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Meditation isn't going to solve my problem. I have tried meditation before, it didn't help. 20 minutes isn't a insignificant amount of time and I also hate to meditate. About your story: okay I see. I don't have much to comment about it.

@4201 I disagree about everything you say.

You know what I mean. You are your brain. Whole your personality, everything that you do, everything that you think, etc., is done by the brain.

@4201 I always do my best anyway. Still I'm never good enough.

@4201 Who I am is disliked by all females. And I can't change who I am. You just don't understand because you were lucky to get a good brain. If you would borrow my brain for a month you would then afterwards say to me: "Damn man, I didn't know that your brain sucked so hard. I understand now that you can't change and are doomed to be despised by all females for the rest of your life. I now appreciate that I won the life lottery by be given this amazing fucking brain which can easily give me girlfriends. My condoleances to you that you are stuck with your shitty brain. The best solution would be if you kill yourself." But the problem is of course that the truth is so ugly and tough to swallow that only few people can stomach and accept the harsh truth.

I don't think your voice got any deeper. You only think it got, in your own mind.

Just ideas and beliefs.

Disliked by all females.

Anger is ugly. It instantly lowers the level of likeability

No. I would prefer to not be now.

And how is that supposed to be helpful? How is that supposed to be meaningful? Even if God is now, I wouldn't care, because it doesn't matter or change anything. Totally boring and insignificant.

Want to be God so badly that you create beliefs about how you are God?

Can't accept that you don't know, so you have to create beliefs?

Maybe he just wants to make sure that you don't stop too early.. That you keep on going until you actually are fully enlightened. You can't go too far, but you can go too short. Like Jed McKenna says: "Further".

How can they know that stuff. I'm skeptical. But I do think that there's some kind of existence after death.

@silene Okay thanks.

@silene Okay.. Alcohol helps, it makes me into a more likeable person, and it improves my mood, so I'll try to drink as much as possible every weekend. Pure vodka shots are best, no hangover the day after either.

I'm not sure if I would qualify for compulsory mental care (or whatever it's called). I'm unable to take care of myself and my home, so maybe I would qualify. I'm drowning in my unmotivation, lack of drive and hopelessness. Every little tiny task is like climbing a mountain. There's no reason for me to do anything. I should just lay down and die, since I have no future. It's not worth it to even breathe, why would I bother with breathing? What's the point?

I guess something bad happened between me and a girl who I was chatting with. But I kinda regret what I said.

I'm having a bad day and a bad life. No I don't find it helpful. I only like talking/writing to girls (about anything). It's boring to talk/write to guys. I know it's weird but it is what it is, I can't control it.

I've taken all the pills, but thanks.

Yeah you can't be sure, so maybe take a chill pill and stop performing mental gymnastics. Yawn.

The police are patient bastards. They are just doing their job and they are working under strict laws, so just give them a call every time when he takes the car. Just say "I suspect he might be driving drunk" and you are safe. Just a idea. PS. Life sucks, so whatever, who cares. It's just more shit, no big deal.

@Rilles "Don't let your beliefs limit you". Including your belief that beliefs limit you.

Cool story bro. Please tell me how you can know that shit for sure. I'm all ears.