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You still better friggin get her a Mother's day gift you ungrateful brat. What is your body to you right now? The concept, "I will be free when"... is bondage.

That's why I said Imma gonna show up at the best moment just to crash the party.

@Kamran Can you get canned foods? They aren't the best for you, but are good in a pinch. Canned sardines, canned wild caught salmon ( limit these, cause mercury), canned beans, canned lentils, canned soups, canned vegetables, etc.

So I can stop caring about politics now too?

Maybe you attach different connotations to the word "sensitivity". ?‍♀️ sensitive (adj.) late 14c., in reference to the body or its parts, "having the function of sensation;" also (early 15c.) "pertaining to the faculty of the soul that receives and analyzes sensory information;" from Old French sensitif "capable of feeling" (13c.) and directly from Medieval Latin sensitivus "capable of sensation," from Latin sensus, past participle of sentire "feel perceive" (see sense (n.)). https://www.etymonline.com/word/sensitive?ref=etymonline_crossreference

I found pigeon and fire log yin yoga poses really helpful for back pain all day and helping me feel better when I mediate. I do some other stretches but those are the ones I hold the longest and that help the most. I stretch lightly in the morning before meditation and more intensely after running. I tried to do a 30 split challenge a couple years ago and got really far, but it made my hips feel really unnaturally lose and weird while running so I stopped. I think my running habit might be incompatible with it or something.

Sensitivity, Consciousness and Awareness all go hand in hand.

She has a really awesome career, and many women often have a lot more hurdles to jump in that area, and already are very aware that they may not be taken seriously. You can't know exactly what the trigger was. Could have been a combination of things.

@Mason Riggle ? I guess it all depends on what you choose to focus on. Wisdom belongs to no one. The illusion of contrast is what makes it all so damn entertaining though.

I've intuitively done a lazy version of this my entire life by covering part of my nose. There's apparently a super intentional way to do it though.

You're really good at picking diamonds out of a pile of turds.

So someone in the comments is saying that Sam Harris talked with Jim Newman but you have to subscribe to Sam Harris' thingy to hear it. I bet it's a riot. Teachers use the terms differently. Some use consciousness as describing, subject/object, perceiver/perceived consciousness and others speak of Consciousness as Awareness. The Nature of Consciousness by Rupert Spira is an amazing book. Highly recommend it, will answer all your questions and more.

Thought says sensation is a distraction, thought says sensation is good or bad. Sensation never says that.

18:10ish "Oh, ok so.. how long was your surgery?" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Believing that love is outside you and separate from you, and so you cut yourself off from your own feeling, inspiration, intuition, and Source of Love itself in order to get it.

@Zigzag Idiot You ok? Happy to talk if you want at any point.

Gaslighting is a form of vague lying. Truth is power and the only reason anyone avoids it is in favor of lies is fear and insecurity which comes out of misunderstanding. The lie is a way of perpetuating misunderstanding. While it appears that the person telling the lie DOES know how things really are and that can be infuriating, misunderstanding is still the name of the game. Both parties are focusing on their own inadequacy. The difference is that in identification one looks like the abuser and one looks like the victim, but those judgements are very short sighted. People deny and reflect different behaviors out of fear. Some become aggressive, some become shy and passive in response. It's as impersonal as a color appearing as the color that it reflects or rejects, all colors are born out of and seen in white light, in all potential of the separate colors. One of the major issues that comes up in communities like this is that encouragement to drop what we know in order to let in a deeper Truth, Love or clarity often is first judged or passed off as a kind of gaslighting or avoidance. It's not. You, only YOU, know it for yourself by how it feels. The whole point is to connect YOU with your own inner power, which turns out to be quite impersonal and therefore... unlimited. We don't see clearly or allow this power unless we are in a relaxed, allowing states. You could say that sitting to meditate is gaslighting yourself, but if you've done it for very long you've seen it as an opportunity to let insight and new perspectives in that truly heal rather than perpetuate the feeling of inadequacy that brought the gaslighting. When you pay attention to how you feel, you go immediately for the healing you seek and you also allow the specific healing you seek to find you. Concepts of abuser and abused prevent this. Healing is wholeness, if you keep defining the separation, you don't allow the healing to occur on its own. That doesn't mean that we don't sometimes hold people accountable or call them out. We do. But your own inner view of the situation and your role in it is critical. Healing does not come from believing that your relief comes from the other's suffering. There's no eye for an eye in healing, just two lost eyes. You're thoughts are more powerful than you realize. You are more powerful than you realize.

