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    Just my humble opinion:

    • Every thought/concept emerging in ones mindstream is not created or chosen by "oneself/ego/person/body-mind". But by the Totality of Absolute Reality, infinitely intelligent.
    • That Absolute Reality manifests a Universe that clearly develops, and grows to more complex forms:

     

    • Just maybe, if one conforms to what the Universe is doing anyway......
      • which is getting itself to grow, develop, and wake-up (self-realize its True Being in as many beings as possible, once the capacity is in place),
      • and helps it waking up once one has woken up onself (which is the base of the Boddhisattva-vow: Once you wake up, not to keep that Awakening and its resulting bliss for yourself, and live happily ever after, which by the way is the easiest thing to do then, without the minor annoyance/effort of "helping" "others")
        • telling "them" about which paths up the mountain actually work, which just circle around the mountain without ever getting closer to the top, which paths stop at 95% of the mountain, and which just rack up loads of bad Karma or drop off a cliff to start at place zero or pretty low again.  Or at least ones own experiences of the path up the mountain.
        • and promises to do something like (Boddhisattva-Vow) that once one has woken up (better not starting before, because that tends - not necessarily, but tends -  to be an ego-show. And not go off to the cave happily ever after....
        • and overall, at least be compassionate and nice to "other" beings while on the path, as much as possible.
    • .... Ones own Intuition and Intelligence (which is governed by the Infinite Intelligence of Reality/Totality anyway (or do you choose which thoughts/concepts emerge in your mindstream? "I" don't...) is helped by the Totality in any way the Infinite Intelligence of Reality can? Since the Totality wants to wake up, or has a tendency to do so?
      • That can take an intuition (or feeling drawn to) of choosing working paths/methods instead of not-working ones.
      • That can result in
        • nice and balanced success on the relative level of live (Friends, partner, job/business/financials)
        • making the right decissions in life
        • having luck in ones decissions
        • a lot of energy and motivation in ones endevours (intellectual, business, financial, any aspect of an integrated life)
        • As Nisargadatta once said "Winnnig the grace of ones True Nature"
        • that is at least my experience. Coincidence or not, I am happy about how things are in my life.

    And for the postponing ones Enlightenment/Waking Up until saving them all: That is in large parts Buddhist folklore and myth. You can not really help others beings without being awake yourself, at least not to wake up fully.

    • Its like in an airplane: If masks drop, put on your mask first before helping others put on their mask. Because if you don't, you can go unconsciousness (and the "other" too), before you can help anyone.
    • Like every Religion for the masses, in which Buddhism also takes part, there are some nice background-story that are maybe a little bit to rosy and naive. This one probably belongs to it. Help yourself and wake up (put the mask on), then help others put the mask on.
      • But be nice and benevolent to "others" while putting on the mask, don't kick them out of their seats on your way to the mask, so to say.

    Then, who in his right mind wouldn't choose to make such an agreement/"deal" (Boddhisattva Agreement) with Reality? And of course honestly and authentically, Infinite Intelligence already knows all of your mindstream, cause it IS that already. And Reality listens very openly to ones mindstreams, its intentions and prayers, and can respond miraculously to it (for example in the emotions is manifests in the mindstream: Loving or annoyed for example). Because the opening of ones mindstream and consciousness, its emptiness and its emergent thoughts, is already are direct link to the Universal Mind of the Universe and Infinite Consciousness already, by definition. There are not two "consciousnesses" anywhere..... It is literally the same.

    Of course its all a dream, an Infinite Universal Mind imagining a dream. But at least yours truly prefers a nice dream to a nightmare. So who in his right mind would say its all a dream, its all imagined, and ignore the laws of Karma (of which the Boddhisattva-vow forms a large part) and life a miserable life ignoring cause and effect ever after? Well, you guessed, only a confused ignorant separate self under the spell of illusion....

    “My realization is higher than the sky. But my observance of karma is finer than grains of flour.", Padmasambhava

    That means nothing else than although one keeps the Absolute Perspective of its all an arising in Infinite Consciousness/Absolute Reality, one is not so stupid to think that this Lila/Dream has a very consequent structure, is very coherent (different than dreams at night), and if one shoots oneself in the knee (Karma-wise, or literally), one is going to be hurting/limping for the rest of ones life.... And knowing about the tendence of the Universe to grow towards more complexity and awakening, and ignoring that, or not taking some kind of Boddhisattva-vow (the wise/intelligent form of it), is similiar to shooting oneself in the knee, at least in a certain perspective.

    And a "round-out" from the Absolute Side of the Street, to keep it balanced :D), courtesy of Francis Lucille -  "Ignorance is only a bad idea from the perspective of ignorance. From the perspective of [Absolute] Consciousness: Who cares?!". So either way, its show on!  

    Bon voyage!

    Water by the River

     

     

  2. Posted · Edited by Water by the River

    On 16.5.2023 at 9:42 PM, Carl-Richard said:

    As long as you understand the difference between God's infinite mind and the finite human mind, that is most of the job done. Other words for God's infinite mind is reality, Consciousness, transpersonal consciousness, phenomenal consciousness, Qualia, awareness, emptiness. Other words for the finite human mind is the ego, thoughts and experiences, perception and cognition, feelings and sensations, private conscious inner life, personal mind, localization of consciousness.

    Thank you for this voice of sanity. That is (at least in my humble perspective) a very sane and much needed truthful statement on a relative level. Hope you don't mind the following musings:

    Of course one can "shoot" at such a statement with a statement of the absolute level, like: That is all duality. But doing the "Absolute side of the street trick" to kill something coming from the "relative side of the street" because ones ego (or whatever) doesn't like it,

    • one contradicts one self, because on the relative level there are truths and stuff that work (like diamond cuts glass, but not the other way round,
    • and certain views tend to bring one closer to actually awakening to Absolute Truth, and other "truths" just lead to more self-contraction, ego and narcissm).
    • Especially those views that don't boost self-importance and narcissm, because they tend to cause less blind-spots than humble views, and don't kill ones progress on the spiritual path.

    And: Any critique coming from the "Absolute Side of the street" is also necessarily using duality, or language. So for the folks that like to kill any statement they don't like or that rubs their ego (or whatever) the wrong way with a statement from the Absolute Side of the street (that is duality, its all imagined, whatever...., fill in the blanks), one might find this little concept helpful:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Performative_contradiction

    And of course Nagarjuna and the Two Truths:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Two_truths_doctrine

    And if one still likes to use statements from the Absolute Side of the Street: Maybe you like to use something like written below [bold markings by yours truly]? At least in my humble view a very beautiful paragraph by Bassui.

    So, there is nothing really new under the sun, they discussed & solved this topic in India a loooooong time ago.

    Yet, here we are, still seeing battles in this forum with one side shooting with "Absolute Truth"-Statements on stuff that needs to be discussed on a relative level... Fasten your seatbelts, get popcorn ready, and enjoy the show ;)

    Water by the River

     

    Bassui: If you push forward with your last ounce of strength at the very point where the path of your thinking has been blocked, and then, completely stymied, leap with hands high in the air into the tremendous abyss of fire confronting you—into the ever-burning flame of your own primordial nature—all ego-consciousness, all delusive feelings and thoughts and perceptions will perish with your ego-root and the true source of your Self-nature will appear. You will feel resurrected, all sickness having completely vanished, and will experience genuine peace and joy. You will be entirely free.

    For the first time you will realize that walking on water is like walking on ground and walking on ground like walking on water; that all day long there is speaking, yet no word is ever spoken; that throughout the day there is walking, yet no step is ever taken; that while the clouds are rising over the southern mountains their rain is falling over the northern range; that when the lecture gong is struck in China the lecture begins in Korea; that sitting alone in a ten-foot-square room you meet all the Buddhas of the ten quarters; that without seeing a word you read the more than seven thousand volumes of the sutras; that though you acquire all the merits and virtues of good actions, yet in fact there are none.

  3. Posted · Edited by Water by the River

    6 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

    I see a lot of people falling into this trap, and I myself fell to it in the past.

    Solipsism, yes. But from the point of view of God (which is not a point of view, obviously, but using that word as a means to understand ourselves).

    Not from the point of view of the ego.

    The problem is that you guys keep wanting to grasp this stuff while maintaining an ego-consciousness and a feeling of PERSONALITY and REFERENCE in your current direct experience. Trying to grasp the 'teaching' with this will inevitably guide you to delusion. 

    There is no personal experience or reference point of view in consciousness. Solipsism as a 'personal truth' can not exist because you as a human don't exist, you are not a body and you are not a psychological process.

    As long as you are identified with any personal view or conclusion, you will not get it. No matter how many times 'you awake', what matters is NOW, what you 'think' you are now. As long as there is an identification process, there is delusion. As long as there is a sense of you existing within something (like a body), there is a delusion. The end.

    Work on the delusion, less on trying to understand. Understanding is not awakening.

    Yes. Nice that you write this post. Very true.

    >"Solipsism, yes. But from the point of view of God (which is not a point of view, obviously, but using that word as a means to understand ourselves). Not from the point of view of the ego [separate self]."

    Not from the point of view of the ego/separate self!

    And Solipsism from "the view" of the One without a second, or Absolute Reality/Infinite Consciousness/Suchness/Reality itself doesn't even really need to be mentioned.

    • Because there literally is nothing else, like in  "never could be". So it doesn't really make sense talking about it. To whom? "Others"? 
    • The consciousness of the mind-stream of other beings can be directly intuited/felt/realized to be ones own empty consciousness at certain levels of Awakening. But Impersonal, Totally Empty Concsiousness.
      • It "wouldn't work" any different way, it has to be empty. Technically speaking, "IT" would not be compatible to fit into the perspective/mind-stream/consciousness of another being/perspective if it weren't totally empty. Just Awareness, AWARE, and nothing else. Empty. Impersonal.
        • How could a consciousness with "my" personal properties "fit" into the mindstream of another being. It couldn't. Therefor, Nothingness, totally Empty Impersonal Consciousness, with another mindstream (feelings/thoughts/subtle feelings of being/separateness/....), structurally exactly the same as ones own mindstream, with the same essence - Nothingness. Which is also the same essence of very appearance of the visual field also. All of that can be directly realized.
          • With certain levels of Awakening, one can directly intuit that the separate-self illusion arisings (I-thoughts, I-feelings) in the mindstream of other beings has exactly the same structure than ones own mindstream (and its I-thoughts, I-feelings). One doesn't read the content of thoughts (some do), but directly intuits their structure/process, in the exactly same impersonal consciousness than the essence of ones own mindstream.
            • And that essence of Nothingness/Impersonal Consciousness is also the same essence of EVERY appearance of the world in the visual field.
              • Also, a direct experience in Awakenings, and something that gets constant in Enlightenment (to paraphrase for example the Mahamudra-system): "Crossing Over to Enlightenment happens when every thought/concept/feeling ("internal" arising) and every appearance (world/visual field form) is seen as empty-thought-concept and empty-appearance arisings in Infinite Awareness-Space".
        • And that is what one is: IMPERSONAL Empty Consciousness. Or better "Nothingness", to make sure that nothing is projected onto it, or that its not fully empty. It is literally Nothing, but with the capacity for sentience. And even that isn't always active, see Deep-Sleep. Definitely, it doesn't include separate-self arisings/confusion/illusion arisings "on top". That is "the screen", and its capacity for sentience/awareness/consciousness.

    To make it specific: Talking about Solipsism could only make sense from totally empty impersonal Consciousness or Nothingness. And then it is not necessary! (Because it invites more mis-understandings than the clarity it delivers). 

