Elton

But I also plan on buying the booklist soon , do with some basic books first create your own booklist until you save up money to buy the actulized.org book list, I want to buy it myself but I have the life purpose booklist to finish.

Why after failing one time in the day I quit trying entirely for the entire day, This is the trick of the devil "Failure is a virtue only when it does not lead one to quit trying and begin drifting. I induce as many people as I can to fail often as possible for the reason that not 1 out of 10,000 will keep on trying after failing 2 or three times. " In a day only after 1 failure I stop trying, shit man!!!!! Time to outwit the devil!!!!!!!!

I think I require a lot of time maybe 3 years more and I'll be a better person cause my life purpose is to self actualize. BREAKTHROUGH question... Why after I fail in quitting smoking I decide to start tomorrow and not now? Why do I resist trying again now and postpone it to tomorrow? Is this a fear of success??

Why can't I just stop smoking? I know its not good for health and it drains away my energy... I have so much theory but still can't convert it into practice... Why is my body so mechanical? I struggle with being happy, I don't remember a time I was truely happy; 2 years ago was one instance when I had left smoking after 8 years and for two days I had a smile on my face I could not remove;after vipassna retreat too I felt really happy I want to experience happiness and self love. Also self acceptance is not happening loving my sins to death is not happening. I have observed this new neurotic behaviour in myself, whatever everyone else is doing I have always a theory for why truely they are not happy and they don't even know about it... I derive some saught of satisfaction in knowing that the other person is trapped in either ignorance or materialism or any other actulization concepts. I find it difficult to love others maybe because I find it difficult to love myself. I have fear of poverty and don't even think of leaving my job to start a new business although I fantasise about starting one but don't have the balls to do so... The biggest fear is of me loosing my job. Meditation is the only thing thats on track in my life but this year after vipassna I have backslided a lot.. Every week I miss a day or two last year everything was so nice meditation was going on everyday smoking had stopped I had installed new habits but now everything is gone for a toss like I've lost my powers. I am struggling with making the change I'm procrastinating making the change and I don't know why. The fear of living?

Another failure, come on Elton what are you doing? What is keeping you from succeeding in quitting smoking and taking care or your health? Come on 100 percent response ability to failure is required... Stop conceptualising and act Elton you need to act right now... The rest of the day you need to be aware of your impulses.. You can do it, you have done it in the past. Don't wait till your aching do it now... What are the action steps you can take? Slow repetative breathing Relaxation Hypnosis Taking the right action Exercising... Come on Elton don't let yourself down every single day you don't like the feeling of slacking off on your commitment then take responsibility of your feelings bro come on you can do it.

@Joseph Maynor hmmm getting out thoughts in the open... I wonder how this practice would turn out to be? I feel practicing mindfulness would be a better option as it would be faster than recording them however its very easy to get lost practicing mindfulness... I will try journalling every day on actulized.org... Lets see if itworks for me.

So @egoeimai you suggest that thoughts can br gotten rid of so easily?

The devil says " Failure is a virtue only when it does not lead one to quit trying and begin drifting. I induce as many people as I can to fail often as possible for the reason that not 1 out of 10,000 will keep on trying after failing 2 or three times. " @egoeimai great, keep up the good work... How is exercise going on? I'm drifting through procrastination and my exercise routine never starts...

The area where you don't get results in is the area where you hold limiting beliefs. What limiting beliefs do I hold about quitting smoking? My body needs something? Once your addicted its very difficult to leave? Its not harmful to the body and mind? I can't? This is the way I am? Who told me all that? These beliefs can be totally false.. Consciouslly I'll try to install new beliefs! I am a free Athlete, I am free to choose health over destruction. I choose to take 100 percent responsibility of my health. I choose to love myself for the courage it has that even after failing in quitting again and again it still does not fail in getting up and trying again and afain and again. I choose to master my self, Now its time to listen and take notes on outwitting the devil on you tube.

