Stoica Doru

@Saba I deleted my Instagram and blocked my Facebook back in January - February. I still get little urges from time to time to go back, but they disappear in a couple of seconds. As you increase your awareness, you'll find yourself quitting a lot of inauthentic behaviors, which are quite a lot, considering our addiction based society. I've also put an end to junk food, refined sugar, masturbation and I'm vegetarian for two months now. Meditation causes major shifts in your perspectives, that's why you'll feel lonely at times. You'll be alright in the end. Solitude is blissfulness. The need for validation is a desperate routine, which will end soon enough.

We certainly have personalities, beyond our egos. All the masters have different ways of being (personalities), even Jesus and Buddha were distinctive. Adyashanti mentioned it in "The End of Your World", because people were afraid that once they were about to lose their ego that they'll become numb and boring beings, quite the opposite.

I'm referring here to the mainstream people that are having a escapist lifestyle and chase around for sex, fame and money. I wonder how long it will take for their counciousness to rise above the hedonistic and material ilusions. My opinion is that suffering will make them want to stop chasing around their own tail eventually, and look for a higher purpose instead.

It's kind of confusing that the messages from the intuition, and also from the mind, are being received through the same channel - thought. I think that the messages we get intuitively are sharp and silent, while the ones we get from the ego/mind are assaulting and loud. I'm interested in how are you making this distinction, became it's a thin line, as the ego can camouflage as intuition itself at times.

How can I avoid not getting emotional triggered and don't let myself being controlled by the spiritual ego whenever I find myself in a circle that speaks about the spiritual/existential/philosophical things? I find myself preaching in a manner that Russell Brand does, and I don't want to be overly dogmatic about the non-dualilty thing, cause it's quite a paradox. I find it quite frustrating and somewhat disappointing that some people can't reach the non-dual truth. It's such a shame...

@WelcometoReality Yeah, that's pretty much it. But it rarely happens. I find it funny that they move in circles, around philosophies, when the door to the core of existence is in the Present Moment, and in the mindless state.

@WelcometoReality It comes from seeing their blindspots at certain times, and wishing to help them. However, I'm not emotional triggered in the extreme way. It's quite a shame that we know and perceive as we do, and we can't just offer our help for granted. @Loreena Totally agree. Most of the times I watch detached, apart from others, as they are not something to bother with, but we should also be able to share some insights that might help others in a philosophical manner at least. I also want to avoid debates, cause it's just some ego bowl of paradigms.

So, I've just listened to a 10 minute session of binaural beats chakra healing related, and it made my emotions come up(nearly cried) and relaxed me for a bit. I was a bit skeptical about them, seeing them as a mean of cheating. I want to know you're thoughts about them and share your experiences. I wonder if they can be curative, or just be some sort of weak and not so effective thing to do from time to time, as an escape possibility. I'm more interested in the results that they'll eventually bring in the long run.

Update: Everything seems to be going alright, excluding the lethargy and dominant tiredness. However, my ego keeps insisting that it's unloved, which I know it's not true, granted the fact that I'm true love, as counciousness. I usually manage to calm this backslide, which comes in forms of obsessing over a girl from my past, insisting and overjudging myself that I must pursue her, despite of the fact that she had some problems and we were not meant to be togheter, my mind insisting that I should get back to her as it's actually ''meant to be''. I try to do as much Shadow Work as possible to understand my deeper wounds and frustrations. I also try not to spiritual bypass, as it's a trap and I know its mechanisms. I'm currently trying to accept what is and apply total mindfulness, love and understanding to all my neurotic patterns and shortcomings.

From what I've seen in my spiritual journey, the Satan, the antagonist of it all, it's claimed to be the ego. I think this conception is in itself the conception of the spiritual ego, who tries to get everything out of the way in order to get the so called enlightenment. Most people don't realize that this path is about acceptance and respect towards your emotions and thoughts, not an obedient way towards getting rid of the old programming that brought us here. I'm not saying we must identify with the "chaos", but just look deeply. If we're to accept the naked fabric of existence, we must also accept ourselves and our past, even if we know that's a hard job. It's like a child that you love until the end - until it gets mature and stops resisting. It's not about trying to force the spiritual journey as a tool to hide repressed subconscious conflicts. Matt Kahn said that "Respect is the perfume of love", so it'll be of great help if we're to understand and respect our "enemy", rather than trying to chase it out of our mighty path. If there's anything that life teaches us is that what you don't embrace and understand, you fight with. History showed and will continue to show us this lesson.

You'll want to investigate the Kundalini energy, the primordial life force that lies within all of us. Sometimes, when we're healing our emotions and traumas, this energy speeds up and can remain stuck in one place, or another. I myself feel from time to time pressure in my right part of my head and left arm, but it'll pass. Keep up the good work!