@Keyhole I honestly don't know what you're referring to, fill me in please? Ok, I checked out your journal. I promise I hadn't listened to your vlog and the video had nothing to do with it, it's just my own recent insights and experience. If you want to talk more I'm happy to talk it over in PM since you don't want responses in your journal.

I know how that feels. Leo's Spiral Dynamics series was really key to helping me let go of the feeling of anger and isolation. I was raised in a stage blue culture, inundated with stage blue religion and I really couldn't stand it and felt alone most of my childhood, adolescence and early adulthood. After I felt like I could understand them better, and understand the bigger picture process better, I started looking at commonalities and things to appreciate rather than differences, and there were so many. Turns out I had built walls of isolation and differences in a lot of ways other than that. Completely relate to this too. Again, as you start to look for things to love in others and yourself it feels less like "why me God?" and more like sheer inspiration. Feeling good and focus are the same here. Sometimes you gotta stand up and say something, and it feels a whole lot better to do that then stand silent. Even if you upset some people, you're less likely to feel it as if it were personal.

Funny that oneness is in the word itself, aloneness, alloneness One is the first separation and definition, cause you gotta have one before you can get to two. It's both separate and not separate. One is something, not nothing. All other numbers are variations of one, two is two ones, three is three and so on.

This book is SO good on this subject. https://www.amazon.com/Transparency-Things-Contemplating-Nature-Experience/dp/1626258805/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=the+transparency+of+things&qid=1612370635&sr=8-1

Wildly different views challenge what you think yourself to be or what you think yourself to know, just like gay or gender fluidity challenges people's identities when they have identified strongly with the gender norms they were taught. Reaction and judgment is all in how you identify yourself. It can manifest in any number of ways, cause you can identify and think in any number of ways.

@allislove

Problem = Challenge? problem (n.) late 14c., probleme, "a difficult question proposed for discussion or solution; a riddle; a scientific topic for investigation," from Old French problème (14c.) and directly from Latin problema, from Greek problēma "a task, that which is proposed, a question;" also "anything projecting, headland, promontory; fence, barrier;" also "a problem in geometry," literally "thing put forward," from proballein "propose," from pro "forward" https://www.etymonline.com/word/problem Challenge = Fun. fun (n.) "diversion, amusement, mirthful sport," 1727, earlier "a cheat, trick" (c. 1700), from verb fun (1680s) "to cheat, hoax," which is of uncertain origin, probably a variant of Middle English fonnen "befool" (c. 1400; see fond). https://www.etymonline.com/search?q=fun challenge (v.) c. 1200, "to rebuke," from Old French chalongier "complain, protest; haggle, quibble," from Vulgar Latin *calumniare "to accuse falsely," from Latin calumniari "to accuse falsely, misrepresent, slander," from calumnia "trickery" (see calumny). From late 13c. as "to object to, take exception to;" c. 1300 as "to accuse," especially "to accuse falsely," also "to call to account;" late 14c. as "to call to fight." Also used in Middle English with sense "claim, take to oneself." https://www.etymonline.com/search?q=challenge So if you accept the objection, you canceled it out as if it never was, I guess.

Random vs structured is a duality, so it's a thought and not actual. Time is a thought, and cause and effect are thoughts in a dualistic world, which you create and place yourself in, in thought. It's going beyond all of these things, seeing them for what they are and knowing that you are not that, not a thing caught in time, but the awareness of the thoughts that make time seem to appear... as another thought. That Awareness which IS you paradoxically opens "you" up to breakthroughs, as it is the breakthrough. You are already completely open and susceptible. Problem is, you think this is a problem, that you are a problem, that has a problem.