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"Ehh it's like, yeah you've never really seen porn hehehe, until you've seen it on 5-Meo-DMT" *smiles and literally cries*

It could be a mutual thing, in that nobody is to blame. Sometimes the spark just dies, and the vibrancy and electricity in the relationship is noticeably faded. You could both be catching eachother at off glances. One wrong perception of the other can lead to unfortunate miscommunication of emotion. It might not be so much a misogyny thing as much as it is a sign that both parties are not putting in mutual effort into the shared experience. Plus, most guys have little experience with deep relationships with non-familial women. Every moment of intimacy could be very complicated to them. Sure, we can all mirror eachother in the beginning of relationship dynamics. Everything is novel, and rough territories have not been discovered. Also, remember that long-lasting relationships are valued because of the very reason that they are marked notable from failures in the past. Hope that helps.

@Tyler Robinson I'm thinking that the common physical symptoms of aging-- wrinkles, muscle atrophy, dementia, diabetes, being at-risk for disease... All of those things are mainly treatable and preventable with healthy habits and beneficial lifestyle choices anyhoo. It's not impossible that life could be prolonged, but it's more possible that we'd all be catching cancer after we'd live 100 years. Every year, just one irregular cell is necessary for cancer to begin spreading.

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@Holymoly It's strange, because as an ex-teenager myself who did as much research as I could before I began tripping, I'd realized infinite consciousness and ego-death extremely early on. Imagine going through high school trying to explain what ego-death is to other high-schoolers. Imagine them reacting to you describing the experience like it's not just you explaining what being really high is like to them. I realized that I was most like a starting domino for the concept of ego-death to a lot of peers. That being said, I highly doubt 95% of them did any reading or extensive meditation to expand their recognition of consciousness work when they ate mushrooms. I would jump at the idea of spiritual concepts being taught in schools. Honestly. It would have saved me from multiple occasions where I had ego-deaths with other teenagers who just assumed I was tripping out. They were humbling experiences to say the least, mostly due to the expectation I put on myself to handle states of consciousness while being around less integrated people tripping. Because believe me, highschoolers on psychedelics are still spiritually autistic and have a long way to go.

@Pudgey Are you grasping that enlightenment isn't out there for everybody else?

The cost of manipulation is the sacrifice of loyalty

I once took about a quarter gram less than an eighth of shroom chocolate, and I started questioning my sense of reality deeply. I remember asking to myself, "Who are we working for?" I chuckled and continued to walk down the street. Almost preposterously, I immediately thought of aliens, or the gods. I awoke to a vision of humanity building all of their towers as testaments to the aliens "that we'd be working for." Later on in that trip, everybody I considered as an invisible internet role model converged into an entity of illusion, entertainment programming me for greater introspection and communication. I've also had experiences with entities of the present moment that seem to act as united forces against me. The catch was that both forces in convergence were subconscious reactions to each other and actually unconscious behavior. The strangeloopy-ness of entities is that the experiences of them disregard the importance of illusion completely. If you were to meet an entity of Leo Gura the next time you tripped, it really wouldn't matter if it really was the Leo on the video or it wasn't. Either way, if you did happen to meet the "physical Leo avatar" the entity experience would be internalized adequately to be relevant enough to us. What are psychedelic experiences if not mental sacrifices made to awaken to the obvious, the immediate, and the relevant anyway? Most of our visionary experiences are better realized through the inquiry of how unimportant and insignificant they actually are than how important they are. Our visions are always myopic blips to the unrecognized grace of the present moment, absolutely.

@flowboy Yeah, I'm actually in the process of going the way of 1P myself actually. Okay this gives a lot better context, I appreciate it. This has been invaluably insightful to me thank you.

I have a couple sober friends and a couple alcohol-drinking friends. I'd like to introduce them all to psychedelics with different trip outsets in mind, but I know one of my sober friends is living completely fine without psychedelics. I've also relied on him for support in sobriety, so I feel that I would let him down should I buy a large quantity of LSD again. He didn't know me when I used to trip. I also feel that I don't want to be boxed in with silly identifications like sobriety or otherwise. I've just been getting the call to take acid again. The last time I tripped was Lemon Tekking 4 grams--September 7. I haven't taken acid in years-- at least 2. It doesn't feel that long ago honestly. I'm in a completely different state of living now, too. I also feel motivated to introduce psychedelics to others because it's therapeutic and it gives me a role to play with growing other people who are willing but lost. But am I sacrificing my sobriety by tripping with other people // microdosing by myself? What should I think is important? I'm asking y'all for your thoughts and human probing purposes , but I'll send my sober friend a text right now too. Thanks.

We are literally God's name, continuously pronouncing.

