Natasha Tori Maru

@Ramasta9 And there are many who will not value that, and are yet to experience the truth there. Which is how we come to what we have today

If we look at nature as engaging with the flow of life and the process of homeostasis (this is a rather simplistic breakdown), his current methods seem to be attempting to understand and leverage those systems to engage in immortality. But this is a slippery slope - because can his methods be viewed as using force? Because nature, to me, is much more about engaging in the ebbs and flows and change. Working with potential and effects. I do think leveraging existing systems is working with nature. But would be break these systems in his pursuit? His experiment begins to appear to turn sour if we think on 'How far is he willing to take force as a method to achieve immortality?' If existence is the highest virtue, as he professes - is he willing to make himself inhuman to pursue permanent existence? Just random ideas

@Ramasta9 I think Bryan's idea is to merge with AGI - I could be wrong, but I am sure that is where he sees his path going. So not being human (as we know it) appears to be is what he is aiming for. Whether this divorces us from our humanity or spirituality is up for debate.

Oh gosh no...

Just asked chatGPT what it knew about his algorithm he wants people to live by - he mentions it in the 'Don't Die' dinners he hosts. I think the first discussion is the proposal 'If you could opt in to have an algorithm decide how to live, would you?' with the idea that you have to adhere to it 100% no matter what. Which is an interesting proposition because in the dinners you can see attendees lose their shit over the free will concept etc. Many people outright reject it because of rebellious tendencies - some opt in 100%. They are an interesting watch if anyone is curious. There's one with Miranda Kerr, and another with Jake and Logan Paul. Another with the Kardashians. The idea being blueprint will form an algorithm that you live by 100% to reverse or stop aging - this is part of how he thinks we will semi merge with AGI. The weird ideology there is the part I don't agree with, the rest of his work is good though. I like the idea behind the longevity stuff, I prefer quality of life though. But I think he is going for both. I think the attachment to the body is the bit strange, but it could be how he is phrasing his stuff. I think due to him being an ex mormon he may have some carryover with the 'Don't Die' stuff and framing it as a religion. Because he doesn't need to frame it that way. I cannot make up my mind with him. But I think he has good intentions. Tier 1 or 2 thinker? Again I am not sure because of the 'Don't Die' stuff.

I think there is some evidence microplastics can be reduced through blood donation - plasma specifically. I have to say I donate blood & plasma regularly and all I notice is a lot of fatigue while my body replenishes after a donation Having said that I have no issues neurologically at 39 years old (lots of time for that shit to accumulate). But that says nothing really. It is my understanding after speaking to some of the contractors who set up filtration systems, most microplastics get into the environment from car tyres & synthetic clothing fibres. From there into the water supply. In addition - the lab scientists at one of the research facilities we fit out said the amount from plastic bottles themselves didn't seem to concern them. More the supply from tyres + clothes into the water. Who knows though - this was midyear 2024 I spoke to them so they may have different more advanced knowledge now. I love pumping people for information

Half the malformed expressions of toxic femininity that manifest in the patriarchal structure of society are a direct result of it. And men are beginning to feel the negative effects of that patriarchy also. It all stems from imbalance. I do not state the above with any blame or judgement toward the men of today - many of our current generation of men and below are suffering as a result of this old structure. As the general awareness of society is raised we all (masculine & feminine polarity both) feel the negativity of previous structure. It was necessary to progress to this point. And that is all.

AI synopsis: 'Bryan Johnson is founding a new movement called "Don't Die," which he describes as a "religion" based on longevity and the idea of existing indefinitely. This ideology, which stemmed from his work in biohacking and anti-aging, proposes that the "body is God" and that humanity can overcome mortality through science and technology, especially in the era of artificial intelligence. The movement aims to be a unifying framework, a "grand unifying theory of existence," that guides humanity to survive and thrive by prioritizing existence and using technology to defeat death. '

Indeed, just IMAGINE Job's reaction to what apple has become. I recall my media teacher in high school - the first iPod had recently come out. We all had huge hard drives for film work, Nokia 3210, iPods (if lucky) and huge camera setups. He said, and I quote 'give it 15-20 years and Apple will have consolidated all of this stuff into a pocket sized media centre + phone everyone carries with them'. He called it - and he also said Steve Jobs would probably have a ball busting time with business because he was so non-conformist & building something no one could envision.

