mandyjw

This is how I cut them. Cut the whole thing in half length wise after cutting off the top. Then cut the halves in half again. Then cut out a strip for the core if you don't eat that part (makes your mouth hurt sometimes). Then cut off the peel from the quarters and slice.

Well, rejecting pain medicine would be "hard core". Pain medicine is not human, and not separate from you, but if you think Truth is hard core, I guess you better stick to what you think is hard core or you might miss it. Would be a shame if you missed out on an opportunity to suffer and had to suffer for it later. Man, how would you forgive yourself? Rough.

The entire story of your life was born out of inspiration, you are sheer inspiration. So when you align with inspiration no matter in what form it seems to come, the misunderstandings you had or traumas are seen from the author's point of view, which is inspiration. JK Rowling was inspired to impose Voldemort on Harry Potter. There is no Harry Potter. You are your own author. There is no authority. No imposition.

So if you ARE Consciousness, there's no conscious of yourself. Duality collapses. Self conscious doesn't just mean anxious and shy, it means you're conscious of yourself, which means you're thinking about yourself. So any thought you have of yourself is a self conscious thought. So for example, if I eat an entire chocolate bar and feel fat and like I have no discipline, I'm self conscious.

Don't dig. Go for your dreams, and focus on what inspires you most. Often when we do blockages come up and we may want to avoid them. Don't avoid, but keep going for what inspires you, seeing the world through eyes of love. When you're ready to look it head on you will, with eyes of love. That's how huge misunderstandings about ourselves are seen and let go of. We never solve problems by seeking them out because they never were "our" problems.

What's the difference between being conscious of yourself and being self conscious?

Well, if you put the devil up to the mirror it reads "lived". Or evil/live I guess the survival of the devil or the body is just all in what you think is being reflected.

Ok, so there aren't two of me. There's no self and others. I don't have a separate self. Ok. Not two. Got it. No me, yay! I was such a fucking bitch anyway, Glad I'm gone. Phew. Such a relief. Oh, ok, wait. Hold the phone. I'm the Devil now? And I have to stop being the Devil cause God wins and I want to win too. So I need to stop being the devil and be God instead. But the devil and God are two right? And I'm not two? So confused.

Have you tried gratitude journaling and affirmations? Also you can try setting a timer to focus on the task and then taking a break to do something you find really fun when the timer goes off.

What exactly do you mean by devilry? Why should devilry be avoided? What is there to gain by avoiding devilry?

One of the tendencies of religious beliefs is to demonize "the flesh" (term from Christianity), for example demonizing sexual urges, greed, gluttony, etc. This can often end up in the sense in someone that "I am bad", "I am a waste of space and resources" ( sometimes results in environmental activism), "I am dirty" and results in a general sense of shame and then a drive to work to overcome and prove oneself in various ways. Could be becoming famous, rich, highly esteemed, enlightened, whatever. "I" trying to rid myself of the problem of myself is the problem. Not the "I" of "the flesh" or the animal I tried to overcome in my belief that we were two separate "me"s, but my own disgust with my own self.

Have you tried stream of consciousness writing? Just writing whatever comes to your head, even if it's the word "fork" 200 times? Or going out for a walk or a run? Both of those techniques are great when you need to clarify your thoughts. I know it's tough because to identify what you need and to get help you have to be able to communicate it. Hope things improve soon, hang in there. Share more of what you're feeling or experiencing here if you can.

Well, yeah that's sort of the joke. There is a direct experience of the body but it doesn't have boundaries so your idea body doesn't line up with it very well. We try to make it line up though. ?

You have the power to change your focus and your perspective. The magic of life is that until we change this our outer circumstances won't change, and if we force change they follow us wherever we go. Start to see others and yourself as you want to see them. You can't expect yourself to do this all of a sudden. It starts with basic self care, which means making your mood and happiness the priority. Make a list of things you really enjoy doing (they can be small things, like reading a web comic, looking at art you love, music, etc) and make a point to do three a day. Notice how you see your sister when you're in a fantastic mood. Notice how you see her differently when you're not feeling good. Notice that your sister hasn't changed but your perspective has. Train yourself even when everything seems bleak and miserable to find one thing of beauty and focus on it. I guarantee you that there is some quality in someone in your town that is worth focusing on and truly appreciating. The better your mood and the more you look out for your own mood the easier and easier it is to find these things.

The Devil knows better than anyone that banning something only makes it more appealing, so if the Devil banned God wouldn't that make him God? ?

There's a difference between the direct experience of your body and thoughts about your body.

