Natasha Tori Maru

Like a brick to the FACE it resonates. Agree

You are quite right - my problem is I lack the ability to discern the qualities I seek. It is not so much they aren't present, but I fail to see the signs. Or, others aren't as interested in exploring spirituality cohesively. But I know this must not be the case, as there are groups abound. I think finding someone I truly see eye-to-eye with is mostly the issue

It sort of went like : ego death/realisation elevated consciousness more ego death/realisation more elevated consciousness - Oh wait I am more content with bad state of life more ego death/realisation more elevated consciousness more ego death/realisation more elevated consciousness - oh wait, some peace now more ego death/realisation more elevated consciousness - oh what, now I am happy a lot despite bad stuff Whenever there was a realisation, a layer of my own lies to myself was removed. Deconstruction. Somewhere in that cycle, if you do it right, you pop your head out of reality into an awakening. And now in general I am a pretty happy person. I don't have a lot. But I value everything and appreciate all I have very deeply. I have so much gratitude to be alive. The cool, crisp air in my lungs, the stupid rock in my god damn shoe. Picking up my dogs shit. That's not to say I don't have human consternation, I do. But as the above, endless, infinite cycle, repeats - it gets easier. The endless spiral. The snake eating itself.

@Emerald I admire your optimism - really inspiring. Do you think you see more of the smaller % of the population of women who are into this work? It could make your view skewed more to believing there are more of us out there. I feel very isolated. When my colleagues / existing family ask me what I did on the weekend and I reply 'meditated, float tank, consciousness work, mindfulness, dog' etc the conversation DIES. I just don't really talk much to others as this topic kills the conversation. My grandfather raised me, and the family members who heavily lead me to spirituality are gone now. I feel very different being raised with no TV in an artist's studio with buddha heads, human skulls, religious icons, ganesh statues etc. Probably the turpentine fumes made me existentially depressed from a young age haha! Spiritual groups just never work for me. I never find pragmatic individuals, who are also able to maintain elevated states of consciousness, in a healthy way to facilitate exploration. Not that I can do this all the time, but I am a lot happier and content and powerful within myself than most. The questions I ask of reality - most people don't get. They can't manage the material nature of existence and hold space for consciousness work.

@CARDOZZO Man it's just... it's deflating. I dunno how the other girls feel, but its like a knife to my heart when I see what men go through. The divide in understanding is like an ocean between continents. I lot of the issues with men being pilled can be dealt with by socialisation - which is essentially approaching as per Leo's advice. But my take is focused on boundaries and how you handle this as a man. How it relates to attraction. I have some controversial opinions (come at me with the pitchforks) but I feel like the fracture of the family system and parents divorcing really messes up men (women too). Typically, young boys end up with just the mother as a parent. This can go sideways as mothers can teach boys to tip-toe around women's feelings. The masculine parent is there to show the children boundaries. What they should and shouldn't tolerate. When to take action. That they need to not fear women, to know their boundaries and call it when women behave poorly (and they do, they can emotionally savage a guy, leading to the guy pretzelling himself into what they want, betraying his boundaries). If you add in a nice dash of scarcity mindset - that fear of losing a women is further inhibiting men, now your fucken TERRIFIED of calling out anything with women. You self cuck. Modern feminism is also to blame - the backlash is a lot of men feel like their dicks are in a vice. Fearing to stand up for themselves in a healthy, holistic and self sovereign & respectful way. Feminism has been great, we all benefit from it, but the fallout is men losing their traditional identities (women too, another topic). Men and women are still working out this new identity shitfight. Back to boundaries. So you, as a man, give EVERYTHING to a women. You violate your own boundaries. And the women senses this imbalance. She senses some power over you - there is a loss of respect. Out the door with respect, in comes disrespect leading to contempt. Then any sort of connection goes down the toilet. She wants to know you are someone not to be messed with, that she can't smash your boundaries down. Its not about controlling her, its about teaching others what you will and won't tolerate. This communicates POWER. This is attractive. Lovely female moths to a flame. You can have charisma and game. That's the fun attraction phase. But you have to drop that when you show a person your truth. As a woman to a man, my advice is: know yourself. Know your boundaries - TEACH others how to treat you. Unfortunately, you have to school others in what you will tolerate and what you won't. This is a healthy structure of truth in a relationship that can open the doorway to intimacy, trust, and prolonged sexual attraction. Your boundaries are your personal truth. If you don't do this, some dick is gonna come along and walk all over you. This rap on boundaries and how they are about YOU, is where people get messed up. They think they need to be a jerk to attract women. No. Its being kind, but firm. Not nice, kind. Big difference. No fear. You know who you are and what you want. That's admirable. That's why, again, Leo raps on life purpose and focusing on that. Attraction is the by-product. You aren't going to approach women - LIFE - even, with a scarcity mindset, if you get this right. I like to help men (my whole reason for being on this forum is to help), but you are correct @CARDOZZO in that I feel I am limited in assistance due to being too a-typical. As a women, that is. I don't think I addressed the OP so well, but this is my take on the patterns I see. There are tons more but I have to go back to work now ... lol