These are the real challenges, my man. Eveything pops up for you to show its love and acceptance. This is the real work, right here. Purifying is a though process though. I also had a lot of troubling times, and I still do. Remember that you are not alone.

I have it for 4 years now. My ego will wanna say : HOW DID YOU CURE IT? TEEEELL MEEE! But, on the other hand, I finally get the acceptance teaching, which made me realize that Dp/Dr, or whatever the hell you wanna name it, it's actually a teacher that it's there to show me what I must do in my life, it has a reason to be there, not a ''curse''. Then again, it's everything about perspective. If one says he's condemned to a hellish disorder, he might just stay there and resist it. I hope this perspective of mine will help you, @retardedhorse1. Best of luck!

@Dan Arnautu I've also seen a video on what to eat of Sadhguru's. Basically, he said we should listen to our bodies after we eat something, and if it makes us feel dead, we should stop eating that food. I didn't know of this mandala thing. Hell, there're so many secrets that our body and our inner energy have, that in the modern society we have no clue about. Just a stupid and endless orgy of supliments and medications.

Here it is. Ow, dear Maya.

Seeking, attaining is of the ego, of the incomplete. You are complete every single second. Just be sincere and authentic and the Universe will show you all its Love soon enough. However, if you need information and guidance that come from a desire to be true and genuine, then that's something else.

Meditation is needed to grow your awareness to such an extent that you can self-inquire in a mature way, so that afterwards you can start eliminating the impurities that toxify your life and psyche, and learn to self accept and love yourself along the journey afterwards. Ego needs to be tamed, educated, not killed. Even the masters have certain egos that rarely yell, but their awareness is far greater than the weak chatter that is happening from time to time.

@Heart of Space I used to be addicted to video games, and now I've found myself surfing old Call of Duty soundtracks and missions. But, somewhere, deep down, I know that's just my ego trying to find its separation in something else - like a cool soldier, a certain scenario, mission. It's a common thing, which all of experience. Cravings will come and go until they're totally wiped out of our past. It's who we used to be, and the unconsciousness doesn't go away just by sitting on our ass and meditating, sometimes it'll backlash. Best of luck to you, man!

Is living in the Present Moment, without any disturbing thoughts, also considered meditation? Some teachers, like Eckhart Tolle, say that you don't need to deliberately force your mind to stop with any technique, as long as you're being fully aware as you are, simply being. Meditation in itself it's simply a nonthoughtful state, the act in which is felt rarely being the matter, from what I've seen. One example would be the monks of Mount Hiei, who do some agricultural day to day work as a mean to entering The Now. I know that the efficiency might vary, but I'm just curious to what extent would embracing an technique would manifest, apart from being present and still - without any thoughts or emotional repercussions.

@WelcometoReality I see what your username is for. ''User'', haha!

@PureExp I would describe it as an ongoing unraveling of what's unnecessary, which evolves us into seeing the beauty of Truth, and the ending to all paradigms. We'll all be there, eventually. Glad I'm making this progress as a 19 year old.

@WelcometoReality Right on time! Thank you! The things described by @Ayla indeed seem to come - in waves of hyper auto-judgmentalism in everything I do, like I'm going crazy or I'm going to commit certain weird stuff, as this non-being ''shit'' is kinda spooky and meaningless. The mind has its powers, but as we show it respect and love, it'll learn to follow, rather than betray us.

@zazed I'm not clinging to it because I realise that there's no ''I'' to gain or mentain/own/have someting. I just let the meditative experience, the flow go through. And t's a good fact that I see through my egoic behaviours as clear as daylight, because I can manipulate my character now - in any circumstances ''good or bad'', also mentaining the balance to not become a zen devil. I'm basically pure awareness, and if the state goes away, I don't really care, because it's always here, for all of us, it's not a treasure, because as soon as you label it that way the spiritual ego will go fight for it and it'll be another chasing rollercoaster, so I'm just passive - no more, no less. @Malelekakis Nice one, mate. The remaining spiritual ego does, which vanishes each day passing by.

@TobyThat entity on a symbolic level would've been my Higher Self, most likely. No other explanation. At the moment, I'm tired of seeking any spiritual knowledge, because my lust for seeking is mostly gone, as there's not something as a seeker anymore. Thanks for keeping me in mind. It's been a journey, I gotta say. @Leo Gurareplied to me also a couple of months back, in my early struggle, and I would've even imagined that I'll get here. No regrets whatsoever. Life is as it's supposed to be - off monkey chatter and fearlessly. I'll keep updating and look forward to you guys. Thanks for answering.

@GopackgoAll my love to you! Yes, everything seems sharper, and I starred at my cat today and I saw its aura, a yellow intriguing shape of its head. There are many benefits, but the don't giving a fuck level is way too high, it's like I'm being on Xanax 24/7.