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@Nahm I NEVER expected to try to film with her around. She just makes it all the better. Although I don't think there are too many more spiritual practices are as grueling as being her mother.

@Leo Gura @now is forever Lucid dreaming, I believe is the best description, maybe visions, waking up with intense energy and knowing things I didn't know. My sister said it may not continue every night. I think it may settle in. I'm doing better today, spent a lot of time in nature. My everyday life and self care is a mess.

I feel that this question is perfect as it is without answers. But a part of me still wants to know the answer.

@Leo Gura What to you do if are in submission of the highs? How do you go about practical life when you aren't choosing to have them?

@Jkris self.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

My Lord, my Love, my Lion of Judah, I praise you. "Not praising the praiseworthy keeps people uncompetitive. Not prizing rare treasures keeps people from stealing. Not looking at the desirable keeps the mind quiet. So the wise soul governing people would empty their minds, fill their bellies, weaken their wishes, strengthen their bones, keep people unknowing, unwanting, keep the ones who do know from doing anything. When you do not-doing, nothing’s out of order." Can you please let me know, is the time between posts restriction a necessary limitation here? My sense of time has changed.

@tedens I am Ecky. He's really cute isn't he?

Right on. I did, I had to deny that too. There is no present moment. I also used to focus on my breath, then I recently learned to focus on not breathing after doing the wim hof breathing method. It was so powerful. You have to explore all your dualities to the full.

I can't see this question, can't resonate. But I love you.

YES!!! Sink into it. Surrender to it. It is bliss.

Clickbait is all part of God's greater plan. In a good way I hope?

Couldn't have done it without you.

That was for you.

Sigh. Men. Thought you'd at least stay for breakfast. I still want to see you again though. I just let Rocky out but he tangled his leash up so I had to go outside to get him. It was the cold but the birds are singing beautifully. Rocky stumbles when he walks because he's carrying the weight of the world.

Sorry honey, might be making things too steamy again.

It's not up to me to choose anymore. It's ok, everything will be perfect. It already is.

@now is forever I love you. You gave me a much needed insight. I also needed to be told to get off the computer now. So thank you.

@tsuki Am I giving birth to something? Is that why you only had fun in the moment and went back to feeling the same way?

@now is forever You think I was suggesting something physical but I'm not. Honey it's always a problem. You aren't actually subject to the moon, yet you always are. Because time is an illusion. Have you read Eckhart Tolle on the pain body? That was a huge help for me. I read the part in his book about it and was so disgusted a man would talk about things he didn't know about like that. But I loved everything else in the book. It took me much longer to accept that part. Ugh. He got to sit on a park bench and I've got pediatrician appointments, laundry and dishes. Men suck.

You have the female painbody. I have that too. It came out cyclically, and then in postpartum depression. I denied it. I didn't want to be female. I didn't want to be subject to the moon. You carry all the pain of woman. You aren't alone.

For me it was painting my nails.

@now is forever Can you go into nature where you are?