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had a similar insight this week. Was watching veritasium when he said, and i am paraphrasing, "The scientific method is the effort to disprove yourself in every way and what you know, and if it still stands, then maybe you're closer to truth" Now ofcourse the culturally accepted version of scientific method is much more different and materialistic, but what veritasium described is what we all do here as well. Thing was tho, I never really tried to disprove what I had realized(and I was resisting wanting to, telling myself, "it's just a waste of time"). When I tried, I realized that not being able to disprove myself provided the contrast I needed to embody what is more so. I really tried to disprove myself right, but I couldn't. I also saw that I was holding too tight onto "what I had realized". It's actually very similar to, if not, dogma. After that point, I had insight into what you are describing here. In my efforts to disprove isness, I tried to become as 'normal' in my way of thinking as possible. "Yes, I was indeed born." "Yes, I AM Swarnim." "Yes, I AM this body." "Yes, I AM a male." "Yes, I AM my thoughts." "Yes, I AM my mind." Which gave me more contrast to work with. I saw that yes Indeed I am all that and I am just fooling myself by excluding those. I told myself "I exist" and yes indeed I do. I needed to come back down and accept all these things that I was pretending to accept before.

honestly having the same problem. I see the that when I don't do it, after about 2 days, I am able to be much more productive and have much more control over my life mentally. But at the same time, more and more sexual urges build up. It's even worse when I define a time like "every saturday", because in the anticipation, I end up relapsing halfway through anyways. part of me hopes i magically figure out a way to transmute this build up of sexual energy

A few months ago I really tried to understand the straight feminine perspective during meditation. After watching a few episodes of Teal Swan on masculine and feminine energies, and how they are attracted to each other, I started to get a little bit of an idea. I forgot how long it took me, but that night after meditating and trying for a while, I could say with 100% honesty that I was a woman. It was very surreal how I just changed genders. I wouldn't know how to describe it but I just became a girl. I observed it for a while, but I couldn't change back, which scared me a bit. However, after about 5-10 mins, I could change back into a man. I conducted a bunch more experiments like changing one side of my body into a man, and the other into a woman(took a while). Then communicating those two together and integrating them. Ever since then, my internal has always been something that isn't either a man or a woman. I mainly did this because at that time, I was trying to understand why someone would like sucking a dick(Being a straight male). But it escalated into turning into a straight woman. However, now I can actually see/feel(not fully) why males would be appealing on a sexual level. Problem is, I am only attracted to males when I am a female, and vice-versa. I cannot seem to understand how homo-sexuality will be appealing. Any help?

I'll try this

I don't need to understand it, I just want to.

when you feel the watcher, remember that it is also a feeling, existing like all others the watcher then may get pushed back, keep remembering it's just a feeling

try meditating after waking up. Turn on a fan or go hear the birds chirp. Keep your attention on that noise, keep bringing it back onto it. Whenever you feel like "Aw shit here we go again, that's another interest af thought", tell yourself these magic words "Just don't do it" and just don't indulge in the thought. Focus back onto the noise. Let the exterior enter through your ears and dissolve your interior. Try to occupy your hearing with outside noises, instead of the inner voice. If your thinking mostly occupies your ears(sound) then open up your ears to all the sounds outside and let it all inside your head through your ears, don't let your inner thoughts occupy any of that sound space. If your thinking also mostly occupies the visuals, open up your eyes, and let all the visuals flood into your head through your eyes. Don't let the visual thought take any space. Doing this, you may have an experience of total silence and peace. hold onto that and try to be in that again and again for as long as you can.

All of us have some sort of idea of where the next level for oursleves is. Sometimes we don't, but eventually we find it. In that we slowly create a model with labels etc. In our mind. Like first, ego mind then no mind then God mind etc. Whatever your personal model is, as you went through this journey, please share if you'd like. Also pls explain

After contemplating what @Gesundheit2said. I see that it's not actually that I love suffering. But that I think it's necessary. How do I deeply accept suffering? edit: but if I deeply accept it, won't it dissolve and disappear? Would that mean suffering is an illusion? Still can't get myself to say that tho because, there's a lot of things that can make me suffer. So what is THAT if not suffering? Nothing?

