mandyjw

What is faith but neither knowing nor not knowing with an element of love.

Well, you are the only one who can masturbate, since the thought of someone else mentally masturbating is just your own mental activity. You're stuck in your own trap and you are are the master baiter.

Maybe start with the understanding that the activity doesn't bring you enjoyment, but you bring enjoyment to the activity.

Lots of focus on pointlessness in your descriptions. Try to look more at the journey or the discovery. What are you truly seeking to gain as an end goal from these things?

Try to make your food choices from a place of intuition and inspiration. Don't fear or demonize foods, just select what resonates with you. I don't currently do well on a vegetarian diet because I can't digest most sources of plant protein or even eggs. I tried it and decided meat was disgusting. My intuition was like "eat the fucking chicken already" and I was like, "screw you intuition, I'm a high vibrational being!". Then I got kinda fat and really tired. I live in a rural area and there are a lot of amazing opportunities to support local farms, hunting and fishing. I even have a friend who delivers for me from a local farm, it's organic and run by some amazing people. The Native Americans who lived here ate a lot of meat. If you've ever gardened you'll know that cow manure grows vegetables a lot faster and easier than making plant composts. I dunno, balance and harmony isn't so cut and dried.

Too busy trying to decide whether they should screw it or crucify it.

@Persipnei I developed a lot of thought patterns after having my second kid that my partner never helped and I had lost all the joy in my life in this sort of self sacrifice martyrdom for my kids. When you have kids you have to learn to not use them as an excuse for cutting yourself off from the things you want and that's hard when you're the mom because becoming a mother is a shocking transition. It's especially difficult because mothers are expected to give up more that fathers are, and they have the hormonal changes on top of the more severe life transitions. The husband wants the carefree loving wife back, and feels even less like helping or even being around at all because he feels like it's expected and what he wants is to be appreciated. Both come to silently resent each other and may resent the child too. This is so common now because more than ever raising children is such an isolated thing for a couple. Before the community and extended family was a much greater part of raising them and not so much of the burden went directly to the parents. When we can see the bigger picture we can start to see the resentment thought patterns, discuss, forgive and help meet each others needs better. That's just my experience anyway. Good luck.

Awakening really shook my marriage but we came out of it much better than before. Amazing how many judgements and colored perceptions can form over the years of living with someone. Amazing to see that that's not actual. Amazing to keep seeing it every freaking day. lol I have a hunch that this is completely key. What about your perceptions of her changed when your son was born?

Yes, I do understand and I also think that you make an important point. There's a balance, and we don't know what balance is unless we experience or observe an unbalance. I've seen and also lived examples of both. I think certain practices, archetypes, (in my opinion deities are archetypes) systems, symbolism, stories and traditions can be incredibly helpful tools, but a tool is neutral and can be used properly or misused. There was a time when I was so dogmatic about minimalism and being practical that I cut off a lot of the joy inherent in life and when I let it back in a got a bit too crazy trying to own it rather than letting it flow. I think we can only know by feeling for ourselves when we are trying to control too much or when we are indulging too much.

I made some really strong friendships in highschool. I don't get to see them nearly as often but when we do see each other it's just as awesome as it always was.

Nobody or no thing can posses consciousness.

So what do contemplation and love practices lead back to?

Predicting the future implies that there is a real linear time line which is not the case, which is exactly why people can sometimes predicts the future. The future creates the past as much as past creates future. In the case of the dreams Carl Jung mentions, I've had those same recurrent dreams about an unexplored area of my house. I also in real life I bought an old house and gutted a wall where I found a sealed off section and a newspaper so I always wondered if it had to do with the house renovations. I think that our desires predict the future and future discoveries if the desires are somewhat selfless and we allow them. Sometimes dreams show desires to us.

Language Latin lingua "tongue," also "speech, language," from PIE root *dnghu- "tongue."

It's a common habit of the mind to focus on problems rather than well being.