This is quite ironic because every iphone lately has been juiced by marketers to death, exactly as Jobs described marketing teams flogging products with the equivalent of a 'new bottle shape' as a product.

inc marketing team: milk it boys and never stop

Yep, agree. I think this could be because women bare children and must caretake as part of base survival process - so they are physiologically wired to pay more attention to their inner state (feeling, emotions, body sensations) and the wellbeing of children (interpreting expression, cries, feeling states). There is some evidence that shows men are socialized out of emotional/feeling attention, but many men experience alexithymia which indicates there is a survival mechanism at play. But overall I think women and men both feel the same range and power of emotions. Men may not have a good a grasp of understanding/sensing and deciphering, and women pay so much attention to feelings/emotions they indeed 'lingering much longer' to quote you. Just within the realm of my experience - men do feel just as much emotion/feeling as women, they simply aren't always as aware of this. But this last part might be up for debate, as I may not have a proper experiential dataset. I am pretty open in admitting while I can see other perspectives and frames - experience is king. Mother - not at all. Father - yes. Unfortunately, my parents split when I was 15 or so. My grandfather had a huge hand in raising me. My mother, after the split, dated a man with BPD. Lots of parallels with your experience! I think I had a really good representation of love and secure attachment in my most formative years. This helped me a lot. But I did attract men who had BPD and attachment issues for a good time. This tells me I did end up with a slightly misinformed understanding of love, as I was driven to be attracted to men with similar unhealed wounds. Since my most catalytic relationships I have healed a lot. In addition - some real securely attached relationships after these facilitated healing and I now consider myself pretty mature and capable. Overall no regrets engaging with BPD men, but it really taught me a lot. The experience of being with them and a BPD stepdad (he ended up in maximum security jail for 8 years). Really gave me some great skills with people. Being able to read them and understand them/their needs very very quickly. A lot of hypervigilance. And I am familiar with you reporting how you had to 'pretzel yourself' into something to manage your Dads feelings. The danger is we think we are responsible for others feelings of others - this is not so. And you can destroy your own boundaries in this way. Took a lot of healing and understanding to get past this (for myself at least ). I had to learn to fully allow them. It feels like surrender. Then I always have a deep feeling of love from my chest upwelling as the feeling dissolves. Sometimes I have to fully sit, close my eyes, and imagine the feeling playing out IE me punching a wall, or yelling at the person. And the imagination method is so powerful it purges the emotion. I used to suppress - which resulted in anger. And when I didn't express anger I ended up depressed. Not good. I get you completely. 100% I always show deep gratitude and appreciation when I am in love with someone. It is core to the feeling for me. Part of my drive is to express how much value, support and enrichment a man shows to me through physical affection and acts of service. Just my particular love language. When a women fails to appreciate her man there is no faster way to emasculate him. And I can understand why this would destroy your sex drive. Men typically engage in their own emotions and expression when a woman shows they truly value his place and role in her life - and this emotional connection feeds into female sexual desire. Very symbiotic. This could just be my own dynamic - but it is always the most healthy I have engaged in. You sound like you have seen a lot - and not in a bad way - in a way that has made you grow in consciousness and strength,

@Ash55 You might enjoy this one - I listened to it this morning Another Renowned U.S. Army remote viewer, Angela Ford - and Area52Investigations is generally a really intriguing and well put together channel

I think this is true. My Dad sat me down for this chat when I was a teenager. He was brutally honest about the nature of men so I would be aware. I wonder how some women learn this without that sort of chat. Maybe through experiencing it, which must not feel nice to many women and girls.

