mandyjw

If you have the mindset of focusing on getting rid of all your flaws and issues, you won't get very far because that is in itself an old pattern of thinking of securing a better future of becoming more perfect. If you focus on how you do want to feel, what thoughts you do want to entertain and allow yourself space to let go of thoughts and connect with being, you'll purify or burn up everything that isn't serving you much faster with less drama. "Previous thinking track" is a thought that occurs now. In meditation, or with mindfulness we see the hilarious irony of how thoughts seem to create past and future, problems, etc, but actually don't ever touch the space that we already are.

Having had two newborns, it will if you think it will, it won't if you think it won't.

Dedicated to my cake... I love that we make a wish when we blow out the candles. Extinguished. Granted. Ohhh....

I have this sense of obligation or commitment that I have to be there FOR people. Yesterday I looked up the etymology of commitment and it means literally we come together to throw and let go of shit. commit (v.) late 14c., "to give in charge, entrust," from Latin committere "to unite, connect, combine; to bring together," from com "with, together" (see com-) + mittere "to release, let go; send, throw" (see Seems funny. Rather than authentically enjoying my relationships I often turn them into some sort of burden. It was such a great thing to be able to leave my family to spend a weekend alone. burden (n.1) "a load, that which is borne or carried," Old English byrðen "a load, weight, charge, duty;" also "a child;" from Proto-Germanic *burthinjo- "that which is borne" (source also of Old Norse byrðr, Old Saxon burthinnia, German bürde, Gothic baurþei), from PIE root *bher- (1) "to carry," also "to bear children." suffer (v.) mid-13c., "allow to occur or continue, permit, tolerate, fail to prevent or suppress," also "to be made to undergo, endure, be subjected to" (pain, death, punishment, judgment, grief), from Anglo-French suffrir, Old French sofrir "bear, endure, resist; permit, tolerate, allow" (Modern French souffrir), from Vulgar Latin *sufferire, variant of Latin sufferre "to bear, undergo, endure, carry or put under," from sub "up, under" (see sub-) + ferre "to carry, bear," from PIE root *bher- (1) "to carry," also "to bear children." Funny that I dealt with this terrible regret of having kids right before discovering LOA and the awakening. We believe that we are born, we believe consciousness resides in body. We believe we give birth, that consciousness resides in other bodies. This never happens, it never happens at any point. But it is so in thought. And so we believe we must bear... carry. Oh. There is nothing more amazing than feeling baby kicks, feeling from inside what you think is "your body", a whole new life that has it's own volition. volition (n.) 1610s, from French volition (16c.), from Medieval Latin volitionem (nominative volitio) "will, volition," noun of action from Latin stem (as in volo "I wish") of velle "to wish," from PIE root *wel- (2) "to wish, will" (see will (v.)). Related: Volitional. Will, desire, love, freedom, I just wrote the term "resistant thought". As if the THOUGHT has the power to resist. Oh. Ohhhhhh. Oh. Oh! I told my husband, "I am completely, totally obsessed with etymology. I never saw this coming. I wonder what the etymology for coming is." "Just make sure you spell it right." Oh, no. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Second_Coming The Daily BlaspheMe would be a great name for a blog. Oh wait. blaspheme (v.) "to speak impiously or irreverently of God and sacred things," mid-14c., from Old French blasfemer "to blaspheme" (14c., Modern French blasphémer), from Church Latin blasphemare (which in Late Latin also meant "revile, reproach," hence blame (v.)), from Greek blasphemein "to speak lightly or amiss of sacred things, to slander," from blasphemos "evil-speaking" (see blasphemy). Sacred things are LIGHT. We are the light. How could you not take it lightly? So coming back to this, haha. One of my friends has struggled with infertility for years and finally got pregnant through IVF. Something happened, and she ended up going to a far away major hospital, and having him prematurely. I think he'll be ok, but he is only 3 pounds. My other friend flew up here Saturday after not being able to visit in two years and called me today, her dog escaped the fence and is missing again in the city, in another state. Should she skip her long awaited visit home and fly back, all the search and rescue groups will think she's awful if she doesn't? And in both cases, burden, birth, light. Came home from making a video and my dog ate the rest of my birthday cake. You can have your cake and eat it too. But you were never born.

