Vibroverse

Because there is no answer to that question. We can tell all sorts of stories and mythologies about why god created the universe, and shit like that, but ultimately it all will be just stories, and you can keep asking "why" forever. If i tell you that god created the universe because of a, then you will ask "but why a?" And then i will tell you that it is a, for it is b, and them you will ask "but why b?", and so forth. And then, for that moment you will get tired and stop at some point saying that "oh i see, it is because of blah blah", and that story will satisfy you for a while, so to speak. But then you will begin to wonder "hmm, but why blah blah, really?", and so on.

And when we, maybe, realize that we don't need to try to work things out, that tha flow of intelligence will just carry us. I mean, that would be the true nirvana, true nothingness, in a sense, maybe.

Slowing down probably really is extremely important, even though sometimes we feel like we need to speed up to get things done and solve our problems etc.

I'm coming to think that i am not the doer and the thinker literally, but only the silent awareness, only the infinitely effortless, like a baby in its mother's womb. And not symbolically, but literally, fully, effortless, not even the mover of his hands and fingers. If i die, i die, it's okay, because trying to be the doer is just a never ending torture. And i remember leo saying in his video about islam that true surrendering is much better than 72 virgins and things like that. And maybe he is right, maybe sex etc are just nothing compared to true surrendering, really.

I believe that it is true, you are another being in another timeline all the time, that's what i believe.

Yeah, that's pretty obvious to me. It is just that i don't know how i've created some outer reflections and what exactly to do about them. But i think it is about changing my level of vibration, somehow, to be able to think and perceive more clearly, mhm.

Peeps getting horny here, ahaha.

Yeah, unless you can totally let go of your personal self, then it is some sort of a crazy thing where you think that you, as a person, are the only thing that exists. I believe that you are really the only thing that exists, but not as ivankiss. And that's why our emotional awareness and resonance are so frickin important as some sort of a navigational system, because otherwise we get lost in all sorts of screwed up modes.

Yeah, i think that's the main trick of the universe, the less you are obsessed with something the more you allow it into your experience. I mean, when you are all about wanting, your entire vibration is a lackful vibration of "i don't have what i want, i don't have what i want, i don't have what i want", damn.

Donald Hoffman and his team are trying to do that, trying to explain consciousness mathematically. I think it's possible, why not, but it will be just one of the possible models, probably. Science and mathematics are kinda like arts to me, means through which you are creating products, forms, and so, i don't think it is possible to find THE mathematical model, but i think you can create, or discover, so to speak, the model that resonates with you.

Well, i think that it might even be possible to visit universes of pokemon or bojack horseman, or like harry potter and so on. You can tune yourself to a frequency where you find yourself as a house elf in the malfoy mention, remembering yourself as has always been a house elf, and shit like that. I think the only limit might be the impossible worlds that cannot be created, and what i mean is the worlds that do not align with the laws of logic, like a universe where there is a circular triangle etc, but i'm not even sure about that, to be honest. I think the infinite might be that impossible world sometimes, so to speak, that reflect itself to our perception as representatives of those essences where you perceive the reflections of those essences in a way that is perceivable by you, if you know what i mean.

I call it the unconscious level, because we are not conscious of how we are creating each and every moment, each and every detail. You probably didn't know that i was gonna say justin bieber, cat stevens and mike myers on your conscious level. I mean you are not aware of how you are creating each and every detail, if you can think of it in that way, perhaps, and i don't think it even is possible or required for you to know, at least for now, damn. And it is kinda creepy that how every frame you experienced in the "past" is connected to this frame now where it is some sort of a mode of resemblances forming this moment.

Yeah, i think it is all actually the same thing, letting yourself close the vibrational gap with who you really are, as abraham says. I think it is the same thing that, probably, leads one to absolute nondoership, in a sense, so to speak. In my opinion they are all actually saying the same thing, in a sense, if we can hear it from the "correct" perspective which might be, as you called it, love. And yeah, i think it can be called solipsism if we talk about it as the nondual awareness and being where there is only one that is, but i don't think that it is me, this personality, that is the one where ivankiss is not real, ya.

Dude, every moment is synchronicity, and i think we would see that if we were more aware. Think about it, if this is all the same one void appearing, then of course it is all synchronicity. And the intelligence and creativity that we have at the unconscious level, ah, i'm sure it is infinite, damn.

I think it is about releasing resistance gradually, and relaxing into nothingness more comfortably and with lesser and lesser wobbles. I think it is like the idea of the frog who is in a water tank that gets hotter and hotter gradually that the frog does not notice that change.

The trippy thing is, the more you release resistance the more you begin to realize that they are all actually talking about the same thing, because it is all you talking to yourself, damn. But there is such a thing as gradually releasing your resistance, because the human mind cannot comprehend such levels of being. But the human mind can feel and resonate with such levels of being, i guess, where it receives as much as it is relevant or meaningful, or available, for him, in a sense.

Yeah, they are all kinda like guides on the road to guide you to your own inner being, to your own alignment, directly. Some call it raising your vibration, some call it surrendering to the stillness, some call it being the awareness, and so forth.

And yeah, leo, bashar and abraham, and some more other few teachers, are usually in my vibrational team. I often feel their energy around me when i vibrate high. They are like the different flavours of a pretty similar, in essence, frequency.