Yes for sure. I already log all my dreams and journal daily. On the weekends I review entries and look for patterns in the day, and contrast them to dreams. Thanks for your post

I think what sets me apart in terms of atypical is that I have a very good understanding/integration/ability to flip flop between masculine and feminine polarities. Most of the issues with the men I had experience with BPD manifested as extreme anger and then lucid shame spirals in a loop. The most difficult aspect of this sort of personality type is assuring them that connection and acceptance is still present even when there is disagreement. Any perceived 'difference' in personality is seen as a rejection. Most of the issue is an unclear sense of self and boundaries - often leading sufferers to absorb their partners likes and dislikes in an attempt to connect. So when the sufferer was 'triggered' I would have to hold space and remain calm and hold boundaries until the main emotional pain had run its course. Doing this put me into a masculine frame and would de-energise my sexuality. Once connection was reassured I can let it all go - and this surrender would put me back into a feminine frame of expression which would bring back my desire for love, sex and connection. I do not think I view BPD as 'childish' in behaviour - I view it as a suffering individual in extreme pain. I try not to judge as there is so much stigma around personality disorders - especially cluster b. The ability to let things go is what puts me back into a feminine frame. I do not hold onto feelings needlessly. I express them in a healthy manner, and then I am done. I feel like a lot of women get trapped in their emotions and cannot surrender and then let go. And they can use their emotions and feelings to try to validate a point. But I think men and women do this equally, it just seems to me that it manifests in different ways. Men tend to get angry and use rationality to bypass emotion. Which can appear more logical, but is based in emotions and feelings. Women tend to express them all in larger bursts and variety. Maybe my experience with BPD men has shown me how both sexes do this? In the end the desire to win any sort of debate is just the aversion to the feeling of humiliation. Which makes me think perhaps this could be something @Emerald is trying to dissect by interocepting and explicating around her anger, the use of this forum, and the desire to come back. Again, just some speculation. Might not have any grounds at all. But the aversion to humiliation is what propels most of the heated arguments here on and on. And on... and on. Really, in terms of men showing emotion, for myself, the only thing that flatlines my sexual desire is fear of safety. If a man is expressing with violence my fear system shuts my entire emotional system off. And for myself - my emotions and emotional connection are they keys to my sexual desire. Perhaps the 'childish' nature of men's behaviour flatlining a woman's sexual desire is more relating to mothering; if a woman feels like a man is immature and she has to perform too much of a matronly mother role this can kill sexual desire. But the woman should be mature enough to be able to look after and care for her man when needed. And also not feel like she is being taken advantage of. I am not sure if I answered your questions really... I do find it interesting you have had BPD experience as well.

Pretty radical honesty - but it means both partners need to be really mature (emotionally + intellectually). It requires each partner being able to moderate their own emotional reaction in an effort to find a solution. Radical emotional acceptance. I have been with people that had some mental health issues (diagnosed) and it usually meant I had to compromise on some boundaries to ensure it worked. In particular borderline personality disorder - the suffering of the individual is so extreme I often had to appeal to emotion to maintain peace - and then move toward rationality once calm was established. It isn't personal with BPD sufferers. I am not a typical woman though - I don't mean to say, I am a special snowflake - more that I do not respond emotionally in ways society is more familiar with. I think I could just be a bit more mature as well.

This sounds like a unique dynamic. Atypical to my experience

Trivialism? Or is that too much disintegration/nuking of rationality. Trivialism into infinity?

Sum next level disfunction

Yep. One I faced many times: being attractive naturally attracts men who value that. And do not value who you are as a person. So all your worth to them is based on your attractiveness. So there is an enforced inherent clinging to the physical and maintaining it. And the burden of that attachment and attempt to maintain it is immense; women age. All flowers die and return to the earth. Body changes, skin changes. Resisting this is terrible. Men who do not think they are of equal attractiveness will filter themselves out and never approach due to their own inherent belief they are 'not attractive enough'. But the irony is - they stand more of a chance to see me for who I really am beyond the illusion of the body. Overall men and women have their own challenges - and ones suffering cannot be compared. I think it is a shame to try to minimise another's suffering. Man or woman.

We like the dream All your mods shredding each other to ribbons

Tone is conveyed with the language we choose. And the perpetuating responses signify various things. Neutrality can be conveyed. But if this is how you choose to see your actions at this time, it must be soothing in some way. We aren't conscious to what we are unconscious of

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