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@BenG So I could be beginner-beginner in which case to keep my ears doubly open. If I am, that is even better. That means there is so so so much more, even more! @Nos7algiK Thanks dude, appreciate the advice.

@Nos7algiK I think a psychedelic will help with this as well. I need to get back to that very egoless state that I was in when I got sick - and from there, I could reset, because the body load was so strong that my ego just, wasn't there, it was like, I was in my body focusing on healing it with my intent. Not even a story was present, but strangely, that's when I get the paranormal stuff is when my ego goes out the window. It could be a whole host of things so I am going to try a few substances in the future and see if I can dissect it further - and then once I do I can "let go" at the "death door" and an awakening should happen. Still, no God realization as myself. But it will happen someday. So, onward!

@Terell Kirby Thanks dude! I'll do my best. @Nos7algiK Thanks! That eased my mind a bit. I wanted to share some experiences, but I didn't want to take it too far and share something with someone who was like, really far along and already knew - and I'm hear trying to school someone who's been there or something - that would be embarrassing. I guess there are just so many facets all we can really do is just put them together as a team and see what we get. I think what I realized is that I was farther along than I thought, but with that came some awareness of how little I had gotten as well. So it was a mixture of getting somewhere, but also seeing that other people have these experiences and they are valid and real and I wasn't aware of it to the same degree I am now. So it's like... I guess I am still a beginner, but not one that thinks they are "all that."

I guess my question is, how did you guys know where you were at on the path?

@The0Self I don't fear death very much, but when face to face with it, I do see it's presence as either comforting or sending me on a very strong journey due to not being aligned with it. I certainly feel that, when I grow it can be very hard to see how I was just weeks ago. And it happens so fast, you almost want to be unaware again at times, but it's a good thing. I am thinking maybe still advanced beginner. So, certainly, I know some things, but there is just... so, so so much further I could take it and should keep my ears open.

@Nos7algiK I know, I view it as valid, but also that they may have an experience (or many) to share that I have not had yet and view that as valid as well, because many have had stronger, more profound awakenings. I can't gauge yet. Sometimes people come in talking like this and they really do know and some do not, but I do not know this person well enough to make that assessment.

@Terell Kirby I know what you mean. This might be the example that I am talking about; where I do have some education on this to understand where you come from, but not the 'God is me' realization... yet... but many others that do show the illumination in the outer environment and clarity of mind that comes with an awakening. I do view God as everything, that it makes up everything, but I simply have not felt in direct experience being God. The ego has disappeared many times, though, and I do see it, and can put together the pieces, and I have a faith I will experience it someday. Maybe I might need a psychedelic. What was your I am God experience like?

@Terell Kirby It was just God there in the environment, within nature itself. I let go of the fear of death, so it felt very real to me, as there was nothing left to hold onto, and then God was just... there... like sluffing off a skin or something over my eyes, you know? I had a few more after that up until '17, and then many deep insights, and many awakenings this past year having gone into death again. Most of my experiences are direct ones, with a few that were directed by reading a lot. I just want to be sure when talking to folks that I don't get ahead of myself; and if there was a guide out there that I could read on where I might be at - although I do know that ultimately there are no "levels", just for the sake of not talking over someone or maybe getting into a conversation where I "think" I know more, having that guide would be awesome - just for the sake of being conversationally fair; proficient; helpful and grounded.

@Terell Kirby I didn't start the path, I had a spontaneous awakening in '16, that lead me here. Awwww!!! That's great! I love this.

Vocals in this are great. Mooji with fractals.

@Jannes I have had weird things come up when doing Carl Jung's active imagination technique, and I just let them pass through without judging them as good or bad and sometimes they can get pretty weird. I do feel at times that these things can be repressed memories and so I think if you write them down and then look into them later you can come to understand your Shadow side a little bit better it's as though the other side of your subconscious wants to be known, and it will make itself known in really obscene ways sometimes so please don't feel disgusted with yourself or bad for having such visions it's very normal. I used to have OCD around a particular types of thoughts that would come into my head repeatedly and I eventually had to just accept them in order for them to go away, but first I took the time to look into where the thoughts might be coming from and this helped me to not feel as though I was a bad or disgusting person for having such thoughts. If you're early experience in life was that of being overfed and you felt as though it was intrusive and disgusting to constantly be fed food and if it felt uncomfortable then there might be something way in the back of your mind that is trying to process those feelings and so I would thank the mushrooms for showing them to you and just continue to work through it and don't judge it. You are doing good. Gl.

I've had a few insights about math but due to not being very good at it I wouldn't have the same insights as someone who understands mathematics as a language and a way of understanding the world. I strongly believe that people such as this would have the ability to have many different insights into the nature of reality. If you look at people like Einstein for instance he was able to mix mathematics with imagination, so I don't see why other people who are interested in math couldn't do the same sorts of things. I have noticed an improvement in my art since working on myself it's almost as if I don't need to practice as much as I used to because my ideas are becoming a little bit more complex although I'm not able to really articulate what those ideas are at this point in time, I feel as though someone who has a propensity for understanding math would have so many amazing insights to share. I'm surprised that there aren't more threads related to it to be honest. I have heard that if you mix music with imagination that mathematicians can have very interesting insights.

@BipolarGrowth what was your trip on salvia like?

Dude me too. One answer gives me like a hundred more questions, it never ends. Maybe do both, follow some questions until you find an answer and also practice letting them go at other times?

I feel bad for people who are stuck in these situations. I don't think it is easy to get out of poverty in a third world country... I get to sit at home and work on my channeling all day, or art, whatever I like... I'm free to do it. Never have to work. It's a very cush life, but quite boring at times... if my life was hectic, I don't know how that would work... people that struggle everyday for their daily bread, it's not fair. Life is so not fair. I wish we could all have comfortable, safe lives.