Right now I love you like I love a road construction crew that's holding up traffic while they're making sure the bridge is safe on a day that I'm running late for an appointment. Annoyance, love, appreciation, no difference unless you think there is.

Yeah it's a book of conversations, and that's why I meant, he didn't write it and I'm not sure if he titled it. Just wanted to point out that it's an amazing book regardless of the title.

Have you read "I Am That"? Cause he literally didn't even write it.

One step at a time. Don't get ahead of yourself. Important things take care of themselves and the unnecessary things fall away. Mediation, exercise and good diet goes a long way. Also using a timer and focusing on doing what needs to be done in small time increments can really help since focus is so off sometimes.

I'm only interested in advice from other kids about how I can be more a kid. But they don't give advice, cause they're just kids without thinking about what they are. What's the difference between experience and the thought of an experience? How do you experience feeling? Can you experience feeling yesterday? Or can you think about what you felt yesterday?

@electroBeam We're flipping back and forth on perspectives and absolute/relative levels so fast, I can't follow anymore. We're hacking our limited perspective of the character in this story to a greater one of the Author of the story. But there is no actual author outside of us, just characters and the creative Love or knowing Awareness that is the Author. So how does the character guide himself after the realization that his ultimate being is that of the Creator/Author and his reality is not? By feeling. By awareness of feeling. The story is written out of love. It's too Good to be true. Truth is Love.

Ok, yeah, I'm with you there. Suffering is the delusion. Just like identifying and suffering for being male or female, young or old is. There's pain, there's males and females and different aged people. There's the facts and then there's the meaning and suffering is something that comes from choosing a meaning that's wrong and not aligned with love and mistaking it for fact. No you don't. You don't want to know everyone's intimate life story of the details about their sex lives. You don't want to become an expert on the anatomy of caterpillars. You want to know specific things chosen based on the importance you've given these things based on how they make you feel. Ralston, Parsons, Ramajii don't know anything you don't project on them. Nobody possesses any knowledge. We make them up and some story about what they know. No one can make anyone else understand anything. No one can give you a truth you didn't ask for. You cannot find the answer to a question you've never asked. No one wants to keep seeking or stop seeking. You cannot do either of those things. You cannot find something that you believe to be lost. Why did God create the universe and then stop to rest on the 7th day? There's no rest unless something is created first. There's no such thing as rest if no action is taken first to rest from. Action and rest depend upon each other. Just like search and finding.

I personally find good conversations and debates absolutely satisfying. I want my heart to keep beating and the sun to keep shining but I rarely think of that. So do I actually want it or not? What makes you think or feel that, that I'm just regurgitating someone else's words or don't have it figured out and think I do? You want me to show or to point out to me the lack of my own realization somehow, for what, why? What do you get out of that? Why this obsession with pain? Love is literally too good to be true, so I must hang on to my suffering and make something of it? One of my Christian friends recently shared this absolutely gruesome detailed account of exactly how Christ was crucified, so that Christians can feel so blessed, is that the kind of religion you practice too?

You can wage a war between love and truth if you'd like, but you'd just be fighting yourself. You don't want knowledge, you want the end of knowing and the feeling of I Know that comes with it. But that process will never stop. It won't stop with molecules, you'll never find your essential building blocks as a separate thing for you to be aware of and say you "know". You've always been seeking a feeling and that feeling of what you seek is all you've ever been. Not a particular feeling but feeling itself. Knowledge chased back to its source is awareness itself, awareness is complete Knowing or Allowing of everything, which is none other but Love.

I was ice skating on a pond when I was a kid and to show off stepped over the line my mom told me not to cross. My foot immediately went through the ice. Always wondered why other people could say things, do things, eat junk that I couldn't without feeling miserable. Thought there was something wrong with me. I think that sometimes what we think of as our surroundings act in a way to remind us of what it is that we really want, and not just what we thought we wanted in the moment.