    • Talking about Solipsism from any ego/separate self perspective doesn't make sense. And if you are at that empty level of infinite (!) impersonal Consciousness/Nothingness, one without a second, it is redundant and totally unnecessary to talk even about Solipsism.

    >As long as there is an identification process, there is delusion

    Yes, exactly. And any form of Solipsism applied to the level of the delusion/relative/ego/separate-self level only can increase narcissm or (separate-)self-grandiosity, which is the No.1 building block of the separate self, the most seductive one, the most dangerous delusion mechanism of Maya. One of the very last things to go. (And then one can guess what makes Solipsism so attractive for egos/separate selfs? Well, one can go ahead confusing the little separate self/ego with the full glory of God/Kosmos/Reality, and feel veeeery important, and boast around with absolute claims.)

    That (the danger described above, and other dangers) is why by the way in Tibetan Buddhism (and practically all spiritual traditions) Realized Ones normally NEVER speak about their attainments, and at least tend to downplay them, state them smaller, because that tends to boost ones self-importance. And that is not good, neither before or after Enlightenment. Brings bad Karma, not as happy-as-can-be-life. And the same holds also for the not-realized or not stable realized ones. Not publicly announcing ones realization has got other negative effects (like not much examples, or making it appeat to be nearly impossible to reach), but saves oneself (and others) in being more on the "humble side") from the burden of self-importance/self-grandiosity. So its a balance, see one of my last posts with the Video of Ken Wilber.

    • And second factor: Even if you know Absolute Reality and are enlightened, that does in no way mean that ones relative life automatically already expresses the potential that this realization opens up in terms of compassion, ethical living, and embodying the truth. It provides the potential to do so, and also tends to unfold this way. But it is not assured. Ken Wilbers "Wake Up, Grow Up, Show Up". 
      • Over the long-term, when Enlightenment becomes more common, only the "Wake Up, Grow Up, Show Up" stable and mature versions of it will find group-approval/consensus. Because only that version of it is "cool", the other versions are "less than cool", or "pretty uncool". ;)

     

    And if with Solipsism one can boost the importance/self-importance/grandiosity to hilarious proportions,

    • confusing ego/separate self with Reality/God, and claiming stuff that is just not appropriate to be claimed for any separate self/any perspective in the Great Net of Indra/Reality/any being,
    • but only for God proper (Nothingness, Impersonal totally empty Infinite Consciousness), 

    well, then one has exchanged the former separate self with a new vastly-blown-up"God"-ego-separate-self, an ego/separate self blown up to cosmic dimensions and self-importance. And then good luck transcending that, and the suffering that goes along necessarily as with any separate-self identity. 

     

    The big big risk that at least yours truly can see on this forum:

    • Exactly that tends (not at every case, depends probably on the baseline-"blessing"/Karma of narcissm and self-grandiosity already in place) to happen with frequent usage of Psychedelics. 95% of the properties of Infinite Reality get revealed (the relative side, like ones identity with the whole universe (this Infinite Void-Universe, Buddha-Field, or "God" if you are so inclinded to call it that way), but not the fully empty/impersonal Absolute side of it, Absolute Impersonal Emptiness or Nothingness/Abyss that can never be seen. (And by the way, as Steven Wolinsky for example writes based on his Awakenings/visions, there are and infinite Number of Infinite Other Void-Universes/Buddha-Fields just like ours, each with a God/Buddha at its center running the "show", while being it. And none of that is the Absolute, its all relative stuff, manifestation. Not the absolute empty Abyss of Nothingness.... I remember a video somebody once maid about an "Infinity of Gods", sovereign just like oneself.... ;)").
      • At least not completely, because the Psychedelics don't kill the last remnants/rest of the last subtle separate-self arisings (mainly "Individuality", or a very subtle hard to spot feeling of still being there as anything at all, or an Awareness "of" Emptiness/Nothingness/Nonduality/whatever. Still an Awarness "of"...).
      • And, to make it even more seductive or dangerous: One is not aware what this last "individuality", or "Awareness of ..."  is, or that that is still happy and busy and active, destroying ones crossing over to Complete Realization, making one still suffer. If one would understand these last remnancts of Illusion, of "Individuality", one would instantly wake up and stay that way. Knowing what one really is. If Realization of ones Identity with the Absolute Infinite Reality/Nothingness ends after the trip, maybe there was still something active blocking the full Realization throughout?

    Little remark, included after a waaay to long rambling: If somebody has truly read until here, and thinks all of this post is all BS, please quote the number 147, to show that one has actually read most of that dry and boring musings of yours truly until here... ( :  . Thank you, very kind.

    Well, nothing of what I have written will proove anything for those persons having fallen heavily for that trap.

    • especially those who do it just by thinking and watching videos, and boosting their narcissm already with that tremendously, and didn't even walk the Psychedelic path properly, but are parotting concepts & dogma from someone else.
      • In my humble opinion, it doesn't speak for the forum that such an ego-show can happen without more highlighting these obvious mistakes.
      • So for the "all is understood by watching the vids, but never did a trip"-fraction: Maybe consider taking one of the harder psychedelics like 5-MeO, have most/95%+ of your ego/separate self handed on a platter to you, and then come back with maybe a little bit more existential humility and awe in the face of Infinite Consciousness/Reality, and the way it can easily kill 95% of you with a little chemical and smile while doing so.
    • Luckily, normally their tone of writing, loaded with self-grandiosity, narcissm, and writing style that generally is not "so filled" with bliss/love/compassion as one would normally expect of Divinity/Absolute/God-Realization, showing for every reader with at least some form of working spiritual compass in the heart, that their suffering probably has not ended, and they are peddling conceptual ideas and not actual realization.
      • and if they "camouflage" their writings a bit more towards the "humble and loving/compassion side", at least it gets more pleasant and softer to read :)

    And as always, Bon Vovage for "everybody"! ;)

    Selling Water by the River

     

     

  5. Posted

    ... and its the old conflict between sudden and gradual awakening. That conflict happened in every spiritual system, for example very famous in Zen:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Subitism

    So it is probably not the newest show in town....

    Well, I prefer the integral solution of "nobody is smart enough to be wrong all the time", so both perspectives hold a certain degree of truth. Which can then be integrated.

    Selling Water by the River

     

  6. Posted · Edited by Water by the River

    42 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

    Not in my opinion. If you have broken the ice of the surface it is obvious. Basic awakening for me is realizing the infinite and what the limited appearance is. the infinite absolute fills you with joy, you realize that you are that and that it is impossible for it to be anything else. the finite are perfectly arranged boundaries that create an appearance. How many people have really, truly, opened up to this? This will make you laugh out loud for a while, with pure joy. all your repressed energy will be released. but is this realizing god? No. do you realize the will and intelligence? really, without conceptualizing. everyone lies here! Or it seems so

    Maybe basic awakening is the most important, but still, we aren't not totally awake to what we are, just the first glimpse

    I also understand the reaction of Breakingthewall here.

    @Inliytened1 and Breakingthewall:  How about both perspectives are important:

    • (1) The steps (or awakenings, or Kenshos/Satoris, Enlightenments (not the Final Basis Enlightenments) or temporary openings to the real state of things, whatever you want to call them) to Absolute Reality/Ones True being are important, since they are aligning the individual mindstream more with the enlightenened mindstream, increasing its potential to finally wake up fully. That is still happening in the dream, but the dream can be more or less lucid. But these experiences are very important. So maybe something like "waking up fully" is sudden, its either or, its an "accident", but previous "awakenings, or Kenshos/Satoris, Enlightenments" make accident-prone.
    • Basis Enlightenment/Great Enlightenment/Final Enlightenment/Fully Waking Up: The full waking up is then a sudden, unmistaken waking up to the True Reality of both oneself and Reality, nondual.

    The description of the Tibetan Mahamudra System, and Basis Enlightenment, describes exactly that:

    (1) "Awakened wisdom[Awakened Awareness] now comes forth unobstructed, no longer as a brief glimpse or flash [small "awakenings/enlightenments or whatever one wants to call it" but as that which saturates all experience. It has no real support (brten), yet serves as the ground or basis for all experience."

    (2) Contrary to the slow ripening of meditative experience throughout the preliminary and essential stages of meditation, and even the gradual ripening of awakened wisdom [Awakened Awareness] during extraordinary meditation, crossing over to enlightenment is an immediate and compelling event [sudden, awake or not], wherein the mental continuum undergoes a series of fundamental and enduring reorganizations

    At least from my perspective it doesn't look so complicated to align the different statements/wordings/descriptions/experiences/views concepts into a picture that can contain them all, that is spacious enough in an integral way to make room for all experiences and perspectives in a coherent picture.

    Water by the River

  7. Posted

    35 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

    Indeed I did know.  And you knew that.

    :)

    Actually, on my bucket list is offering courses in “1984” doublethink, Steven Norquist style:

    No, just kidding ;). Gotta stay humble....

    Selling Water by the River

     

    PS: And the coolest answer to the next question: Are you enlightened, Sir !? 

    Ken Wilbers answer: Enlightened enough....

    " In Zen are you enlightened what was always taken as a trick because you're damned if you do and damned if you don't if you say yes then you clearly... no individual is enlightened . but if you say no then you're just an ignoramus, you're an idiot"

    "almost all I can say is enlightened enough if you say more than that you're just a braggart and almost certainly wrong and if you say less than that then you're worthless you know and you're also not telling the truth"

  9. Posted · Edited by Water by the River

    54 minutes ago, josemar said:

    Have you done 5 Meo @Water by the River ? Because from your description "not fully empty" doesn't resonate here. There isn't a separate self to be empty or not, it's only on the comedown when the separate self reassembles that the non-experience is re-contextualized into whatever the separate self deems worthy or valuable.

    Hi Josemar,

    Please excuse me not commenting on having done (in my country) illegal psychedelics in a public forum. But others have and publicly declared that, and are "quoteable", see below.

    But what I can tell you that certain states, that can also be reached via meditation and that are extremely similiar to the 5 MeO experience, lead to states that are

    • totally nondual
    • infinite
    • space and time have gone
    • the identity left is NOTHING, really a empty nothing, a transparent witness without any properties. BUT with a very very subtle Individuality still left. And that is the problem.

    So, the last frontier, which is extremely(!) subtle, is still there: Individuality, the last remnants of a nearly invisible transparant witness/separate self. Roger Thisdells stage 4, Not Self:

    That is the stage where one works with the last remnants of a very very empty remaining separate-self. Impossible to describe in words. The last remnants of Individuality/Separate Self. This is what "Nonmeditation Yoga" of the Mahamudra System is cleaning up with, preparing for the Big Sudden Shift.

    After watching the video, watch his next video 5 of the series, True No Self.

    There is also a beautiful passage in Ken Wilbers "The Religion of Tomorrow: A Vision For The Future of the Great Traditions" on the transparent witness. Transparent Witness is a word not so perfectly fitting, because it can be already quite nondual.

     

     

    >Because from your description "not fully empty" doesn't resonate here. There isn't a separate self to be empty or not, it's only on the comedown when the separate self reassembles that the non-experience is re-contextualized into whatever the separate self deems worthy or valuable.

    I understand when you write "doesn't resonate here". It feels like you were totally rid of the separate self during 5 MeO. You can have a similiar feelings/impressions on the meditation path, see Roger Thisdells video and Frank Yang. But it is not fully gone.

