell? Oh hell nah. That shit scared me. I ain't gonna be taking this shit anytime soon.

@Leo Gura Sorry, I meant strengths all along. I mixed it with the 'value', my bad. Are you talking in the biological sense, that we are all genetically very unique and have strengths that resonate with us stronger than others? Or are you talking in a metaphysical sense that you are the thing that is subjectively experiencing all of that and thus you don't really change? In any case, I don't think I got you on the thing on what changes and what doesn't.

@Leo Gura Strengths don't change? Bro I'm confused

This song came up straight to my head when I read your title:

Are there people here that have a life purpose that doesn't have to do with spirituality and consciousness and all that? Really asking out of curiosity

@Princess Arabia Everyone that's here knows that they are at the website of Actualized.org. Doesn't matter the sub-forum, they are still here because of Actualized.org

@Carl-Richard Thanks man, you made it much more clear for me. Your claim also suggests that most people who jump on this path started from a much more neurotic place than the average person, and so you have here a wider spectrum with with only a few people that are well developed. I was just saying that over time it seems that the number of people who are very neurotic is becoming much larger in ratio to the highly developed. Is it a good thing? Don't know, but it's harder so sort out the good advice and the advice of people who'll claim they understand it all when they don't. Obviously I'm not saying that as though I'm something special. I know I have so much to grow