mandyjw

I'm sorry, but no one told Martin Luther King that he had a racism shadow to work on. Sometimes when you are actually a member of a group that isn't being seen or heard you have to speak up. Of course the US is ready for black male president, still not for a woman president. So what do we get instead? Trump. "Grab em' by the pussy." That's what they all want, right? Otherwise, they are just ugly butch lesbians. There's a massive collective shadow about letting women have the upper hand. Or even a say.

The original didn't have "of course clue him in" added. And I've seen the same thing here said before.

That is most definitely NOT the case. Honest to God, this is absolutely surreal that you would say this on a public forum. This goes against everything women have worked so hard for decades to secure. In the not too distant past rape within marriage wasn't illegal. This place is supposed to be about progress, actualization. Maybe that was just MY fantasy. Apparently it's only about progress for those with XY chromosomes.

Pick your absolute favorite show. Make time for it. Drop the guilt. Pick the book you absolutely want to read the most. Make time for it. Find a zoom meeting or a group for something you're really interested in, make time for it.

I a door you.

“You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there's still going to be somebody who hates peaches.” - Dita Von Teese

Ego thinks it's a thing so it's constantly fucking stuff up. It thinks it sees other things as they are and how they are. Little does it know that what it thinks it knows is already past, dead and gone. It killed it. So it fears being past, dead and gone, because it already IS that, creating that, covering over the immutable, immortal, actuality of its true Identity. You can experience that when you surrender to life, things work out amazingly well, and things that really didn't are seen as actually working out too. It's a lot more surprising that we can live with that misconception than without it. "Therefore I say unto you, Be not anxious for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than the food, and the body than the raiment? Behold the birds of the heaven, that they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; and your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are not ye of much more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit unto [a]the measure of his life? And why are ye anxious concerning raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: yet I say unto you, that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. - Jesus

What do you want from life? Who do you want to be? If you could have your dream job, position or business what would it be? Where do you want to go? What do you want to experience, see, do, feel? Start writing it all down. Go wild. We don't often do this because we unconsciously resist what we want. Notice the thoughts that resist and let them go. If your deepest fantasy is someone you actually secretly desire, taking you and literally doing all the work, so you don't even have to CONSENT, well, it might point to the fact that you really, really want to give yourself permission to desire and let go of the resistance to those desires. Also, nothing is more powerful or more seductive than a woman who knows what she wants and knows she is worthy of it.

Talking bad about positions of power can be a way of getting others to follow and believe you instead. Not that that's either right or wrong, but a common enemy is a quick shortcut to loyalty.

Everyone and everything you encounter is your spiritual Teacher, and it's all just as admirable as your favorite teacher.

It gets tricky when you think you have something to lose.

Vulnerable? It's just a dream within a dream. If you think it's vulnerable, you're just not lucid. If you think about it, the only reason everyone is so hot and bothered by Leo is that he was the first to be vulnerable. That's what makes a strong leader.

“The way of love is not a subtle argument. The door there is devastation. Birds make great sky-circles of their freedom. How do they learn it? They fall, and falling, they're given wings.” ― Rumi HA! I will use Rumi to make my subtle arguments for me. Oh wait.

, yeah I took it from my journal. Your avatar rocks by the way.

A few months ago, springtime I think.

I dreamed that I was swimming in a hot spring in this desert setting and Leo was there. I was surprised and in wonder of it, and he explained how it worked even though in real life I know how hot springs work and have always wanted to go to one. Under the water was the foundation of some old building. I was amazed by how warm the water was, and loved it. Then it started changing. I started to notice all kinds of dirt in the water, and it got dirty and disgusting as stuff grew in the waters that were getting warmer and warmer as summer came closer. I told Leo that we should move. To the right, somehow, magically, was the swimming hole at the river where my mystical experiences started, which is almost always really cold. Then the dream changed and what the building had been turned into a mystery we really wanted to solve.

@tsuki No but generally people identify with their minds, not their bodies, so that puts the stigma of mental illness on a whole new level of sticky.

In my experience starting with the assumption that you're fundamentally flawed is what prevents people from getting help.

Awesome, don't try too hard to mentally interpret it, just go easy with it and see what resonates with you. Archetypes kind of widen our focus, and put us in a dream/story state. You know how a story can put you to sleep at night? It kind of works like that, except used intentionally they can give us glimpses into the subconscious, or what we are usually so busy coloring over with our real life stories and blaming ourselves for. Over time connections might be made, but maybe not instantly. Just stay curious.

The reason I suggest it is that she is a powerful archetype. What archetypes do is they allow us to look at certain aspects of ourselves, while taking the personal identification out of it. So basically, they promote open mindedness and let us look at things from new angles. They also let us see the light side of something we might see as a flaw or something we are really ashamed of. So I really suggest you look into it for yourself. I never would have been open minded enough but had an experience that I realized the roots of which back into my childhood and a history of behavior I tried to repress, and she helped me to understand that side of myself and the big why behind it. Since then, I've encountered a lot of other people both men and women, saying that she was a big part of their journey to understanding themselves. I think another reason that she is so powerful is that the feminine has been repressed for so long, it makes sense that it would bubble up with wrath, in the strangest of places. Perhaps your psyche? Our psyches don't have walls, as much as we'd like to believe. Sexual fantasies are often so tied in with spiritual clues and symbolism, one can't be separated from the other. I suspect this problem is less personal than you think. Maybe there's something there you can own and embody in a positive light. Like Nahm suggested, work and creative life is also a fantastic place to look. People often get stuck with sexuality when their creativity has no direction or outlet. Sex/creative energy are intimately linked as well.

@Fuku Are you interested in meditation, spirituality, psychology, archetypes at all? If not, disregard this. If yes, look into Kali. https://kashgar.com.au/blogs/gods-goddesses/kali-a-most-misunderstood-goddess https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kali

Going straight for my dreams and creative pursuits in life made the insecurity not come up so much. I had kids which took all my time and energy for a time and simultaneously got deep into spirituality again, (this time outside the walls of Christianity) then got a lot more insight into what was driving those feelings and the misunderstandings of feeling incomplete or needing validation. Realized I'm responsible for making my life fun myself. Realized my nature is to boundlessly love everyone, at heart I'm a Holy Whore, like Mary Magdalene, (that one's a little out there, might need to go on a trip of some kind or other for that one ) and that there was a light core to the dark repressed shadow feelings I was covering over. Realized I'm not evil for wanting to look and feel my best, or if people find me attractive. Realized I'm not failing anyone or lacking when I don't. Realized I'm not actually a mind, a body or a woman, but also I really am. Realized that attraction or desire for something can mean wanting to embody something other than what I think the desire is on its surface level. Don't repress the feelings and don't take them seriously. Guilt and repression drives them. I'm also fortunate to have some male friends who also have only had one long term partner, and we share a lot of the same traits. Seeing the same thing in them helped me to observe the same psychological patterns playing in my head, and I noticed there were certain strengths and weaknesses to being that way and that it was less personal than I felt.

I'm an Abraham Hicks fan, she talks about the importance of being "selfish", and I realized there's no self so, acting Selfishly is counterintuitively good. It's really about taking radical responsibility for your own thoughts, experience and perceptions of things. That's how we best serve the greater good, rather than trying to make our self, fit into the box of what is self proclaimed "good."

No, the opposite, I was saying I did feel that way but donating to an organization helped me let go of those thoughts and feelings, guilt about making and having money, etc.

In my experience this is a very selfish thing to do since once I did it, it helped me let go of guilt I had around money and then I just made a whole lot more of it.