Natasha Tori Maru

Yes, rep this 100%. Thinking through emotional problems can be like using a pile driver to hammer a nail; it can be the wrong tool in your arsenal! It is always valid and necessary to just be. You don't have to be useful or productive to be worthy of love, life. <3

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People who want indecent exposure charges? We have nudist cycling clubs in Melbourne - they roam around the summer months in the indie areas. It's like a wall of wang coming at you

You could argue it is covering it up. The more accurate term would be manipulating visuals. Art isn't necessarily covering something up. Art also isn't necessarily beauty. You are attempting to tell me why I do something. You can never know me. Can never know why I do what I do. I must threaten you in some way for you to be so derogatory. I hope you find peace and healing. I hope life becomes better for you. Offense can only be taken. Good day.

@Hojo Why are you fixating on the covering aspect? Since the flavour of your posts are quite judgement driven, I think you are attempting to dig out some hidden motivation to suite a frame you are bringing to the conversation. I don't have preference either way. Check yourself mate.

Go have a look at the art thread on these forums - you will see my oil on canvas works. You're views on what constitute art, style and artistic expression are quite narrow in scope. You should consider: What is art? If I style my hair and tie it up - what am I covering up? If I put on eyeliner, am I trying to cover a .5mm amount on skin around my eyes? You are speaking to someone who has been to multiple nudist festivals. The purpose is not to cover, this is simply a side effect.

Well from one mega-nerd to another - it is a fine battlestation! The sexual energy topic - what a great conversation and clip to link, as it may assist OP in a wider sense to gain awareness and control of sexual energy, without removing any mechanism of release. The more I move through life, the more I find myself learning skills to master energy and matter manipulation & influence. Its been the biggest topic I have been mediating on (as well as thought awareness & psionics, but that is for another post!). Always a pleasure!

HAHAHA - I am no selfie queen. Are you an artist yourself? Why does anyone do anything they do? We are each unique souls existing in bodies, expressing ourselves through form and manipulation of matter. I do the things I do to please myself. I have faced criticism over how I present myself my entire life. The opinions of others are just external to me - and peoples opinions on art and aesthetics are varied and wide. I implore you to remove the elements of your thought process that are making a moral judgement. Because it is evident in what you say, and how you say it. I can be a blank canvas - which I stated above I am perfectly happy being. Nothing about how I appear at any one time will influence me living life. I don't think on it, I just immerse myself in process. You can certainly use pants as an artistic expression - through style. There are certainly those who use makeup/style as a way simply to attract others. Or to comply with trends. I just happen to be someone who does not look to cover, but enhance. Express. It is part of my energy. Makeup & clothing are tools to be used in any way we please You are the actions you take. A sum of habits. That's all.

Makeup for myself is a form of artistic self expression. Not necessary, but an privilege I have the leisure to indulge in. I don't think about what others think of it, and I am completely content going without. Maybe it comes down to how it is being used. I don't cover anything, I paint my lips, outline eyes or just mascara. I use it as a tool to enhance but not mask or cover. I look at myself as a blank canvas and go from there.

Great video - subscribed! I won't derail further BUT WHAT IS THIS TURBO PROJECTOR A/V CINEMA SEAT shit, get around it! Your set-up DESTROYS mine, and I thought I was a bit more into A/V systems than most! Do you use a universal remote? Hot topic Here's a snap of my area (below) But back on topic - I perceive sexual energy at the very core and base of creative power. I cannot actually perceive any sort of separation in the energy between sexual, and creative - even problem solving. Just levels of power.

Ah yes, sorry for the confusion. If you perused the dialogue that followed between Miguel1& I, I did backtrack. I was hasty. Terminal health cases where quality of life is non-existent are a good example of a case for suicide. I sensed the desire for the OP to harm themselves, so I was mainly acting out in an attempt to protect themselves from a terrible mistake

Nailed it. You have isolated the systematic root of the issue here. It also needs to be acknowledged just how much of an honour and privilege it is to be in a position to devote time to epistemology & spirituality. +1 for gratitude ALSO WTF AVATAR CHANGE, WHY YOU GOTTA MESS WITH MY PERCEPTION LIKE THAT?

Hell yeah 😁

I'm pleased my comment forced some contemplation. You should be questioning these beliefs. B - E - L - I - E - F - S Trying to surgically cerebralise love is further castratring yourself from understanding. Being is the way.

Father a daughter Leo. You will be exposed to more truth than any substance or contemplation can ever get you. There is Love you have not realized, a state you have never reached. No human survival mechanism can taint. A love you cannot conceptualize. Cannot intellectually dissect. A love no substance or thought can show you. There is More.

It breaks my heart to read what the men here write. All their current values - when time has ravaged them to a husk of themselves - will be erased. Age my friends, age. It will get you, and it will change you.