    And one CAN NOT imagine what is still there. Why it is not fully empty. Because IT IS the lense/separate self/transparent witness (although already nondual) that one is still looking out from. And I will never be able to proove that to you, or describe what still remains. That is why Basis/Great/Final Enlightenment is sudden, as described before. If one would understand what hinders the Great Enlightenment before it actually happening, it would happen immediately.

    I can not proove that to you. But the fact that it goes away after the trip IS a very strong indication that not every aspect of the separate self was gone during the trip, because the Deep Identity Level Shift of Great Enlightenment DID NOT OCCUR. When you know what you are, you know what you are. Awake or not. 

    There is a long "tradition" for example in Zen in differentiating between Enlightenment and Great Enlightenment. In other traditions also. In the firstly mentioned Enlightenment, one fully knows the nondual void/empty/mere appearance nature of the visual field, and that oneself is empty. But Bassui says for example: WHO is perceiving all of that. The Empty Void/Space can not perceive it. And Bassui says:

    "At work, at rest, never stop trying to realize who it is that hears. Even though your questioning penetrates the unconscious, you won’t find the one who hears, and all your efforts will come to naught. Yet sounds can be heard, so question yourself to an even profounder level. At last every vestige of self-awareness will disappear and you will feel like a cloudless sky. Within yourself you will find no “I,” nor will you discover anyone who hears. This Mind is like the void, yet it hasn’t a single spot that can be called empty. Do not mistake this state for Self-realization, but continue to ask yourself even more intensely, “Now who is it that hears?” If you bore and bore into this question, oblivious to anything else, even this feeling of voidness will vanish and you won’t be aware of anything—total darkness will prevail. [Don’t stop here, but] keep asking with all your strength, “What is it that hears?” Only when you have completely exhausted the questioning will the question burst; now you will feel like someone who has come back from the dead. This is true realization. You will see the Buddhas of all the universes face-to-face and the Dharma Ancestors past and present."

    "Again, there are those who think that when one’s mental functions have ceased, leaving one like a decayed tree or cold stone, one has attained no-mindness; while still others maintain that in the practice of Zen a decisive point has been reached when one feels a deep void with awareness of neither inner nor outer, the entire body having become shining, transparent, and clear like a blue sky on a bright day. This last appears when the True-nature begins to manifest itself, but it cannot be called genuine Self-realization. Zen masters of old would call it the “deep pit of pseudo-emancipation.”

    " Andeven though all of you becomes one mass of questioning as you turn inward and intently search the very core of your being, you will find nothing that can be termed Mind or Essence. Yet should someone call your name, something from within will hear and respond. Find out this instant who it is! If you push forward with your last ounce of strength at the very point where the path of your thinking has been blocked, and then, completely stymied, leap with hands high in the air into the tremendous abyss of fire confronting you—into the ever-burning flame of your own primordial nature—all ego-consciousness, all delusive feelings and thoughts and perceptions will perish with your ego-root and the true source of your Self-nature will appear [or any and all wrong identity/separate self structures/arisings get killed/transcended by ones True Being, Nothingness, the "ever-burning flame of your own primoridal nature". Deep complete Identity Level Shift, dropping the mistaken Identity of anything separate, however subtle, once and for all]. You will feel resurrected, all sickness having completely vanished, and will experience genuine peace and joy. You will be entirely free."

    The same thing that happens on the meditation path happens also on the psychedelic path.

    So luckily, there is a gentlemen who publicly comments on having done both: Frank Yang comments on the difference between 5 MeO (and what still remains in that), and what can be achieved by meditation.

     

    "so when i tried 5meo DMT (God Molecule) three  years ago that was the last time i tried it  DJing the whole universe i had a breakthrough of Absolute Infinity slash  Emptiness slash _______ you can't describe it. three years later that state is right here  right now when i perceive the world it's a  360 degrees boundless infinite hologram perceiving  itself through One Sense Door there's not even a  sense door "God's 0 Sense Door" and every  single sensation both inside and outside  there's no inside outside syncs up to (and is  aware of) itself and it's been like that it's locked in for three months now nothing has changed  nothing this is a state that isn't affected by any  ..."

    And on getting rid of the last lenses/filters of the separate self, very subtle:

    "

    or imagine what this would be like and even if  you take psychedelics when you're at 99 percent you're not going to get a glimpse of the  full thing because you're gonna have an  experience of enlightenment at 99 percent on  psychedelics that's a different order than locking enlightenment and abiding in it  permanently through the natural mind okay  

    experience of enlightenment at 99 percent on  psychedelics that's a different order than locking enlightenment and abiding in it  permanently through the natural mind okay  that's not even go to the people who are only  maybe 1 percent or not even that, not even Stream Entry taking psychedelics and had a glimpse of  god consciousness. You can't glimpse enlightenment because once you glimpse IT you're enlightened!  Because enlightenment is not an experience that comes and goes that's why Jed Mckenna said  you're either awake or you're not. 

    You can't glimpse enlightenment because once you glimpse IT you're enlightened! 

    That would also be my main point. Awake or not, to use the nice statement/metaphor from Inliytened1.

    To end with a personal oberservation: I know quite some contemporary people which are enlightened via mainly meditation. I know not single case of the pure or even mainly psychedelic path, where I would conclude that that case in enlightened. That doesn't mean it could not happen. Just that I am not aware of one. That also tells something about the likely statistics.

    54 minutes ago, josemar said:

     

    @Water by the River I appreciate a lot your/Brown's take on the nature of thoughts, but I think on this website, majority of readers will go over your text, think about it for a minute, "understand it", then move on with their life, not sensing that the most important in your descriptions will be the actual practice.

     

    I know :). But some will resonate with it, and will read it.

    All I am doing is writing here because I enjoy it, and because the archive of posts generated would have been (at least for me) very valueable and useful some years ago...

    Selling Water by the River

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    48 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

    Putting into percents is another mistake.   You either wake up from a dream or you don't.   There aren't percents of this.  There are different things you can learn about the dream you are dreaming - but awakening is Absolute. 

    Agree, important point.

    Since I am quoting already a lot today, I hope you don't mind me hijacking your comment, and quoting some passages from "Pointing Out the Great Way, Brown" again. Maybe that is interesting for some.... Bold markings and [...] by yours truly.

    THE OUTCOME: THE NATURE OF ENLIGHTENMENT
    Contrary to the slow ripening of meditative experience throughout the preliminary and essential stages of meditation, and even the gradual ripening of awakened wisdom [Awakened Awareness] during extraordinary meditation, crossing over to enlightenment is an immediate and compelling event, wherein the mental continuum undergoes a series of fundamental and enduring reorganizations. One implication of the term nonmeditation is that the "journey ends." There are no more stages.

    Pema Karpo says,The journey ends. Going by stages stops. There are no stages that go anywhere else. You find the perfection of everything that came before, without stages. (PK, f. rib) There are no stages (sa med) beyond this point

    ...

    a. Basis Enlightenment
    The first enlightenment moment is sometimes called samadhi-enlightenment (mnyam bzhag) because it typically occurs during continuous, uninterrupted mindfulness. When the conditions of the extraordinary meditation are exactly right, crossing over occurs. A profound shift occurs during which seemingly individual consciousness, and all ordinary sense experience and all false concepts associated with it, drop away. The vast awareness-space of the dharmakaya becomes the point of observation. Seemingly individual consciousness (yid), the point of observation throughout the entire path of meditation, is now found to be a mere concept (btags pa), which drops away.

    Basis-enlightenment is said to be "beyond all notions," "beyond examination," "beyond representation," and "beyond false concepts" (TN, pp. 5 19-20).

    Tilopa says: When the mind comes to an end, The three realms become absorbed therein.... Through the nonduality of self and other you become the blessed Buddha.

    The mind becomes absorbed through the force of the ripening perspective of [vast awareness-] space. Then, the five sense systems and their objects, the aggregates, and the elements also dissolve in the perspective of space. The seeming reality of individual consciousness along with its functions and activities gives way, leaving only an infinite ocean of awareness-space.

    Basis enlightenment leads to a very "new view of the way the realized mind stays" (TN, p. 5 17). When the concept of individual consciousness or "mind" is finally eradicated, a profound rearrangement takes place.

    Awakened wisdom[Awakened Awareness] now comes forth unobstructed, no longer as a brief glimpse or flash but as that which saturates all experience. It has no real support (brten), yet serves as the ground or basis for all experience. Therefore the first moment of enlightenment is called basis enlightenment.

    During the ordinary special-insight meditations the practitioner searched for certain knowledge within arising events of the ordinary mental continuum. During the extraordinary samadhi meditations the practitioner located the simultaneous mind as the source of certain knowledge. Now, with basis enlightenment, knowledge takes on a new epistemological locus of knowledge. Awakened wisdom comes forth but not in association with either the ordinary or the simultaneous mind. Awakened wisdom [Awakened Awareness]has no basis. It is without coming Ong med) and without going ('song med), in that it does not arise from the seeming activity of the relative mental continuum. Awakened wisdom [Awakened Awareness] is self-originated (rang 'byung). It is simply there, and with basis enlightenment, stays there. Basis enlightenment is called, "wisdom beyond the world" (TN, p. 542)."

     

    So also according to Mahamudra/Tibetan Buddhism, the Deep Identity Level Shift of Basis Enlightenment/Great Enlightenment is sudden (contrary to the slowly ripening of Awakened Awareness before), self-evident, and there is no stage beyond it. Awake or not.

    Other Traditions call the shifts that happen before that event "Awakenings", some even Enlightenments. But qualified Enlightenments, "smaller" Enlightenments, partial gradual "awakenings" refining the mindstream to make it conform to the Big Shift, awake or not. Its a question of choosing the words. But they tend to differentiate clearly between the final thing/Great Enlightenment/Waking Up, and the events before. 

    I agree with Inliytened1 that if we call this Great Enlightenment/Basis Enlightenment/ Waking Up, that one is either awake or not. Digital, either or. Before being awake, one can maybe postulate there are gradual changes/"Awakenings", preparing for the final big shift (called crossing over to Enlightenment, or Basis Enlightenment in Mahamudra).  Or waking up, like in awake or not.

    If one knows or has realized what one truly deeply is, one knows what one is, and also what everything else is and only can ever be. Awake or not. If one is not sure, one is still asleep/dreaming. Awakening n+1 ain't it....

    Selling Water by the River

     

     

  11. Posted

    16 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

    @Water by the River  

     From what I read, you have great experience in spiritual work. complete dedication, like a monk? how, when, why? 

    Normal full-time business career, married but no kids, and a hobby also... I was a bookworm for a long time, reading hundreds of books, with a focus on meditation/spiritual systems. I wanted to find the most efficient ones there are.

    Considering what that brought into my life, I wasn't too unlucky doing that. It all can be done, though honestly I wouldn't be where I am at without the book that i shamelessly promote, "Pointing Out the Great Way, Brown". You know, Selling Water by the River, and especially that book... :D. And other books from Mahamudra/Dzogchen also.

    It is a very efficient system, with limited need for sitting meditation if done correctly. I used and still use most of the day off the pillow for meditation/mindfulness practice, or just staying in my True Being.

    If no absolutely distracting mental work is necessary, one can use pretty much all day, even meetings and standard work to stay mindful in the sense of " Simultaneous Mind (nondual, 3. stage of Mahamudra, Yoga of One Taste)" and "mindfulness without activity and not taking to mind" (switching off the separate self, 4. stage of Mahamudra, Nonmeditation Yoga). That brings the momentum/time/hours in meditation that probably most of us need.

