Nemra

Well, it was a strategic move, and also I was really tired of not sharing what I found wonderful with my sister after a long time. One of my plans was to travel with her to go to an ayahuasca ceremony as a gift. 😁 Kinda. I live with my sister for now, but we don't interfere in each other's lives. Well, you have to create a bank account to be able to get a credit card. But I don't understand how she would be able to track your transactions if she is unaware of your new bank account.

No one knows why I really traveled. I only told my sister recently, and she was in shock for a while. I have been thinking over this for about 5 years. It has been traumatizing for me to even entertain those kinds of ideas because of how taboo it is. It's literally unheard of. Also, my parents and relatives don't know what I really think. Although, I'm showing and telling them bit by bit if they test me. These things need to be a secret until you feel independent from your parents. Luckily, I have been living without my parents total supervision, and I'm also a quiet person; otherwise, I would have a difficult time being able to think for myself. Can't you get a credit card and not tell anyone?

Sometimes I think I might be living in NK. 😂 Dude, I've been pulling my hair out since I learned about psychedelics. They have banned every one of them that they are aware of. Even if one of them isn't banned yet, they would suspect that you could be taking a psychoactive drug, and then they would try to find out and ban it. I could get in serious trouble if I get caught. I have to be very creative. For now the safest options I have are to extract DMT and grow mushrooms, although the ingredients could also be problematic to import. Luckily, I got my MHRB a few days ago. 😏

@Sugarcoat, book an affordable hotel room and do it. I flew over 6,000 kilometers just to do it, even though I knew things could have gone so badly. Although some things didn't go the way I thought they would.

The more advanced technology is, the more advanced its deception might be.

😂😂😂

@Sugarcoat, why do you think that it's science's job to provide answers to those types of questions? You think things might be, seem to be, etc., and yet you believe in things that sound true to you. I'm saying that ... it is ... because you "see" the obviousness of it when you contemplate your experience.

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💯 I would even say delete and turn off your google activity.

@OBEler, Disney cares about the amount of money it would make from a movie without improving it. Big companies like Disney have never actually been woke, let alone progressive. They might have made movies that have had a progressive undertone.

@Sugarcoat, my world flipped outside in when I realized that experience doesn't exist in specific parts of my body, and my body, especially my sense organs, doesn't somehow exist outside of my experience when I started contemplating how I'm actually experiencing reality. That was such a gratifying realization for me at that time. I got goosebumps.

If a person is mentally deranged from the beginning or is prone to becoming mentally deranged, then that person might get even more deranged (I'm not 100% sure). It's not easy to handle the experience. You have no idea how difficult it is.

No. They get heightened and sensitive.

@PurpleTree, how much did you take? Mine was 15g, which is about 3-4g of dried mushrooms.

😁 The sclerotia of a Psilocybe tampanensis mushroom caught me off guard completely as my whole experience became electromechanical for a while. I mean, WTF?!

@Sugarcoat, e.g., if you stick a pencil into your eyes, then you won't be able to see again. However, your experience doesn't exist in your eyes. Your eyes exist in your experience. 😧😁 There has to be.

So convenient. 😄

Lol.

@PurpleTree, Salvijus would approve of that. 😁

The Fountain Good movie. It's emotional.

Yeah. You could also say that specific positions of atoms and molecules produce the sense of self because they make up the brain. I would say the brain is configured in a way that you have self-awareness, which helps you realize what direct experience is, which contains your brain. It's like a mirror. The mirror helps you to see your body, but your body is not in the mirror, nor did the mirror create your body.

Interesting.

You haven't seen your brain but only the brains of others or depictions of brains, which you use to think about your brain. Let's say there is some technology that allows you to see your brain. That also happens in your direct experience. The brain is not something that exists outside your experience that produces your experience independent from the experience. The brain can't imagine itself if you say that it includes everything and is also something inside your skull at the same time. However, I would say that the brain is something that has huge control of your direct experience.

If by "self" you mean a separate conscious experience inside your direct experience, then you are imagining it; otherwise, that "self" must not be limited to being a human at all and contain EVERYTHING that you experience, which means things that you say "not me" are "me". I'm also having a hard time understanding what that "self" implies. I know that people here will call it God. However, I would rather not pretend that I'm conscious of it. I have had an insane mystical experience, which I barely remember, but now in my current state I can't and don't want to conclude stuff as I have to go beyond my state.

@Sugarcoat, by direct experience, I also mean that you are not having or you are imagining a separate conscious experience with other humans. Notice that you are choosing what "myself" is in your direct experience, like your voice, face, touching sensation, eyes, etc., believing that if you have more control over them, they are more likely "you" than "other". You are not even sure if you are really in control, but as long as you have some direct control, you believe you have full control over them. So, what you believe you have direct control over, you consider "myself". However, if you are conscious that everything is in your experience, then concluding that you are some separate thing inside it is missing the point.