Natasha Tori Maru

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  1. Gotcha I think your point is more nuanced than the title suggests - which was slightly misleading. I think it's a mystery isn't it? Codependent arising of experience.
  2. @Ramasta9 do you feel you have a stable sense of self, or does it feel as if you are very 'airy' and transient, able to shift perspectives so well you can lose yourself?
  3. I've never encountered that dynamic, now I think on it. I have always had men naturally open up around me. I never put pressure on a man to open up before they are comfortable. It has always naturally happened as a result of an intense shared experience, or when recounting past or history. Many times the most intense emotional sharing happened when roley-poley playing in bed after sex. Not saying I am super special, but I think I come across as a non-threat. Or I do not probe at a mans emotions, unless I feel they are responding to my questions in some way. I naturally like to find out what sort of purpose a man has and figure out how I can best support him in that purpose. I've always been that way, naturally. That's not to say they are the main character for me - I have my own career and extensive hobbies. But when it comes to relationships I am very flexible with how I live. I enjoy to merge my lifestyle with a man's to support him and work out how I can flex my time. I like to push my limits. I grow a lot from pressure. So I put energy into helping my man achieve what his goals are, as well as having the privilege to see into his emotional world behind the scenes. Self sufficient guys are great! It's all about connection for me. I have been in long term relationships where we were very independent. But the emotional connection, intellectual connection and sex was really high quality. Quality over time for me. I've been in LTR (3/4 years) living apart the whole time. I've also been in LTR living together (7years). Every dynamic is different. Being open emotionally has a lot of factors. Timing is a big one. Many people are so starved of connection they can heap it all onto the first person who shows authentic intimacy. I am very open and non-judgemental. But very honest. Not all people are like this; there are so many reasons a girl might be turned off by emotional intimacy. Maybe it's too soon. Maybe they feel smothered. Maybe they do not have the resiliency to hold space for intense emotions. Most of it, in my view, is immaturity from a woman. Some chicks want too much emotion of from their men. In general most guys open up emotionally with me when looking for a solution. Women share emotions just to share. So there are women who will claim their man isn't emotional or intimate with them. Often this is just a misunderstanding as a lot of guys I have met don't talk about shit like that unless they are looking for a solution or advice. Having said that, there are also dudes who are always open emotionally. And that's chill for me too. It's all about what's normal and baseline for their temperament. Really complex topic - you can't reduce it down to 'opening up turns women off'. That's simply way too reductionist.
  4. Gotcha - so resonance and vibration, for you, is not part of Infinity, or infinite consciousness? I think I do not understand how your claim holds under the term infinity. Infinity encompasses vibration and resonance, no?
  5. I've never withdrawn from a man displaying emotional depth. Or opening up. It's usually when neediness or dependency is transmitted that I perceive the potential for a negative dynamic to emerge.
  6. I'll check this out - really appreciate the link
  7. @Monster Energy It is my understanding you think Leo's model of reality does not include vibration and resonance?
  8. @Leo Gura EverQuest? We going back 🫠 You were probably into Vidya around the same time I was - my Dad and I used to build PCs and I recall MS-DOS os nshit. 8-bit PC games were my first introduction
  9. @Jannes I don't think anyone is contesting you can live for 40 days without food 💀 It's definitely Conner's authenticity that is up for debate. Dude is sly.
  10. I did some PvP - totally different ballgame! I only ever got to dualist rank though. Classes are way too homogeneous now with 6 different solutions for every combo. Needless complexity and trying to cater to every player. Only did twos in arena and battlegrounds
  11. I was big on Diablo 2 prior to going hard into WoW.
  12. Gotta agree WoTLK was peak for me. Ulduar Hardmode unlocks and Algalon were sick. I healed and tanked the black hole explosions as a priest/spriest against that dual wielding fuckdumpster of a boss. I have the feat of strength and a few really hard to obtain titles like Immortal and Undying. I played through BC as well, but WoTLK surpassed it imo. I went vanilla > BFA and raided with top oceanic guilds (no 1/2 guilds). Back then revealing you were a chick was drama central. Even applying to those guilds. Fuck I had a full resume, stat sheets and logs of play to submit to get in. I remember Not Steamboat putting me through the most toxic elitist sledging to see if I could handle how brutal it was. They thought they were so hardcore. It is its own little status hierarchy world. Tbh WoW is just one of those games where it grabs you or it doesnt. I can see why people just don't get into it. I had a group of IRL mates who played with me which made it special, then I met like 7-8 more good mates through the game.
  13. No way did Conner fast for 40 days. As if you believe anything that comes from that blokes mouth 🤣 He probably did a 200/300 cal/day fast or something.
  14. Yeah I'm sketch with anything artificial including lab grown tbh - it is just a dream I like. With you there.
  15. @LoneWonderer I saw that post - I felt the trailer might deserve its own thread (and then begin a discussion when it's out!) @Leo Gura Spielberg is the only reason I have some hope @Hojo I noticed this also 👽
  16. Yes. As a woman I have no issue with a man feeling the need to open up in any sort of vulnerable capacity. Any women who cannot hold space and support their man in this way is simply immature.
  17. Yes! And I will add - as I have grown through life and gained experience, the book has delivered new meanings and messages. Definitely worth re-reading
  18. I source all my meat (mainly kangaroo) from openly culled wild sources to try to minimise my contribution. I have so many food intolerances and malabsorption issues veganism was prohibitive for me. Vegetarian was decent, but I found a predominantly vegetable, fruit and some dairy with fish and eggs tends to suit me best. I eat meat twice a week. I have no trepidation killing a farmed animal to prep and consume; done it all through my youth. But I dislike being complicit in factory farming intensely. I try to minimise my impact. I don't feel the burden to be perfect. Bring on lab grown meat.
  19. Yeah I gotta agree with the cannibalism bit. I think jerky would be something consumed, just going by current patterns
  20. I think you assume I didn't like something or felt challenged - I merely thought of inverting the statement on its head! Fantastic defence mechanisms
  21. This is your belief system
  22. Think it was about this time last year Ending Unnecessary Suffering was released.
  23. I've read this one 3/4 times TBH - good rec
  24. @Crazy_ball Enough. You've been warned to stop trolling.