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If suicide is the path you take, no one can judge you. However I believe you don't really want to go down that path because you haven't committed suicide yet. I think most people in our lives (not including the folks who responded here) don't understand how difficult it is when we live with our bodies emitting a deep negative energy almost non-stop. In this state our body is in a serious fight or flight mode, trying to defend ourselves from certain possibilities that may deem us unworthy of love, that makes us feel completely ashamed. I understand that some people are just trying not to drown in these waves of emotions, but have you ever wondered if you could change your outer circumstance, what outer changes do you need in order to not feel like living in hell? This might be an interesting question, because it might be the case that no amount of money or success in any area can guanrantee us true satisfaction. Basically what @UnbornTao said above is quite true, however that level of mindfullness is too high for us now. Might have to continue fighting, but do some comtemplation of these types of questions at the same time.

I hope there will be an equivalent of covid that will shutdown those "malls".

Come on brother, no need for that. We're all on the same boat and we care for each other deep down.

Great question, I believe that the approach to the problem has to be changed. If we place ourselves in a defensive mode trying to prevent "shameful or bad" events from happening, our inner energy will always be passive and the emotion of fear will occur whenever there is "danger". Sometimes we're stuck in this state where we just want to feel better or have some peace of mind, but at the same time we want something inherent to change. However it takes massive action to change, and we don't like the failures that come with the amount of action and trials that are needed to make this journey. We also don't like the boredom during the process of taking the actual steps of this journey. To conquer the illusion of unworthiness, I would try to find a way to flip my thinking from how do I avoid the pain of unworthiness to how do I get positive motives and muster energy to pursue what I want again. The process of getting what we want will always contain a lot of effort and frustration preventing us from taking action. But by devising a plan and building discipline, we can move forward. Just focus on one thing at a time. I know this sounds strange but I feel that it is in this struggle where we may gradually realize that maybe we never had to be a certain way to be "worthy". It may have been just something we deeply wanted that we couldn't get that is creating this illusion of "meaning/worthiness". We always wanted the world or people to be a certain way for us, but what if we could turn this around and give out love for other people instead. By giving out with no desire for any return, we can shift our mindset from the victim/defender to the provider/creator. We would feel different about our situation then.

It depends on what you want currently. How much effort and energy you put into the details of your life now will determine the outcome. Sometimes we're not clear about the things that make us uncomfortable taking the next step. Sometimes we don't even know what it is that we really want, we just think we do. So I guess we can only feel into our current status and figure out how to reach out and make a difference for ourselves.

I wonder if Mark Manson talks about the process of getting from wanting to pursue positive experiences to accepting negative experiences? Because you would have to go through a lot of work, discipline, and life lessons learnt in order to get from A to B here, right? It's not like, oh I don't envy this job anymore and then that company is going to like headhunt you immediately.

I agree with Dauntment. I would also implement an on/off switch to the folks in an unfortunate situation. Yes, keep the ability to understand and feel their situation from their standpoint. But also be able to switch back to your own level and not think about them when you are moving forward on your own path.

Let's say it is 100 million after tax in US currency. 1. Invest 70 million into very conservative options with stable interest (passive income) 2. Spend 10 million on travel, a house, sports car. Definitely travel for some time. 3. Get to know people and entrepreneurs, become angel investor. Or invest in companies I believe in.

So all of the points you listed are real? And could I know how old you are now?

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Yes, I'm ethnically Taiwanese. I lived in North Dakota from age 6 ~ 10, then moved back to Taiwan. Edit: fix typo

A man who learns to accept and embrace himself, who shows compassion to others, who finds the courage to pursue internal growth, and who is not afraid of being authentic.

So sad that most of these fakers are too deluded to even admit they are fakers, and then they become degenerates...

I scored 5/40, but I can see that this test is not accurate in all dimensions. So one who is not confident or lacks responsibility doesn't mean they are not narcissistic. I was a narcissist for most of my life. If I took this test when I was young, I would probably get the same result.

Unable to be in the moment. I sit very bored on a bench facing a park, across the park a new built neighborhood with a new community moving in, and over the neighborhood a nice sunset.

I think your intuition was right, you should buy the cheapest equipment to see how the worst option fares. Sometimes the cheapest product actually would suffice in whatever you were doing. Buy in the cheapest item is a smart option because you can save a lot of money if it works out, even if it doesn't, you've learned something.

Looks like the candidates supported by Trump didn't perform well this time.

Can't see any problems, why define reality and fantasy mode, screw reality. Hahaha.

The red pill/manosphere way is really a very narrow way of looking at the potential of a man. However since we all got a bit of this weak programming growing up, a lot of men don't possess the ability to look outside of the red pill mindset. Therefore we can't choose to be happy unless we get a taste of the superior man stuff. Looking outside is just so damn difficult.

I think that the questions you listed are definitely very good ones for contemplation. Eventually some of the events in your life really need to be observed and thought through again. However your emotions are also very very real, and unfortunately your emotions are based on the images in your mind, not the actual truth. Your emotions are based on what you think happened in the past, they are based on your perspective alone. Although changing how you see the past or changing the images that show up in your mind is the ultimate solution in the long run, you also have to dive into what you are feeling right now and get a look at the core issue. Because obviously your emotions are trying to tell you something.

Maybe it isn't a big deal as you imagine even if your parents did find out.

Why are you afraid of your parents finding out? Also, isn't is possible to hide your notebook without them finding the contents within?

@A_v_E @Surfingthewave Totally agree with your perspectives. However the reason I believe Leo made this decision is because Leo's business needs to survive, and he should keep all the value generated here on his platform and not someone else's. And this is his site so he can really kick people out, doesn't really matter whether those folks deserve to be banned or not. They're just doing something that Leo said he would ban in the first place.

Totally agree with @Tristan12 The monster is you, it is you who hates yourself. Perhaps you feel this monster exists, only because deep down inside you don't want to admit that the "monster" is actually just you. The monster desperately wants to become something else and get totally different results in life. However the real you doesn't have the energy and know-how to change, the monster cannot accept this. Therefore you're basically fighting yourself unconsciously, where one part of you just cannot accept certain parts of yourself, and the other doesn't possess the capability to transform/change and is getting beat up as a result. To kill the monster, you have to love it, which is actually accepting yourself fully. You could probably begin by questioning the "monster" for what reasons it is mad and wants to beat you. Question the monster emotionally, try to feel into how the monster feels and what is motivating it to do this to you.

It feels like what you've been through with your father's abusive behavior has allowed your subconscious to build up defense mechanisms, and with these defenses, sometimes your mind would switch to this detect and analysis mode where you are basically just searching for any presence of danger. You're not able to allow your true emotions to flow when you're in this mode. I would suggest therapy for this, although sometimes it takes a long time (and a bit of money) to find the right therapist for you. There are like many schools of therapy, and even when you've found the right type for yourself, you may also need someone who can really understand you for them to explain your condition to you. Hopefully you've already found a suitable therapist. The emotions you have built up inside you cannot be understood and explained easily, and to release those negative energies, you need a suitable channel. Then when you've relaxed after expressing those negative emotions in some way, you need a conscious method to turn off those defense mechanisms. I would also recommend the teaching of Teal Swan, you could check out her Youtube channel and see if some of her methods work for you.