At awe

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  1. Can we please respect man’s decision. God damn…
  2. It’s all about the eyes.
  3. “How to do self-inquiry” video maybe?
  4. Right? I was standing in a food store the other day and contemplated on that question… How can I know that the observing of this current moment is happening here? I don’t..
  5. Sounds like You should do some martial arts. Would recommend boxing or Muay thai . Aikido, Kung Fu, Thai chi etc are most likely not Your thing. When You join some group, stay after training, choose the biggest sparring partner and go for it. Use gear obviously. Then analyze the situation after couple of “rounds”?
  6. I would personally avoid it if possible. Mandatory service is Ok I guess. To learn the basics etc. But the constant feeling that I have to put my own brain on the shelf and obey someone blindly was too much even for a 18 year old me. Military is SD stage blue level I guess.
  7. I’ll try to keep it short. I was in my early twenties. Had just moved to the other side of the world. Met a woman, chemistry was great but unfortunately that was it. We met on weekends and hanged out. Couple months of this and she tells me that she’s pregnant. So we had a long discussion and we decided that we are too young and we must choose abortion. So doctors visit was made and life went on. Ca 5 months later her belly was visibly growing. Not because of donuts. So obviously she didn’t/ couldn’t do it. I was furious at the time. Now i know that since I don’t know how it feels to be a pregnant woman, it’s impossible for me to judge her. So I had a choice to make: l could leave and never find out who my child is or play home with a person that wasn’t my 1st choice or 6th. Chose the second option and stayed for ca 8 years. I needed to know my daughter. We live 10 minutes from each other so we meet frequently. She’s soon 20. I’m very proud father, being a parent has given me endless insights. In a way it was a blessing. Quite sure I would have not become a parent otherwise.. Lessons: 1. It was the hardest thing for me in life to forgive someone. 2. I don’t know how other people think/feel. 3. ALWAYS wear a condom if you don’t have serious plans. 4. Took tons of work to learn to trust women again. etc.
  8. To buy ice cream, put it in the freezer and never eat it.
  9. I think that You should move on. And please don’t play with women that way.
  10. Sure. But this “I’ve got it right” or “I know how the world should look like” attitude goes way deeper. Try to take that away from an ego.
  11. @Thought Art I think it’s worth contemplating: To whom? Why? What is a belief? What is a value of a belief? Etc.
  12. @Thought Art Absolutely ? I’m just so happy that we are not all alike. How boring would that be.
  13. @playdoh I think it’s impossible to say. It doesn’t really matter either which answer is right. Would this answer always apply? Or is it just another attempt to put reality in a box?
  14. Found two very interesting persons on Tinder. In a relationship with the second one. A keeper.
  15. Y 90, G 65, B 50, P 35, O 35, R 20. @mw711 Shadow= every specific level is not 100%?
  16. I’m grateful that something seems to be happening.
  17. Dismissive/avoidant. Makes sense. Why does it almost always seem that question’s are weird in these type of tests??
  18. Greetings! Had a interesting experience today. Realized that most of my adult life I’ve been a decent person, but…. it was learned behavior. Knowing what good is and acting accordingly. Strict parents, school, trauma’s etc… Life has taught me to behave a certain way. So I’ve been a good “boy”. Somehow I lost that little dude who wanted to make the world a better place. I met him today. It’s been awhile. The will to be good and make difference comes from the “inside” again, as a feeling. Forgot what I was trying to say with this post.