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Of course! I do dabs and channel things sometimes. But I like to take breaks. I'll smoke for like a week, and then lay off for two weeks, and then take it up so I don't build tolerance to it. Have a bit of tolerance, and will probably quit for a few months after the New Year. I've experienced a lot of what you talk about, if you write it down as it is happening, you can learn a lot about your subconscious. There is even a spiritual practice that Carl Jung coined "active imagination", where you let it go to different places, and write everything down and you can map your own inner world, the archetypes that are playing out in your thoughts, your beliefs, ect. It can be very helpful. You can also draw in this state, just free flow and let whatever comes to mind show up on the paper; let your subconscious do the work and see what you can make in these creative states. It's called "flow" and feels great; weed really brings out people's creativity. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GUJP7XtDElg < - Active imagination; all about it. https://creativejuicesarts.com/what-is-intuitive-painting/ < - How to do intuitive painting One thing with weed is that it can be addictive, I experience addiction with it, but have decided if I am to have vices, that weed and coffee are not the worst ones in the world - when I am ready I will kick the habit... or I won't. I accept it, though. Imagination is all there is, you can make a map of it to learn all about how it works just through going within yourself.

Wow this is good...! It has a theatrical sound, like... it belongs in a trailer for a movie. One of those songs that has few views, but you don't understand why because it's just so stunning... "We can ride forever on the horses that will have no name." Sounds like angels singing.

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My limited experiences have pointed towards humans having destinies, or pre-programmed stories, that can sometimes deviate. When I do, I experience it as archetypes that move through and influence the human system, through the subconscious via words and stories. Some archetypes are very small and don't influence much, and some are aeonic in size and "gravity" - such as wetiko; culture and the illusion of fear. I feel it as different stories playing out in the "Other" space, like the image below, or like a machine that creates one action after another after another in order to maximize the ability to witness itself in the physical world. To have influence. My first awakening was spontaneous and I was not spiritual and I was told this: that people are chosen to wake up before birth, there is a certain process about it that I don't understand, but I know reincarnation, the wheel of life, archetypes play a role. Some people never wake up, they have to take another ride a few times to get it. Love is the answer to all of it; destiny, everything. It is protection, solution, the teaching and destiny. When I let go, it feels like another consciousness comes in, and sometimes asks to take the wheel. Sometimes it is the higher self, or sometimes an archetype that is playing out, or sometimes a being with a message. When this happens, I can channel it through my artwork or writing. ^ This talks about it. "We stay off the grid, hide between the lines, to them we are only shadows until we meet eventually."

I would see someone to start with, and that's perfectly oaky, a lot of times this happens on the spiritual journey for people and getting a second or third opinion and some support couldn't hurt. @Yarco I agree with this person's advice, and would also get a check up just to make sure you are well - like bloodwork and stuff. Sometimes there can be a physical component. Was there a stressor that you can think of that caused this or did it just turn up over time? Get a list of some questions for your doctor down along with your symptoms and how long they have been going on, and the effect they are having on your life. Do you have family you can turn to for support as well?

I think so. Based on my experiences, consciousness does seem to want to move in the direction of using less animal products, from what spirits have told me. But I do not follow this advice because I find that I have a hard time not eating meat; but would prefer to not eat it at all if I could manage to get through it. I tried a few times as a teen/early 20's adult. Would like to try again sometime soon. I can go veggie but not full vegan. My guide says that animals are lower souls and that we used to be, and still are animals. That we should be treating them as younger siblings and taking from them as little as possible, that we should be helping our own kind and different species gain awareness, that Love teaches them about having a sense of self; but we exploit and eat them instead. Or, just use animals in the wrong ways except for some lucky pets. Love is the answer always. As best as we can. There are some people who need that diet, though and get unhealthy on veggie or vegan and so we need to work on options for everyone. Maybe it starts with how people eat as children? I'm just learning about some of this today, as it piqued my interest.. so just throwing out experiences and suggestions and hoping to learn more about this topic from others. I do think the vegetarians are right, even as a meat eater. What was your LSD experience like, and how did it change your views?

"What do you want on your tombstone?..." "Oookay!... that's it." A machine elf visual with the sound of a heartbeat. "Creator of Worlds" explores chaos and order and creation from nothing. The actual work is a high resolution physical installation about 75 inches across and is embedded in a wall, running in a continuous loop forever. The visual art consists of mathematical fractals that are changing, growing, and being destroyed over time and then recreated from the void. A collaboration with composer Sam Mehrtens (Sam Wave) we started with the concept of a heartbeat - the heartbeat of a mother that an infant hears in the womb. The piece demonstrates how life at all stages and throughout the course of its journey has the influence of both masculine and feminine energy guiding the entities evolution. For us, this work at times reminded us of coral and represented life before personified life. It allows the participant to let go of thoughts and enter a more calm reality. This is the first work in the series made by Trey and Sam

@JuliusCaesar It reads to me like you are good at "keying" your subconscious. If something is not going to be good for you, reality will let you know. Glad to hear that you listen to that part of yourself, some people brush it off as nonsense, but it is actually a very real and valid thing to have events like this happen to let you know something important. So you already have a siddhi, in a way, you can read you inner subconscious that is dictating to your outer world events that take place to tell you messages pertaining to your well being. I would continue to develop upon those skills for sure.

I see, I get it. What kind of dreams have you been having so far? You mention you almost found the spirit of the plant, that must have been pretty cool to experience. There is a lot to be learned about reality from dreaming. I'm super curious to see how you will go about this on your journey, either through dreaming or through the guided meditations. It would be such a quick mind unlock for sure.