Loba

Me too! I like his music tastes.

That's a good way to beat addiction. Just spitballing.

I don't want opinions of others, or feel ""lonely"", I want knowledge and Love. I want to meld what I know with what others know and grow myself, as my own thing. I want codependency and sovereignty at the same time. I want their Awareness, but do you know what that means for me? Probably not. I want the Awareness that creates writing that brings the end to seeking for an individual. When I say I WANT. I mean, I will have it.

Sounds angry... I get to be that person they speak about. It's not all it's cracked up to be if you're not faking it. And I found my wisdom through facing Death, just like anyone else in a dire situation. And now my life is safe, comfortable, and protected and my channeling isn't free, the world has to pay for the information... So I get services, a comfortable life, and offer channeling and learning, free of charge to the world. As long as I can keep focusing on writing... It's my calling; it strikes a match in me. I bring information back from beyond. As best I can, and will continue to practice this. And society can and will pay for my time spent - as is what the community does for shamans. The spirit guides and all of you in the u.s. set it up for me. And I don't take too much. And I offer the complete contents of a bared soul. So I say... don't be angry. I'm still ignorant. Teach me. I am privileged. You wish you were. Don't hate me for it. Just let me do my work. That's all I ask. It is okay to protect the peculiar. It isn't our concern to lament over your life - at all; our concern is to look beyond our bubble and see what is outside, into the beyond - condense it, and give it to the people. It sounds unkind, but shamans are somewhat mad; and riddled with it. We are bound to the spirit world, and this world is just residual, as the spirit world always tugs on our souls - wishing to bring it back. We can't work. How can you work with your soul halfway out of your body? And why should you, if that circumstance is supposed to be that way? I am mad with the need to write myself back into sanity and the bitterness of those unable to have the ability to do the same is not on my conscience. I am a creative, an artist. I'm blessed. Do the work to find your own blessings, they don't come free for anyone. I still struggle, my struggles are just invisible to the outside world.

My regrets become less and less over time. But... I regret not Loving mySelf sooner - I didn't see how important that was and now I do. Also being a cu**. I don't like acting out - I prefer creative thought. Creative thinking has allowed me to see all the ways in which loving one's self is important and how we can't see how wonderful we are as human beings until we do this and it's a process in and of itself - but just doing it changes everything spiritually. I feel my inspiration has refreshed. Don't regret too much, just learn from it like squeezing a lemon and move on.

Just another person, I feel indifferent to them. I got the shot so I don't worry, but I also don't really care what other people do with their bodies. I don't know how I feel about the issues at hand, so I can't put myself in a position to demonize, but I am pro-vax. My concern is, when and how is all this going to end?

No, I have that one taken care of the next one is the fear of death. I believe I am special, but that it doesn't change the day to day in any way, and it isn't noticeable so whatever someone was seeking from being special they would not find anyways. It would be a big disappointment. Going through the fear of death... That's ime, where duality would collapse. Maybe it's different for each person, idk...

Interesting songs on their own, but played at the same time is also interesting, it makes it sound like a high energy incantation.

Amazing, they use the sound of fireworks and also the visuals of them and have made fractals. It's beautiful music. One of those videos where you wonder why more people have not seen it, it's so unique. This is synesthesia; also real art.

@PurpleTree Yeah the problem is they help a lot, and so I don't know if I want to risk going off of them for the experience. But there's also a burning curiosity there, too that isn't satiated by trip reports. I guess I stopped because I didn't know anything about the shrooms at the time. No, not at all, like my roomies brought home handfuls of them and Darby made a tea, he just added handfuls and handfuls of it, so it was very strong and I loved the experience, I was with people that I really enjoyed their company a lot. I was also younger and much more carefree, so things like that didn't scare me like they might now. I did have one experience where I almost had an ego death, I realized I didn't exist, but I was with company and shrugged off that emptiness with ease. As long as I was with good company - I never had a problem. But yeah, I can say for sure that shrooms are great for people with autism, it reboots the brain to a childlike state of taking in the world and it's so fresh and new, and colours are beautiful, ect. I love shrooms, would def. do them again. I would try with a therapist, just to see what comes up - maybe way in the future.

@PurpleTree I had just tried it a few times with friends when young, and did not know of the benefits - I just wanted to try what they tried, and when in our apartment that night I noticed that instead of having to look at the room like with a bunch of little details like a microscope, I could take in the sight of the whole room and I remembered this being how I oriented in the world when as a very young child - it fixed the hyperfocus - I might try again next year but I'm not in a place in my life yet for that. I think if I tried again now, I would freak out because I don't have solid grounding in life yet. After I find part-time work, and get a daily schedule for myself and feel grounded in my body a bit more - I will consider it then.

Yes, Love energy is where your soul sits, and can give you siddhis and other psychic abilities as well as progress you onto the next path, orient your life in the right direction, help you make the right choices, love yourself, ect - it is the absolute key that you need for a lot of different things. Just learned this recently, the power of Self Love is monumental, do not skip it for sure! <3 gl All sort so ways to raise it, change your room around, buy yourself something nice, meditate outwards and offer love to the world, do something for other people is a big one, remind yourself that self hate is illusion, it really really is! In a big way, something that clouds the truth. Like, I am a psychic and didn't even consider myself one and couldn't until I learned to Love mySelf a little more and then accepted it, and realized that those powers come through Love! So no wonder it was so hard for me to access. I had to see myself as a highly creative individual with a lot to offer in that regard and then it just hit me, "no worries!" Look for epiphanies like that which can help you Love yourSelf more.

I agree with this, there can be pressure here for some people to take them, but your psychological state needs to be taken into account first. A person should be sound of health, for the most part, and have a nice space set up that reflects their best qualities as a person imo - something that can bring you back from a bad trip, remind you of good things. People who take drugs for PTSD, depression, ect - should do it with a professional as well, that's the difference. The doctor guides your trip for you. In that case, it would be totally beneficial. I found that mushrooms cleared up my autism quite a lot, from a trip about 12 years ago - have not done them since. But I did notice a complete change in perception - more normal and uncluttered. So there's that, I guess each person knows deep down if they are ready. I've heard the plants have spirits - some of them, that can call you to them when the time is right, or it could just be intuition, who knows?

Marriage isn't my cup of tea.

I don't know, I've questioned this... I had some friends in the past with this orientation - one was a non offender and one was and offender of adult women. The offender should have been reprimanded, the other person did nothing and had no plans to. If someone is born that way and doesn't do anything, why strike first? Wait until they do something then send them to prison, and also therapy. The more we demonize the harder it will be for people like that to come forward for treatment. You don't want to normalize it, but you do want to make it safe for a non offender to seek help in a safe place.

I would try... paleo. Meat, veg, fruit, nuts, no dairy or grains.

Death

That's why the dark beings cut you off... They're not evil, they keep track of people who use powers wrongly.

I don't know what to say during times like these; I'm sorry to hear that he passed away. I always think of this song when a forum member dies.

I've experienced being on the karmic wheel and could feel everyone and everything else alive in existence on that wheel-like thing. Felt like I was always there and time was just going on without me, like I was stuck in the eternal present with everyone else, and we just moved closer or farther from the center.