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@ThePoint Why don't you allow yourself to be happy during the process of healing ?

Belgium because I'm belgian lol

I can't choose a better answer

Hi, I'm doing strong determination sitting since 10 days and I was wondering if you guys do this type of meditation since months/years and if it's worth the effort & suffering we put in this habit, or if I should stick to do nothing / other meditation techniques. Also I'm not sure if I do this correctly: I try to feel into the pain without resisting, I slow my breath and feel the pain. I try to not get lost in my mind because it creates lot of dialogues / mental images about suffering and even fear of harming the body.

@Kalki Avatar Thank you!

My new therapist is into Joe Dispenza, she believes in free-will and law of attraction. I don't know if I can trust her or if she will be able to help me. During our first session, she asked me to choose a lithotherapy stone and put it in my hand, then to place it on the ground, when I placed the stone on the ground, she went above it, she closed her eyes and moved her body while telling me "I feel that you need to move your body" so she recommended me to dance / to move my body intuitively when I'm back home. I'm a bit skeptical. She told me that we create our reality and that our emotions / state of mind influences our Reality it's like we have access to multi-dimensional parallels realities. I don't believe that, I think that our Life is already written and that the only free will we have is how we're gonna interpret/dream about the situations happening to us. What kind of thoughts will we create when the situations that was meant to appear will appear ? For example if in this lifetime I will never find a good romantic relationship, no matter how much I believe I'm amazing / confident / how much I believe I will attract a girlfriend, I will remains alone. And otherwise if it was meant that I will attract a good relationship, no matter if I'm positive or depressed, I will because it was already "written". But she told me that there is nothing already written and that we can choose to create our reality, for example if I really believe it and after months of "work" I become more authentic/loving toward myself, I will manifest a romantic relationship. I was into this kind of thinking / LOA for the past years and now it seems neurotic to me. I feel better since I apply letting go everyday instead of wanting things to be different / chasing after a better reality. I'm a bit lost, I'm afraid to get lost in a trap and I don't know if I must continue with her. I don't know if she will be able to help me. What are your thoughts please ?

@r0ckyreed Thank you !!

You're right, that's whad I need : opening my mind without attachment. After all it will not do me wrong to create more positive thoughts or building a better self-image... it's a dream why would I dream against myself ? Even if I'm deluded or wrong, I'll be happier thinking I'm great, beautiful & attractive than thinking otherwise.

I have been seeing a psychologist for a few months. During a hypnosis, I was able to access a part of me that seemed like the devil. An infinite hatred, a desire for power, to do as much harm as possible to innocent people... We didn't go very far, I just felt a little relieved after the session because I could imagine scenarios where I could express this hatred. It was very scary, I didn't think I was capable of wanting that. Tonight, I feel this hatred, like an entity inside me that wants to talk to me. But I'm afraid, I'm afraid to open myself up to it and go crazy or do things I didn't want to do. Have other people experienced this? What should I do, can I do it alone without too much danger? Part of me wants to release this, I don't need to keep it in my body

Mother will you take me down? I have become so afraid Mother please, please take me down I am sorry, your boy is not brave Child just hold on. Night will soon be gone Sleep if you can. But watch your father's hand We do not want you. Nobody loves you Father of the dark. Tonight will greet you God in heaven, can you hear me Help me Oh Lord. They're coming for me Mother warned me. Father scorned me Oh my God No. Now I hear him I claim your life on this night within sight of your own God The silence, the waiting then the pain Oh child, sleep will be here soon Your life has only ever been shame And so young boy, my hand brings doom Child, won't you awake. Father has gone Child, please come awake. Please my tiny son

This subject is 1 year old, now I don't take weed so often. I smoke once per week and sometimes I don't smoke at all I don't see any problem with that

Kylie Minogue's darkest music

@flowboy Sounds good

Very eye-opening thank you!

@Aaron p I did this for weeks and it had a negative effect in the end. I was all about loving people, being kind, helping etc... and I ended up opening to toxic people thinking they had good intentions. After this experience, I've realized loving myself is not trying to love everyone but it's to be able to set boundaries and to be cold/distant/honest with some people that don't deserve my attention. Letting go of selfishness didn't helped with my hate, it was worse at the end. I've become naive and vulnerable and my inner child doesn't want this, he wants feel safe & loved

@Aaron p I don't think that 150mg on ketamine per month (once a month) could affect badly my brain and there's no addiction either It represents 1,5g per year

@Aaron p Do you have ressources/videos that explain how to do a solo ketamine therapy in an effective/safe way ?

@Aaron p Oh cool thank you. I use 150mg of ketamine per month since 2 years but I only did meditation or listening to music / watching movies... I'll use ketamine in a therapeutic way

oh now I realize it's silly of me to think I had to keep my eyes open without blinking lol

I watched Meditation On Steroids, yesterday I did a strong meditation sitting but I did it with my eyes closed and today, after re-watching the video, I heard that he said that we have to keep our eyes open. Now staying an hour still & motionless is one thing but with eyes open, it's another level ! I've loosed an eye in an accident years ago and I'm afraid to affect my other eye in a bad way. I wonder if it's safe to keep our eyes open for one hour or more ? For those who did this technique for months/years, does something happened to your eyes ?

@Superfluo Thank you!

@Leo Gura Thank you Leo, when I explore this hatred, I have a memory of when I was like 7-8 years, alone in the school's toilet and 3 man came, all I remember is that theyy told me something very frightening and I was all in fear begging to go out. They were holding me against the wall and I can't see further.. I have pain in almost all my body when I try to remember this so I've contacted a better professional to do hypnosis, it will be done in a safer way, I think