@charlie cho Yeah, just be aware that you love the goal for how it makes you feel now, not as a hope for future salvation dependent upon the success of it. Funny how when we are in a funk and can't see clearly we interpret seeing through the illusion and suffering of self as a desire to kill ourselves. ? I know you mean it as a joke here, but what you said is profound. Who wants to kill who? It's the duality, the split, the self judging the self as if there were TWO selves that you want to dissolve, or heal. Healing is complete dissolution of a problem. The desire to heal ourselves and the desire to get rid of ourselves are the same... BUT feel and are interpreted very differently depending on how off track we are from the actual Love and healing that we really are. There already aren't two, so how can we possible judge ourselves, or worry about ourselves? We can't and when we try it feels awful, because we've completely diverted from the truth of what we are. It's mysterious how a desire to heal beyond the kind of healing our mind recognizes as possible could come out as hypochondria. And a desire to heal the split between one's true self and one's thoughts of oneself can come out as the desire for suicide, sort of like in the example of Eckhart Tolle.

If it wasn't for Hitler I wouldn't be here as both my Grandparents lives were significantly altered by WW2. You can't take away one thing and not all other things. So if I create a me that really exists I must create a past story of Hitler to explain it all.

Re-write this post, except from a perspective that is trusting yourself, looking forward and speaking about what you want, not about what you don't want or how you're judging yourself and failing yourself and working against yourself. Heck, reread this post now and tell me how you feel. How did it feel to read that? Learn to speak, think and focus on what you want, not what you don't want. Not because you should, but because of how it feels. This is minimalism at it's finest. It's ok to write out the bad stuff but do it with the intention of getting it and out so you can focus on the good, on what you do want. Abraham Hicks is a powerful teaching for retraining yourself to do this.

I know what you're saying, for example, if I eat much sugar I often feel terrible after. But I discovered with diet and everything else that focusing on how I want to feel is what actually works and makes me happy, not focusing on the stuff I want to avoid and demonizing it. There's a lot to learn from stage blue, as the mind patterns are still very capable of functioning in us. It's the same tendency of the mind to create a group of people it's "above" by following or processing a certain knowledge or moral code, that it uses in order to avoid the suffering that it projects the people in that OTHER group of people have. Most Christians believe that they are above the world of sinners, and that they are protecting themselves from suffering by having these beliefs. Many people seeking enlightenment often do the same thing, they think that their wholistic knowledge and open mind will save them from suffering in the same way. All of this empowers the mind and beliefs rather than diffusing them. The thought of an open mind is not really the experience of an open mind. Having an open mind is realizing the difference between a thought and the reality of the situation. Your awareness itself is already completely unconditionally allowing and open. Thoughts create or limit. You can tell by how a thought feels if it's creating, or limiting. Becoming more aware in general of how thoughts feel is going in the direction of truly being open minded, rather than trying to use a thought (which is not aware) to try to control another thought. So now that we know what we want, we want enlightenment because of the way it feels, we start to pay much more attention to feeling itself. Feeling leads us right back to awareness and also is guidance that helps us to align our thoughts. Feeling or awareness is no longer a thought trying to control another thought, or a thought trying to get rid of thought, but openness. It means your questioning the nature of thought itself. I mean are you, or have you just assumed thought is bad and you want to get rid of thoughts? Or are you questioning what thought really is and questioning your own relationship to your own thoughts? Do you think the color red or feel the color red? Or both? Is perception thought or feeling? Can you separate thought and feeling? Specific feelings come and go like thoughts, but feeling itself leads right to awareness itself, which is the unchanging element of everything you experience.

@zeroISinfinity It's a joke. I don't believe morality is immoral, because if I did, then I would be believing in morality. Irony, hypocrisy, etc. Ha ha

So you are "bad", and you need to act good so you won't suffer. OMG, you're a Christian! Avoiding sins of the flesh I see. Just teasing. Sort of. You want to feel good. You've never wanted anything for any other reason because you thought it would make you feel good. Now you're whittled down things you wanted and now you're questioning thought itself. What is the relationship between thought and feeling?

You know the dance like no one's watching cliche? Ever experienced a "dance like no one's watching" kind of moment when you were "on" or in flow or inspired? It's a sort of surrendering to a flow that's intensely creative and aware but not aware OF itself, like we are when we are concerned about our performance.

But you didn't answer the question. Because you don't want to act like an animal? Why not what are you afraid of? What's the opposite of that, is that what you want? What do you really want to gain that you think you'll gain by controlling your mind?