I also made a post about this some while back, but people got defensive

I think there are multiple reasons for it. One of the more boring reasons I have verified for myself is: The mind creates these 'feel-objects' with every situation, along with memories. That's why when you remember something, it's usually attached with the feeling you felt then, or is detached and you can notice that. Every memory has a particular feeling. And so does every action or angle of looking, etc. Brain reuses many of these feel-objects as you re-experience those things or similar stuff. But sometimes it forgets to attach the memory that says "I have used this feel-object before with a similar situation." So you feel that this feel-object is supposed to be new, but still feels so familiar. Knowing this, I can actually consciously induce a deja vu. However, this is only the case with most of my deja vus. I had had some where none of this applies. Which implies there are other reasons too. But this is the case with most of mine.

Probably basic survival stuff like eating and shitting, and going further spiritually and whatever other field they like, are the only challenges left. Which probably wouldn't even be considered challenges because they aren't.

Maybe you get angry at such people because you would hate yourself if you were like that? Also, ahem.. YASSS QUEEN ? SLAYYYYY ✨✨✨

I get you man. That's why I believe that too. But your head might be underwater. Pull it out and see the beauty of everything at large. Because I think you can see that we are just trying to find meaning when there is none. And "if only there was more between now and that inevitable loneliness". But there is no loneliness. Its all love. I don't claim to be someone who has embodied this love because I suffer a lot with that too. But everytime, love is the only 'thing' that makes me see it never mattered anyways.

I think that whole image of people being nothing behind their ego, and that being somehow scary is just a false image. You see, even if there was a soul layer, that's just adding one more layer. Now you can say, people are nothing behind their souls. But clearly you don't do that imagery when it comes to souls. So just don't do that with ego either. You can love those egos as much as you love those souls. Howcome adding a layer of souls makes it more comfortable? I think soul stuff is highly likely, but if having 'no soul' seems scary then that is social conditioning imo. What does 'soul' even mean to you except what you have been told by society? But it's still scary, right? Well if you see the love, it shouldn't be at all IME. It's not like traditional loneliness at all. Aloneness is just a fact, but love makes it all so worth it.

So I have found this 6.5 hour album which portrays Dementia in a musical way. "Everywhere at the End of time". The last stage is where everything just fades off and is just static and some last bits. People say Dementia is dying without actually dying. Dementia throws you in a constant state of confusion, and confusion many teachers say to get comfortable in. This got me thinking that this is very connected to what is done in spirituality. What are your thoughts on this? And do you think most people with Dementia reach some form of enlightenment before finally dying?

'When' 'you' 'are' 'into' 'non-duality' 'you' 'can' 'talk' 'like' 'this' 'and' 'it' 'still' 'makes' 'sense'.

so many times, it's unbelievable. Then you get back down and feel at the bottom for a few days or weeks before being lifted up again through some experience like advising someone or whatever and then you get smacked back down again It's like that tradition in japan where you continuously hammer the rice cake, again and again and again, until it becomes the ultimate, sweetest and tastiest rice cake.

All of spiritual work is about getting the mind, the brain, to realize the truth.

What I do is just provide people with what they need, if they ask for it and the time is right. I don't actually care to give them way better truths because it just won't make sense, hence it's completely pointless. And the main reason I do infact help someone is because it grows me and I love them. My simple logic is that since there is infinite understanding, I am infinitely stupid, so is the person I am calling stupid. We're both stupid. Thinking of each other as fools. For the part where one gets made at arrogance and dogma, I think that can be overcome by not attaching themselves to being humble and clear. Or thinking that a more true worldview is somehow better.

same has happened to me a bunch of times. It's p cool. One time it felt like my head was in my lap. Pretty Surreal.

it's 9AM, I just woke up half an hour ago, I read this post, now I am crying because reality is love. I love you man, I love you.