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gotta exhaust the urge

as in making IT my normal state. So I can start taming it. You guys in later stages, please provide me with some advice. Thank You.

@tsuki I have alr got some good pointers through the replies, thanks.

yeah i want more god/love videos in the future

well you cant trick yourself if you know you are tricking yourself.

I have had that a couple of times but they only lasted for a few moments

Damn, yeah. Ok I think it is starting to make sense, wow yeah, that's simple really. Fuck, I think I got it on some shallow level because now I am questioning why there should not be reincarnation. Reincarnation is right here, right now, it's not against my direct experience. my direct experience proves it. Damn.

Reincarnation. How? That whole idea goes against 'my' direct experience. Yet 'I' believe it might so be the case because 'I' believe highly woke people found it out. So how do I find it out as well? I as an ego am not. So I don't know what reincarnates. There has to be some truth to this. I wanna verify it through experience. If anyone has, please help me. I have 0 experience in this.

Not really a discussion but just something I will like to say. I think what really defines what stage you are on is how you act in practical life and what will you do if rubber hits the road. Behind a computer screen, on some forum, it is very easy to regroup your thoughts before posting, Which is a good thing since it allows higher consciousness discussions but does that really tell you anything about the person typing? I'd say if you wanna judge your stage, judge what you value out in the field in real life instead of how you are online, in social situations, etc. The more situations you assess the better understanding you get. Online on such forums, we are obviously way higher on the spiral. Judging as how I am in real life, I will consider myself a mix of orange, green and yellow with more yellow in calmer situations and more green and orange in less calmer ones. I am also getting turq insights for quite a while. But really that is only really when I am in my home, peaceful and calm with nothing to worry about. In social situations I tend to be a lot more orange and green 50-50. But the yellow does show when needed.(This is from the memories of situations quite back so these aren't accurate and I am probably way better of now.) (Yeah i dont get much social interaction) So it's all a big soup where the quantity of ingredients change depending on the situation. I consider myself high yellow and even early early turq on forums tho. And I think the thing about judgin yourself and calling yourself TIER-2 isn't much of an egoic thing at all(if you are actually tier 2 and rate yourself tier 2). You don't need to have an ego present to rate what this body and 'personality' values. Though it is a common trap. You shouldn't feel guilty if you rate yourself high, cautious yes, but not guilty. When there is no you, what does it matter what you rate it, It doesn't matter to the consciousness/emptiness that is everything (and is the true you).

I'll be sure to see this. Thanks for the insight.

I don't know about the soul since it isn't in my experience as well. What I do know is the direct experience free of beliefs. Sadly I have no experience such as even AP and such to verify any soul stuff or reincarnation or chakras etc.

observe what you want to see beauty in, what do you think about it while observing? observe that too. keep observing until it morphs into beauty as you take in everything.

Well I guess this one will be easy for most of us here

It has helped me with insights expectedly and unexpectedly. It has helped me confirm some stuff and ground some of my realizations that I share. I will probably need to let go of this forum some day but that day isn't yet here

So I have had a pretty nice mindfuck for the past few days. You know how in dreams your entire context of what's going is changed into something else? You suddenly know the situation you are in. For example you may believe, even in a Lucid dream, that you have been writing a novel in real life, just then to wake up and realize that was never the case. And wonder how you even believed such a thing. Well couple that with the realization Leo points to in the recent God video. It sure damn looks to me after that realization and this insight, that all the context I have in my head is just like a dream, a context to something that never even happened, but you genuinely think so it is the case. For example, me thinking I have Kitchen downstairs with a fridge with veggies in it or "In some days, I'll need to submit my Assignments." or that I have an Assignment to do in the first place. And this is the case in every moment. This moment is never changing, it is the same all the time. It's just that appearances/forms and contexts keep changing. But at the same time, this whole thing may just appear to be so and not be the case. In direct experience, this seems to absolutely be the case tho. Infact, with this in mind, even the whole idea of this "Context is Imagination" is itself a context! This actually even wins over the argument of "If I am imagining everything why is it so consistent?". Maybe the consistency is an illusion because of your imaginary context of explaining the present moment. This leaves you in the deep unknown into the mystery of what it is, which that is.