    To be honest, I had to read the book a lot of times (at least stages 1-4 Mahamudra, Skill of Reckongition, Yoga of Unelaboration, Yoga of One Taste, Nonmeditation Yoga). At one point, I had to wait several years to understand the Yoga of Unelaboration, which is really hard to understand. A cycle of read, try, read again, understand a bit more, read again, even more, meditate, get certain states, read again, misunderstand, read again, understand, and so on.... But with progress and increasing meditation experience one can get what is described, and "go upwards in circles" of meditation experience -> understanding/realization -> reading more, understanding more of the system -> meditation exerpience -> understanding/realization and so on, n+1.

    25 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

    @Water by the River  

    EIn the maximum and sick degree, you take your self-esteem from the (imaginary) opinion of others towards you. In the healthiest degrees, you need others for the flow of love, mutual support, trust, give, between you and them. in both cases absolute solitude is the desert, the death of the soul. We have to be capable of absolute solitude, your mind in total silence, 40 days in the desert, in total silence, flowing, open. without that, all that we think about awakening is deceit imo.  here we are communicating right? to learn or out of necessity?

    Yes. In essence, one gets love from others, and self-esteem (aka validation with concepts), and safety/security.

    Sure, at a certain stage of development one could go into the desert when the flow of love/bliss from ones True Core is fully on (It is a nice indicator to check how transcended the separate self really is). But to live a healthy and integrated life, why not take the love, validation of self-esteem from "others" on top? It also provides a good calibration to live a healthy, integrated and balanced relative life in society.

    Doing the desert thing at some point is rather easy... Business Meetings is where the challenge is ;), Death by a-bit-less-intelligent-than-can-be-Powerpoint-presentations and meetings and so on...  :ph34r::D Still working on that, and, admittingly,  having fun while doing so... :)

    Even the more or less Awake Ones live a more healthy and integrated life when integrating in a healthy way in society, or at least trying to. One can do the Ramana-thing of walking off into the wildness and forget eating a little bit. But why should one do it? If one has taken at least a little bit of compassion training/Boddhisattva-vow/whatever, one probably feels better living an integrated and wholesome life in society.

    Selling Water by the River

  12. Posted

    10 hours ago, OldManCorcoran said:

    It's useless.

    We can glimpse something ineffable during a peak experience. But largely we are just going to have to wait until we die... Enough "chasing the dragon" trying to "understand" it again. When actually it seems those confrontations are entirely ineffable and thus can't be rationalized or intellectually considered.

    I voice recorded a regular DMT trip and was absolutely unable to describe the sensation or what was happening. I was barely even tripping hard compared to a breakthrough and couldn't verbalize what was happening except to say it was "very serious".

    I agree that there are states that are ineffable.

    For example experiencing a 6th dimension, and when going out of the trip forgetting it. Because a human mindstream can not "hold" the memory/understanding of a 6th dimension. Not really. One can play around with it in a mathematical way, but you can't apprehend a 6th dimensional object fully in this bardo/life. Maybe some freaks can, I can't. :D

    But the real deciding states for Realization/Enlightenment (not just exploring the Multiverse, or Subtle States getting a Neurotransmitter-Update to experience the 6th dimension, only to later forget all of that), are what Ken Wilber calls Causal and Nondual States. About these states (at least how to train them, how to progress towards their realization) can be talked/pointed to, and has been done quite efficiently in the past in certain traditions, see below.

    Causal States are based on the experience of the totally Empty Impersonal Consciousness/Nothingness of ones mindstream, normally without visual field or not including it (Infinite Whiteout, Cessation, or somtimes defined as just fully understanding the totally empty groundlessness/impersonal/Nothingness of the essence of ones mindstream, which also works and to which the Mahamudra-system brings one very efficiently, see "Simultaneous Mind" and "mindfulness without activity and not taking to mind." in Pointing out the Great Way, see post above).

    Nondual States is seeing/realizing that Nothingness as the essence of the infinite nondual boundaryless Opening of Reality (including the visual field). In practice: staying in the "simultaneous mind" and "mindfulness without activity and not taking to mind." as defined in Pointing out the Great Way long enough will turn the visual field nondual with enough practice.

    Examining Reality in these states (and some proficiency in them) is necessary for understanding ones True Identity, the Nature of Reality itself, or Basis Enlightenment/Full Enlightenment. It is the "entry ticket" for starting to get what one really is.

    • Little off-topic comment: Of course, some lucky ones (Ramana, Sri Anandamayi Ma, .... fill in the blanks) get these states and the resulting insights for free. Good Karma, genetic freaks of nature, whatever). But they still had some versions of these states, and their energetic components. And the resulting insights/understandings/realizations.
      • If one gets Enlightenment fast, or easy, just an idea: Maybe one can't tell about the path if one jumped it, took "short-cuts", or took an airplane (causal&nondual states for free because karma/Endohuasca-system delivered the goodies without practice), while your fellow humans neither have an airplane nor can shortcut the path).

    One can very well talk about how to identify these states when they happen, and about the training ladder of the path towards these states. See, for example, the following excerpt:

    "Pointing out the Great Way, Daniel Brown:

    PUTTING MEDITATIVE EXPERIENCE INTO WORDS
    A good deal of Western scholarship on religion assumes that mystical experience is ineffable. Mystical states are said to be so profound that they are indescribable. This view is wrong.

    Rechungpa, a contemporary of the great Tibetan saint Milarepa, wrote an extremely detailed work on all the changes that occur in the body and mind at the moment of enlightenment. The most striking feature of his Clear Wisdom Mandmudra is the extreme technical precision used to describe internal states. As a tradition, Tibetan Buddhism is perhaps unique in the level of technical precision used to describe
    meditation experience    ; there is nothing comparable in Western mystical literature [and in my perspective, nothing quite comparable anywhere else. Zen tended to burn the scriptures anyway, and the Theravada-system don't have quite the level of sophistication/literature/techniques, although they also have a lot going for them and apparently work (Daniel Ingram, Frank Yang, others)]. Western mysticism largely has been restricted to individual practitioners, small groups, or time-limited movements, wherein the mystics either didn't express their spiritual attainments in much detail, or expressed these attainments in idiosyncratic ways according to their unique realizations and cultural context.

    Tibetan Buddhism, in contrast, is a highly organized lineage tradition that has been around since the seventh century, with Indian roots that go back much further. The early oral tradition spawned a loose but extensive network of itinerate practitioners who shared or traded teachings and specific spiritual exercises. The monastic tradition beginning in the eleventh century was characterized by tightly organized, stable communities of large groups of meditators who engaged in continuous dialogues about meditative attainments. They developed an elaborate inner science of spiritual development. During this period the technical language for spiritual development became more consensual, technically sophisticated, and refined as standards for discussing attainments developed. This body of technical knowledge was transmitted from generation to generation until the present day. The central problem then for the Western reader in understanding spiritual development in the Tibetan Buddhist tradition is not its alleged ineffability but the opposite: namely, understanding the vast and sophisticated technical language of internal meditative experience. This book is designed to give the reader a precise map of internal meditative states. "

    Bon voyage!

    Selling Water by the River

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    9 hours ago, Breakingthewall said:

    @Water by the River  

    Interesting dream, after psychedelic maybe?

    No, that dream just happened.

     

    9 hours ago, Breakingthewall said:

    @Water by the River  

    But for me the hard thing is not letting go of this life and die I think, because until it happens, you are here. The difficult is letting go the need of the other people now, when alive. the need for other people is extremely deep. Other people are the illusion. They are in our mind , at least in mine, all time. The others are the big wall, the jail

    I didn't contemplate about that too much. Sure I did contemplate the topic, but I never had real problems with that. A bit yes, but not too much.

    Maybe because

    • when that contemplation of "other" became a real existential topic, I was already practicing (and concentrated on) staying in boundless changeless limitless Awakened Awareness (infinite, nondual, mere appearance).
    • When you are in that state, it doesn't freak you out that "others" don't really exist, but
      • one can directly intuit that the same Impersonal Consciousness that Oneself and Reality really is, is also the substratum/essence (Nothingness/Consciousness) of their mindstream.
      • You can intuit/feel their Illusion-arisings of I-feelings/I-thoughts of being something specific as being exactly(!) the same as the illusion arisings in ones own mindstream. The exact same mechanism how "others" fall for the illusion, as oneself does and did.
      • Once one knows the structure/pattern/gestalt/essence of ones own Illusion separate self arisings, one sees them in "others", or other perspectives of the same consciousness.
      • That doesn't cause shock, but limitless empathy. It is You (not the separate self, but the real you, Impersonal Consciousness, totally empty), litereally You looking through all eyes. That is the core and source of all empathy, but now without any filters and flowing freely, directly intuiting und knowing that it is You looking through all eyes. 
        • Then, where should the shock come from? All beings are children of the Real You, Impersonal Empty Consciousness (not a of separate self blown up to God-like proportions). Including what one formerly thought was "oneself".
        • Only the separate self arisings/gestalt need "others" for love, validation, belongingness, self-esteem, the whole Maslow-Pyramid stage 1-4 up and down is made out of that. Couldn't be different to get a society going & surviving. Impersonal Consciousness and the bliss flowing from it doesn't need it. So it could make sense to transcend all of that already to a large degree before entering the terrain where there is no "other".
      • The gentlemen who wrote "Enlightenment: Behind The Scenes, Leavitt" describes his final Enlightenment experience when he directly realized that he IS his daugther. Literally the same consciousness. Not as metaphor, but literally. Didn't cause a shock, but infinite love.
      • Disclaimer (not written for you Breakingthewall):
        • All of the above is only valid when one speaks from an Identity and mindstream of Impersonal Empty Consciousness, not from the perspective of a psychedelic boosted separate self (or even worse, not even having the psychedelic experience and just playing playing mind-games having watched some videos), blowing itself up to God-like dimensions and playing God.
          • The entrance price for all of that is literally the transcendence/death of large or most parts of the separate self, and the final price is its complete demise/complete transcendence (transcendence of the separate self part, and then include the remaining  functional character. Transcend and integrate, not transcend and disassociate, see Ken Wilber).
            • Death/Transcendence not of the functional character/Ego, but of the separate self arisings.
          • The main indicator for the separate self still being well, alive and active is narcissm, or self-grandiosity and self-importance.
            • Preferably in the form of preaching from upon high.
              • On the other side, that is not even a bad thing, because then every newbie with at least some intuition, common sense, and a not too narcisstic karma can spot that from a mile away.
          • Instead of transcending/slowly annihilating the separate self, one boosts it up to God-like dimensions with doing that. Good luck ever transcending that! Doing something like that can destroy ones life. There have been cases like that, final station mental asylum or next life, or in the "best case" just a miserable unintegrated life full of suffering- end of disclaimer -

     

    I don't know if that view/frame helps. Maybe it is a nice exercise to feel deeply into the essence/consciousness of what you are, and then deeply into the consciousness/sentience of "another"?

    • Its the same Nothingness/Consciousness. One can directly experience that (if oneself is completely empty, just pure impersonal consciousness). It is not philosophy or a nice idea, but a direct experience.
      • But one has to be completely empty. The own lense of perception has to be completely empty of separate self arisings (=high speed cut off of any of these arisings before they grip/hypnotize oneself and elaborate fully, Trekchö-style. Needs familiarity, training and high-speed of attention/spotting, aka the goal of meditation. Please see my last decription-posting of the Pointing out the Great Way Mahamudra system, link below), only then one can intuit that. A colored lense with stains will not let that intuition/understanding pass.
    • As second step, one can feel that essence of every appearance of the visual field as Nothingness, hovering as mere appearance in infinite Nothingness, at a certain point of practice
      • Which is necessary at some point, because as Daniel Brown said: One can not understand the Totality/Wholeness from a partialized stance. Nonduality has to be there before that understanding. One has to literally become all phenomena appearing in the Infinite Boundless Changeless Awakened Awareness field (that is Nonduality), and then see what all of that is and who or what is aware of that.