Did you like my little measurement span to show infinity? I used my swanky construction software LOL

Fuck, yeah, I know what you mean. I understand the pedestal comment better now. You are juggling someone else's complex value system. Sex is never the only thing valued, there are multiple values that rise and fall. This contributes to someone's sense of well-being, balance. So I guess you would want to be a pro at assessing a woman's values and checking for a reasonable match (if chasing a relationship). Or, pretzelling yourself into something she will value to access sex (if just looking for a root, bit deceptive). But in the latter case, if she is also looking for JUST a root, you can be pretty confident sex as her value will trump almost anything else.

Or loyal to the man she just respects flat out. Contempt is the poison of relationships, and with its entrance, respect leaves the building. Gonna listen to the video linked on break to get into it. Define 'Pedestal' in this dynamic, you may mean something else.

@Hojo Just reminding you I was making a joke - it was you who escalated into serious territory. Which is why I know it kicked the feet out from under you.

When you think on your thought process, do you understand things better conceptually or in concrete facts? Because the Africa example is a conceptual example. If you are more concrete in understanding it will be more difficult to understand the double slit experiment, as it is counter intuitive.

That conversation got you really bent out of shape, didn't it? Sometimes I apply body paint and just boot around in my apartment and don't leave. No images needed. But here I am breaking your brain again...

Hello, greetings, I am here to destroy your paradigm.

For myself I just cannot be stuffed with the attraction and dating phase of relationships. People have depth to me, but I have to guess if there is a pothole of verticle ocean hidden in what appears to be a shallow puddle. Can I be stuffed toeing the puddle to check for depth? At the moment, no way man

This phrasing, I trip and fall through its logical conclusion. For this statement to be true, this Leo must consider himself non-human. Dive in internally, only to break ones neck on the shallow puddle 🙃 Replacing the word 'human' with 'human relationships' would serve to lacerate out the subject without the extrapolation. But in any event, I think you have a berometer for a type of intelligence you haven't ever seen in a woman's body. One scale of intelligence is relevant only.

Exaaaactly and having others confirm your beliefs and idealiology to form a culture of social acceptance is so powerful! It's seductive. It really leverages off people's needs for intimacy, personal truth and acceptance. These are commodities in today's society - everyone seeks this as gold

There's an assumption here videos are the ultimate priority. You are looking at how Leo can be of value to you through his work, not what is an intrinsic value to him (above searching for root). Videos could possibly be a byproduct of his work, only.

Fucking crushing the pattern finding dopamine button with these interwoven references across the forums ☉ ‿ ⚆

@Emerald I like these insights. I am really quite fascinated with this trainwreck. I think its the levels of delusion that really intrigue me - how did they begin down this path? I wonder how the slow progression went. It just seems it had to be recursive at some point - it had to fall into feeding its own narrative... The most horrifying part is, cases such as these always make me look at myself. I end up hunting for my own little crazy narratives. It's the ones I DON'T know about that scare me, more than the ones I do! I am forever looking to put the light to my shadow, even though I know it will always be there

He would have a mental breakdown if his cock stopped working. I mean, he is basing his entire existence around his cock lol. It's his life purpose. skeet skeet skeet But in all seriousness, I do think this is the beginning of the end for him. Downward slide in relevance. Good fame or bad, he cannot top this

If it helps anyone reading - you are basically looking at not just a photon, but the entire quantum universe. The entire quantum universe as it dreams up infinite routes. And then that infinite route interferes with itself. It's not proof we experience an infinite hologram, but it suggests what we see as 'solid' is really a projection of something deeper and more abstract... Like consciousness

Adding onto this, the photons behaving as 'particles' traverse every single possible path. So not just slit A & B - Its Slit A while also somehow looping through Slit B. Then wiggling through both. Then going on wild, loopy detours. Going to Africa and back. Basically every possible, insane looking trajectory. Every path has a complex number (probability amplitude) and when you add them all up, then you get the interference pattern. So the sum of all paths gives you what you actually observe.

@Keryo Koffa Ha ha >.< Bit of a WOOSH

Try looking up: Copenhagen interpretation, Von Neumann–Wigner interpretation or Decoherence theory. These will help with a base for interpreting the double slit experiment. They go into this in high school physics, so it might be a good refresher But again, science is the glass ceiling It all implies consciousness directly effects reality. Implies being the keyword there.

We aren't really form. We are made of atoms. What's in an atom - 99.999999999% nothing. A tiny amount of matter in neutrons and protons. The bulk of the rest? Electrons. Charge. Energy is actually the bulk of YOU. The reason you cannot put your hand through a lead wall is not because of matter, it is because of electromagnetic repulsion. Now think of how you interact with the environment - maybe this is a good way to frame it as a thought exercise? But this is hitting the glass ceiling of science...