GG

I think 22 represents someone with all the knowledge but no experience. And that even after you get the experience for the first time, you easily can be talked out of it or fall into some sort of delusion. Joe is someone who has been deluded, but later realizes the beauty of life. He is shown to have the right amount of experience and knowledge to reach that realization. This movie is great way for someone to get into spirituality without even knowing it is spirituality or all the 'hippie' stuff. I bet this movie will get a lot of people into spirituality unknowingly or plant some seeds. And with enlightenment, it really depends on what you define it as. Realization of present, what there is, no self, true self, god self? In the movie it just seems like he has realized what a stage Green/Yellow mix would usually realize, and think is the highest way of looking at life. The present moment(Just imagine the green version of this, I know this realization runs wayyyy deeper). Who knows, maybe he realized no self and all that, I mean it'd certainly easy for him now if he atleast tried now. But I doubt he realized much more than shown in story, cannon. I'd put it somewhere like 75% on green and 25% on yellow. The main focus of this movie is to get your attention onto the beauty of the present moment(not the same as getting your attention on your direct experience) and realize that life is meaningless but is still AND that's why, is beautiful. So values tbh are a mix of Green and Yellow. Why I think it is much less Yellow tho is because much more focus is given to the first realization I mentioned than the second, in both scenes and the dialogue.

"What truly is consciousness?" Who the fuck knows man. Probably me. LOL

Just watched it. Thanks for recommending. Felt great.

Yeah it's very much possible. But I think to do it sober, you would need to take time and slowly build up to it and let your body adapt. I have seen if you sleep for the day after doing such things, the next day you are much more well adapted. Sometimes you are just suddenly able to do whatever they ask. Overall advice I'd give is to just keep trying twice or thrice everyday.

Yeah it is possible. You can realize something that awakens the desire to know the truth. So I'd say stick to it.

Ofcourse. Usually is a shit choice tho. Too controlled by illusions most of the time when such a decision is taken. But if taken in wisdom, not so much a shit choice. Only wise suicide I can think of really is either Mahasamadhi or choosing to die before without suffering of a terminal illness (Like severe Radiation Poisoning, etc.)

With that logic you can also say "You should kill yourself right now since you are gonna die anyway". Ultimately it doesn't matter. Bring children if you want, don't if you don't. There's no reason for life. Life is for life's sake. So I mean, you don't need to think so much about it and then identify yourself with a label.

dang so many poems in the forum these days, loving it

Well I was falling into this trap too. Until I found your video some months back by accident. I was resisting it and feeling bad. Proof enough I was attached. So I watched it all just to get detached. Well at this point I dont really care. Sadhguru did, and still does make a lot of sense when I used to watch him. I am still subscribed incase something interesting is uploaded. But I am not a 'follower' anymore. I feel like Sadhguru dumbs down himself when in public, since his presence is very wide. And if he says something too radical, he wont be able to wake up many people atleast to a fair amount of level to get further into spirituality themselves. I dont think he can do much. I would say he must be a lot deeper when in private groups and talks. But, my approach is just take what works. I am not getting stuck on any one. By nature if you are famous in today's day and age, you can't talk deeper after a point in public. Even when what he has said now he is in a lot of controversy. I learnt a lot when I needed from his online persona, now I have grown out of it. Simple. I still use some of his teachings in my contemplation. Just be sure that if you feel resistant or cant watch the criticism of a spiritual guru or teacher you follow and watch, you probably too attached. I got attached to Leo too. So much so, I was 'afraid' to read the rational wiki on him or to watch the criticism videos made on him. Now I dont watch them cuz there's no need but before I resisted it. Just be aware that devotion doesn't mean attachment. Devotion means surrendering everything. And it is easier to surrender to a Guru you know or a deity like Shiva that you trust. But in that surrendering you also have to surrender all your attachments and all that you care about. If you care about your guru or deity, gotta surrender that too.