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  1. For me as a kid I had this really interesting form of extreme playfullness when i was by myself, I was pretty shy but now i grew up to be very social. I discovored this playfullness last week again and it gave me the ability to switch in this state whenever i want. It is basically seeing whatever comes up in my mind when there is something happening infront of me and fully expressing it. The thought can be connected to feeling or some picture of yourself expressing a certain face. It's all about letting this spontanious flow take over. That's what kids do they just say what they EXPIRIENCE(thought,feeling,imagination,desire,ect.) without much thought of social acceptance. One other thing when interacting with others is rocking the flow with imagination, say it outloud and the other person would countinue the creation of the absurd little thing you just LET happen. I am happy i still remember this... when i was 5 years of age what gave me most joy was watching a movie then cosplaying it. That's how i developed this good capacity to relate to others now as a teenager. Acceptance is for sure a huge part of it but when you're a kid, you're not aware of how you do it so in a way you are acceptance itself. You accept if you're wrong and the cool part is being wrong or losing was just a stepping stone to greater joy. Great attention drained me. My expirience was spoiled and made worse when I had to constantly find a way to put myself in a box of how exactly I am feeling. This natural way of being creates a vortex around you of unlimited possibility which is God, Love ect. Innocense is just your ability to see that there really isn't something that serious about the world in the present moment. It's all about seeing what elements are around you at the present and creating something with them, if you had too much to choose from you wouldn't know what to create. Seeing these elements and switching them around just for the sake of it makes people who see you not afraid ,love you to the core. I do this even now and people will never skip an oppourtunity to tell me how cool i am. And i smile laugh and stay humble. This is it.
  2. Thank you for answering. So what you're saying is, just acknowledge that I'm fooling myself and move on... For a moment I got it, then I lost it. Thank you I'll think on it.
  3. One thing I've realized is that to become fully woke (connected to The Akashic records) you have to let go of the info your mind downloads through school exc. But there are also several traps that I think can screw you over like for example the moment you become connected to the source has to be done when you let go of fear FULLY( I exercised myself so much walking barefoot, tapping into the occult, spending time in nature, sungazing, meditating, breathwork exc.). Yeah but to do that you have to be set, career chosen, wage-slavery free... I was connected to that God force for a while and I've never felt happier in my life but in that happiness I lost connection with the 3d with no "survival" accomplishments. I constantly told myself "Nature got me." "Nature got me." In a way cheating the ego development. Letting go of ego when I need it most. (I'm 16.) I experienced a big depression last year because I had to let go off that beautiful mire I've drilled into my mind. And had to reconnect myself to ego again. With the start of the school year (2019) my desire to learn the things we learned in school vanished. I felt huge pain in lowering my vibration because most of the kids in my school are just so arrogant and low in their development. I couldn't focus on doing work and learning because I felt like I knew already.(The constant ideas and glimpses from the source) And for 1 year I'm returning back to my ego, I'm good. I've built a good work ethic, I watch allot of videos relating interesting topics like this one I'm developing well, great even but I think I'll be even better if I still had that connection and insight from the Akashic... Is it possible to do? And is there any problems and traps that may come along the way? I'm aware but I'm not connected. If this won't be healthy now when? Around the age of 20? Or should I just use psychedelics in my spiritual growth from time to time? Thank You Marvelllious