    Then, at the end of the Road, Infinite Consciousness/Nothingness IS everything: Your Mindstream,  the mindstream of others, the appearance of the world in the visual field, every though/feeling. Infinite, boundless, limitless, nondual all there ever could be. Everything that could ever appear appears in that, made out of that suchness/Nothingness/Consiousness as its essence. Then, one experiences/becomes/is...

    • Home/safe/Indestructable/eternal: And that actually is not shocking. But if feels like one is at home, now and always, wherever you go in relative reality.
    • No Fear: Somewhere in the Upanishads it says "Where there is other there is fear". If there is only oneself, which is indestructable (no moving parts, just Nothingness that can't disappear), there is no fear.
    • Infinite Love: The recognition that there is no other in the whole kosmos, but only the suchness of ones being, bound together in a infinite nondual field of love
    • Infinite Freedom: When the bliss/love of your own indestructable infinite true being flows, what could you ever want that you don't get, or ever be taken away from you? Total freedom.
    • Then we have Eternal/Indestructable, Fearless, Love, and infinite Freedom.
    • But before one gets there, the illusion-mechanism/Maya/Lila had to place some strong "illusion-protection-mechanisms" in front of these properties of the enlightened mindstream, because if it wouldn't scare the separates selves, who in his right mind wouldn't attach his own mindstream to these properties of the enlightened mindstream. And the strongest one is probably the need for "other" or "others", Maslow stage 1-4.

    Somehow I mostly fail to write short posts. Maybe I need to go to a training "Concise writing for Dummies" who went off the deep end of Emptiness...  ;)

    Selling Water by the River

  14. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

    we will see. It is an absolutely blind path, it is immersing yourself in existence without any handles. without any goal except to dissolve into oneself. To let go everything is very difficult and scary. But don't ot let go, is a jail. 

    I think you will be doing fine. There is nothing to loose but an illusion.

    >To let go everything is very difficult and scary. But don't ot let go, is a jail. 

    I understand you very well.

    Several years ago, I had a dream. That was before deeper insights into reality happened. I died multiple times in that dream (literally, by falling, smashing, other funny stuff also), and the visual field went off, only a darkness suffused with light remained. Not the usual blackout (unaware of itself), but an infinite Nothingness suffused with light remained. That was a causal state (using Ken Wilbers terminology), which I later realized. A state quite near to Absolute Reality (meaning easy to intuit the properties of Absolute Reality. Absolute Reality is always here, but sometimes more easy to intuit), but not unaware like Deep Sleep. Nothing there, Infinite, but still somehow aware (suffused with light). 

    That happened multiple times, and during one of the last deaths, I got a bit cocky, saying to myself something like "okaaay, now show me if I can really die. Lets do this again". Dream-Death, and again the same time this causal state of an infinite Nothingness suffused with light appeared. Then, again I died, this Nothingness suffused with light. No objects, no time. A few seconds or a vastly longer time, I couldn't tell. Timeless. It was the same timeless Always Here Mind that I intuited/realized later more clearer. Then I woke up to "real" life, again passing through this Infinite Nothingness suffused with light.

    What somehow went with all of that was somehow the fear of dying all those "Enlightenment" Deaths, of being Nothing at all, Impersonal, an infinite vast reality perceiving itself. When it began happening to become really more and more impersonal, like beyond my comfort zone, I was a bit shocked like "okay, impersonal? really? Not "myself", the character?" But soon I knew again and realized what would always remain, being that which could never not be there. Indestructable, totally empty, like "no-moving-parts". Eternal. But with the potential for sentience, and to become/manifest anything IT wanted.

    Independend if a Dinosaur, another human, an animal, or whatever else would manifest in my mindstream/perspective as subject in another illusion/Lila. I even became grateful when a dream appeared that was not lucid, like the fun/experience of having the chance to believe such an illusion again. That took away the fear of being less than lucid once more.

    So the after-glow of remembering that dream ended a phase pretty fast that could have been prolonged for sure.

    Nowadays, I am very thankful for that dream, although I only recognized its meaning, significance and effects much later, when significant parts of the separate self died, or rather got seen through for the illusions that they were.

    Bon voyage! 

    Water by the River

     

  15. Posted

    7 minutes ago, Ayham said:

    @Water by the River oh thanks, well, when I was 12, I used to watch YouTube a lot, somehow I got lucky, and accidentally got into English YouTube videos, some on gaming, some on random stuff, some on new age spiritual stuff,  i was into it back then, the new agey woo woo spiritual stuff, but i was scared to go deeply into it, because I was brainwashed by Islam, I wasn't certain of it, but I was scared to question it, so I thought I was doing something wrong with consuming spiritual content, so I left them, then after another year, I got deeper with reading Eckhart Tolle's books, I got a glimpse, then got scared and left, then after another year I got deeper again then left, until the year after it, I stumbled upon Leo's old series on enlightenment, which caused me an existential crisis (maybe dark night of the soul?), for 3 months I felt like I did not exist and was scared 24/7 and wanting to cry, which also caused me to stop believing in Islam, and ever since then I have been meditating, reading philosophy and psychology books, eating healthy, keeping commonplace book, sometimes contemplation, etc.

    but that's another topic, concerning English, I just got used to consuming English media 24/7 since I was 12, and also I made lots of online friends on discord who I speak English with.

    very cool! :)

    I am not a native English Speaker, but reading many books in english (and watching movies generally in english) opened up a whole world for me.

    Working in a global business environment, where many international colleagues have a challenging time communicating in english, your english is really excellent. That is an awesome base to start from!

    Concerning Islam: Maybe you would find "Coming Home, Hixon", the chapter about Enlightenment in Islam/Sufi interesting.

    Water by the River

  16. Posted

    1 minute ago, Ayham said:

    @Water by the River
    I actually thought about that, it is always motivating :D

    but my life purpose is less about the process of meditation, and more about delivering understanding and answers that makes people wise and grow, and those will be answers I get from contemplation, the books i am reading, and maybe meditation. 
    The sort of understanding and answers will be on philosophy, practical and existential philosophy

    I am not sure of the medium in which I want to do it, but probably books, maybe courses, maybe seminars, maybe videos.

     

    That is also great, starting on the practical side.

    How did you learn such good english?

  17. Posted

    1 hour ago, josemar said:

    @Water by the River I'm buying what you're selling ?

    Actually, I am in the lucky situation that I never will be needing to charge anything for the stuff I am selling. So technically, its not selling. More like annoying with meditation-propaganda...  :ph34r:9_9.   And no, no rich parents :)

    Selling Water by the River is the title of a book and the statement of a Zen Master, meaning that  when one is talking about meditation/Enlightenment, one is sneakely "selling" the people what they already have/are: "Water by the River".

    I went a bit over the top with the length of a posting I just made:

    In that, concerning the nature of thoughts:

    1 hour ago, Water by the River said:

    Skill of Recognition: (1. Yoga of Mahamudra system)

    • Now it gets interesting. That was the decisivepoint for me once I understood that, and implemented it. Afterwards, it started to get nondual pretty soon...
    • If you look HOW the thoughts emerge,
      • (1) out of what they emerge,
      • (2) what they are,
      • (3) in what they move
      • (4) into what they disappear
        • ALL of that (1)(2)(3)(4) must be present. Thoughts DO appear. From "something". Stay in "something". Consisting of "something"
        • All of that is Emptiness, or Consciousness, or Nothingness. Thoughts are made of "that","move in that", "dissolve into that".
        • and you will never SEE that, or can say what it is. Nothing. But not a blank nothing. An aware Nothing. Actually the essence of all world-appearances, but that comes later, when it gets nondual, at the Yoga of One Taste.
    • What happens if you investigate into emerging thoughts this way, is that they get FASTER. VERY FAST. Like 20-30 emergent thoughts/feeling arisings per second, most of them rudimentary. The mind does this to keep the illusion going. To make it too fast for you. But at some point, you learned to get that fast also...
      • Basically, looking into a thought, one sees its Emptiness/Nothingness (one doesn't find the thought, it evaporates). It is cut off. Dzogchen calls this cutting off "Trekchö".
      • Daniel Brown called this stage a "High Speed Search Task into the unfindability of the nature of thoughts". A High Speed Search task into their emptiness, into their nature as consciousness, as Nothingness.
      • So the emerging gets fast, very fast. Daniel Ingram also mentions that. But at some point, with enough practice and familiarity, YOU get faster. You spot and cut off every very fast, subtle, fragmentary thought arising. None of them "grips" you anymore, since you have seen them all, and their structure. Just thoughts arising very fast.
        • You don't control which thoughts arise. Depended origination, they are just emerging by themselves.
        • You can focus on just their arising (of thoughts), just their staying, just their going away.
        • At some point, they just emerge, looking into their nature is automatic, and they immediately dissolve. No duration. Just emergence, and poof gone. And when you are fast enough, you get a continuance of staying mindful. When that happens its pretty clear what happened. Your attention got so fast that you can stay mindful even through the high-speed thought emergence.
        • At the end, they come very fast, they don't get "elaborated out". Thinking, or elaborating the thoughts out, is slower than their emergence. They emerge already fully complete with their content, and then slowly get "talked/elaborated" in your mind. 
          • Natural reaction: So WHO the f*** am I (pardon my french) when I
            • don't control what thoughts emerge and
            • if they appear fully with their content in a fraction of a second, and get elaborated later in a hypnotic show over several second?
            • good question... to be answered later.
    • Outcome is: 
      • You know the nature of every possible thought (Consciousness-Emptiness-Nothingness), of the whole mental-continuum of thoughts, all that there can be. Their nature.
      • you can cut off or transcend/just watch your normal mindstream in most daily situations without getting caught up/hypnotized by it, which already here leads to a lot of bliss. Not sufficient bliss to get ones separate self completely handled, but already quite wonderful. That is the start of real freedom.
      • You know how your mindstream hypnotizes you, and gets faster when you actually look into each thought arising and its nature.
      • At some point you get fast enough to cut off every arising, or let it elaborate in a controlled aka mindful way

     

    And maybe one more perspective: Thoughts are subtle objects, appearing and "moving" in you. WIth practice, a certain directionality/movement gets intuited, as strange as that sounds.

    Another subtle object is the mathmatical object of the square-root of minus 1, in mathematics called "i".

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imaginary_unit

    You can never see it, but it exists, as mathematical object. If you ever had to do alternating current calculation using complex numbers like i, as yours truly had to do quite some time ago O.o, the usefulness of "i" and other stuff becomes apparent pretty fast.

    So, "i" is real, but you can never see it. A subtle object. Can be understood, experienced, can be calculated with, has useful applications doing so in the "real" world. And you can never talk about i and doing the practical stuff with others who had the experience of understanding what i is.

    And sorry in advance, but I can't avoid doing that :D ;) : For the all-is-imaginary-fanclub: Here you have "real" ;) imagined numbers ("i"). Here it is completely technically correct to talk about "it is all imaginary". Because who in his right mind would be strange enough to define the imaginary number i, the impossible square root of minus 1. The only thing I am waiting for is for one of the "all-is-imaginary-fanclub" to actually start doing calculations in the imaginary unit and complex number plane, and then "correctly" saying: It is all imaginary.

