mandyjw

Sometimes we tend to think that we need comparison for love. Love is not two in the experience of it. In the thought of it, there can be the duality of love and hate. So we think we need to love one thing and not another. For example I may believe that my hatred towards brussel sprouts actually solidifies and strengthens my love toward carrots. When in reality when I'm actually loving carrots there's no thought of brussel sprouts. Or carrots even.

@Loving Radiance What rails? I don't see any rails. Ok, I'll contribute something helpful. This blew my mind on the subject of memory. "When an object, which is simple an appearance in Consciousness, is present, its subsequent recollection is obviously not yet present. It is non-existent. Likewise when the recollection, which is simply a thought in Consciousness, takes place, the original object is no longer present. It is non-existent." In other words, two objects cannot appear in Consciousness at the same time. When one is present the other is not, and vice versa. How then can a non-existent object be remembered? it cannot. An object is never remembered. It is in fact a third thought which apparently connects the second thought, the recollection, with the first thought, the object. And when the third thought is present, neither the object nor its recollection is present. The third thought is therefore a concept that does not relate to an experience. Time and memory are apparently created with that third thought, but have no existence apart from that thought." -Rupert Spira, The Transparency of Things

@Loving Radiance Like he knows what you had for lunch but only if it's really really important to no one in particular.

@commie You're right, stress is like having blinders on to all the opportunities around. You don't have to know what you want to do right now. Make the intention to find what you're really inspired about. Start to become very aware of things around you and see what you really gravitate towards. Often it starts out as something small.

@commie Stressing out about stress is stress. You can't war against war without starting a new war. You have to determine the opposite of what you don't want to feel, and focus on whatever makes you feel happy or at peace.

Everybody deillusions.

Choose to do something you want to do so much that stress pales in comparison with how thrilled you are to be doing it.

Consciousness got you, you no got it.

@Opo Weird! I should probably have my iron levels tested at some point.

Will never happen. No one is better than another.

It's beyond curses and gifts and duality. Harry Potter is at the same time both cursed and gifted. So is the hero of every good story. You're like Harry Potter, and life is the same. Go beyond thought, go beyond duality and you enter the creative realm of the Author, not the character. Characters can die, Author cannot.

What you reject always comes back around to you, you have no control over just how. Life is a gift, you can reject it and make everyone who does understand what a gift you really are extremely sad, but "you'll" be given the chance to understand again and again. It's like getting Rickrolled by the Universe. What you desire to see and understand is the gift of your true nature, and realize it's so good it can never die anyway. If you kill yourself, you obviously missed the lesson of this, because you believed there was a you that you could gain something by riding yourself of.

Instant pots are the best!

Can you imagine of all the things there are to want in the world and believe in yourself to the point of obtaining them, mansions, fame, etc, that if someone told you that you could transcend suffering that you'd actually really believe it was possible? Can you imagine a more entitled, ridiculous, high reaching, lofty goal than that? Suffering is the indication that something is off. We use our mental frameworks to avoid that guidance and then we call it suffering and we believe it to be inherent in life. We avoid the real message and ignore the suffering, assuming that we already know how things are, how we are, how other people are. You (Awareness) are not two separate things. So of course, you cannot look back at yourself and compare yourself in judgement because you are not two. Any thought or perspective that you hold that looks back on your Self and finds it lacking in anyway is not aligned with Truth or Love. You know this because it feels awful. But because we DON'T know this in our ignorance, we ignore it, and we call it suffering.

In the moment, there's alternate nostril breathing or various breathing exercises. I would also consider yoga, especially yin yoga if you can find the right postures for you, and also maybe massage. I think that regular practice of such things and especially meditation is key to having the tools right there when you need them or sometimes even preventing the response in the first place. Good luck!

That's how exercise and meditation already works. Go for a 3 mile run, you'll have a runner's high for hours. After a while running isn't short term suffering anymore.

@nistake I'm sure he just meant "gay" as in happy, because books make us all very gay.

@Leo Gura Two lamps are no longer innocent again.

I like the Lundberg Wild Blend Rice kind of rice, white rice makes me hungry and meh. I love apples, wild blueberries, green beans, spinach, zucchini, cucumbers, grassfed butter, sardines in moderation, celery juice in the mornings, oatmeal, pumpkin, carrots, sweet potatoes. Occasionally walnuts and brazil nuts.

I feel like I've been spending my life trying to get rid of myself. And that's the split and the original issue, I can't get rid of myself. Like Eckhart Tolle's awakening insight "I cannot live with myself anymore." Then, "What are there two of me, one that cannot live with itself?" To someone who is trying to self actualize, he knows he doesn't want to be where he is, and his hope is in the future. But sometimes you move so far away from your center or your Source that the hope for future is lost and the sense then becomes "I can't live with myself", "I want to kill myself". There have been a lot of nights post awakening that I've gone to bed and thought "I just want to fall asleep and never wake up." Also a lot of days of that I'm just so fucking grateful I could cry all day about what "I've" discovered and I feel like the possibilities could keep me living happily for thousands of lifetimes. Like Nahm says above so profoundly, there aren't two of you and so you cannot look back upon yourself and see yourself lacking in any way and not have it feel off. I've learned that none of thoughts when I feel off are worth considering. I try to remember to only pay attention to them when they feel good. Seem so simple, but I still forget and find myself where I don't want to be, (there are two of me again.) I made this visual to help me understand how this works and to wake up when it's happening and realize when I need to disengage from thought or make a conscious effort to move my thoughts up the emotional scale closer to the center. It also helps to make a list of things that raise your mood, (music, web comics, comedians, walk in the sunlight, look at art, etc), make the list when you feel good. When you notice your thoughts are self referential and feel bad, refer to the list, pick a thing and do it even if you don't feel like it.

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They are fun words for you because you grew up in a certain environment. If you grew up with God and the Devil as your main framework of life and reality they might have much heavier connotations. My mom actually suspected that Arnold Schwarzenegger was the anti-Christ when he ran for office. I laugh now, but it's no joke to grow up that way.

Also, very important if you eat roasted beets, do not be alarmed if your pee turns pink.

I sometimes have unrealistically high expectations for people and am short on patience with things that trigger me. I sometimes get so wrapped up in the flow of writing/reading here that I can't snap out of it quickly when I need to and do what I need to do. I sometimes project what I believe/assume about a person and make all kinds of crazy assumptions about them. Sort of like I thought Nahm was a woman for months but I do the same with pretty much every user. I then read what they say and interact through a filter of memory and bias and my emotional state at the time. Once I've seen your avatar/screenname, I've already judged you and already have expectations. Sorry.