@Terell Kirby @Jakuchu Thank you!

Do you draw, make music, or have any sort of creative interests or outlets currently? If it's at all possible, I'd try to make a self portrait of some kind. Even if you're bad at drawing, do it. Or even in music, if you're a musician. Once you try to consciously create your face, it sort of has this weird way of showing you how you consciously create everything else... everyone else's faces. Finding appreciation, no matter where you can see it helps you see it everywhere else. If you have an obsession with beauty and elegance, it very well may be some sort of buried artistic desire. The suffering comes from misunderstanding the nature of beauty, the deep inherency, (a given inheritance) of it . Beauty is nothing that we can judge, or own, it is only recognized in the moment. That's all it ever is. We aren't granted beauty, we can't lose beauty, or be born without it, we create it in the very act of recognizing it. It is deeply, inherently, our recognition of Self.

We often think that we suffer because other people need to change, but by thinking others need to change, we solidify our belief that we should stay the same, which what we are in that moment... is suffering. It's an awful vicious circle, that goes no where.

Giving to others, journaling, meditation, just plain old doing stuff you love.

God is pun-ishing you. Seems there are two. God and you. There aren't two separate things. You have your cake and eat it too. pun (n.) "a Conceit arising from the use of two Words that agree in the Sound, but differ in the Sense" [Addison]; "An expression in which the use of a word in two different applications, or the use of two different words pronounced alike or nearly alike, presents an odd or ludicrous idea" [Century Dictionary]; 1660s (first attested in Dryden), a word of uncertain origin. https://www.etymonline.com/search?q=pun Oh God. Alright, I'm out.

transform (v.) mid-14c., "change the form of" (transitive), from Old French transformer (14c.), from Latin transformare "change in shape, metamorphose," from trans "across, beyond" (see trans-) + formare "to form" (see form (v.)). Intransitive sense "undergo a change of form" is from 1590s. Related: Transformed; transforming. https://www.etymonline.com/word/transform?ref=etymonline_crossreference Because you are already beyond form, it seems that you can transform. Transformation is only possible because you do not actually have a form. Brilliant. Brilliant. Brilliant.

How fucking brilliant, right? It just keeps getting better, and better and better and better, cause it's already so perfect it couldn't POSSIBLY be improved on.

What is self? God doesn't need to turn you into a more loving creature, you are love. You came from love, never left love. Is there a self in love?

Isn't it funny, how we can cause ourselves concern about the very thing we thought would be the means of dropping our concerns? Letting go of and feeling the love for something aren't separate and they aren't at odds. The entanglement is the suffering, you worry, and you worry she worries about you. Let go of the worry, it's always your own.

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The resistance is never to the activity but to the thought about it. See and drop the resistant thoughts. Note that "resistant thought" is a hilarious term I can sneak into my post that you likely won't think twice about. A thought cannot resist. We can entertain thoughts that don't match how we want to feel though. Go straight for the feeling. Drop the thoughts that don't feel good. Aligning with the feeling of the actual desire, which is not any different from the sought fulfillment of the activity or the desired results from the activity, becomes the inspiration that blows the motivation we thought we needed out of the water.