    Sorry for the little disgression.

    So what is "i"? A subtle object, floating in you like a thought. "i" is an object, some thoughts of you are already an object you can work with. Some are not, you look through them like a lense, a subjective arising. Meditation is making all (I-)thoughts and I-feelings also to objects you see moving within yourself. They move in you, but you are (not only) them....

    If you know the nature of thoughts fully (their essence is Nothingness, or Infinite Empty Impersonal Consciousness), you would be enlightened and know and understand the true Nature both of yourself and Reality. The essence or nature of any appearance in the visual field can also be directly apprehended as the same Nothingness, the same Suchness of Reality. So it is well worth it... 

    Selling Water by the River

  18. Posted · Edited by Water by the River

    29 minutes ago, Ayham said:

    @Breakingthewall I am still 16 and I am living in hell (aka iraq), not easy or safe to get stuff here, plus i am aware of the damages they can do to me at my age.
     

    In that case, please allow me a little motivational speech: You could be one of the heros that actually starts bringing efficient transcendence/meditation-techniques/systems into Iraq and its culture. It is more difficult doing it there than in first world countries.

    Be

    • smart (if you are in Iraq and are asking in english about meditation with age 16 that is already quite well covered) in approaching it,
    • build a stable life on the relative level, as integral as possible, not neglecting any major area/Maslow stage of life if possible.
    • don't overload yourself,
    • allow the world and its politics and developmental paths to play the games it has to play (aka be integral) 
    • never underestimate what you can build in the longterm if you are strategic and have a vision and faith, and the internal compass that enables that. Not much in day, much more than you think that is possible in 5 years.
    • if you do what you do out of compassion for the whole, Reality will open the flood-gates of your intution and intelligence. Since anyway from Reality itself (Infinitely Intelligent) your level of intelligence and intuition (and any emerging thought in your mindstream) is sourced anyway.  
    • have trust, hope, and if possible also humor and fun!

    Bon voyage!  :)

    Water by the River

    PS: By the way, the picture you have chosen, "Der Wanderer über dem Nebelmeer", is inspired by an area in Germany "Sächsische Schweiz", that we visisted last year. If you can intuit the awe the painter Caspar David Friedrich felt, and which he depicted in the person on the picture, while marveling at the beauty and wonder of this reality, you are doing good....

  20. Posted · Edited by Water by the River

    2 hours ago, Ayham said:

    Meditation, this thing has caused me lots of trouble, you people are absolutely clueless in how much my meditation sucks!

    Hi Ayham, I remember that very well. Facing everything the separate-self can throw at you head on.... And it can throw a lot... Maya is not letting one off the hook easily...

    The Game-Changer for me was the book "Pointing Out the Great Way, Daniel Brown". At least for me personally, 95% of the meditation system out there would have never worked for me.

    • They would have been too unpleasant, or needing more much willpower.
    • Or I would have get stuck in the several traps there are, where ones practice can "bottom out", and lead nowhere....

    So I can not highly enough express my gratitude for the heroic pioneering effort of Daniel Brown translating all these books, and getting the (in my opinion) most sophisticated meditation system of the planet to the West. It has been practiced and refined for hundreds of years, developed further, elaborated in hundreds of Tibetan Books, producing a steady stream if deeply enlightened beings. 

    It achieves a precision of technical vocabulary in the stage decriptions of evolving meditation, meditation experiences, resulting understandings and insights about ones mindstream and Reality emerging at different stages like nothing I have ever seen, and I studied more or less all major meditation systems, reading a few hundreds of books.

    The book is several hundreds of pages. It lead to me awe and deep respect of the Mahamudra-System when realizing at certain stages that I just had experienced the exact same flow of meditation experiences and understandings/insights than Tibetan meditators hundreds of years ago.

    Of course I can't summarize a few hundred pages of the book with the musings below. But I try to give a first taste of the system, with some personal experiences with it, and how it all developed for me, just to show off how great and oh so wonderful I am   :ph34r:  :D. No, just kidding... Because I would have loved to have had something like a"user experience" with certain meditation systems like that 15 years ago, to get a feeling for a certain path, and the experiences others are having with it.

    Concentrative Meditation:

    • I would recommend starting with concentrative meditation, the Elephant Path (all Tibetan schools use it). There are several stages of concentrative meditation that must be mastered, and tools learned doing it. They are very well described in Pointing out the Great Way, and "The Elephant Path: Attention Development and Training in Children and Adolescents", in the chapter of Daniel Brown. Here is explicitely stated what one learnes while learning concentrative meditation. By the way, that system is in my humble oinion more sophisticated than Zen or Vipassana, because it includes techniques like easing up and intensifying. That is essential for making it efficient, and these techniques are just not there in Vipassana and Zen. These aspects (easing up and intensifying) one learns there by conincidence, or not at all. 
    • In the beginning, you don't stay long on the meditation object (breath, stone, candle, not so important), but just catch yourself when you have wandered off, your monkey mind taking you on a ride and elaborating something else. Now: Don't put negative reaction/feedback on that, but move attention/focus back. You can only control focus/attention, you can't force what thoughts emerge.
    • So meditation is always moving attention back from wandering off, and the more you do that, the more pliant the mind becomes: Less wandering off, and if wandered off much faster to move it back.
    • And when that goes quite well with a little bit less wandering off or loosing attention. Then, when its more automatic, you "ease up", which means you use less energy and focus, and see if you can stay on the object. If yes, good: Ease Up. Easing Up brings more clarity to what else goes on in the mindstream. Which lets you notice more of the subtler arisings of the mindstream emerging. When you drift off more than, then intensify: Inhale strongly, increase focus, energize. And see then if you stay more on the object. If you do, ease up. Find the optimum energy balance you need to stay on the object. One balances easing up and intensifying then....
    • Then your clarity will increase, your energy will become nice, joy can start to arise. 
    • And then you do that for a few months, a year....
    • Meditation Experiences of Clarity, Lucidity, Bliss and Non-conceptuality (silent mind) can occur, but also go again. They are just experiences passing in you.
    • This way, you train your focus and make your mind pliant.
    • When you can stay on the objects for a few minutes without totally getting lost in elaborated thoughts, and keep some focus on the object while wandering off in thought a bit, you have partial staying.... at some point you have pretty good staying on the object for a few minutes.

    Meditation without an object:

    • Then comes a big change, that you can start doing then: Change to the Mindstream of thoughts itself as meditation object. And try to stay mindful of the mind watching that mindstream. 
    • If you can keep doing that (which takes a long time), you can start taking the meditation into daily life.

    Investigating the Nature of thoughts:

    • See Pointing Out the Great Way for that.
    • Thoughts are no different than consciousness, which is empty/nothing, yet has clarity/awareness, so its not a nothing at all.
    • If you look into a thought, you don't find it, it disappears. Is cut off. One can never see or find a thought. Looking into a thought, an experience of un-findability arises. Empty, nothing specific. But with clear alert awareness of consciousness. Empty and aware. Nothingness, yet something that is not nothing. Nothingness. Emptiness. Consciousness. And more important: When really looking into the nature of a thought, it evaporates. Is cut off. Disappears. Reveals its nature of emptiness.
      • With exactly that phenomenon is worked in the "Skill of Recognition", see below. Doesn't that effect appear as very useful to get thoughts and the mindstream under control? Of course! That effect of the thought evaporating, revealing its nature as Nothingness/Consciousness when looking into it, and generalizing that oberservation and understanding on the whole mindstream and all events it contains and can contain. That is understanding the continuum of the mindstream. The nature of thoughts.
    • You don't control the thoughts which arise, that is why you/the person is also empty, a concept. Because what are you, if you don't even control your thoughts, and what thoughts arise?

    After having mastered Concentrative meditation, and having understood (contemplation) the nature of thoughts as consciousness/awareness/emptiness/suchness/Nothingness, you can put that into practice:

    Skill of Recognition: (1. Yoga of Mahamudra system)

    • Now it gets interesting. That was the decisivepoint for me once I understood that, and implemented it. Afterwards, it started to get nondual pretty soon...
    • If you look HOW the thoughts emerge,
      • (1) out of what they emerge,
      • (2) what they are,
      • (3) in what they move
      • (4) into what they disappear
        • ALL of that (1)(2)(3)(4) must be present. Thoughts DO appear. From "something". Stay in "something". Consisting of "something"
        • All of that is Emptiness, or Consciousness, or Nothingness. Thoughts are made of "that","move in that", "dissolve into that".
        • and you will never SEE that, or can say what it is. Nothing. But not a blank nothing. An aware Nothing. Actually the essence of all world-appearances, but that comes later, when it gets nondual, at the Yoga of One Taste.
    • What happens if you investigate into emerging thoughts this way, is that they get FASTER. VERY FAST. Like 20-30 emergent thoughts/feeling arisings per second, most of them rudimentary. The mind does this to keep the illusion going. To make it too fast for you. But at some point, you learned to get that fast also...
      • Basically, looking into a thought, one sees its Emptiness/Nothingness (one doesn't find the thought, it evaporates). It is cut off. Dzogchen calls this cutting off "Trekchö".
      • Daniel Brown called this stage a "High Speed Search Task into the unfindability of the nature of thoughts". A High Speed Search task into their emptiness, into their nature as consciousness, as Nothingness.
      • So the emerging gets fast, very fast. Daniel Ingram also mentions that. But at some point, with enough practice and familiarity, YOU get faster. You spot and cut off every very fast, subtle, fragmentary thought arising. None of them "grips" you anymore, since you have seen them all, and their structure. Just thoughts arising very fast.
        • You don't control which thoughts arise. Depended origination, they are just emerging by themselves.
        • You can focus on just their arising (of thoughts), just their staying, just their going away.
        • At some point, they just emerge, looking into their nature is automatic, and they immediately dissolve. No duration. Just emergence, and poof gone. And when you are fast enough, you get a continuance of staying mindful. When that happens its pretty clear what happened. Your attention got so fast that you can stay mindful even through the high-speed thought emergence.
        • At the end, they come very fast, they don't get "elaborated out". Thinking, or elaborating the thoughts out, is slower than their emergence. They emerge already fully complete with their content, and then slowly get "talked/elaborated" in your mind. 
          • Natural reaction: So WHO the f*** am I (pardon my french) when I
            • don't control what thoughts emerge and
            • if they appear fully with their content in a fraction of a second, and get elaborated later in a hypnotic show over several second?
            • good question... to be answered later.
    • Outcome is: 
      • You know the nature of every possible thought (Consciousness-Emptiness-Nothingness), of the whole mental-continuum of thoughts, all that there can be. Their nature.
      • you can cut off or transcend/just watch your normal mindstream in most daily situations without getting caught up/hypnotized by it, which already here leads to a lot of bliss. Not sufficient bliss to get ones separate self completely handled, but already quite wonderful. That is the start of real freedom.
      • You know how your mindstream hypnotizes you, and gets faster when you actually look into each thought arising and its nature.
      • At some point you get fast enough to cut off every arising, or let it elaborate in a controlled aka mindful way.

