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@Blackhawk I have my alarm set for four PST, but it starts at 3 am here... Super nervous! I hope everything goes well.

Found her, she's branching out.

4:20 am PST - 7:20 A.M. EST - you can watch it launch here; probably a once in a lifetime opportunity to watch this, and on Christmas day no doubt. I have my alarm set and ready! Happy Holidays!

Happy Holidays!

This is telling me that maybe there needs to be a guide or some information on how to consciously buy psychedelics but I'm not sure if that is allowed on this forum although I think from when I'm reading it might be necessary to keep people out of trouble. I don't plan on buying any psychedelics online because I find technology to be kind of confusing and I don't want to end up doing the wrong thing but I feel that someone who is a little bit more adept at it but not quite that adept would find it very useful to have a guide on how to do this.

Girl I don't mean to be rude to you but he sounds like really f****** lame. I feel like you can do better. Good luck. Let him go. As in, I'm quite honest about this sort of thing and I have really bad vibes from this guy just from reading this thread. He sounds like someone that I have dated in the past and it was very difficult trying to maintain appearances and date this person at the same time it's really not worth the struggle and someone who's conscious doesn't make the statements that they made about you. You are the better person and if you don't end up seeing this person ever again you did not miss out on anything trust me. I know when you're having feelings it can be really hard to see that but everything in my gut is telling me that you can find someone who will treat you much kinder.

@Zeroguy Certainly more in the future! @Irina Wolf Thank you! Also, your art is stunning, good job! Please post more as you make it, I love seeing everyone's progress and impeccable imaginations. I love how you did the the goldfish and the girl's spiral earrings really make that space look interesting. Looks like it was done from little dots!

@Zeroguy Thanks Zero! I wish my camera could take a better picture of it, it looks better irl than in this photo.

Oh no Ges, I am so sorry to hear that!! She needs to go to a hospital if there are any in your country to stay and get on psychiatric medication, if not, to be contained until she can see a psychiatrist and or doctor. The medication does help, I was having issues w/ my bipolar until I went on it and then everything got better over time. She should certainly see someone, just in case. Let us know how it goes.

- work out - morning routine - part-time work - continue working on art - try to get better with anatomy That's good to start with for a year of new habits, just the morning routine should change everything around a bit for the better.

I put yes a bit, because sometimes I could be working on other things. But I usually use this place to come up with new ideas, to read reports, stimulate my imagination, show artwork, talk to people who are on their journey and use my journal - but sometimes I have other things I could be doing like, I have a few chores I need to do, or I could go for a walk or something else - but part of my disability involves being a bit more lax with stuff, just due to where I am at right now. I am in the process of trying to have a more full schedule and plan to do that this year, so I hope to use this forum completely for what is was intended for with little nonsense in the short future.

@Leo Gura Okay. I won't. I won't be doing anything until I actually know what I am doing by the way, so no worries. @Username Interesting, some people say it is a really good experience and some say not so much - I am willing to try it a couple times, just for the God realization, and then to use spiritual practice the rest of the way through.

@Username No worries, it won't be a while before I try anything anyways. I wish mushrooms were legal as well. Seems odd to me some stuff is and some isn't. Thanks for the advice, I will save it and look into these things when I'm ready. Have you tried 5-Meo? What was it like for you?

I had some insights and experiences recently around spirits, reincarnation, plant medicine and the Buddhist wheel - so that would make me new to Buddhism. I am not looking for enlightenment, I find the other stuff more interesting. If I get it, I get it, if I don't in this life, I am okay with that. But what I want to know, is when communicating with someone, what is a good way to determine how far we each have gotten? I don't like the idea of talking like I know more than I do to someone; what is a good measurement? Surely there must be something. I'm more into shamanism, so, for me, it won't be enlightenment or present awareness that I would be adept at, but traversing spiritual planes of existence I can do very well; albeit, always room for improvement. I'm at the point where I know more than I thought about myself, but certainly not much, still, when compared to how much there is to understand about reality. So now I have no idea; I over-humbled myself and don't want to over-do what I "think" I know, either, as that's a recipe for not learning anything new. Thanks! I hope I worded this alright.

Shit, what do you do if you're poor and technologically illiterate and have never looked into buying something like this and you don't wanna get caught? I just wanna experience, once, what everyone here is talking about.

@gettoefl That is really good advice, thank you! @Salvijus I feel like my actions are still bound by ego, and not Love as of yet, but is getting there more and more. So there is still a way to go. @catcat69123 I am more compassionate, thoughtful, artistic, get along better with my family. But not empty.

Poor guy, I saw that video, too. I hope that he is able to recover from the loss, and work through his addictions. I like his videos and he seems like a nice person. I think a lot of us with trauma would prefer just to trip it out; as the therapy aspect, the real work, can be even more intense. You don't have the substance as a crutch to make it all okay. You have to then face it head on. Still don't have the courage to do that, so mad respect to him for having the strength to not only be honest but to be doing what he can to work through what life has given him.

@BipolarGrowth That sounds fascinating. Did you experience any anxiety during these trips? I have heard it can sometimes be intense. Do you mean pattern recognition as in, you could piece different insights together much easier?

@The0Self I'll check them out, I love the Law of One! I used info from that book on my initially negative oriented spirit guide and moved it onto the path of Love and now I get occasional hints from it such as "try taking plants to grow." After that my autoimmune issues started to clear up. Buddhism is one that seems to be calling me, based on this wheel of gravity thing that I feel sometimes. Everyone feels to be on it. @WelcometoReality Thanks! I will check all of those out tonight and incorporate them into my work. How does Jesus's life work as a map of consciousness?

@The0Self I might have to try something just to see it first, but once I get it I should be good to go.

@The0Self So what then if you have already in your direct experience faced the fear of nonexistence? That was my fear when I went through, like... just... never being, ever, ever, ever again. And that is what opened the gates, because I offered just admiration and love for the picture of nature I was looking at, and through the "in between" the lines of mist and green in the mountains, the lack of shape kind of allowed God to come through because it was so beautiful, but there was nothing to identify the image with because it was moderately abstract. I mean... I was dying... my teeth were getting lose, my hair was falling out, my feet were turning purple, my mind was going (autoimmune stuff), so I gave in to nothing because I was raised without religion. I didn't think there was anything else. And that is when God showed up. But it wasn't "me" in that I intuited, but it wasn't "other", either. It was all! What are some of the nonenlightenment paths? I was called to shamanism through this process. This non-existence opened a gate, and that is where all my strange experiences come from. It is beautiful when you go all the way through the fear of death, but not something I am able to do often. When they are done, is it that illuminated, clear headed space where it feels like everything guides you and all is one? Or is it less intense? It could be that my ability to feel is not high enough for God as well.

@Michal__ Good for you, that is awesome you learned it so fast!