Most of our misunderstandings stem from our forgetting that love is not a thought or condition or something we can have or don't have. You only know love by how it feels. Love feels like love. We trick ourselves into thinking longing is love, or respect/fear giving authority is love. If it doesn't feel like love, it's not love, it's a resistant thought. We are taught that objects, people and circumstances have the power to control our happiness. We believe that they have the power to grant or take away our happiness. When you go directly to the peace and happiness and align with the feeling rather than waiting for circumstances to align to cause it, sometimes circumstances on their own also align, typically in a way more pleasing than we had hoped or expected. Align with feeling first. Often at first, it may look like a step in the wrong direction even. There may be a loss, a letting go. We may find that the object of our desire was deeply symbolic, and not itself the object we desired. However, the fulfillment we seek from it, is already within. What this is is the realization that the subject we are focusing on makes no difference, if we will only put how we feel first and be willing to drop subjects we are pushing against for a time, we are going in the direction of what we want. You get what you want by feeling good, regardless of whether you're directly focusing on the subject, or not, and maintain feeling good whether it comes or not. We came here to grow, to desire more, to create, to transform, the enjoy the process, not to despair in it. Trans-formation. Going beyond form. The fact that things are never fixed as they are, the fact that we are spirit not material is the background and is direct transformation itself. It is that which we desire out of, and it is what we desire. "Whenever your think of Me it is I who am thinking of you Whenever you love Me is is I who am loving you Whenever you long for Me is is I who am longing for you Your desire for happiness is the pull of grace on my heart" - Rupert Spira "What you seek is seeking you." - Rumi You do not get what you want by wanting it bad enough. You already are what you want by wanting it good enough. When we feel bad, we're moving away from what we want. Have you checked out Abraham Hicks? She teaches this on a feeling level that is much more direct than almost anyone else I've come across.

Anytime you react with strong emotion to something you deem outside you, whether with love or hate, anger, fear there's something there for you. Hate, anger, fear, etc is avoidance and will keeping coming around till the love is felt, understood, made aware of as the very Awareness itself.

If you were love, loving, wouldn't it follow that you love love? And if you weren't loving, wouldn't that hurt, because... you love, love! Because you are LOVE!

Definitely not suggesting it's good to ingest. Life-long plant and flower nerd here.

Datura is a prolifically growing wild plant, a weed. It's quite beautiful actually.

Check out Abraham Hicks, and the Law of Attraction. Pretty sure you'll be blown away. Explains attraction, attraction, even attraction.

When a person identifies less with thought and what they believe themselves to be they become more aware of thoughts that do not resonate with them. What they are if they are not the thought of self and all the things attached, is simply pure awareness. You can see the link between being aware of and being sensitive "to". Essentially there is no "to", there is just awareness. However, ironically thoughts of being spiritual or being a highly sensitive person can become part of the identity again, they seem to color over the awareness itself, which is only now and knows no other or no "more than". Thinking of oneself as more sensitive than others can also be an excuse to hold in place misunderstanding and suffering rather than to observe and watch it for what it truly is. However from the personal thought based perspective, does it seem that some people are more sensitive than others to certain things? Yes. However thought is not aware itself. It never knows it is always known. The person who read the previous paragraph and understood it or not, liked it or disliked it, is a thought, that Awareness is aware of. This has ALWAYS been the case and has never been the case, other than now.

Do not act smart, do not act at all unless you want to. Be yourself, whatever that is in the moment, no strings attached, no premeditated tactics. Your tactics for being liked aren't working, you're getting the absolute opposite of what you hope they would result in. What you actually want is the liberation of being yourself. That's what they really want from you too. Basically right now you're putting out this message... "I know I'm smart, but I'd rather be loved than have you think of me as smart, and I know that people don't like smart people because they challenge them to be better. So you say to yourself "I choose love over intelligence", and then you act dumb and try to make them laugh. HOWEVER, you have tricked yourself, you are still actually trying to outsmart them, and you have ACTUALLY chosen intelligence over love. Rather than actually loving yourself, and loving them and trusting them to have their own opinions about you, chips fall where they may, you are trying to outsmart them and control the result. You're using your mind to try to secure love. They sense that you are trying to outsmart them, that you are playing a game. Do you realize that you are withholding the gift your intelligence IS to challenge them? You've got people wrong, they WANT to be challenged! You assume that they do not. They do, even if they don't know it yet. Do we get negative reactions when we challenge people? Certainly! However in the end, we LOVE them for it. We are here to challenge each other. "As steel sharpens steel, so does one friend sharpen another." You are withholding from them, and they see through it. Most importantly you are withholding from yourself.

Essentially, all a religion is is just a language.

This. The word yoga has meant so many different things for so many different people at different times that it really doesn't have much of a meaning anymore. This is the end goal with all word meanings, really, they have the meaning you give them. Some people say true yoga is simply meditation, nonduality, realizing your true nature, etc. Others refer to a spiritual but also physical practice that unites mind and body. Others refer to the different branches practices within the of exercise/stretching meaning of yoga.