Yeah, i find bashar to be pretty knowledgeable also, even if there are a few things i cannot wrap my mind around about the nature of time and alternate worlds, and all those crossconnections, and so on. It is being too complicated sometimes. However, i find abraham's message to be more useful, in that sense, about slowly releasing your resistance by quieting your mind, and increasing your level of receptivity gradually and comfortably, so to speak. Abraham sounds too cheesy sometimes, but i sometimes feel like it might actually be a frickingly high frequency slowing itself down to be more understandable and relatable, maybe, haha.

Yeah, it is like the idea of "it is possible, but is it relevant" kinda thing that bashar talks about, i guess.

Logic might also be an illusion, in a sense, and language might also be an illusion, etc, in a sense.

I can find myself as a cat in an alternate timeline anytime soon, haha. As a cat that has forgotten that it has ever been a human, and remembering itself, in the cat mode of remembering, as has always been a cat. I think this frickin consciousness that i am, that existence is, darn infinite. And i will probably not experience what i said, but again, who knows what is possible or not, and shit like that.

Instead of solipsism, let's call it zupdidupdiism, and then i will agree.

I appreciate it, man, your words are encouraging and wise, and hopefully true for me, haha. I feel like there is something that i'm missing, like some tiny thing that i'm missing, and when i figure it out, so to speak, i will be like "c'mon, omggggg, you gotta be kidding me" about the brialliance and magnificance of it, if you know what i mean. I mean, like sadhguru saying that he just sat and cry for like a week straight, i feel like i might just sit and laugh my ass off like for a week straight. And i feel like it has something to do with me letting go of my logical and rational mind, so to speak, and finally realizing that it is all actually just based on the intuitive mind, so to speak. I mean, realizing that reality is like a fractal within a fractal within a fractal, like a hologram within a hologram within a hologram, so to speak, that generates itself, or something like that. But, ah, i agree with you that some balance between the inner and the outer, experientially speaking, is needed. Hard to put into words what i'm trying to say, and btw, yesterday i think i had some conversation with god, or something like that, and it said things like "oh my dear, your problems and the solutions of your problems are just frickin child's play for me, but you just need to make your alignment and resonance with me your priority for me to able to show you the way that will delight you". Mhm, i think i translated that resonance field into those words in my mind, in a sense, and that it has some truth to it, i guess, when i look at it from the level of consciousness that i'm in, yet, again, i understand that it is pretty darn important for me to search for that inner resistance, even though i'm still confused about how exactly, in some regards, haha.

Yeah, the thing is i feel pretty pissed off about where i am, and feeling like source has forsaken me, in some sense. And i know that i am one with source, so it cannot really forsake me, but it feels like even source is not able to help me, for it might be even beyond source. And i understand that it is important for me to genuinely be aware of where i am without getting lost in it, and meditation and such practices seem to help me in that, like being involved with some sort of a process that is a combination of shadow work and meditation, in a sense. And i've studied the works of teachers like abraham and bashar, and such ideas basically, but, still, i feel like i am getting something wrong, or that their teaching does not help me. Then i lean more towards more nonduality teachers, and many modes of teachers, philosophers and so forth, but i still feel like something is missing. Then i feel like maybe i'm truly hopeless and in despair, and lost in feelings of guilt, anger, regret, confusion, and so forth, and that i might be just truly frickin stuck where i am. Sometimes trying to appear to be wiser than i actually am, perhaps, in an attempt to create more wellbeing for myself, or something like that, and i feel fake, in a sense, while i'm doing that. Modes of guilt, powerlessness, resistance and stress have become like my usual, in a sense, and i don't actually wanna get lost in modes of anger also, because i feel like, i don't know. I mean, i don't wanna feel like i need to be aware of every moment of mine, so to speak, because it just makes me feel frickin exhausted. I just want to allow myself to relax and let the stream of life, or whatever it is, to carry me. But then doubt and confusion, and worry, and so forth dawns on me, making me feel like, and so forth and so forth. Like, i've been taking some ssris for a while, and thoughts of doubt come about that, and also thoughts of doubt and worry about the environment where i live come, and so forth, and it's like a never ending cycle, in a sense. I mean, thoughts like "a spiritual being like you shouldn't take those pills", or thoughts like "you might be just stuck in where you are", and shit like that. And it makes me pissed off, really, because at one level of mine, i seem to understand that it all really is about my vibration and resonance, and shit like that, even when i'm in a state of complanining and throwing a tantrum, so to speak. I mean, yeah, i am all that is, and i can even say that reality is absolutely solipsistic at its deepest level, in the sense that there is only one infinite awareness, and we are all modes of that one infinite awareness. And, yes, we are all vibration and resonance, and shit like that. And i understand that even me feeling hopeless and stuck, and shit like that, might be just my current state of vibration, and i may not be really hopeless and stuck. But i think there is real value in accepting where i am vibrationally, without getting too lost in my mind, because otherwise my mind tends to make things even worse, and starts making me starts to think about darker and darker shit, and that's the tripping point of shadow work, i guess. And so, i believe that shadow work, or awareness of where you are, is very frickin important, but you need to do it in some sort of a meditative state.