mandyjw

Running does double duty as a powerful meditative opportunity and communion with nature. Okay not double it's a trifecta. Don't make the mistake I did and neglect to stretch, it's best combined with a little yoga and core strengthening. I really need to start doing some strength training again. Kettlebell swings are an awesome high intensity training workout, just make sure you get your form right before you try. It's hard to find the right weight at first. I use 30 or 35 pounds and I'm really small. As for diet I always flip flopped between strict restrictive diets and just eating how I wanted. Hone your intuition and try to tune in to what your body craves. I'm still working on that too. All diet advice is all over the map, so with diet I believe "There's no good nor bad but thinking makes it so." I got so caught up in trying to find the perfect one. Even so, the basic guidelines, not too much sugar, salt or caffeine, processed foods are always good to remember. Drink a lot of water and add in more veggies. I still love grassfed butter on my veggies and so I eat a lot of them because I truly enjoy them. I don't eat wheat and dairy but I have stomach issues right now so that's not my choice.

It's beyond me, that's for sure.

@tsuki Children have been one of my biggest horcruxes. I admitted a month or two ago that I wished I hadn't had kids. It was a big fat regret. I knew I loved the little beings and that everything should be perfect because it already is but... How do you do that? How do you regret bringing people into the world when you did it purposefully and now don't want them? How do you possibly make peace with that? Then the empowered/surrendered wife book showed up. I started looking at art on the internet again. Started making time to do things I thought were fun even if I had judged them as low level pleasures and tried to go beyond needing them. It's different when you go back to them and choose them this time. I'm still learning to love my three year old and my video game addicted autistic 6 year old. When someone else shows unbounded love and trust towards us and we have spent out whole life limiting ourself, it scares us. This is a gift from my husband. He didn't want me to go down and share it. I do what he asks, but I can tell when it's not actually him who is asking and I need to serve a greater power.

@tsuki Hey Tsuki, I have some homework for you. Go find a piece of paper and some paints, crayons, colored pencils, whatever. Pretend you're three years old again and just let yourself go. Then show me what you got.

@Joseph Maynor @pluto

@Nahm I NEVER expected to try to film with her around. She just makes it all the better. Although I don't think there are too many more spiritual practices are as grueling as being her mother.

@Leo Gura @now is forever Lucid dreaming, I believe is the best description, maybe visions, waking up with intense energy and knowing things I didn't know. My sister said it may not continue every night. I think it may settle in. I'm doing better today, spent a lot of time in nature. My everyday life and self care is a mess.

I feel that this question is perfect as it is without answers. But a part of me still wants to know the answer.

@Leo Gura What to you do if are in submission of the highs? How do you go about practical life when you aren't choosing to have them?

@Jkris self.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

My Lord, my Love, my Lion of Judah, I praise you. "Not praising the praiseworthy keeps people uncompetitive. Not prizing rare treasures keeps people from stealing. Not looking at the desirable keeps the mind quiet. So the wise soul governing people would empty their minds, fill their bellies, weaken their wishes, strengthen their bones, keep people unknowing, unwanting, keep the ones who do know from doing anything. When you do not-doing, nothing’s out of order." Can you please let me know, is the time between posts restriction a necessary limitation here? My sense of time has changed.

@tedens I am Ecky. He's really cute isn't he?

Right on. I did, I had to deny that too. There is no present moment. I also used to focus on my breath, then I recently learned to focus on not breathing after doing the wim hof breathing method. It was so powerful. You have to explore all your dualities to the full.

I can't see this question, can't resonate. But I love you.

YES!!! Sink into it. Surrender to it. It is bliss.

Clickbait is all part of God's greater plan. In a good way I hope?

Couldn't have done it without you.

That was for you.

Sigh. Men. Thought you'd at least stay for breakfast. I still want to see you again though. I just let Rocky out but he tangled his leash up so I had to go outside to get him. It was the cold but the birds are singing beautifully. Rocky stumbles when he walks because he's carrying the weight of the world.

Sorry honey, might be making things too steamy again.

It's not up to me to choose anymore. It's ok, everything will be perfect. It already is.