Today is day 1 as yesterday I failed in stabalization of the value health... So today I have to exercise extra awareness after work do the right things now that I've finally found my life purpose I'm gonna spend time every day doing it... I'm gonna start skipping today I'm exited :-)

One chapter of the year of conscious living. MESSAGE SOURCES If you’re feeling or hearing a rattle in your body, it means you haven’t committed yourself deeply enough to the path you’re traveling. Listen to the sounds of your body—the tension of your muscles, the hesitance or freedom of your breathing, the movement of energy in your wholeness. When I make a big commitment, I often feel a tightening and a quiver of “butterflies” in my stomach. These sensations let me know I’m afraid, which in turn lets me know it’s time to make a more thorough commitment. When I made the commitment to embarking on the three-year program for my doctorate, for example, I had those tight, quivery sensations for close to a month. When I finally committed in my body and soul—“Nothing’s going to stop me”—the fear sensations disappeared in an instant. Think of fear as a test of commitment, a way to focus your attention on the question, “Is this what I really want?” A CONSCIOUS LIVING PRACTICE FOR TODAY State aloud your commitment to conscious living. Use any words you choose. As you say the words out loud, notice if any feelings emerge in your body awareness. Use them as inspirations to deepen your commitment, not as reasons to abandon it.

Day one evening after work body reved up like a Christmas tree the key question wasn't effective enough,the body automatically went to smoking... Something else was in control this could be a experience of no self... Experience of the mechanical nature of Man. However tomorrow after work meditation... So that I again extra awareness of the times I go unconscious.

Day 1 of stabalization of the value health in my life as some self help cycles say it takes 90 days for subconscious training I will be exercising daily for 90 days 21 days is too less for me as I want this change to be permanent... By loving myself i will provide my body the respect and protection it deserves. Whatever I do is it showing love or hate? Would I really do this if I loved myself?

Using old theory for the stabalization of my top value for the next 90 days, So tomorrow will be day one of loving myself and I'm going to do that through one technique a day ; if the technique doesn't work try a new one! so tomorrows technique will be taking the right action, and asking myself a key question... After doing this how would I feel? I am starting it from today... 2 hours from now I will smoke the last cigerrete using the technique awareness alone is curative.... This is a rationalisation! Or I will practice self acceptance and self love so I will give myself a chance... But if I would really love myself would I give myself a cigerrete? Why not?

For the next 3 months I.e. From today till September I'm going to love my self I'm going to practice self love and acceptance I'm going to do whatever it takes to protect my body and give it the love and respect it deserves I'm going to leave addictions and bad habits and install and stabalize new one I'm going to stabalize bodyweight training and vipassna in my life for the next 90 days... I'm going to do my thinking for my self I take full possession of my mind.. Oh devine providence I ask not for more riches but for more wisdom with which I can make wiser uses of the riches you gave me at birth consisting in the power to control and direct my mind to whatever ends I desire.

Without application of love on your body for the emotionally deficient.

@Annetta i don't have a wife

@Shin lol

@Lai you are so beautiful, would you like to come to India some day??? I could mend your broken heart

This includes detachment from television, social media, parties, clubbing. I feel that staying far away in the mountains would be very blissful... Detachment from culture, religion... Detachment from sex, drugs, alcohol, tabacco,food,talking, socialising... Detachment from work and money... Only attachment to self, only self actualization... Would you like such a life? Or would you hate it and get back dragged in? I am attached to all these things sex, money, thc,culture, worried about status what others think etc etc no matter how much I fill myself with this I feel even more empty... Few months ago I was self actualizing and I would feel great but drugs, sex and money doesn't give anything yet why am I chasing it? What are your thoughts about detachment?

@Shin well said

Is it possible to teleport into anothers consciousness? If non duality is true and everything is one than it should be possible... Does anyone wants to join me in this investigation? Then we could meet in our dreams and there is one case where napoleon hill talks about something like that in his book think and grow rich.

I'm doing the core concepts again would like to form a group intending to approach the life purpose course with strategy. So want to form a master mind alliance...

@Loreena i have experienced some love lately seems to be true..

The highest heros journey or the materialistic pragmatic career oriented hero's journey? Or both?