    Yoga of Unelaboration (2. Yoga of Mahamudra-System)

    • Here, you finish off with time. You open up the eternal always here mind. Past and future become deeply understood as imagined/manifested right here and now, not really existing. Only the eternal now exists. Not as idea, as concept, as understanding, but as felt and lived reality. Deeply realized. Always Here. Eternal. How ones True Being can be immortal/eternal/always here becomes a very real possibility here. Later on, the emerging possibility "of how that could work" become validated beyond any possible doubt.
    • Pointing Out the Great Way:
      • "From where does the first mind-moment [the thought-arising] arise? Then, where does it stay? Finally, where does it go when it stops?
        • The "mind" in which all this is happening is Always Here. Always Here Mind.
        • Time is not "out there", self-existing. You only notice time because of change, of emerging thoughts and appearances.
        • time is a mere construct/concept. No change of appearances/thoughts, no time.
      • "One" doesn't control the content of the emergent thoughts
        • "Through dependent origination certain propensities [thought capsules with their full content already "inside" emerge] at the very subtle level ripen into subtle movements within the temporal mental continuum, which in turn become constructed into and elaborated as coarse-level thoughts [get elaborated into long thoughts that get told in awareness over several seconds] and appearances"
          • dependend origination: "one" doesn't control which thoughts emerge.
            • "The skilled meditator can view events transforming from very subtle propensities to specific subtle mind-moments and constructed coarse thoughts and appearances seeming to arise and pass in the temporal mental continuum through a process of dependent origination"
        • Seeing and understanding the emergence of the thoughts (fully formed out with all their content, but not yet elaborated in the mindstream, emerging in the Always Here Mind), and seeing this in real-time because ones attention got fast enough, is a game-changer.
    • That stage is very hard to fully understand in Pointing Out the Great Way. At least for me, it took me a long time. :D. I would have been faster with coaching....

    Yoga of One Taste (3. Yoga of Mahamudra System)

    • So here it gets nondual and mere appearance, floating in Nothingness. No more a solid and external/duality reality "out there" anymore. But an infinite limitless field of Infinite Consciousness, manifesting an appearing world of mere appearances arising in it. A loving blissful boundless timeless field of  bright lucid Awakened Awareness. This is where probably (my pet-theory) the Endohuasca-System starts working. https://dmtquest.org/endohuasca-magic/
    • The practice is basically taking the insights of stage 2 and putting them into practice, specifically also in daily everyday life.
      • With that, one gets enough time and momentum in meditation to really make the difference, to get it nondual. To make all that with sitting meditation on the pillow, at least for me it would have been a full-time job. And I did a demanding career and some other stuff in the meantime also...
    • The view taken
      • all thoughts/mental events emerge in the Always Here Mind, or Simultaneous Mind (which means nondual). 
      • same with all world appearances.
      • The essence of all thoughts is emptiness/consciousness, and the essence of all visual field appearances is also emptiness/appearance/consciousness. That is called the "One Taste" of every arising (thought or world-appearance). Nondual in other words.
    • and being aware of the emerging high-speed stream of thoughts emerging already with full content, but getting elaborated in the seconds following, and
      • cutting off most of the emergent thoughts by looking into their nature, which has been automized by this point
    • enough clarity and mindfulness is generated that at some point
      • The Visual Field/"world": Becomes mere appearance and infinite/limitless
        • becomes mere appearance appearances
          • 1) the world no longer feels "out-there". Everything arising just arises in oneself.
          • 2) appearances loose their solidity. One can not tell if they are solid "objects" out there, or just appearances happening in the timeless Always-Here-Mind
          • 3) At some point later, with a lot of meditation-mindfulness-momentum, the "inside" feeling as pure empty awareness, a very transparent witness, but not even that because the awareness is no longer separate: the visual field becomes really mere appearance.
            • One looks at something, and its just appearance hovering in Nothingness.
            • You feel into it, and its essence is the same as the indescripbable Nothingness behind ones head.
            • luminous mere appearances, very similiar to trip-descriptions.
        • the limit of the visual field, and the wondering of "what is behind it", become limitless or infinite
          • there is "nothing" behind it. One just imagines a border/boundary of the visual field
          • one imagines that something must be behind it (like 3D-Space continues".
            • No, 3D-space is imagined in dimensionless Nothingness/Infinite Consciousness.
            • 3D-Space is not self-existing, dangling out there. That was a biggie for me, took a long time to get, and could have been much faster with coaching. Guess I am quite a visual person
        •  Time is gone. Timeless
          • Everything can only happen here, and now
          • Past is imagined here and now , future also here and now
      •  the "subject"/"me", the separate self Gestalt/arisings, feeling and being separate from the whole Reality,
        • slowly gets transcended and dissolves, more and more aspects of the person/separate self are seen as arisings moving within oneself.
        • finally, after a long path of transcending every identity/I-thought/I-feeling of the Ego/Body-Mind/character, it becomes a transparent witness, nothing but still something witnessing the visual field.
        • At some point, One can't tell AT ALL what one is, nothing positive is left. I am not the body/person, anything. Only aware Emptiness. But somehow some murky Witness or something like that still there. One literally doesn't know what one is, besides the nondual field...
        • One becomes the visual field of mere appearance, one is that in a nondual way.
        • any sense of location or center slowly dissolves. One becomes the whole boundless timeless field of mere empty, groundless appearance. Sometimes lucid and shimmering, like mere appearance.
        • Some traditions call that already Enlightenment, or Kensho/Satori/Awakening. And it is in some way. But Nonduality is not already Full or Great Enlightenment, where there is absolutely no doubt about ones nature, and the nature of reality. That can become clear like ice-cold water thrown in ones face. 
        • Nonduality can be very well experienced by a separate self, just try some psychedelics.... To reach Nonduality sobre without psychdelics, one already has to be quite empty or transcended the separate self, but not necessarily (and normally) fully.
          • With psychedelics, you don't need to empty (or have transcended the separate self) at all. 5 MeO will do that for, even if you don't want. Not fully empty, not the last step (no traces of  Individuality/transparent witness left, see above), but very very much.
        • that brings us to the last stage, Stage 4 of the Mahamudra System, the Yoga of Nonmeditation. And here is where meditation, and the long time it enables in these very empty states of dissolving every last speck of individuality/last very subtle separate self arisings/last very subtle illusions, becomes paramount.  Only this 4. stage enables the final crossing over to fully, without a doubt, knowing what Ones True Self, and Reality, really is. Without that, suffering, grasping for ever more Awakenings, and still being a bit "gaslighting-ability" of the finality of ones realization/awakening, continues.

    Yoga of Nonmeditation (4. Yoga of Mahamudra System)

    • What is already the case, from stage 3 Yoga of One Taste:
      • The visual field/world already arises in the Always Here Mind
        • as mere groundless luminous appearance, with Nothingness as its essence
        • in an infinite limitless field of Awareness Space
        • in the timeless Always Here Mind
      • so many ingredients of the True State of Things, ones True Identity as Boundless Changeless Timeless Reality are already in place.
      • That is already very lovely, filled mostly with bliss. Like really really nice. But not fully the Unshakeable Unchanging Reality that one intuits to really be, with its Infinite Love, Peace and Bliss.
    • Only one thing is still missing for conforming fully to the enlightened mindstream, and fully crossing over to it with the sudden recognition of ones True Identity, Reality itself, Absolute Impersonal Infinite Consciousness, Nothingness.
      • and that is the last remants of the Empty/Transparent Witness, or what Brown calls artifical activity. The last remnants of individuality, of I-feeling, I-thoughts arising in oneself. The last aspects of being a bit separate from Reality itself, from being not fully empty/transcended. A very subtle transparent witness, already being nondual, identifying with an infinite nondual field.
        • Bassui (Zen, in Three Pillars of Zen) calls this Awareness of Emptiness, or Awareness of Beingness. A very subtle feeling of still  being aware of SOMETHING, even if that is infinite Nonduality. Not full and complete nonduality and oneness. Still a subtle (very subtle) separate self aware of the Totality. Not the Totality being fully aware of itself, like in perceptions perceiving themselves.
      • One can do NOTHING here to cross over to Full Enlightenment/Basis Enlightenment. Because that would be an act of a separate self. An effort. A movement of a separate self WANTING something, manipulating the mindstream, grasping for the understanding, doing something....
        • One can only automize the meditation/mindfullness, staying fully present, letting the Awakened Impersonal Awareness flow by itself, let IT do the meditation itself, get out of the way...
        • Bringing out the full force of this Utterly Impersonal Awakened Awareness. Ones True Identity.
    • And that is the last contra-intuitive trap: ONE CAN'T FORCE IT ("artifical activity"). Because forcing it would be a separate self arising doing it. One can try to force it (for example Koan-style), but then the Crossing Over normally happens in a moment of grace, of relaxation, when artificial activity is not present.
    • And once the last very subtle remnants of the separate self are seen as moving within oneself, just changing and temporary arisings/movements consisting of I-thoughts and I-feelings, the last subtle lenses ("Individuality,separateness") are recognized and dropped/transcended/no longer believed and just cut off/let go/Trekchö-style.
      • All and any center gone, no separate anything remaining anywhere, forcing its claws of suffering into the natural bliss of Enlightened Infinite Nondual Empty Reality itself, perceptions perceiving themselves, shimmering in Infinite Always here Nothingness, in Infinite Nondual Consciousness. The Universal Mind, Nothingness.
      • Realizing that nothing is lost if the separate self illusion is realized and seen as that what it really is, and always was: Just appearances happening and moving within the Always Here True Self/Reality. All that is lost is an illusion, what is gained is Reality itself and its inherent bliss. 

    And indeed welcome home, to a home you never left, on a journey that never really happened....

    Bon Voyage! :)

    Selling Water by the River

    PS: By the way, that is not a nice theory and beautiful claims, but a path actually walked over many years (although because of lacking coaching and not being too smart sometimes from my side making it take longer than actually needed).

    But I am still very very thankful that I picked that path, and not 10-15 years face against the wall Zen-monastery Koan-style. That would have also maybe worked (but I don't know, that system has many pitfalls the Tibetans have identified and made maps for to avoid these), but would have been much less pleasant, at least for me. Would have felt like digging a hole with a shovel instead with a climatized excavator, doing most of the meditation in daily life instead of some hardcore-monastery-fulltime-environment.

    So I can understand all those that don't like meditation, because it is maybe the hardest thing one can actually do, depending on the system. Give this system a try!

    PSPS: Before one maybe starts thinking that nothing matters, and Karma is just an Illusion, since Individuality and everything else is an illusion anyways, and nothing matters, like ethics, common sense, Karma, compassion and so on:

    • Be sure that reality will give you a crosscheck if that is really the case, or just a funny idea/concept.
    • And then let's see if suffering hurts and grips, or is still just considered an Illusion.
    • Compassion and Boddhichitta for all beings (which are nothing but the same One Reality without a second) actually is a pretty hard entrance criteria to any of these states decribed above. With honest and practiced compassion/ethics/Boddhichitta, one has the support from all of Infinite Reality on ones path. And how much intuition and intelligence emerges in ones mindstream is guided only by this One Infinitely Intelligent Reality without a second.

     

  21. Posted

    16 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

    Gamma frequencies are imaginary! No hehe I'm jocking .  

    I already thought for a fraction of a second while reading this that you have gone of the deep end and converted to the fraction that fell in love with their own reflected image in certain ponds... O.o:D . Imaginary Pond and reflection of course.

    18 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

    It is interesting to go deeper and know all this. An example, I just drove 5 hours to face a business mess and 80% of the way has been joy and openness. This 1 year ago would have been rumination and stress. It is not meditation that has led me to this but observation and deconstruction and psychedelics, which have made it possible to break the wall/shield of the mental stream and open myself to myself. I have meditated hours a day for the last two years, but this has only been preparation. btw, 2 days ago I knew a guy who lives 5 minutes from my house who makes a changa transparent like crystal, I never tried changa. this, added to the information you have shared about dmt, opens up a new path of experimentation for me. Let's see where it leads

    Really happy to hear.