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@flowboy Okay, thanks for clearing that up. I'm glad I could be given perspective. I've been continuously fed fear-based definitions of problematic behavior recently, (eg. it's wrong if you know it's wrong) and I needed to hear something grounded in something exemplified. So, to reiterate, escapism is always avoidance-based behavior? It can be mental and physical, and it always requires an intentional avoidance of unresolved problems? Good question. Having a lot of acid is like a feeling of abundance and lack of scarcity. But I'd also be acquiring from the web, and it doesn't seem smart to pay for shipping if only buying a small amount. It feels like I'm buying time. It feels like an investment. It feels like I'd be sitting on a castle made of sand with that much acid stored for future use, man. You got me beat, dude. I couldn't come up with an answer that doesn't sound fishy. You're asking me to justify future use? I'm definitely planning to start microdosing, and I'd like to have a good amount to work with to feel comfortable if I were going to be thinking along a longer timeframe than a weekend.

@flowboy I know that they are not physically addictive, and the point you've touched on is where my main conflict is. I want to trip, but I can't tell if every inclination to trip at all is a desire to escape. Should escapist behavior be obvious? Maybe, if I'm being ambivalent, there's a healthy level of escapism-- like going to clear your head of a problem by going for a run. I can see this in the psychedelic context as well, but I am also aware of my ego co-opting whatever sounds virtuous or convenient to justify going behind my other people's back by taking psychedelics. The people close to me don't view the activity with much positive appreciation to say the least. Currently, I am living with family for at least the remainder of this semester for school. I know that I have to move out of this fucking place ASAP, as I'm working on improving my credit score, etc etc in preparation for a down payment on a condo or studio. I've also considered that this chapter in my life is not ideal for tripping right now, and I could believe that with having new work/school obligations and whatnot. Part of me just wants to hoard a lot of acid like I used to. The other side hopes to microdose more than I ever have before... Ideally, I'd like to try a couple microdose rounds and see cognitive/confidence/creative benefits. Thoughts?

The reading material really offered me closure and perspective, very useful. Thanks.

Nah, don't find solace outside of the pain of compassion. Just let it infect your core until it shakes away your impurity and burns the sins out of your soul. ...Until you get that unshakeable feeling of injustice that inspires you to be better. Personal development is the goal right?

@John Paul Yeah, quite a few of the drinking friends and stoner friends expressed interest in it. They haven't taken it before. My sober friend doesn't want to take any. He hasn't tripped since he was younger. I don't want to persuade him to trip, I just don't know if I value his opinion of me over who i could be

undisputed winner of the fight gets the enlightenment feature on Kendrick's next album

The insanity today has considered voice impression AI as a realistic assumption in creating fake news just to tarnish the good name of those blessed Tate boys. You couldn't make this shit up... ...without Infinite Intelligence!

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How should I navigate conversations relating to social astrology that I don't find value in? Should I offer advice?

Haa cars are the insectoid carapaces of our Earth hive

I think I was about six, but I was trying to cry because I really wanted to talk to God. I stared at the grapes growing along the fence in the backyard and the lawn. I was raised an unofficial atheist because my parents wanted me to be open-minded and choose religion on my own. Still, I wanted to reach out to God in an actual way, and at that point, I remember trying to make some compromise with God. I was still an atheist kid at 6-14 years of age. I watched atheist Youtube fervently. Eventually I opened up the Satanic Bible because of a youtuber's recommendation. I loved its rebellious energy and pseudo-atheist dialectic. Once I started smoking weed, I was reintroduced to Buddhism, and then all the religions came back soon enough in their own times.

IME I've had an interesting time with microdosing psychs, as well as abusing the nootropic phenibut for its social enhancements. I've come to terms with the truth that we aren't actually even the same ego when we are dosed. With that, you to cross each river for itself. Just know that your perception differs, and neither state of consciousness--sober or otherwise-- is objectively better. A lot of integration is realizing that being high is no more valuable than being sober. It's something that novel perception struggles with-- coveting better experiences over those not-so-good. There is a solitary, peaceful talkatively to being sober, and realizing that state of consciousness is its own improvement path should you see who you are on a socially mild psychedelic dosage.

I might be in the process of procurement... I'm just curious to open the discussion about how long one could microdose daily and viably, when should they increase dosage, should they take regimented cycles instead, or should they just dose normal-to-lightly and go about daily life? It does sound stupid to say, but it has been done to just have "normal" unstructured days where you have minimal errands to just trip throughout the day. You can hate me for it, that I don't "respect the chemical" but that nonsense does disservice rather than active inquiry and investigation. Why not have iconoclastic trips that collide with your day-to-day life sometimes? Again, "normal-to lightly," and sometimes integration happens best in witness to the idolatry we succumb to in daily life. Tell me about your experiences in having a psychedelic stash if you so feel inclined!