Always with the smut, he loves the dirt You are way too reductionary with this, when there are nuances and higher values that come into play with higher consciousness states. Love can override fucking. Love will make you into Eunuch mode, if the calling is strong enough. I perceive you as constantly communicating: 'I will dump any woman for anything better that comes along'

You can say c'est la vie Leo, but you probably wouldn't be thinking this way if social media, the internet & online dating weren't a thing. Comparison is the thief of joy. Is your truth hinging on these things being present in society? If societies frame is removed, is the game the same?

Enjoyed this post. I think the adaptive response element, as a product of the friction of the exercise, is a key variable I have really been paying attention to. For myself, as I have aged, I really have to precisely assess and keep an eye on my own bodies adaptive response becoming slower. I also perceive additional fatigue, as more of my energy is devoted to the recovery process. The energy drain of an exercise I do now causes mental and physical fatigue far greater than when I was in my 20s. It is a fine balance assessing the benefits of the exercise vs cons, when recovery and functionality are variables with age (on top of nutrition/sleep etc). Age was never anything to even think on previously for me. Now I am consistently assessing this process more than ever.

The possibility exists the women bought into some of the 'women in power/bossbitch etc' narrative, explored that and decided it wasn't for them. And in-so doing, learned more about themselves, and decided she took no pleasure in wanton sex, when no meaning (for her) was involved. It still leads to the withholding mechanism you highlight, but with less of the angle of intentional power play or gating. Could be a boundary discovered. However, this would not be the case if the behaviour is the narrative of the relationship. As typically, I would say as a women becomes more emotionally involved, sex becomes more frequent. None of this implies I disagree.

@Joshe I appreciate the insight! I think your description actually fits better. I have a feeling societys conditioning on women has pushed me towards care for feeling a lot. But I am very results driven. Hey - I mean, I build hospitals for a living! The building is the result I picture in my mind constantly. And yep patterns jump out at me, I don't even look for it. Interesting it is rare, but does nothing for my ego. I do enjoy the analysis more as tool to know how I process information and make decisions. And for awareness of the flaws in the process! Makes me think why the hell intuitition developed as a survival tool, since sensing seems more valuable there ? Cheers 🥂

Hahaha CORNERED

Oh my gosh - she is like a different person. Maybe Aubrey is now seeking the energy Vylana used to embody, in the new bird, and he isn't self aware enough to recognize it? These 2 girls are total babes, it's quite distracting. Aubrey doesn't do anything for me

We use the boxing gloves here now, rather than the brass knuckles?

Ah! I would say I am quite different in real life. Definitely an introvert. I will try to illustrate what comes naturally, if you would like to give me your insight. Beware this is going to be a somewhat unstructured stream of consciousness. I have always been heavy with Ni use. I am familiar with the dreaded Ni-Ti loop, which I have much difficultly with. I have a lot of thought recursion I have become aware of since establishing a serious meditation practice. To break these Ni-Ti loops I typically do something physical (movement, music, food etc) or seek contact with people. These 2 things ground me out of the loop. It is really seeking a change of state. Many times I do not know what is good for me, thinking I can brutally think my way out of bad emotions or problems. At baseline I thrive, and I am energized most, with intellectual conversation. I don't care about being correct, but I love hashing out ideas and theories. Theory and concepts, abstraction. Pattern recognition comes naturally to me. I love to collect information & facts over the long term to build a system I can use to understand other systems. I do this so I can expand my own understanding. I am consistently taken aback when others are unable to see the patterns in their lives they repeat. It might also help to know I skipped 2 grades in mathematics and was placed in accelerated learning classes in school. I will immediately look for the meaning behind any situation or concept. It took me a very, very long time to establish habits round looking after myself. I neglected the quotidian elements of life and was stuck up my own arse in fantasy and sci-fi during my formative years. I am terrible at birthdays, traditions. Bad at making people feel welcome and looking after others in a nurturing way. All learned traits. I really like harmony in my relationships - it grinds my gears when others show no compassion or invalidate others. Having said that, I do often disregard others feelings when I am delivering knowledge I think they need to grow. I have been told I can be harsh by being too candid. But I do observe others intensely and try to tailor my advice to how I think they will best receive it. My overall driving aim in life is to help others around me grow by looking at patterns they loop through. I am also intensely creative and artistic. Dance, painting, drawing etc. I am future oriented. I do not dwell on the past. I do not tend toward nostalgia. Its either now or next. I look at the past as a way to see into the future, to extract the pattern. I am not the sort to typically regret or beat myself up regarding mistakes. I just don't ever think about the past at all, come to think on it. In terms of emotions and how I feel to about people, myself and situations - I struggle to know what is going on internally in that realm a lot. Often, I won't really be aware of how I feel about something until well after the event itself. I need to stop and assess what is going on internally to understand it. Does this help? It is interesting to note I may be defaulting to INFJ on tests due to conditioning society places on the sexes. Also - yes I work in construction, in a variety of roles (estimating, contract administration, but mostly project management). I like the moving, multivariable system.