    >It is not meditation that has led me to this but observation and deconstruction and psychedelics, which have made it possible to break the wall/shield of the mental stream and open myself to myself.

    I am really interested how that continues. Psychedelics, meditation, and intelligent deconstruction/contemplation of the separate self arisings/Gestalt (while not going falling for the trap  of the "I am God" Narcissm-Show of the separate-self declaring everything is just imagined), aiming for a Deep Identity Level Shift towards Truth, must be a powerful path.

    While that path is probably not as hilarious for the readers as the Narcissm-show of the "its-all-imagined-anyway" club, it is a path with a heart. A path that actually leads somewhere very beautiful, that can bring freedom from the claws of the self-contraction of the separate self, instead of hugging these claws and declaring them "imagined". And hoping that the pain and suffering which are the nature of these claws magically disappears.

    Bon voyage!

    Water by the River :)

  22. Posted

    6 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

    Very interesting. I have to investigate this thoroughly

    DMT Quest has made two books and several fascinating videos.

    https://dmtquest.org/questions-for-the-lion-tamer-1/

    and

    It is really fascinating stuff, that can explain a lot of other phenomena in an integral way.

    Among other things, they postulate that the Endohuasca-system is triggered by

    a) Meditation

    https://dmtquest.org/meditation-hypnosis/

    Get Gamma-frequency of the brain up, and the endohuasca-system probably starts flowing....

    In Ken Wilbers system, subjective states (Upper Left Quadrant) have correlates in the body (Upper Right Quadrant), and vice-versa. Causing positive feedback-loops, increasing lucidity and nonduality, bliss and so on. The transformation of the whole self/identity, in stages, making states permanent.... Principle: States are free, stages are earned. When the mindstream conforms to the requirements of these systems, stabilizing and enlightened mind-stream.

    Daniel Brown did a study with his "Pointing out the Great Way" students and a advanced Brainscanner. Result: Gamma-waves boosted to the max....

    Maybe helps to take transforming the baseline state via meditation to "trippy"-levels more serious... :)

    b) Dark Retreat (The Tibetans do it for 100s of years, several other tribes do it, tends to induce visions. Some kind melatonin-pineal-gland.connection).

    c) Special Breathing (Wim Hoefer, Holotropic Breathing, Tummo, ...)

    d) Other stuff (Near Death experiences, cancer in certain areas of the brain (pineal gland), Kundalini, ...).

    trigger the body-endohuasca-system.

     

    Some meditation-states, especially advanced ones once stabilized in daily life (post-samadhi), or hardcore pillow-meditation-states, are quite "trippy" and

    • (1) change the visual field towards "not external/nondual", "lucid,vivid,bright, groundless mere appearance, Nothingness as its essence, "hovering" in Infinite Nothingness".
    • (2) kill the localization sensation of being in the body, making one no longer localized in the infinite field, but being the unbounded wholeness of Reality.
    • (3) And bliss. Ken Wilbers once linked that drug addicts of Heroin get previews to the bliss of certain meditative states, and of course get addicted to that.
    • Although I have never tried Heroin :ph34r: ;)and am not so stupid to try, in my experience I can confirm (1) (2) and (3). And having these states in place, it becomes possible to intuit and realize what is aware of the whole Enchilada, being also its essence: Nothingness. Perceptions perceiving themselves. Ones True Identity.

    There are definitely bodily/energetic/chemical changes going on in these transformations or stabilizing these states as stages. 

    The two books are actually a good reading for everyone belittling meditation and the permanent and deep transformations possible (@Breakingthewall, I know you don't and are open. I just write in general, as always).

    The states induced by psychedelics that are ripping ones heart open to Infinite Love, bathing ones sould and being in heavenly bliss, and opening the separate self contraction to the Infinite, are also available to the body by endogenous means. Or else, how would the stereotypical enlightened one with a halo depicted around the head "oozing" bliss "work"? Auto-Suggestion? :D

    • The receptors in the body are there anyway, else psychedelics wouldn't work.
    • Just add a system where an enlightened mindstream (empty, fast enough to spot separate-self-arisings, very high Gamma/Delta-waves/meditation states) triggers the body-Endohuasca-system, and one has hypothesized a possible mechanism growing and transforming baseline-consciousness to the Infinite.
      • A system that could explain the manifestation of the potential of the human being, ranging from atom-molecule-animal-primate-human to Infinite Being/True Identity, ACTUALIZED on a permanent and stable basis.
        • Certainly not boosting trippy states to the " stratosphere" where one can no longer "walk straight", but a lovely way to life ones life...
      • ACTUALIZED sounds (at least to me) more like: Realized ones potential, like in "permanently". Not only for the trip, and then again with the next trip... That would be "actualized temporarily...." 

    And of course  "Exo"-Huasca of course also works....  :)

    Selling Water by the River

  23. Posted

    1 hour ago, Razard86 said:

    Also as I am sure you realized, true spirituality is love for everything. Demonizing the ego...as a result is foolishness. God, what you are... LOVES THE EGO!!! Why? Because God created it!!! Is the ego an illusion? Yes!!! But the entire dream is too!!!! This is why this seperate self nonsense tricks people!! They spend like 10-20 years trying to run from their ego....do you know how stupid that is? But it's not their fault!!! It's the fault of traditional Spirituality.

    Traditional Spirituality is UTTER BULLSHIT!!! It is corrupted by the human perspective.

     

    800px-Michelangelo_Caravaggio_065.jpg

    Having fallen totally in love with the mirage image of the separate self in the pond. The Greeks really had some mythology, like Narcissus...

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissus_(mythology)

     

    1 hour ago, Razard86 said:

    Traditional Spirituality is UTTER BULLSHIT!!! It is corrupted by the human perspective.

    And all other ones who came before are complete idiots. I mean, Ken Wilber said "nobody is smart enough to be wrong all the time". And since all traditional spirituality is "UTTER BULLSHIT", these guys must "have made it" to be smart enough to be wrong all the time. ;)

    Bon voyage

    Water by the River

  24. Posted · Edited by Water by the River

    On 12.5.2023 at 1:15 PM, OBEler said:

    @Razard86 I completely understand what you say. Just one issue: i get that I only see an appearece of Individuals made of my consciousness and if I dont perceive them they chease to exist from MY Reality. But that's only my reality.what about other realities? Do they really chease to exist from a meta perspective?

    In other words: YOUR reality continues for YOU if I dont perceive you. So Your reality doesnt chease out of existence for you, if I dont perceive you. Do you agree? 

     

    4 hours ago, OBEler said:

    @Razard86 can you try to answer my question? This is really puzzling me. I know I never can know if someone has an experience outside of my human ego but that doesnt lead to the conclusion that the experience outside of human ego never happens. 

    Everything ultimately happens within the greater mind/God, so why aren't multiple experiences occurring within God?

     

    1 hour ago, Razard86 said:

    But guess what? God is ONE!! So those copies WILL COLLAPSE when your human dream ends. 

    Razard86, in my humble opinion, you didn't answer the question of OBEler. But maybe OBEler got it, and I didn't. :D

    The other beings/perspectives don't collapse or end when you or OBEler (or I) die/end.

    • Indras Net and Impersonal Consciousness/Nothingness (which we really are, already now, we just "forget" all other perspectives/beings) will continue fine without all of "us".
    • To think it all ends if a certain perspective is switched off is solipsistic madness. Thinking the Totality stops when one separate perspective is shut off...
    • Its like looking a bit too deep into the pond like Narcissus did, and boosting it with the power of an Infinity of Gods.

    Don't you intuit that the exactly same consciousness/Nothingness that you are is every other being? When I look at other beings, I intuit the same consciousness that I really am (and every being is). Their mindstream arisings arise in that Nothingness/Consciousness exactly as in mine. There is no difference. That Nothingness is the essence of everything, all perspectives, every appearance in Reality. Nondual, infinite Nothingness, Reality itself.

    The same Nothingness/Consciousness that we all are can continue very well without you and me, and anybody else. It can't go anywhere. "It" is already everyhting, everyone, infinite and total.

    You only get problems with answering these questions if you confuse Totally Empty Consciousness/Nothingness with something not so empty. Like a totally empty separate self/witness, with some individuality still left, hovering in a nondual field. Especially easy to get there with psychedelics. Or even worse: "Thinking" ones way there, watching one Youtube-video or two too many...

     Going down that road, one has to use construct funny concepts like Infinity of Gods (very nondual indeed), and other Solipsistic funny stuff, making space for a separate self blown up to God-like proportions.

    The funny thing with Solipsism is: If you proclaim you are the only one having a sentient perspective, every one else having also sentience and consciousness knows that you are, well, a bit nuts... :)

    Probably this here is peak solipsistic/Infinity-of-Gods madness. The top level to where you can drive a still separate self Gestalt, proclaiming it is God and that there are an Infinity of other Gods. But hey, what do I know....

    And now please throw some arguments from the Absolute Side of the Street at me ;)

    Bon Voyage

    Water by the River

     

  25. Posted

    @Razard86

    You won: The prize for the most exclamation marks definitely goes to you.

    The separate self arisings arise in the mindstream of most sentient beings, like any other arising.  I never said the separate self is a thing. I wrote Gestalt and structure. A process, an arising, flowing in Reality. It is not a thing, but a Gestalt, like everything else. There are no "things" in the whole of Reality, only appearing patterns, with more or less continuity/structure.

    https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/gestalt

    "A collection of physical, biological, psychological or symbolic elements that creates a whole, unified concept or pattern which is other than the sum of its parts, due to the relationships between the parts (of a character, personality, entity, or being)"

    And by the way, you can't point to an Imaginary number, like for example i2 = −1 . Yet, without these concepts and tools (of course also all arisings/Gestalts so to say) pointing to these mathematical objects (that are not material, yet very well have a reality to them), nothing of our modern world in engineering and mathematics could have been created.

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imaginary_number

     

    10 minutes ago, Razard86 said:

    A word is a symbol!!! You are a symbol!!! All appearances are symbols!! They have no meaning outside of what you CONSTRUCT OR CREATE!!! To create something is TRICKERY, it is DELUSION!!!

    You don't even need to write something like that, that is a performative contradiction. 

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Performative_contradiction

    Because the statement itself (words/symbols) claims validity (else you would not write it), while saying every word is a symbol, have no meaning, trickery, "it is delusion".  But doing it using words/symbols, which you claim are delusions anyway. Using that logic, you can justify everything. And the kind of stuff justified by this logic is normally mainly:

    800px-Michelangelo_Caravaggio_065.jpg

    But I already know that this won't stop the usage of this kind of flawed logic, but at least the reader can make his own picture about the things explained and justified by this kind of performative contradiction (probably resulting in something of the picture above).

    You can read that up for example at Wilber, and many other philosophers, for example Habermas, or Wikipedia:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Performative_contradiction

    You are confusing

    • relative truth (which can be very useful on a relative level, for example a diamond cuts glass, but not the other way round, true on a relative level. Or the concept of the Gestalt of a separate self)
    • and absolute truth (everything is an illusion, and all words/pointers occur in Absolute Reality/Totality).

    Anticipating an answer with as many exclamation marks, capital letters and HAHAHHAHHAH as possible ;)

    Yours truly & Bon voyage

    Water by the River